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SOMETIMES THE ONLY REASON WHY YOU WON'T LET GO OF WHAT IS MAKING YOU SAD IS BECAUSE IT WAS THE ONLY THING THAT MADE YOU HAPPY.

She gave herself to everyone. I thought the connection was real, but it was just the idea that I fell in love with.

The woman of my dreams, my best friend, had a miscarriage. We lost our daughter. We drifted apart. She married someone else within a year. Meanwhile, I am left to wonder what life would have been like with our daughter. I've had a terrible time moving forward. Feels bad.

It's been 3 years and I have forgotten her voice and face. But the heartache is still there.

She said she knew a spot...then proceeded to take me to the lowest point of my life.

I'm here at 3:30am. Suffering from depression and hearing this songs and reading your stories. If you need to talk, I'm here. For everyone.

to all the real ones down here. trust me, one day it becomes just a memory like a half faded dream you maybe thought you had. stay strong it'll be alright.

I just came here to hear some relaxing walking around at night music. Hope all you lonely hearts find that special someone who loves you back.

I love my daughter. She’s the light at the end of my dark road, she gives me the strength to go through everyday. She’s there to greet me at the end. I’m so grateful to have her. ❤

Gym therapy, helped me a lot. We had a fight, I packed up her things from my apartment, drove her to her house. We reconciled pretty quickly outside her door, we kissed, we hugged for 5 minutes or at least it felt like 5 minutes. We kissed again, and she told me, "I'll talk to you tomorrow", and she told me that she'd miss me our first night separated. We held hands, I finally let go, told her to have a good night and drove back to my apartment. I found out, that only 1 hour after I dropped her off. She was getting clapped by* her ex. I walked around that night aimlessly, smoking trying to numb the pain

i remember the day when i said "fuck it i am gonna risk it and love her with my whole heart", now i am facing the consequences of that gamble, everything turned out to be a lie except my feelings for her

For her, I was a chapter. For me, she were the entire book.

I see a lot of sadness in this comment section, and i'm here to tell you that you are doing well you are strong and i believe in each and everyone of you, as if i can do it anyone can, trust me it'll get better, even tho its hard to even breath at times and that lingering feeling inside that you can't get rid of no matter what you do, will eventually go away and time may sometimes take sooo long but it'll always be your ally in the long run we may never truly feel the same again but that's what makes these experiences worth living as they shape us to the person we are meant to be. To all of you reading this, i send you my love as i write these few words know that in this right moment some stranger on the internet has thought about you i hope that will give you some kinda comfort. take care and keep going : )

no matter what i do everyone is always moving so fast and i'm always stuck at the same point I guess i'm not built for life

To all the young people in the comments - as someone who is a bit of an old timer, the key piece of advice I can give you is to try to harness a life that isn't entirely based around another person. It's a beautiful thing to truly love someone and experience them in your life to the fullest, but in many cases the comments I've read here seem as though there was (and still is) nothing going on in your life apart from your ex. I'm happily married for many years now and the key difference from my previous relationships when I was younger is that both myself and my spouse have our own lives, goals, ambitions, hobbies and friendships. We always come back into orbit after all this and feel solid enough in our relationship to do this. Hollywood sold you a lie. Romance isn't about being obsessed with that special someone and spending 100% of your time with them. It's about being with a loving co-pilot in your life with whom you share all the same values, goals and aspirations. Best of luck.

The secret is to love yourself before you love someone. Think about this. Would you let something bad happen to the person you love? No? Ok. But why do you let this same person treat you badly over and over? Why do you let things repeat again and then think, next time it will be different? It's because after all, you don't love yourself yet. If she/he break up with you, you're gonna look for her/his love, but if you love yourself, you still have your own love and it will keep you safe and strong to pass through this horrible moments. I wish you guys the best comeback ever. I passed through this situation for over 8 years. She was very toxic and I thougth that it was ok and let those things keeping happening, she gaslighted me and did everything that a narcissist does. People always alerted me, but when you're in this vicious cycle, It's almost impossible to look from another perspective. It has been 2 years since I got free but sometimes I still feel a little guilty for letting someone treat me so badly. Therapy helped me a lot!! STAY STRONG!!!! YOU CAN DO IT!!

0:00 oneheart x reidenshi - snowfall 2:02 Daniel.mp3 - Green to blue 5:10 analog_mannequin - milk cassette x.mp3 8:51 bonjr - If it’s real, then I’ll stay 11:54 13:36 oneheart - this feeling 1:03:47 1:09:11 SYML - Where’s my love 1:14:23 The Cinematic Orchestra - To build a home 1:22:06 Patrick Watson - Je te laisserai des mots 1:25:39 1:31:36 The Irrepressibles - In this shirt 1:38:12 Joji - Glimpse of us 1:42:49 Tom Odell - Another Love 1:47:54 Hozier - Take me to church 1:52:57

It’s been almost 9 years. I’m not sure we’d recognize one another at this point. She’s more of a stranger now than before we met. There’s an aversion that wouldn’t be there with strangers. I think about her almost every day and how nothing will measure up to what I felt towards her but even if she came back somehow it wouldn’t be the same. We’re not even the same people who fell out of love at this point. I hope she’s happy and I suspect she is but this longing doesn’t seem to go anywhere year after year. If she read this the best I could hope for is an acknowledgment that it’s a worthwhile sob story.

Heartbreak, especially when it feels fresh and overwhelming, can be a profound experience, but it's important to remember that it's also a universal one. Most people go through it at some point, and while that doesn't diminish your pain, it does mean there are pathways out of it - Mr. ChatGPT

I always feel like my relationships are destined to fail. It's not even the partner that you have to blame these days, it's the circumstances. To everyone here I hope you meet someone new who you're on a similar wavelength with, including myself. We all deserve it.

It sucks knowing how replacable you are in spite of all that you went out of your way to make happen for someone. Its even worse when you sell yourself short and devalue yourself for their sake for them to not even have been invested themselves. The worst part is not having the kids around all the time or watching what was once my family drive away from me because someone would rather give up and replace people than try and right their wrongs.

Loving women is like having them have a loaded gun pointed at you, and you just hope to god they won't pull the trigger. Frankly, I have been shot so many times metaphorically in my life that I've grown numb to it all. I've attempted twice against my life unsuccessfully. People handles heartbreak and betrayal better than I can. I can't begin to tell you the absolute betrayal I have endured with women in my life. Maybe other men in my shoes would've stood strong and endured the emotional pain, but I couldn't at the time. Now I live a life where I can't wear short sleeves and having winter as my favorite season mainly because I have an excuse to wear long sleeves and coats. I take full responsibility for even allowing women all together in my life when I shouldn't have. I will alway fear women. Everytime someone comes with good intent, I immediately sway away, and politely say I'm not interested. I look after myself very well, and I have a very active lifestyle which makes everyone question why I'm single. Some don't believe me. Nor I don't want to spill my whole life trauma to a total stranger to make them understand why I'm single. I don't care by now if I may have rejected the love of my life by now. Its too much of a risk to find out whether or not. My life is at risk. I already healed to the point where I'm being productive with my life, and living a very independent life. I can't ruin it. Yet I do miss the feeling of being loved. Thats why I find myself here to listen to music to allow myself to feel this emotion of despair from time to time to remind myself I don't need to need a women in my life. I no longer miss any of my exes, including my first love. I do however miss the feeling of being loved. The constant reassurance. The constant human touch and affection. All the nice words and cute foreshadowing of our plans in the future. Talking about our future kid's name and how we would raise them. And of course the genuine peace I felt knowing I have found someone that will be there to the very end with me and I won't die alone. I used to be afraid of the idea of being alone and or dying alone. Now not so much. I rather die alone at an old age rather than die young due to my mental health falling apart over some girl that doesn't value how much I have dedicated myself to her, and her wanting to throw it all away to see if the grass is greener on the other side. I will never love again. God bless you all and wish you luck on whatever you're going through.

never knew it would be so hard just to live

She showed me what love feels like. I don't remember her face, i only remember her eyes and her smile when she was looking at me. Time stops. The whole world is blown away. I'm in heaven right now. It's just you & me. I can feel my heart beating again. I can feel the sky again. I didn't know life could feel so extatic. I didn't know love could be so powerful, so transforming. She grabbed my hand & took me to the Most High. Silently, she left. Sun is gone. I'm alone in the night. Stargazing. Tears rolling down. Then I understood. It was all me from the beginning. The light in her eyes. The magic in her touch. Pure Life flowing through my veins. She is a miror. She showed me Who I Am. She awakened me to my very Nature. The Source of Love is inside. It has always been. Infinite Love & Gratitude ♾️✨️🤍

Loving yourself is far more important than being loved by others since you are with yourself always.. When the right person notices the love you have for yourself they will be drawn to it but never compromise the love you have for yourself for someone else.

It's been been 5 years since I last had friends. people I could talk to and make jokes with. I'm older now I realize that not everything last for ever but if certain things could I wish friendships could be one of them, the way everyone connected with each other it almost felt like a movie at times. At one point I thought I wanted a girlfriend but then I realized it was deeper then that and all I really wanted was a connection. I feel so distant from everyone. I rarely talk to people now and when I do interact with others it doesn't last long. when ever I talk to others my words feel so meaningless as if every word that comes out of my mouth is filler. I don't wanna speak just filler though, I wanna be able to tell an entire story with out feeling like a empty version of myself. Sometimes all I want is to sit down with someone and just have a real conversation. I know most of you reading this don't care but I'm writing this for the one person who thinks there alone in this. Your not many others like your self feel the same way. I can't tell you when this feeling will go away but what I can tell you is going down this road eventually there's gonna be a cross road and the path you take will determine whether or not this feeling will blossom into something better or die and become worse. I haven't reached my road yet but one day its gonna come, make the right choice.

'It's worth saving myself', always remember and never forget it, no matter how bad you feel, no matter how many mistakes you made, no matter how big the regrets. IT'S WORTH SAVING YOURSELF, it's worth having hope placed in yourself, in what you like, in what you are passionate about, if you are passionate about playing guitar, continue with it, if you are passionate about training, continue with it, if you are passionate about writing, continue with it , it is worth having FAITH in you, IT'S WORTH SAVING YOURSELF, even if you are alone, even if it seems that help is not going to arrive. IT'S WORTH IT TO KEEP FIGHTING TO SAVE YOURSELF. Never forget it

I recently had one kid taken and the other aborted by the woman I loved after her mental health snapped. I lost my home, my kids, my dream of fatherfood, all of the stability I thought I had in ny life. I gave everything I had to those kids and when I didn’t have any more, I found some and gave it anyways. I had so much love in my heart that I was giving to everyone around me but after having it all ripped away I realized that I was never giving any love to myself and now there is a void in my soul that I'm slowly filling back in and I realize that I had it all wrong from the start. I could never truly love any of the people around me until I truly loved myself. Now, somewhere between a bottle and the stone of Sisyphus, I'm piecing myself back together. The right way this time. Chin up everyone. Suffering is a teacher, learn what you can until you become a strong enough student to defeat the master. Always love yourself, no matter what you've done or what you've gone through.

I really loved this girl and she was perfect. She actually cared about me, she always motivated me and she was really different than any other girls, she always makes me happy whenever I'm at my lowest point. And i knew couldn't let her go, i always tried my best to give her everything, but i couldn't cause my mental health got worst than ever, and after that she left me. I became more distant that ever, i couldn't talk to my mom or even my cousin that I'm comfortable around with, but i understand why she left me, but i just hope she's doing really well rn but it's been 3 months since we last spoke tho, I just can't get over her, I just can't. She was really special to me. She was the one i truly loved, But i just feel so broken that i lost the right one Till this day i still feel really lost But all i know is unliving yourself is not the answer. I will find peace one day

Let's go! Start working on yourself and build that strong mind, body and soul. Use the pain as the fuel for the next changes you are gonna make! Stay true to yourself and your path! You got it!!!

Have never been through heartbreak but here is my story: I am from Afghanistan, it’s was wild out there. I remember hearing death almost every day and got so used to it, I thought that is how the world went. One day, some terrorists (i think like 5 of them), came into my school and started shooting. I grabbed a gun from one of the soldiers and hid. I heard foot steps but they never came to me. After 40 minutes, the military came and evacuated the school ( I was 14 around this time), and one of the soldiers informed me that the soldier that had handed me the gun had been brutally executed with a flamethrower. I had felt my soul leave the universe in that moment, it felt like I had just… that it was my fault. 2 years later in around 2013, my friends and I were supporting humanitarian aid across the south region of Afghanistan, called Helmand. Helmand is one of the most violent provinces of Afghanistan, so risks were very high. Either way, we were escorted by military to many villages and that is where the mental health really declined in me. Seeing all these people suffer some nightmares was too much for my 16 year old brain to handle. One day around December 2013, I was having an emotional breakdown, and I decided I would unalive myself, so I grabbed a knife and went outside so everybody in the camp could watch my suffering. My friend immediately told me about the soldier from 2 years prior, and I went back inside and grabbed a pistol, went outside and aimed it at him. A little girl and her older brother watched me, and….. I just couldn’t do it. I dropped the gun, and told my friend (Let’s call him Hamza) to shoot me. He said no and grabbed the gun to put it away. While he was doing that, I grabbed the gun on his hand and forced it to aim at me. He then pushed me away and told me “The soldier didn’t shoot himself”. I then went to sleep on the dirt for 10 hours. 2 weeks later, a terrorist attack hit our camp, and Hamza didn’t make it. I had felt so broken that I grabbed a gun and shot one of the terrorists out of rage. I had gotten flooded with anger, so after wards I decided to join the army (to destroy the terrorists). I was in the Afghan national army for 3 years and killed over 40+ terrorists. I left because I had then thought it was just better to leave the country than to use this rage for spilling blood. It took years, but I managed to move to Alberta in Canada, and once I saw the country, it was like I had just broken out of a grave. My life felt real for once, something I had lost along the way. From 2016 to 2021 , it was the highest point of my life, i was living my dream. When 2021 rolled around, it started off absolutely amazing, but when Afghanistan was fully in control by terrorists, something happened. My mom, brother, grandfather and grandmother were in a city. Around August 7, a bomb blew up in their apartment and they all died. I was grieving, but also.. happy? I had never felt like that ever. I decided to use my rage, grief, and death inside me to form something better. From September 2021, to December 2022, I was on my villain arc. I built a very strong, muscular lean physique, then I started meditating to heal my trauma. I started doing the wim hof method and it worked. I then looks maxed and I Eventually became very attractive. I got a high- level job and then i started hunting for my Woman. At around February 2023, I found her. Let’s call her Lisa for protection reasons. She was from the start, absolutely into me. I asked her out and then we hit it off from there. I’m going to describe her (btw, she moved in with me). She is incredibly supportive, compassionate, but not a pushover. She is also very sweet and is physically, very attractive. She also spent her child hood in Sweden as a fast food worker. So now things with Lisa have… been something younger me would have never imagined. To actually be in love. That all leads to today, living my best life. But the moral of the story is even in the darkest of times, use that darkness to become the greatest you can ever be. And remember, I was a little boy in Afghanistan. Imagine what you can do with all that you have. Don’t waste it. I believe in you. I know this comment may not be relevant to y’all, but it’s what I want to leave on this video.

I spent like 4 years after this woman, in my part, I did it the right way, not the lustful or selfish way… I did genuinely liked her, she was very special, we were work buddies, would hang out after work all the time, we would go out to eat, arcades, movies, parks, hiking, explore new areas , we did her favorite things despite our differences, especially food since she was a vegetarian , we found ways to eat at the same place. We were very best friends, we talked about crushes and how we had bad taste … and we would go beyond the hugs, we would hold hands, embrace, cuddle at times, we would have long talks at night, even till dawn about life and future … we were very very intimate despite not having physical intimacy , we kissed once since we were shy, I thought we did liked each other … but it wasn’t mutual the more we talked about us dating and getting married if we didn’t find anyone else… I was happy, I didn’t ask anything in return, just her affection and genuine love. I did confess I liked her, there and then in the spot, and I wanted more, I wanted us to be a couple... yet wanted her happiness … she was thankful and said maybe ... but something was off … With more talks and dates, she grew strange until she told me the truth … she was seeing someone else officially , I was her back up plan. That did hurt … basically she was desperate to have her life together, she wanted a “ready” man and ready life, rich and older, someone to take care of her , she wanted someone to teach her about the world (the girl wanting to date an older guy phase every girl goes through) ... she was being selfish she admitted , she chose the easy path when she saw the opportunity… she just quickly left me… but said we could still be best friends and still be close as if nothing happened, she would want us to hang out in private … I was hesitant , I said ok but limited my interactions and texts with her … deep down I knew it was wrong what she proposed, and I couldn't do it ... eventually she says that I’m a bad friend when I don’t text or talk to her as I used to … why am I distant and why do I avoid her… I couldn’t do it ; I couldn’t be near someone I loved but can’t have , someone who wanted me to adore her while being someone else’s completely ; someone who doesn’t comprehend we can’t be close when she decided to be completely closer to someone else ; someone who may look mature but still had a child’s way of thinking; someone who is using me as a back up plan in case current plan fails ; someone who knows I love her but won’t even look at me like I look at her. It was hard to get over her at times when she texted me, but I learned to not put all eggs in one basket… I forgive her and wish her the best honestly. Make sure it’s mutual, that she respects you, not uses you. You deserve real love kings, don’t settle for less, know your worth, happy couples know that they don’t owe each other anything, but they choose to give each other everything. It’s a choice. Your partner represents your capacity to choose. So I’m single for now, I will prepare for my future wife, I will become better and the person she is looking for … Thank God He has helped me heal, giving me new priorities, and surprisingly gave me a vision of my future girlfriend/wife in a dream… I know it’s her because she is 10X times better than any past relationship and ex girlfriends, and I think of her when I’m tempted to be immoral with another woman that is not my wife. So cheer up, ask God to help you, and do your best!

this reminds me of all the opportunities I never seized. the "teen love" I never experienced. or love, for that matter.

Kinda crazy how so many people have a similar story. I met her at work 3 years ago she became the love of my life. I don’t think I’ll ever forget her

How is it possible that I feel so happy and focused listening to this? I'm in a relationship that truly makes me happy, must that be why I feel this way? Or is it because I'm working right now and my mind is busy? Would listening to this and doing absolutely nothing make me feel different? Or has she been changing many things in me? I appreciate this, anyone who makes you happy is worth caring for and having in life. Greetings friends, take care of yourselves and I wish you a happy new year, happy 2024.Los amo ♥♥

She was the first to really notice me and I took it for granted... Honestly just hope she's happy, she deserves it. Fellas messing around to much will just create a hollow feeling, not talking Gojo

"How do you know, poor fool? Perhaps out there, somewhere, someone is sighing at your at your absence; and with this thought, my soul begins to breathe." - Francesco Petrarca

At some point you realize that you're mourning a love that was only real to you.

She was perfect. The world felt like it couldn't hurt us, until that is, I realized that my world was her and now she's gone. It happened so fast. She had it planned out, knew where she was going to go. I can't be sorry enough for letting it all go. We shared something beautiful and I let it slip through my fingers faster than the fine grains of sand in the Sahara. I live in the good memories we shared and I will always cherish them as much as they hurt. I would't understand love the way I do if it wasn't for her.

They moved on before you even realized something in your relationship was wrong.. 👇

The thing is, just when you think you’ve moved on, she jumps into your head and crushes you in a second. It's been three months since the end of a six-year relationship. Most of the time, I feel good. I feel like myself, but there are still days that catch me off guard. It’s like you don’t want to think of her because you know it will make you cry, but at the same time, the memories make you smile. It’s a pretty shitty feeling, but in the end, like anything else, it will be fine. To everyone going through this, I wish you the strength to heal, the courage to embrace the memories, and the hope to find peace in the days ahead..

This playlist reminds me of what I felt before, where I find solace that every heartbreak of mine means I once had something that I truly cherished and that, in itself, is beautiful and ironically made me happy, content, and able to move on.

Crazy how life works your best friend from the age of 12 to 25 dies from her battle with cancer you get married and 12 years goes by so fast but the whole time you miss her and then you start to try for a kid and all of the sudden this feeling of missing her deepens to a sorrow that can literally steal your breath and keep you up and night thinking about how she would be experiencing the same joys and how you long to see her experiencing those things but never will and eventually you go numb and get tired and fall asleep and a new day begins and maybe on that day you don't think about it but eventually it happens again and you just miss her even more I love you and miss you so much Krystal Holland

I got out of the military almost 5 years ago and my life felt so empty... every relationship I had ended because of the distance between us and the military didnt help with that... I felt so helpless and alone ... found a girl 2 yrs ago fell in love but in the end it didnt work out... I moved on and found someone else 2 months ago things felt like they were going great and I was finally starting to get a purpose I was finally starting to find happiness again.... it's obvious she had horrible anxiety because the stress of balancing a busy work schedule , college , family and social life combined with me in it she said she wasnt ready for a relationship because she felt she wasnt giving me the time I deserved... I was never unhappy with the time i spent with her and I was happy ... she was too I could see it in her eyes the happiness we felt cuddled up together the smiles she gave me and the way she blushed everytime I complimented her. so it came as a huge shock when she said she wanted to take a break ... there was many reasons but her main reason was her life being too chaotic rn im just hoping she was sincere and figures it all out... regardless of whether or not she comes back to me I genuinely hope she gets better... I just wish she had dropped me before I fell in love with her. the most annoying thing I hate about myself is how openly I am with my emotions and heart. I never hide how I feel and im always sincere and honest about the way things are going because I feel its the best thing to do to avoid future problems. at this point im just hoping she comes back but im also done with relationships... I've given my heart out many times and im only 27 soon to be 28 yrs old and ive already had 8 long relationships in my life "at least a year" the last relationship that I had was only 2 months but like I said she lit the fire back in my heart that had gone out... I felt so comfortable with her and we talked about everything together! she was also goofy and sarcastic in the same ways I was and everything was just wonderful when I spent time with her... I think I just tried too hard and stressed her out more than she could handle ... really wish I could change allot of things about myself but some things are unchangeable... I'm trying hard to focus on the things I can change and im trying hard not to linger too much on my thoughts.... thankfully music helps me alleviate some of this pain and I write lyrics to songs I play in my head ... now if only I could put music to the lyrics and songs that I sing .... If anyone needs to talk im here for everyone... although I myself am going through my own struggles NOTHING makes me feel better than helping others.. I'll gladly hear your stories and share my life experiences ... I may not be the best help but I will try my best for others always... Stay strong everyone! and stay optimistic ! although times may be dark theres a beautiful tomorrow waiting around the corner... Stay safe and stay blessed everyone

I think, i just idealized her, what we could be, what she could become, and started having all those good moments only in my mind, i fell in love with someone doesn't even exist, and i don't know how to move on, i see her, and i realize she didn't even felt the same, never did, just hurts

we suffer here together. we are not alone

Everyone in this comment section: - Join the gym - Get up early - Stop smoking and stop drinking - Become the GOAT in something Life is suffering, you may as well smile while you do it

I have only felt true love once in my life. I fell in love with a girl I met online. She was perfect. The smartest woman I've ever known. And her personality... She pretended to be cold and everybody around her seemed to believe it, but I could see right through her. In reality, she was deeply hurt by a lot of people. Like me, she had pride. She'd never accept help, let alone ask for it. It all started with an argument about some random topic. We hated each other, but we kept replying to each other's comments. Eventually, we exchanged numbers and started talking about our personal lives. I began to fall in love with her and she slowly but surely warmed up to me. I got to see her beautiful soul. She was just a cute nerdy girl who simply wanted to live in a better world. This world broke her. After about a year of us talking, she took her own life. To this day, 8 years later, I have never even been interested in love. I am still sexually attracted to women, but I can't feel anything for them. It's like she's still filling that place in my heart and I feel no need to replace her, even though she's not here physically. I hope I can meet her again one day.

"Sometimes you must hurt in order to know, fall in order to grow, lose in order to gain, because life's greatest lessons are learned through pain.."

Benn a couple of years now and she still is in my dreams. I remember her voice, her laugh, and her smile. Sometimes I even have her in my dreams. Even though she broke me, I never loved anyone more

i would love to say, you guys giving me motivation but it´s gone. idk if i´ll ever find a place in this system, depressive since 15 years with social anxiety and i totally gaved up myself up like 3 times now. i dont see any possible future that would be worth to fight for with my psychological issues. Just ,,living" day by day, broked nearly up with everyone just so i cant hurt them no more and they´ll never know about more failures in my life again. im still not in the mood to end this despair, i dont even know why. No balls for it since years. Everyone says you only have one life but what´s there point, if im gone i wont be able to reject some decissions, if there´s a hell it´s ok, i deserve punishment ngl. Life didnt treated me well, like a lot of us. im just weak and ya´ll are strong, i hope you´ll keep fighting, do it for me. Usually i stand up again in future but it will end like it did everytime.. Dont do it like me, dont be d_mb if you have good times, keep work on yourself even if its just a bit day by day. Dont get in my situation, i fought too long the hard way in life, ive risked too often my good situation for having one funny night, dont do that ! trust me. Please! Try to resist to buy useless clothes with an overpriced brand or stuff like that, be selfaware 25 hours a day, follow your heart than you´ll know what´s right and what´s wrong. And better never use drugs, in the beginning it´s funny but that´ll turn really quick. I guess writing this down helped a lil bit, atleast i think im abled to sleep now. And sorry for my terrifying english lol

I lost my love of 14 years after she told me she no longer had passion for me. I came home, as I had no where else to go for the time being, to a family wrought with anxiety, rage, and depression as a result of the events which had transpired while I was away building this failed life with a women who ultimately decided she could do better. I don't just feel broken, I feel like everything is broken. Like this is the worst possible outcome it a crummy storyline where I thought I had made all the right choices. And now I'm up after having gone to bed at 7pm and still feeling so damn tired. So tired. So tired. So tired. So tired.

Time heals all. Work on yourself. Find time again with friends and family. Make new experiences. Shake off the old memories and self. Being anew!!

It was our song, it's been 9 years and I'm still listening to it... Don't listen too loudly, your children will wake up.

Wow this hits places that very few other pieces of music have hit. Am actually crying!!!

This mix gave me chills, it taps right where i feel right now!

there's something about this picture... the frail beauty of this girl and the blurry dream like setting. it struck such a cord in my heart. when a girl is in your past and her memory feels like this a forgotten dream that you're desperately trying to remember. the beauty's still there but the fine lines and details are fading. as much as you want to remember sometimes you wish you could forget. But that cold beautiful face remains. the unwavering face that broke your heart. she'll never know that you still see her face in your dreams, chasing what once was. waking up sweating the middle of the night - was it all real?

This past summer I put my put my everything into a girl, thinking I could fix her, take care of her, whatever. It was dumb love. But I was happy spending time with her, taking her places, being told that she thinks she loves me under the rain sheltered by a pier roof, dancing in the rain. I remember her stories of her uncle who died, basically her brother. I cleared out a special spot they had that was overrun and destroyed over time in her hometown, I suffered an entire day in the forest, in her hometown, cleaning this spot they had and searching for a lost rock that was special to them. I'm not insane, I was just bored and wanted to make her happy. Did I mention she wouldn't let me meet her relatives during that hometown trip, so I spent my day in a forest cleaning a spot that would change nothing. I spent almost every day with her, I fell hard and fast. Over time, it was clear that she was mentally unwell, she would be mad at me for no reason, and I was giving all of my attention to her, giving her no satisfaction. It didn't matter, none of it. I think I tend to reciprocate feelings, its not a great thing when the person you're in love with has cut scars all over her arms and legs. I got very depressed very quickly while being with her, but I was already convinced I liked her a lot and it was worth the loss of self, she became my world for a little bit. Eventually, I ended up in a psych ward after a suicide attempt, without telling her. I saw it as a lapse of judgement, a panic reaction in response to her splitting her personality on me, one moment she loved me, the next she was insulting me, it was a cycle that went until until I did end up in that wretched place. So, I go to the psych ward for a week, after she blew up on me randomly after being lovey in the morning. While there, I didn't have any way to contact her so I assumed it was just doomed, and at that point I think I was fine with it. But she had a hold on me. Shortly after that week of hell, I messaged her. We agreed to meet, but I had a different mindset this time about the relationship. Basically if she was flakey about hanging out then it was over. That's exactly what she was, it was a few hours before the meet up time and she was acting like she didn't really want to. I ended it there out of spite, even though she had my heart. In response I was insulted completely, was told that she saw her ex while I was recovering from trying to kill myself, screamed at, and shoved hard at least 5 times. And yet, in the end, in her eyes, I was only after sex. I wish so much that I could rewind time and never meet her. Still I feel so broken, but this experience will impact me and teach me valuable lessons. It even got my creative side out, so I wrote a poem: The Pier Sitting at edgewater, alone, an escape Covered, the pier protects, weathered by time’s relentless storms, A shield from waters cold embrace, from past pains, from rain. Stepping out from the cover, facing it, it flows, falling, Amidst the symphony of raindrops drumming on my skin, Surrounded by noise and chaos, unsure, At first, it stings like the prick of truth, then refreshing, Like the first breath of a new day, waking from a dream. It ebbs, the flowing rain, the aching pains Like tears shed by the sky, washing away The weight of yesterdays, the burden of regrets, In its wake, only a melody remains A song of rebirth, sung by the sea's gentle sway. Good luck out there people and notice the red flags earlier to save yourself from losing yourself to someone who couldn't care less about you.

It's been 4 years now. I tried to talk to her again... bad idea. It embarrassed and humbled me, and you know, it worked out. It helped me realize that I don't want her anymore. But the loneliness... oh god the loneliness. I have so much love to give, but nobody to give it to. So here I lay, crying in my bed, hoping that one day someone will accept it. And love me again the way she did.

I’ve read comments like the one in about to make, but I hope whoever reads this knows that I, ME, typing this right now means every word. I’m sorry that life wasn’t what we thought it was going to be. You’re heart is rare & pure. Don’t let the world harden it. You’re not alone. And I love you. Real love. The only kind of love we know. You , are, not, alone. Stay pure.

my heart was broken guys. She was my everything and now she's gone with somebody else

I got an interview in 9 hours for a job i've been seeking for 3 years now and my life could completely change. I haven't slept since i woke up the previous morning since i got the news but that doesn't matter bc whatever drug that's in these melodies has me in a state of zen. I hope you get what you wish for in your lifetime , no matter how long it will take you. May you experience that bit of joy before we're all memories...

I used to be so exited about getting older and live life Now I just want it to end and finally feel piece I wanna be the kid that didnt have to worry about anything The kid that used to be her mom's sunshine The kid that was always laughing The kid that always wanted to play outside the whole day The kid that felt loved The kid that talked about everything with her mom The kid that could wait to grow up The kid that always wanted to stay up to read, color or play The kid that wanted to travel the world But now I'm the person no one likes The person who laughs to much to hide the pain she's actually in The kid that keeps all of her problems stored inside her The person that is slowly dying inside The person that hates going out The oerson who is a disappointment to her mom The person that sleeps all day to escape reality The person that overthinks to much The person who just to leave The person who is just a body pumping blood with her broken heart feeling nothing Just being completely numb

At this moment Im just trying to survive day to day this playlist takes me back to the start and all the best times it makes me smile again but if I come back to reality everything falls apart 5:57 6:02 6:04 6:05 I need help and people to talk to

2 years, they moved on after the first week, and im here after 2 years still thinking about them, it doesnt hurt anymore but they will forever stay in my head i cant forget the good times with them the late night drives, their bed on a cold autumn night, but such is life, i thank them for making me who i am. Without them i would have never been who i am today- i wouldnt have the best friends i could ever ask for and i would not be myself. everyone always tells you to be yourself and i know its hard to believe but truly there will come someone who appreciates you fro being you. and now after 2 years i have finally started talking to people again and even have a planned date with someone next week. Things. Do. Get. Better. In the end

She moved out of State talked me into a long distance relationship moved with her family. i was dumb to go with it. took her to disneyland for her to not post any pics of us together.... but once she went back to her parents house after the trip she posted a pic with a guy by the pool and hugging him.. that's when i quit and focused on myself went to the gym destroying my body building it up i went from 180 pounds dad bod to a bulked up 220 benching 275 and i use that pic of her with her guy as motivation... i'm planning to get body ready and chase after what i've wanted to do and get into bodybuilding.

7 years boys and still counting. The wound is fresh and the pain presists. I was told time heals it, I think we just get used to it because I don't feel I have healed at all.

He got engaged a few months after he broke up with me. It was tough hearing that at first but then I realized maybe he had moved on already when we were still together. I wasn't a good person but I definitely did not deserve being thrown away like garbage and so easily too. Sometimes I regret the day I ever met him and how much I gave him throughout our relationship. I hate that I think about him sometimes and how well he must be doing to get engaged with a girl he had only been talking to for 6 months. I wonder how he lives with himself and how much guilt he must also be feeling because for a person like me it wouldn't take me a few months for getting over someone. We dated for a year and three months. It felt like an eternity. I gave him my all and I was left with my heart broken into little pieces. Slowly, I am picking them up and sewing them, pinning them, healing them. Slowly, I am becoming myself again. I can feel myself becoming a better person and everything that I experienced was just the universe's way to make me stronger and wiser. I can't thank them enough!

From my experience in order to love someone, you have to learn to love yourself, in the sense that you put yourself first when it's appropriate. Don't become narcissistic, but establish strong boundaries. That makes you less vulnerable and allows for love. That would be my advice.

you never know how much you love the person until you loss them

I’ve experienced heartbreak before, was very depressed about 3 years ago because of it. But the pain only lasted about 3 months. I don’t think I’ve experienced ultimate heartbreak like some of you have. I don’t think I’ve truly been in love with any woman before and part of me is scared to be. This playlist almost makes me feel like one day I will experience true love but also true heartbreak… it makes me feel really strange, but that’s the best way I can describe it.

I run away from reality too often and this song doesn't really help me become better. Thank you.

im listening to this in the backround while im grinding some camos on mw3, This is legit therapy. :) I hope you all are doing well and to those who are not: Whatever you are fighting you will get through it! I belive in you!

I felt more comfortable around him than I do with my closest friends the first time we ever hung out. He made me feel special and like I didn’t have to worry about anything around him, like I didn’t have to have a filter over everything I said or did. He gave me his hoodie and one of his hats, he got sick because it was cold and raining when he had to leave my house after he came over because I didn’t feel great after a game, He walked to my house (15 minute walk) at 12 am and didn’t leave till nearly 7. We were almost always texting each other, he came over every day for nearly a week, he let me fall asleep on him multiple times, I said sorry to him at least 50 times for no reason at all for probably 2 minutes and every single time he said it was okay, when I told my friends about him they said they hadn’t seen me this happy in a while, he was so perfect. The day after he gave me his hoodie when he got sick we didn’t see each other for a few days and we didn’t talk as much because he didn’t have the energy to reasons to anyone or do much of anything he missed a few days of school so we didn’t talk nearly at all. The day before he came back to school he told me that we should just be friends and that I’m not really his type. I didn’t come to school the next day because of how overwhelmingly upset I was about it. I saw him at school the other day at a pep rally. im in band so I wasn’t in the stands but he was so we weren’t really that close but we were still close enough to clearly see each other, he wouldn’t look at me at all. When my section went out to the middle of the gym he looked at everyone in my section except for me. He made eye contact with 2 of my friends who were directly next to me but would look at me. When he had walked by me I had called his name but he didn’t even look around. I saw him right after the pep rally, called him name again and he turned around but then turned back around and acted like it hadn’t happened. I sent him texts and snaps but he just left me on opened. When he did respond ,which was only twice, he was dry and wouldn’t save the messages (he always did). We haven’t talked in nearly a week. I miss him so much and him basically ignoring me hurts so much. I felt so happy around him, like there was nothing in the world that could hurt me or bother me. He told me he didn’t mind and that would help me clean my room if I needed because I told him it was messy before he came over. He’s acting like the things we did never happened, he’s acting like he doesn’t know who I am. I feel so terrible without him. I really really did love him and I thought he did too. I don’t know what happened. He went from calling me his girlfriend one day to acting like I don’t exists the next. It hurts so much. I would do anything to be able to get what we had back. I miss him.

"I wish there was a way to know you're in the good times before they end" I ended it 8 years ago after 5 years being together. We were meant to get married...2008-2015 were some of the best years of my life. Did so many things that were new and life changing...traveled...never noticed how time flew when I was with her. Now time seems to fly with each succeeding year...it's ok. I'm not a good person and I knew it. Now she's completely moved on and I'm happy for her. I do feel sad sometimes...and even now typing this I feel these emotions coming back but much faintly than last time...but like someone else said, I now miss the times and who I was. Spent over 8 years for that high again only to realize it was all a waste. Don't waste your time looking back because time will eventually help. Don't be like me who drove everyone away, lost all serious opportunities, and starting over at 30. What I wish for everyone is to find their pathway towards happiness. I'm not 100%, I still feel like I'm not at home, I feel like I'm in the wrong timeline...but I've accepted it. Otherwise...it could get worse again and I'd probably say today wasn't so bad. I'm not downplaying depression - I just want someone to listen to me and learn from me...

"They think they know pain? They can't begin to comprehend it"-Omen

When i was 18 i had a girl break my heart twice - yes i was that dumb. For years i tried to fill the hole in my heart with s*x, since i was too afraid to let anyone close to me. Then i clapped the right girl, we started dating and fell in love. This year i will propose to her. Back in the days i thought i would die alone and that i have no talents. This was far from true. Dont allow sadness to consome you. It's okay to be sad once in a while. And it's okay to take the sadness with you on your way - just dont allow it to stand in you way. Go sad to the gym, clean your house while being sad, care for your friends while being sad. Sadness doesn't care for your wellbeing, so why should you care about sadness either?

it's been 7 years since her. and she had someone right away, even before it was over. she always made it an uphill battle. i never really moved on, feeling like i'm only one or two steps beyond it. i still think of her every day. does she even think of me once a month? i spent too many years of my life hating her and hating myself, but i've finally made peace with it, learned much from it. you cannot let her haunt you forever.

To every single brother here. life is shit sometimes, and sometimes it isnt. but the truth is we are gonna have to endure allot of pain. its not gonna be fun but its gonna shape us in to the men we need to become, not only for ourselfs but for our future family. I hope each and everyone one of you find the truth within jesus christ. the one and only true living God. God bless you all

I cried when I saw the first music with this picture I don't know why, but this photo with this music filled me with sweet and sad feelings mixed together

Stay strong men. Thought this was a video of some sort. Not a music playlist with Men openly sharing their hard tuff experiance. Hope you all feel better soon. Don't be afraid to let go. Stay focused on the close one in your life. Make friends, take care of pets, Eat well, Train, Learn new things and take care of yourself. If you can Get a family be there for your child/ren, Be someone they ppl who loves you can be proud of and Don't STOP! I believe in you! We believe in you! YOU NEED TO BELIEVE IN YOURSELF! 👑

she was the source of my happiness and i cant let go.

I tought i was the only one experiencing this pain, she broke up with me 2 years ago, and yet i still think about her often and its just so sad, She moved on in life, and im still in the same place nothing ever changed, i tried dating other girls but nothing feels the same, I dont feel attracted to no one but her. I never really talked about this but I saw everyone else in the comments sharing their stories and It made me cry how similar they are to me. idk really what to do but if you are reading this and you feel the same I encourage you to talk about it dont supress it.

She does exist and when you find her you wont believe its real, I feel like she gets me more than i get myself. honest, pure, true soul. The lows have to be experienced to understand that there does exist a happier place , where you will only elevate and reach realms of being content once only thought of to exist for someone else.

The picture and the music make me feel very uneasy. She is a beautiful girl, almost angelic, drifting through the cold, empty city trying to find herself and a warm home. I am a bit older so I have a bit of experience under the belt, she is missing a strong loving father figure and gets into all sorts of trouble with mean (mostly older) lads and bad boys. These girls mostly grow out of this sadness, very few stay sad forever. It is the pain of being young and forgotten, but there is always light at the end of the tunnel.

this is so super chill and in the meantime so tragic. I fell in love with the playlist

So painful to realize it wasn’t real. Like a small part of me wanted to at least believe that there was something even if it wasn’t everything. People can greatly affect each other.

I dont hurt anymore, i learned to love myself instead.

He made me feel special during a time in my life where I felt like a piece of meat in a room full of hungry wolves. He wore sheeps clothing.

Brothers and sisters don’t let the fear of a heartbreak hold you back from pursuing truly meaningful and loving relationships and living and experiencing life to the fullest, because it’s so worth it

I started to realize when you Grow up more you start to lose friends and I’m alone have nobody to talk to when I’m at school I feel like I’m not alone but when I get out of school I start to feel alone 😂 I don’t know what it is I’m feeling but you know you just got to keep up what you doing

Let's just say that I'd like it to be different, with all the times we've spent together, the things we have in common, the feeling etc ... It's strange, I'm no longer the immature kid I was in our relationship and now I'm paying for the mistakes that same kid made, I know I didn't really want this. For me it's a defeat and I'm to blame, which makes me all the more keen for it to end in victory. The story was beautiful at the start, the meeting, everything ... 9 years later I still have the same goal with this relationship, and now that we're grown up we could do it all again and do it better ... A lot of years have gone by now and I'd like to make up for lost time. If this life is worth living, I deserve a chance ... Anon.

11:53 name?

[Trigger warning: sensitive topics] I had this one guy with whom I felt a connection that was deeper and more intimate than it had ever been for me before. We were friends but we were not. It was never about the 'tag' we used to refer to ourselves: friends, lovers, soulmates. Words never actually expressed what it was--what we were. I let him in, and he let me in. We were broken and the circumstances were not helping. We destroyed each other completely, until there was nothing left but shatters of ourselves. The hole always grew deeper and we kept on falling, spiralling. I knew eventually we would break up and part ways, but at the same time I simply was not capable of considering it a posibility, because I felt I would die without him. He said he felt the same. But there came a moment when he started thinking about hurting himself and he just could not find a way to survive us. So he left, and as he left I had a total breakdown. I stopped eating, I stopped going out, I stopped spending time with my friends, I stopped singing and drawing and playing and reading and I could not move a finger and the world kept spinning around me and I could not step out of my bed. Those were months of total depression and my mom, who was the only single person who saw me for months, became really worried that I was about to end my days. So I recently started going to therapy and I am kind of moving on. Sometimes I can smell him. I smell him in the bedsheets he used to lay on. I sometimes can see him. I can see him in the streets we used to walk together--he'd run up front and I'd watch him from behind, laughing so hard I could barely walk. Sometimes I can touch him. When I flick through the pages of some of the books he lent me, and which will never be returned to his original owner. Sometimes I hear him, when I unconsciously mumble the words of some of the songs we used to sing together. It is so hard for me to remember him without feeling such an unceasable and deep-cutting pain. He is never going to come back, we are not ever going to come back. All of our dreams and projects do not exist anymore. It hurts me to think that he is out there being happy with somebody else, and it also hurts me when I think that maybe he is out there, unhappy. Either thought is devastating. I want to forget us, but it keeps haunting me every day in my drems and when I wake up. I work extra hours just to have something that keeps my head full of whatever helps me not to think about him.

she made me feel loved, when i woke up she ended it.

Hey everyone, it gets better. I promise it does. No matter how special they were or what they did, you deserve life far past the death of your past. Keep going.

there was one girl i loved with all of my heart, and even though it's been a while since we've had these mutual feelings of love for each other there is still a big part of my heart that holds on to her. the idea of her. the memory of her. the way that i saw her when i proposed to her. the way she smiled when i smiled at her. everything fell apart so quick i didn't even have time to digest what happened. i still can't. i don't really want to. life is so cruel. giveth, taketh. come and go. i'm unsure if i'll ever love anyone else the same way again, and honestly.. i don't know if i ever want to.

been very non emotional for the past few months, i met who i thought would genuinely be The one for me, her and i matched on everything, every little detail in our lives were almost identical apart from a few things but because that was the case she and i had the most incredible chemistry which was purely effortless. The first night i met her i was completely uninterested in her and then i spoke to her and everything kinda changed. I stupidly started believing a girl would actually like me back and would accept me, i though i might be able to finally for once in my life let my guard down and just be happy but i was wrong. Ive tried moving on and going out with other girls but no girls are even remotely interested in me anymore, its like everything i had going for me, all my confidence, swagger, conversation skills and a big part of me just died. I dont sleep anymore, dont eat, workout as much as i can so i dont sit in my room and lose my mind. Lost my job around the same time as well so struggling to find some employment and got a lot of stress on me and yet nothing is working out, no one here to save me, no one cares, ill be lonely for the rest of my life as if she didn't want me i know no one will. I feel like im losing my mind and losing the man i tried and trained so hard to become and achieved, im failing in every metric of my life and am just a disappointment and a burden to people around me as im not useful, im not needed. I would never end my own life out of respect for my family but I just dont know what to do anymore or how to help myself, all i want is to be loved and someone there to care about me like i thought my ex did which turned out to be the complete opposite as well (came to my work and tried to abuse me after she broke up with me). Im just..... tired, i want it to stop and need to find something that lights that spark in my once again to bring myself back.

dudes, I almost kissed her today. she's already openly flirting with me, I've never felt this before, oh my god

I thought I'd forgotten her. Then I started reading the comments and the pain within my chest suddenly came back. It seems that in order to be loved, the requirement is not to love her, or at least, not to let her know you love her madly. Be in shape and flirt with other girls to keep your relationship healthy.