Things I wanted to say but never did... 

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Isn’t it funny…we all think we’re the only ones who feel a certain way…but we’re all walking around with the same worries and regrets and concerns

"Nearly everybody is wearing a facade, some are just wearing it to a greater degree... Being vulnerable is what we're fearful of." Agreed and thank you. I am working on this.

Heard so many “brother”cases! It really puts light on men’s mental health issues that aren’t spoken about. We gotta put a stand to prioritizing/seeking help before it’s too late. Life is so much more precious than most people know.

People live with so much burden on their shoulders. I wish they all heal and live a peaceful life and see beauty in the world. You are doing a great job doing videos likes this, it’s healing

The first guy☹️ My heart goes to you please don’t blame yourself as it’s your parents manipulated you to do that. Much love ❤

To all those people who mentioned their sibling: Thank you for that reminder. My brother and i have never been super close. I had to leave home at the age of 20, had to learn to stand on my own feet, make my own decisions, be mature and independent. He stood at home until he was almost 30, never left the town we grew up and he wasnt eager to explore the world. Early 2020 he was diagnosed with chronical myeloic leukemia and althouh the pill therapy works very well right now, there is this constant fear in the back of my mind that he might be gone some day. Our relationship still isn't super close but thanks to the video i had the urge to send him a short "I thought of you and i love you"-message.

I think one of the hardest moments in life is realizing that sometimes you don't get second chances. Maybe that is also a point when you start living.

“When did you stop loving me” is the saddest question in existence. Omgg 😔

I swear, we never stop being children trying to make sense of ourselves, our world and how we fit into it. Watching others being vulnerable is just SO beautiful! This is whats around us. We are all starving for true blue kindness, love and understanding. Thoraya, thank you for putting your talents into this. Its so important we have footage of what we really are out here, not the content made with an agenda. Thank you, beautiful! ♥️

That's really heart-breaking how many people are losing loved-ones to drugs particularly fentanyl. I'm not from the US but I know it's "coming over" here too and it's scary. I watch Soft White Underbelly videos and 80% of people there are fentanyl addicts. The inequalities in the US boggle the mind, really.

Something that i have always wanted to say was to a cat. She was my boyfriends cat, but i loved her like my own. She passed away in January. i grew up with no pets, and getting to have a bond with her before she passed was the best thing that ever happened to me. I wish i would have told or communicated to her in some way how much of an impact she had on my life. I miss her and think about her everyday

I very much appreciate this channel. Hearing people spill their hearts out, even briefly, is always interesting to me.

I kinda envy everyone who has found their group of people where they can also hang out with each and everyone individually. I never found that and think it's incredibly important. The girl can truly be happy about having her friends.

I loved the 2 sisters. If the effort outweighs the pleasure - it’s time to move on. Timeless ⏳advice. Reminds me for some reason of the words of Anais Nin: “Anxiety is love's greatest killer. It makes others feel as you might when a drowning man holds on to you. You want to save him, but you know he will strangle you with his panic.”

The first guys story made me audibly gasp and start to tear up. Parents aren’t supposed to use and bully their kids. Children should feel loved. I feel you man.

"if the effort outweighs the pleasure, it's time to move on" damn

Man the brother ones hit so hard. I wish I could have told my brother so many many things. I lost my brother due to drugs as well, he was ten years older than me so he was my hero, when I grew up I realized his demons. At the advice of his parole officer and our family therapist and psychiatrist we needed to cut him off, no enabling and letting it traumatize us, they said he had to hit rock bottom (which in my opinion he was already at) we did cut him off. He died less than a month later. I wish I would have never stopped being there for him, I wish I could tell him I’m sorry for all the things he went through and I loved him no matter what! RIP brother.

I love the 2 sisters at the end! Such wisdom, such jolly and carefree personalities... they've seen it all! ❤️❤️

A lot of sibling regrets, very interesting 🧐

There was a trend here, most young people talking about regrets in relationship buildup and progression while most of the elderly ones regretting inactions and words unsaid due to the loss of a person that was part of their family. I'm now aged in-between these two groups. Watching my folks grow old; I'm scared for the future, but this video helps me remember to say "I love you" to them every once in a while.

What a queen, imagine getting everyone ready for a wedding, showing up, and everything, and then saying "I don't." When they ask if you take the other person as your husband/wife, what an absolute chaos nova. That should be an SNL sketch

I pretty much tell people what I think. I'm an open book. I am grateful for this strength because once I followed my Dad from a community gathering to a cliff top above a beautiful ocean view, and expressed to him how grateful I was to have him as my dad, what a good man and father he was to me and how he showed me how to appreciate. 4 months later he was gone. I was 23. That was 40 yrs ago. I still get comfort in knowing he knew his life made a difference.

The sisters at the end, they give off such a calm, wise energy ❤

For me, it's that final "I love you" that got stuck in my throat when I was leaving my grandpa the last time I saw him in that hospital bed, when I was 18. I'm 24 now and that still hasn't let me go. I've been crying for like half an hour now thinking about it. I haven't even watched the video yet. I'm not sure I can right now. I might some other time. Y'all take care ❤

I really appreciate what the sisters said about marriage and how they also acknowledged that it is different for our generation than it was for theirs. Some people rush into relationships and want to be with someone so bad but can’t decide on what to wear. They were awesome! 😂

That's fine I'll cry before work

Might be unrelated but this video just really has me thinking about how I should just be open to talk about how I really feel. To be willing to let go. To be open to love or show love. To put actual effort into things, stop giving up and being afraid of failure. I think I'm heading to the right direction but sometimes I lose focus and end up in a loop. I think its about time that I get out of it. Thank you for making this video.

"If the effort outweights the pleasure, it's time to move on" - is a GREAT piece of advice, I think it could apply to many other things other than relationships, such as jobs. Overall I loved what the sisters said, and the fact that they asked Thoraya for her opinion on marriage too, it was super sweet.

4:50 that man has the wisdom and maturity that can only be achieved through age and hardship. He has a great way of speaking and phenomenal choice of words.

Many of us carry more regret/pain/insecurity than others can ever imagine. Always try to be kind. Thanks for the reminder,Thoraya❤

This video is so heartbreaking because the most important phrases that we forget saying during life are: “I am sorry” and “I love you”. It is so dumb as those are very simple words that we just decide to keep for ourselves and regret it later.

"if the effort outweighs the pleasure, it's time to move on"

just wanted to say thank you for what you do, you help a lot of people Thoraya 💗

Truly my most looked-forward-to uploads are from you. This episode reinforces the importance of (a healthy) self-awareness. We're going to die one day, buddy. Take your risks. Do the right thing. Give yourself the same love you would to someone you're in love with. Choose compassion.

I'd tell my stepdad how much he meant to me. How much I appreciated all he did for me and especially for my mom. He provided us with a great life and busted his butt to do so. We weren't as close as we should have been. Now that I've lost him and become a parent there is so much I'd like to say.

I love these videos they make me feel like I’m not alone

People are so beautiful.

Love from Turkey, I have been following you for 3 years and you really helped me thank you

I like the two sisters at the end a lot. They look as if they're at the right place in their life, they seem content 💕

To apologize and to forgive are such gifts 🙏

The sisters were what i needed to hear today. Thank you❤

I'd thank my father for protecting me from my mother as much as he could, and for believing in me and supporting me as an artist from the time I was ten months old, buying me art supplies and bringing me to New Mexico to paint in Georgia O'Keefe's desert! I didn't realize how much he did for me, and how big a part he was of me as an artist today.

on that last perspective of your favorite meal I think its like someone who likes eating eggs kind of thing you can fry them, boil, poach, sunny side up, etc I think the purpose is to find your favorite meal and learn how to make it in many ways with different spices in order to keep the meal flavorful so that it doesn't become bland to the taste and it transfers well into relationships where you gotta continue to learn about each other and every once in awhile mix it up to keep the relationship interesting. many people think marriage is the finish line but really its the starting line. my favorite quote has always been "Don't stop dating your partner".

Damn, everyday people are wiser than I thought.

Oh, man, the two women made me smile. You can really feel the strong bond between them! They are both so positive and nice :)

Thoraya, You are my favorite person that I have never met in-person. You are genuinely the REAL deal. The best of humanity. Thank you for sharing your gift with the world.

I would say no and stick to my boundaries and not be afraid to stand my ground and not get guilted into doing things.

The two sisters were amazing, turning it on Thoraya and everything

The two sisters are such a vibe.

5:27 the innocence of love 🥹

everyone has a story to share. the way you connect with people is continuously so refreshing, Thoraya. it doesn't matter where you are, the topic of discussion or who you speak with - I am in awe, every time. thank you for this channel, for this source of love 😌❤

It's because of stories like these that I make it a priority to tell my closest friend that I love him every single day. ❤

Sending so much love to the first guy🫶🏾🫂. That must be hard. But i'm sure he knows it was never your intention. Sending love and healing💗💗

Thoraya you’re literally my favorite content creator, your videos fill me with such love and hope! Truly something I look forward to watching, thank you so much for making these with such patience and love! 🦋🌸

The night before my mom and my niece were killed, I was speaking to mom on the phone. I’d been in California for a year, and I was missing my mom and little niece very much. Mom was raising my niece since my sister was off in her own little world of men and drugs. I talked to my niece who was 11 briefly and told her I was coming home soon, and I was looking forward to seeing her then. She said she missed me too, and then ran off to play…I had every intention of telling her I loved her. I remember thinking I was gonna have mom put her back on the phone so I could say it. It was really nagging me…to tell her that. The next morning my mother was taking her to a dr appointment when they were hit head on. The man in the other vehicle fell asleep, his foot became heavy on the gas, and he plowed into mom going 80mph in a curve of the road where the speed limit was 35. I never got to say I love you, my sweet sweet baby niece. The man suffered two broken ribs, and we suffered two broken hearts…

This episode was especially impactful to me. Things unsaid have such a theme throughout humans. What's holding us back has so much in common! I think sometimes the fear of not saying things is due to being misunderstood and what the outcome could be.

The 2 sisters at the end were the best part of the video, loved their story and life lessons.

So many beautiful souls out there! We are all one!

Omg! Finally someone ask her back! Every video i watched from Thoraya I always wondered what her answer would be! Pls if someone in the future asks you back dont cut it out :) i love your videos but hearing your answer would make them even better! in my opinion

watching you makes me cry. your voice, look, and kindness all remind me of my mother. you're a great person. thank you

The problem with the meal metaphor is that people change and evolve. I think that's the biggest hurdle of relationships is some people change in the relationship while the other stays stagnant, or someone changes for the worst. But I do agree with the waiting until 35 idea, or at least wait 7 years of dating before getting married.

What a wholesome conversation at the end. Generational bonding right there.

I just want to express how much I appreciate and enjoy your insightful videos Thoraya..you are such a kind and caring person.. you are truly beautiful and your questions bring out the honesty that can surprise the person whom is speaking.. you have a very special talent for allowing people to express their deepest feelings.. if I could see you, I would love to give you a big hug for being you!❤

This was probably one of my favorite episodes so far, very touching!

Another session: What is one thing you said that you wish you could take back?

I feel for the ladies who had bad marriages. Getting married young was the best decision I've ever made and the one thing I'll never regret. We started dating at 15 and 16, married at 18 and 19 . Now going on 17 beautiful years together. We ve grown, changed and gone through so many struggles that each made us stronger ❤no matter what happens it life, someone always has your back. when you know, you know. Marriage is extremely hard work but well worth it.

"I LOVE YOU." The dude who said "I wasn't brave enough or mature enough to just go ahead and take the risk of saying it". Hit me like a blow. "Showing people what you really, really are...and how you're vulnerable..." Ive got to call my brother right now.

Those zoomed frames on faces is so touching, to see the expressions of someone whos digging deep in their heavy thoughts.

I told my daughter just recently that it’s the things I didn’t say that cause me the most regrets. ❤✌️🌷

your videos make me cry and remind me that we're all just human at the end of the day

i just found out TODAY that a girl I went to summer camp with lost her brother. I knew her brother too. he was 20 this year & took his life 💔 I watched this video a few hours before finding out and I noticed everyone at the beginning of the video was mentioning their brothers. this is reminding me to reach out to mine. I pray all of you mourning a loss, especially a sibling, will receive comfort. keep their memory alive, remember the good times, don't beat yourself up with regret. just hold the ones around you closer. remember to check in on your brothers, fathers, and male friends. men, remember that its okay to reach out, to cry, to be disappointed, and remember the people around you would rather hear your story than read your obituary. this current moment may be tough but better times are ALWAYS on the way! take it from someone who almost ended her life as a teenager. since 20 every year has gotten better & God reveals more of His love for me every day. ❤❤❤❤❤❤ I'm excited to live the rest of my life on purpose & with purpose. if there's hope for me there is hope for you too

i could feel the first guy the second this video started, thanks for giving people a voice

Coming to terms with either assisted living or another consequence. @ 45 the realization is a hard pill to swallow. Especially for an introvert that's been trying to be independent 😢

Thank you for this video. Literally from 50 seconds of footage, I stopped and messaged all of the people closest to me and told them I was thinking about them. You’ve totally made not only my day but their days too. What a lovely chain reaction you just caused with your work! 🙏

"You're the best mom ever" made me cry

Rage and grief consume me. My soul is raped. All 44 years of my life, so far, have just been suffering. I can no longer bear the suffering. My rage is red-hot-white. May all those whom I loathe, suffer for all eternity, for what they've done to me. I WILL NO LONGER HAVE MY VOICE SILENCED. I WILL ROAR!!!

this channel is so fucking beautiful. just binging it over here and thinking it about mine and the people i know's lives.

Those sisters were so warm hearted and amazing

I wish I've told more often to my grandma how much she meant to me. I've never met my other grandparents, they all died before I was born, so I always had only one grandma and when she died I was 18. I still feel envious of those who are my age or older and still have all their grandparents alive😔

The girl at 7:00 has such a beautiful soul, true smile and warming character. Don't need to know people well to see who is a good person. Thank you Thoraya for your videos. They have been helping me in difficult times a lot lately. I truly admire what you do.

I was recently feeling quite anxious about something and this is what I needed to see. I guess behind a facade of smile and confidence we all are dealing with fears. I hope everyone dealing with fears or regrets a good life full of love.

Warning: Do not watch this in public…. 😢 yeah, you will cry.

I havent finish the video but I felt the need to come here and say, first guy, I am so sorry for your loss, you are a good person and its not your fault. You loved your brother and I bet he loved you too. I hope one day you both can be reunited and be surrounded by love and the peace you should have felt at home but never had. I hope life treats you better and you heal, sending you love.

I wish I could've stood up for someone or myself when I felt something ain't right

6:54 her smile brightened my day, it's so contagious! 😁

Loved the ending…Just Wholesome 😢

I wish I had told my grandfather I loved him. He was the first person to show he realised and cared for my mental state, but at that point he was already in his last months of life. Gramps was a tough guy with a soft heart, and he always knew how to make his closed ones feel cherished. He passed away when I was fourteen and I believe it took me close to ten years to actually feel like he wasn't alive anymore. I knew, but couldn't feel. Weird stuff. I should've paid more attention to his words and gestures and realised he meant "chill now, things get better", but I didn't, and I don't remember telling him how I loved him for making me feel cherished. I hope to be as great of a man as him, one day. Quite probably, my hero

Hi thoraya, I watch really often (years now) and I want to have a moment to thank you. What your doing is great :) The deeper things that have meaning. So much of the day can be wasted on silly things that don’t matter. I really feel you have a great heart. People are always in a free state to answer because of you. You’re not judging for example. And you have people’s best interest in mind. We can all learn a lot from that. If everyone learns it will be a much better place here on earth and I am sure your aim is this also. Keep doing the great things and following year heart. The husband will come :) Best wishes! ☀️

Something I wish I had said.. “I was never mad at you, how could I be? There was nothing you did that made me mad , and at you? So every time you asked, I’m sorry I accidentally made it seem like I was mad at you, I truly was never mad at you. Sure, you were annoying and quite a teaser and a big flirt too, but I liked that, because when you showed me how much empathy you show when you love someone, I appreciated that. I’m sorry I might’ve hurt your feelings because I never confessed or really showed much emotion, I was scared of being vulnerable and that you wouldn’t feel the same, you were beyond my league, I couldn’t possibly think you deserved me. And yet you still showed me your love and even if I was quiet all the time, you never gave up on showing me how much you cared… Im sorry I didn’t ask you How you were back on the desks. I’m sorry I should have tried to pursue talking with you after we changed desks, like you did in the beginning. I’m sorry for all the pain I caused. I wish I could tell you how much I love you. I didn’t think I would miss you so hard after that time in middle school, but darn after each day passing each week each month, I’ve missed you more and more than I ever bought was possible. I used to think when a carton character was in love and their heart was beating out their chests and you could hear it, I thought they were being dramatic, but when I passed you in the hallway, I heard my heart beating and it was so loud and I felt a feeling I’ve never felt with anyone else… and I keep feeling that feeling and I’ve been feeling that feeling with you. I’m still trying to match your shirt colors, as I’ve passed you in school, but sometimes I don’t have the color and sometimes I have a jacket on that’s covering the color. Sometimes I don’t even see you and I just have to pick a random color, but now i see our common color is blue so I’ll try to wear that more often. I miss you, that time in 6th grade was really special to me and I would have never thought I’d fall so hard for you I’d fall past the ground into the world and past the world and I it space and I keep floating and falling for you deeper and deeper. I wish I could show you how much you mean to me…I love you and by the way, How are you? I’m fine… You can call me a jerk if you want but your not really a jerk to me and your not a coward to me either. Your a great thing that happened to me and you changed me for the better, hopefully I can put more effort into showing you I care and love you❤

I miss my brother. Loved him dearly, we all did. I never did anythIng that I needed to ask forgiveness for. But I wish I had visited more often. His wife didnT seem to like us much, so we stayed away. He loved her, and that was good enough for us. I just couldn't bear watching him mistreated verbally when i loved him so much.

There is this girl named Isabelle that I met when I was in 6th grade. I thought she was captivatingly beautiful and eventually I shared my feelings with her and she shared that she felt the same. I don't think that we were ever "boyfriend & girlfriend" but there was (to my knowledge looking back on it) a mutual feeling of a relationships that was more than friend between us. I told my mom about her and how much I liked her and what we did when we would hang out and talk with each other. My mom for some reason believed (with no real knowledge of Isabelle) that Isabelle liked another boy and just wanted/liked my attention. Eventually I started to believe my mom, not because there were any signs of Isabelle being dishonest or being two-faced, but because my mom was my mom and "mothers know best." My mom was all I had growing up and I didn't turn to anybody else for their opinion on Isabelle. After constant persuasion by mom that Isabelle was lying to me and liked another boy, I believe my mom. I told the most beautiful, compassionate, intelligent, creative and kind-hearted girl I've ever met, in my entire life, that I "don't want to talk to you anymore." Later down the road a year or so, after I'd moved schools, I told her that I was sorry and she always said, "No no, it's totally fine Cristian" but I don't believe that it was "fine." I'm 18 now and I still think about her after a little over 7 years. I'm across the country from her now and if I ever go back to that state, I'll be sure to visit her. I wish I told Isabelle "I love you" before I messed everything up, because I truly think that a part of my heart is still with her, even though she may not feel the same.

A separate video of yours came across my recommendations, and led me to check out your channel and this video. I don't remember the last time I cried, but both videos have had me tearing up... Thanks for these videos you make, this is awesome.

I aspire to be like the gent at 4:10 Vulnerability can help kindle the creation of so many special relationships, though it still frightens me at times. Something I’m working on.

The two women at the end were both amazing.

I couldn't imagine comparing an always changing person to a plate of food.

I have a brother that's lockdown for a good min.i jus want him to be absolutely ok when he gets out. I think of him everyday, we didn't grow up together but the love never die.

“You could have waited a little longer..” -me to my childhood friend who is getting married

5:10 Sending lots of love to you Lady, you are strong and awesome. STAY GOLD!!! ❤‍🩹

I love the way your videos make me feel vulnerable and human. They remind me how everyone has a burden and I am not the only one struggling with feelings and thoughts. Thank u for doing this ❤️