Things I Wish I Knew About Being Trans 

Kirbizia please talk less about trans and talk more about trains. My personal favourite locomotive is KCS 4650

I'd be trans too if my deadname was Melvin or whatever it was. I mean, I'm already trans, but at least I was never a namelet

step 1: dont overthink it- s h i t

So “randomly” Fell into finding this channel. The fear of 1 not passing and 2 it just “being a fetish” has scared the hell out of me as I’ve come to terms with all of this. But at 28, I’m finally acknowledging these feelings I’ve had since I was a kid. It just be like that I think. 🥚 🍳

I might send this to a few baby trans I know, thanks Kirbizia, wish you the best

Ok amidst all the dank irony here's a serious comment. This video honestly came at the perfect time. Literally just two days ago I realized that I'm a massive fucking egg and I'm still processing it now. Thank u carbizia, stay epic trans

You know the fun part? It was reddit where I have found myself doubting me being "trans enough to deserve to become a girl" and stuff. Back in 2017 when I found out about this stuff and couldn't stop looking at it and thinking about it - you know, as a cis person does - r/traa had more stripey sock memes and r/egg_irl has made me think I'm not trans enough because of the constant "not trans enough" narrative. And it is in 2022 on 4chan where I finally reached the conclusion that I shouldn't ask for permission, and should just buy the HRT and take it. /hrtgen/ my beloved Granted, this happened when my entire life has been broken down against my will by the war in July 2022 (I am Russian), and besides going to /tttt/ I also was just in general in a crisis of identity and what I want to actually do in life and what is it that I hate about my body that stops me from going out there and socializing and stuff... that's when I put it together. When it was almost too late because I was approaching the twinkdeath. Even luckshits like me aren't immune from twinkdeath. (remember when I said I thought I wasn't trans enough? I didn't have enough dysphoria because I'm a luckshit with a female skeleton and like A cup boobs and small genitalia and stuff) There are a few things that keep me going in my transition right now: 1) I actually have a social life now that I'm a trans girl, and I feel right at home in the community; 2) being legally female makes me immune from mobilization; 3) if I don't transition now, I'll do it at 45. It is inevitable.

Ace nonbinary gamer girl here. I'm mad my neck is still intact. The outro slaps btw

Snap my neck

So...I realized that I'm trans not gender fluid today (a few hours ago). The last few months I'm less and less identifying myself as a man, it doesn't make sense for me, then I thought "Hmm ok, maybe I'm gender fluid?" but not shure. But today I realized that I can't feel myself as a man, it's weird, seems "wrong" and thinking about it and "studying" YEAH!!! I'm trans. But I'm really terrified because I live in Brazil, I don't know how my parents would act and everything. Plus I would love to make the transition but using the public health system (S.U.S) it's around 10 years to wait and if I want to pay it's around R$40.000 (A couple years ago, today I don't know). I'm really confused, that's it. Thank you for the video, really helped me to feel better now.

Thank you for this. Having lived with dysphoria for so long, it is very hard for me to believe, and kind of incomprehensible o understand, that life can get better. I still need to come out to my parents and transition, but I am hopeful that things will really get better.

Trans ace here, kirbizia is slowly killing me her magic

What if I just want to be a feminine guy like idk what’s wrong with me. People say I should just be trans

“Fuck and piss and shit everywhere” 😭

"if i see an ace trans person in the comments imma snap ur neck" me, an ace transmasc: *ha*

Just found this channel and holy shit I appreciate it. It actually kinda,, put some confidence in me. Thank you.

You're my perfect mix of crude and wholesome :) You've been really helpful on this journey I never thought I'd be on. Thanks a lot for your radical honestly, it's really nice to hear other's actual experiences like this.

Who tf gradually goes through iron keep you either run through it and pray you don't get hit or you're a fake gamer

found ur channel on a yt binge. on my final hurdle to hrt (a year and a half after coming out, being stuffed around and put on a ridiculously long list) so of course the excitement is obviously forcing me to binge trans yt and completely sending me right back in dysphoric hell. there is only so many amazing hrt transformation videos i can take mentally while dealing with torturing myself physically with various hair removal devices, my old psychologist who never bothered to send a letter to the endo team which would have me already on hrt rn and having to find a new one while in a downward mental spiral. this video was pretty relateable and your other stuff is a refreshing change for trans content.

I’ve been on hrt for almost 2 yrs and I learned a lot from this :3 the whole sex thing is true… everyone’s perception of me made anything relating to sex feel dirty but I’m learning to stop caring and enjoying every aspect of who I am.

Just realized this video is 4 years old but I honestly liked that you went deep, it helps a lot, especially the thing about optimism. I think these past few months I've forgotten that necessity. Optimism is what helped me get past these past 3 years since I've came to my realization of being trans. Thank you.

based and E pilled gamer once again graces us with her ultimate wisdom

As a "non-existant" ace person, we don't exist. /j

I guess I don't exist (i'm ace)

Great video, helped me a lot. The ds2 gameplay hurts to watch tho like how wre you this bad at it (i have 1k hours in it)

Thank you for being real honest. It’s very difficult to open up so much to yourself let alone the internet about the struggles. I started taking my medica less than a week ago. I too am hopeful for about what the future might bring. This is a reminder that it’s about where you wanna get not how one starts the journey imo

This was really eye-opening, Thank you.

Hello! I am a ten year old kid, And I would like to speak for the world that being non-straight or gay or bi or whatever, is okay and should be accepted worldwide. I like everybody, regardless of their gender or ethnicity or colour. I am bisexual, my mother is a bit of a phobe to anyone who is not straight so I don't tell her. but I just wanted to tell you kirb, that it's okay to be not straight. that's all!

you really helped me, all points hit very hard and i needed all of it, thank you

I wish i knew why I love cbt so much

Thank you so much for making this, hilarious and incredibly validating.

the ending made me feel like i just finished a life changing movie. thank you so much

Love your channel, these trans videos are really helping me

I loved that you used Scatmans World 😍

the video was fu##in' awesome, but i couldn´t help but notice your beeeeutifulll mace build, i really like maces.

Thx, for the advice. The Problem I have is that I came out in a very small circle very recently, and I do feel happier over all but often I have a lot of self doubt and just feel a bit unvalidated...

Kirb I hope you don’t get Corn Virus u are epic

Pls do fortnight gameplay next time!! Thakns.

am little baby egg thanks for making this video you've said some things I really needed to hear uwu

@kirbizia you are so inspiring to me I love your story I love this video you're f****** awesome and valid and I love you for the videos you post there make me feel a little better about being a baby trans girl myself love you bye 😊❤️ p.s WTF is the song at the end called it's awesome

thanks for recommending glass beach it's album good album

My gal, your words are helping my baby trans brain from the future on a hard day; thank you so, so much. Like, point for point, this is what I needed to hear ; _ ;

This video was a huge help to me, thanks ^^

needed dis tysm.

Yeah my self esteem has been so much higher since I swore off /b/

Yo this is super old now, but thank you for this video. It was really helpful!

I don't think you have to be depressed to be trans. I've been depressed before for sure, but that's not even close to why I'm trans. I don't think of it as a purely fetishy thing either. There are a whole myriad of reasons why I'm trans. I don't hate myself, I don't think I'm a "trender", and I don't go on 4Chan lol. I'm sure not proud of everything I am, but I'm very happy with myself. I think I'm getting dosed just fine. And I didn't start my transition until I was in my 20s, and I'm still very proud of myself. I'm in a very good place right now, and my life has gotten so much better.

this was actually so validating. thanks :)

My neck was snaped in the making of this comment

I know this is going to sound very stupid but i was pushing the fact that i was trans away just because i wasnt feeling dysphoric yet keyword its yet but this helped me a ton because of the very first you said if you want to be the opposite gender your trans but im not going to come out untill im 18 thank you for all these trans supportive videos ❤

omg the glass beach song at the end

Honestly, I've questioned my gender a lot recently, and I'm genuinely beginning to realise that I'm probably not just lying to myself. Maybe I do gave this desire in me to be a girl and im not just making it up. Its nice to know others go through doubt too. I genuinely appreciate thus video existing. Thanks :)

ughh this video could have saved me a lot of pain and confusion this past few months had i seen it sooner :(

Kirbizia, the legend.

I don't know what I'd do without videos like this

When I came out I instantly found other transfemme and masc even more attractive than I had before, which was already very high. I just knew that's what I wanted and had wanted all along and suddenly I could stop compartmentalizing it as "just a fetish" and let that and the romantic part play nicely together and I'm never been happier nor have I ever had more inner peace. I just knew that because I finally thought that I was attractive and that I thought other trans people were the most attractive people in the world, that there were many people who would think the same about me. I had already attracted bisexual women like mad, I will even more now. So I didn't get any of the self-hate at all. Just the opposite. My ego developed into the conscientious stage as I came out, so I finally care about myself and love myself now. All this together has just made me so happy and so confident and so certain that I will find a unique and gorgeous transwoman/nonbinarywoman of my dreams, one of many out there! There is no one soul mate, just soul mates! And there are many! The ego develops with age. Many people never get to the conscientious phase (phase 6) and are stuck in the self-aware phase (phase 5) and most of our favorite bigots are stuck in the conformist phase (4) This is where your "ideal" capitalist stays their whole life. Phase 7 is autonomous. I've known one person my whole life who is here. He has never had a wife and is completely happy all on his own. He's incredibly. This is someone who goes and gives their money away and collects trash and builds a self-sustaining house up in Canada. The way our society treats mates is not natural. We're not supposed to have 1 mate our whole lives. If we do, our egos stay at best in that 6th phase. This is called Loevinger's 9 stages of ego development btw. It's so interesting and in my anecdotal experience rings 100% true. 8 and 9 are "Integrated" like being happy on your own and then being able to get another wife, but you guys have a VERY healthy and open relationship where each of you go off on your own at times and even have other sexual encounters aside from each other but it's not cheating. If you know about it before hand it's not cheating. Every one of my next relationships I'm going to tell her just go and do it if you have the chance. You only life once. I'll still be yours. It's not cheating if I agree and know about it beforehand. I'm not a cuckhold if it doesn't affect me, or if agreed upon beforehand. It's so animalistic to let your emotions control you so badly. I'll go off and sleep with other people too if she agrees. If we're both cucks no ones a cuck lol. This is just a healthy natural relationship. Then we will have 100% trust in each other. Expecting someone to like you for that many decades... It's A LOT to ask. You NEED something new once in a while. This is why we have so many divorces. JUST LET THEM GO OUT AND GET LAID. It doesn't mean anything. And even if it did to them mean something and move in with them instead of you, then great, you get to go find someone new too!! That's the scariest part but also the best part :)

this is a cool great video. whats the song that plays on the transition titles with the 4rtnite dance

Oh no. I need to run. I'm an ace trans man. My final message, change da world, goodb-

i really appreciated that first point

Thank you for this video

Ryan Magee laugh

Yea I'm 14 for a while there i was worried I was way to ahead of myself when I look back it's so obvious. I'm lucky that I found out so quick

omg thank you so much!!!!! this really fucking help >.

Im fuckin super greatful I've found your channel! Have an awesome day!!!!!!

damn can you tell me who made the pic at 7:50 or at least a link to a high quality img of it

thank u kirbizia for my life

7:48 is that the mf glass beach track art? never expected to see that here. also pog video, very based :3

I hope u make more vids like this

Very good video

Thank you ❤

RU-vid: sees me watch gay content, recommends me female Vtubers Also RU-vid: sees me watch a single video joking about doing a FNV run without being trans (by a different creator), proceeds to recommend me trans content I have no problem with trans people, it’s just that the content isn’t applicable to me and I wanted to talk about how janky RU-vid’s recommendation system is. Probably a good video though.

more supermegaposting please kirbz

Baby trans here, thank you

why do i love ur channel so much even though i get triggered so much from it randomly

omg I love glass beach too

I want to be a girl but im still cis tho

waiting for my neck to be snapped:)

I watched this and then spiralled into confusion for 6 months to make sure I was 100% trans, now I rewatch it and I’m fine once more

How do i not overthink it

dark souls 2 is so real

Was that Ryan? From SuperMega??

Not really a baby trans anymore but I'm still pre-hrt and in a bad place. That stuff at the end was something I really needed to hear, thank you.

Trains.

is u joke about ace ppl or why u be mean?

Would u say there was a huge difference for you starting hrt at 16 vs if you started at 18? I've known ever since around 15/16 but only got to start hrt at 18 and now I feel like I missed my chance to ever pass lol😅

best tutorial

Bby trans ~ Excuse me Kirbizia but what’s your real life name like did you pick Kirbizia or just go by your birth name? ÚwÙ ( pls don’t snap my neck)

Was that last thing also a tip for transfems?

As an ace trans person I am fearing for my life right now.

My neck is broke now i guess

Coc 🐕

I wish I'd watched this video 10 years ago 😅😂😭

please make my neck go snappy snap

Damn, my neck was just snapped

2:53 aero/ace people:am I a joke to you?

blass gleach :3

My Ace Nb Partner Got Their Neck Snapped, I Am Now Rapidly Approaching

I used to cry myself to sleep wanting to be a girl as a child. For no fucking reason. Then in highschool i found out that its not normal for boys to dream as girls all the fucking time. The whole time before that people were telling me i was gay or trans or something and that entire time i felt that i couldn't simply because i couldn't rationalize it in my head. I used to say "i cant open jars and i can make a good sandwich but that doesn't make me a girl" to deny any allegations. I couldn't find any actually observable evidence of myself until that moment where i was like "wait boys don't normally dream of genderbent versions of themselves?". Moral of the story just fucking listen to people and listen to yourself even if it makes no sense at the time. At least explore it a little before you decide.

3:38 why do i get validation from this

Holy shit I love glass beach