this week was a weird one 

I know it must have not been easy to upload but i for one am extremely grateful you did. I think the internet needs more of this content. I have health anxiety as well and it's har for people to understand that don't have it.

I have health anxiety and youre the first person I've heard talk about the feeling of not breathing before bed, it's so scary and it's a viscous cycle that makes falling asleep so hard when it's happening. Now days I just try tire myself out and go to bed when I'm exhausted. Hope things improve ❤

i feel so glad that you talked about this because i’ve been feeling the same way! hope you feel better soon!

Hey Soph, a few years ago I used to struggle very badly with health anxiety, and a lot of the things you mentioned happened to me. I always thought that I couldn't breathe and as a kid, before I knew it was anxiety, I actually went to the hospital a few times. It turned out that it was always just anxiety. I hope that it turns out to be nothing and you can find ways to manage your anxiety, because there is nothing scarier than constantly thinking your dying! I love you, thank you for being honest 💗

Sending you love Soph, thank you so much for sharing your feelings and emotions. You have so much support💖

Reading all these beautiful & supportive comments has honestly warmed my heart 🥹❤️ thank you as always for sharing Soph, I can tell it means so much to myself and everyone else here. Sending all my love and strength to you xx

The light brown in your hair really makes your eyes pop💗 so beautiful!!

I love this ‘real depiction of your week’ as you said at the end of the video❤️

Sending you so much love, Sophie ❤

Oh Soph, my sweet friend, I am so sorry about how you have been feeling - my heart breaks for you. Thank you for your openness and vulnerability, I am standing with you 🤍 You are so loved and so worthy and I'll be keeping you in my prayers. All the love for you!! Hope you have had the most loveliest and abundantly blessed Easter xx

I hope you’re feeling better soon 💗 you’re strong and be proud of how far you’ve come and I hope everything starts to ease for you. xxx

I have such bad health anxiety as well! Thank you sooo much for opening up about it. It really helps knowing that I am not alone in this ❤️ sending you love!!

I just wanted to say you are so vulnerable for sharing your struggles. I myself have anxiety especially when it comes to my health and it isn’t easy and you are never alone. I am so proud of you for being honest with your doctor and following through with doing all the tests and finding a psychologist. Seeing a psych have helped me so much I hope it helps you too xx

Big big hugs! You are doing amazing!

Honestly the best hostess of all time!! I really look forward to your Easter parties in particular. Everything is so aesthetic and beautiful and look like so much fun and so wholesome soul filling 💗

I hope you feel better soon. Thanks for opening up, it really helps with my own problems... Not feeling alone ❤😇

Thank you for being so vulnerable and open about the things you are going through it. Wishing for the best results hope everything goes okay. ❤❤

Thanks for always being open & honest soph💗You really are a breath of fresh air here on the tuubs and you truly inspire me to be true to myself on my channel too!! Sending you lots of love🤗💞

I'm so glad you posted this, and I was crying with you because I know exactly what it feels like going through all those tests. I went through it all until I got my endometriosis diagnosis and had to face my fear of going to the doctors and hospital, and then once we got to the bottom of my issues it helped so much. You've got this!

Sending so much love soph 🥺😚

Thanks for being so real ❤

Remember you need to feel to heal Soph! Crying, acknowledging your feelings and feeling your grief is so important! Sending you love ❤️

hi Sophie, I really hope you are feeling better! I struggle with general anxiety but I also do have a bit of health anxiety and it was just really refreshing watching someone talk so honestly about it. thank you so much, ily

I went through the same thing years ago and in my experience it was put down to anxiety. I went on medication and got into therapy and it saved my life. Hope things improve for you soph and you're able to get to the bottom of this xx

I completely feel you. I lost my dad 6 months ago and I’ve got such bad health anxiety and convince myself I have so many illnesses when I get sick. I literally get you. Sending so much love xxx

Oh gorg, I’m so glad you shared this!!! So real & vulnerable, I can relate to pieces aswell after losing my dad; and have had moments of that feeling like I’m about to die/pass out before sleep (subconscious fear getting active right before sleep) ❤️ it’s scary as, processing the grief with practitioners has cleared it completely! I hope you find some ways to work through it & heal gorg, thank you for sharing your big heart in this space 😘

Thank you for your bravery and vulnerability in sharing how hard this week was for you. I saw myself in what you experienced - health anxiety and the fatigue of trying to understand what is going on with your body is so relatable for those of us who have been on that journey. It takes strength to advocate for your health and it's admirable!! Wishing you luck and love 🤗❤

Sending hugs and love your way ❤ lost my mum recently and have been suffering with health anxiety daily. Praying for you 🙏🏼 and hope you know how strong you are ❤

I have health anxiety too, but never have spoken too / heard anyone else talk about it. This video makes me feel so much less isolated, so thank you!! I hope you get the answers you're looking for, and some relief from your symptoms soon

have always loved you and shall continue to , for the amount of honesty and grit you hold! You are insanely strong to have put this out here and I can totally relate to it . I’ve anxiety and been through therapy . I understand. Love ya. Sending you love and strength 💗

Thank you for sharing this Soph! Let me tell you: you are not alone. I relate to a lot of that stuff. Hang in there, we will be ok 💗💗🙏🏻

I actually started ACOTAR this week because of Rachel videos! So fun, excited to hear what you think about it :) I also was so touched when you shared your feelings about your health. As a nurse I just want to sit with you, explain things in a reassuring way and hold your hand you know ahaha. You can do this Soph! Facing fears takes a lot of courage and energy, so take care of yourself an extra lot. xxx

Health anxiety is so normal. I had it really bad after I lost both my grandparents and almost lost my brother. I have a lot of anxiety around doctors and hospitals. There is light at the end of the tunnel and it does get better. You got this

I also suffer from terrible health anxiety from traumatic past health related events & I’ve just taken the step this week of finding a therapist, I’m excited to see how it goes! I’m proud of you for reaching out. You got this Soph! I know how incredibly hard this thought process can be, so hard to know when to listen to your body & when to know it’s just trauma speaking 🥺 ❤️

I hope ur feeling better now! Ur bf is right, there’s nothing to be ashamed of and crying is natural! Sending love allll the way from Glasgow, Scotland 🤍🫶🏼

I struggled with the same exact thing when I was in year 8, like the EXACT same struggle at night. It’s horrible, hope you’re okay and always here for you if you need ❤

I completely understand what you mean by the shortness of breath, it’s my main symptom of anxiety, and when I notice it it gets worse which makes me more anxious which makes it worse etc, and I also often get this at night before sleeping. The main thing that helps is distracting my mind from my body, either by doing some mindfulness e.g closing my eyes and thinking about what I could see, hear, feel etc ❤

Sending you hugs soph. I’ve never experienced medical anxiety, but I have experienced medical burnout and you’re right your health is important, but while all the tests suck your doctors making sure that if they find the root of everything it’s the right cause leaving no stone unturned…. Sending good vides that you get better

I went through almost an identical situation a couple years back with my health. I was having crying episodes , shortness of breath, and very bad anxiety. I was sure something was wrong and then was sure I was dealing with depression and anxiety which was true. My dr wanted me to try medication and that gave me anxiety even more. Dealt with a panic attack while sleeping which made me not be able to sleep for days and days. It was a struggle and it tested me so much. I had to do an MRI which I freaked out in and panicked lol but girl. It was life changing in such a way I would never want to change it or take it back. God used all of it to grow me as a person and challenge me and change me. I am stronger, more faith filled and faithful, and i know what’s important. My faith in God allowed me to relinquish any control I thought I had and in doing that I found so much peace and I’ve never been more healthy and happy in my life. God changed me and it was so hard and sad and scary and it wasn’t an easy fix but that’s what made it work. I would recommend praying for wisdom and guidance if you are a believer or even if your not girl pray :) and I did a lot of research on sleep anxiety and somethings like watching my sugar before evening and staying away from caffeine helped but it wasn’t an easy fix. It was two years of growth and change and finding God and myself in all of it. Health anxiety is a thing for sure too but please please remember we do not have control over that. Even eating well working out reading lots it’s just not something we can change. What we can change is how we perceive it and none of us live forever we will all get older and God willing figure out that life is about not wasting a moment on anxiety or stress or worry. It’s about loving people and having experiences and for me growing my relationship with God. Let go of that fear and you will be changed girl as much as that sounds cheesy or not easy to do. Just let it all go and know Gods got this. Sending prayers and love your way! ❤️❤️❤️😇

Thank u so much for making this video Soph I'm so sorry u going through this it's the worst I suffer from health anxiety because my mom had a lot of health issues and she passed away last year and it just made my anxiety worse because I'm constantly thinking I'm having her health issues and it's causing me so many health problems with my stomach and gut,constantly being sick and anxious it's the worst thing I'm so happy to read all the comments to learn I'm not the only one going through this,it gets worse at night because I lay awake for hours not being able to sleep because my mind is so busy over thinking everything i have to book an appointment to have a scope for my stomach but im so scared because im thinking what if they find something serious how am going to cope with it, sending u so much love I wish I can give u a big hug❤

Sophie you have NO IDEA how much I relate with everything you are struggling with. Lately my body has been feeling just "off" like I know how my body "usually feels" and lately it has JUST NOT BEEN FEELING RIGHT AT ALL. I have been getting so many tests and stuff and nothing comes up and it just makes me spiral even more because in my head is scary to think they are not seeing SOMETHING so what if it gets worst before they find out what is happening to me? I am sending you so much love! Stay away from Google, and try and find different distractions... also I have been telling myself QUITE A LOT "one day at a time". BREATH & let it go... live every day. Love you Sophie

Hey Soph I can totally relate on what you're saying... I have anxiety and this happened to me before, sometimes I feel like I'm about to faint and I see all black and one night I was literally shaking and I thought the worst but I knew it was just my anxiety! I'm sending you a big virtual hug and I love you so much!!🌻💛

I just have to say you are not alone at all. I have always been the best sleeper until the beginning of this year. My husband and I went on a Christmas/NY trip to Germany and Italy and I’m not kidding when I say every night I wouldn’t fall asleep until 4am. I thought maybe it would get better when i got back into my own bed but it honestly didn’t. I felt the exact same things you did - the breathing thing, and especially the anxiety about sleep which ultimately would keep me awake. It would get to the point that I was convinced I would never sleep again and slowly die from it 😭 It’s so nice to know others go experience it too (not nice, but comforting!). I pray you get better soon Soph! These things really suck :(

Thank you for sharing your experience because it helps ❤❤

Thinking about it I don’t think I’ve had a good/ rested nights sleep in over a year. I think I might just be used to it now and it honestly scares me. With more and more attention being brought to the importance of sleep just stresses me out and then I can’t sleep. Thank you so much for sharing your experiences and what’s going on with you at the moment. I hope you’re okay and just try to believe that things will be okay and get better ❤ sending lots of love and light x

Can not describe how relatable this video is and just comforting almost. But so sorry you're going through this, you'll be ok ❤in the end you'll be ok.

I’ve been through exactly what you’re describing and it’s the worst feeling! Especially the times when you question yourself if you’re just being dramatic or if there really is a serious problem.. it’s really frustrating and draining. So sorry you’re going through this ❤. Through lots of tests and research I found out my symptoms were all related to low iron (look up the link between low iron - ferritin and anxiety). I struggled for a longgg time with shortness of breath, feeling cold, light-headed, anxious, sleep difficulties, fatigue etc and it all started going away when I got my iron levels up. Also found out that low iron is a symptom of a deeper root cause, often related to gut health (so most people with the symptoms you mentioned also have GI symptoms). Sharing this to give you some hope that you can and will get better - stay strong girl 🤗

I bloody love you Soph. I am so happy to be able to be on this journey with you ❤

Your vulnerability in this video is beautiful Soph, thank you for sharing. Seeing a psych changed my life, I can feel you have a great journey ahead of you once all the testing is done and you can work towards feeling better ❤

Dear sophie I have exactly the same anxiety issues about my healthcare and also felt like you did shaking but it wasn’t cold at all and I was really freaking out. I always try to book medical appointments to feel better about something I probably don’t have and also therapy helps a lot. Anyway I just want to thank you for sharing this with the world and to say that I love your content and that I follow you from so many years ago🤍🤍

Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us Soph. You're always so brave in sharing the aspects of your life in the most relatable way. It is so nice to hear that there are other people out there feeling the same thing. You're the first person I have seen publicly share their feelings towards health anxiety. Proud of you!

Thankyou for sharing your ups and downs it will help alot of people ❤

Soph 🥺🥺 sending you lots of love! ❤️❤️

Sending so much love to you!

I started crying when you did :( you're so strong for trying to figure all of this out even if it scares you or brings up negative emotions!!! you should be so proud of yourself for doing things to take care of yourself

I have never commented on a yt video but I also lost my mum to illness and the part about X-rays being triggering is so incredibly relatable. Thank you so much for this video and making people in similar situations feel as though the aren’t alone. ❤

Omg i am so sorry that you are going through this 😢 makes me so sad

Thank you so so much Sophie for being so honest in your videos. 💖Just know you’re not alone with your anxieties and I know I’m not the only person this video has truly touched. sending so many hugs 🤗🤗🤗

Thank you so much for being real and normalizing these emotions and the honesty of life

Thank you for the update 😊

Evenin your sadness and anxiety you are an inspiration for healthy living and taking great care of yourself. You’re amazing!!! ❤❤❤

Just remember you are a strong, beautiful and capable woman Soph! I may not understand your loss but I've had my own recently & it was what gave me the kick in the ass to take better care of myself personally. I recently had to wear a heart monitor for 2wks and besides the slight discomfort from the adhesive and not showering as much, it was ezpz. I was told by my last GP that all the symptoms I was experiencing was anxiety and it took a few years of tests and a new Dr to realize that it wasn't... and see that is the thing with anxiety, most of the times it manifests within your mind but sometimes it can have an underlying root cause. I feel like I'm more of a hypochondriac now in the sense that now I know I have an illness (POTS) and since I can't get in with a specialist for a year, that something else is always wrong because I just don't feel well. Never forget that all the strength you need is deep down inside of you, and I'm sure your Mom is there holding your hand, cheering you on the entire way. Much love babes, you got this! 💜

There's nothing worst than not sleeping...... I really hope you get it all sorted really soon 💗💗💗

The Easter brunch was so so cute 🐣 you and Rach always nail it!! Also sending you so much love Soph, you've got this ❤

Sending you lots of love and big hugs 💛 totally understand health anxiety and everything that comes with it! I struggle to get to a general appointment with a GP because of it. And blood tests are on a whole other level, must have someone with me the whole time as I’m known to faint also Fingers crossed you can find some answers soon 🤞🏼 You’ve inspired me to get on top of my health anxiety xx

Sorry you’re feeling unwell! I have anxiety and it took me a long time to realise it was causing a lot of physical issues such as IBS, poor sleep ect I found working on anxiety and getting regular acupuncture has really helped☺️

GREAT that you feel you can trust your doctor! That's so important and know you're not alone.

I can tell you I’ve felt the exact breathing thing. Thank you for talking about this! My health anxiety symptoms have always shifted and I think I tend to be hyper aware of my body 😢 Massage therapy has really helped me regulate my nervous system. ❤ truly appreciate your transparency

Sorry to hear all this Soph. I hope everything starts to ease soon and you have some answers or ways of coping with the anxiety 💐

Soph, I just want to give you a big hug and tell you that everything will be okay. I’m sending you so much love and hope 💖🌸

Hope you are okay Soph! I can relate to everything you have said. Keep seeing your doctor and a psychologist is amazing too. It will get better with time💕💕you look amazing also!!

I have bad health anxiety and struggle with heart palpitations and not being able to catch my breath before I sleep, but I’ve found that running in the evenings to tire me out and doing things that distract me that don’t involve sitting down help before I get into bed, also listening to sleep stories on the Calm app and having my diffuser on help. The background noise helps me focus on something other than up my breathing or heart, although every night is different these little things do help :)

Oh Soph I just want to give you the biggest hug. I’m so sorry for what you’re going through. Please keep us updated and showing how you are honestly doing. Thinking of you and I hope you get some answers soon ❤️x

sending love to you Soph xx

I appreciate you sharing this so much, I have very similar health problems and I've heard "good news your bloods are normal" enough times to loose a little faith in doctors, but it's still definitely worth getting those tests just to make sure. Seeing a psychologist is a good idea too. I have gotten a lot better in the past year and I'm sure you will find a way to feel better too.

I’ve been through the breathing thing when going to sleep and it turned out to be anxiety. It was so bad that I didn’t even realise it was anxiety and my body would just have the reactions without me even thinking about it - like reflex. It happened because I was highly stressed during the day but was kind of covering it so the reactions would come out in physical ways (feeling like I’m not breathing or can’t breathe) at night when my body would try to relax. Once I started seeing a psych it started to clear up and now it never happens. Definitely start seeing someone to work on your anxiety. Hope you feel better soon xx

I have health anxiety and have had it since my teens (now approaching 30!), I can completely relate to everything you said and how you try to work through it in your own mind! I also have to chat about it to get it out of my system, hope you're feeling better soon and manage to get some decent sleep 🙂x

proud of you!!! 🫶🏼

Hey Sophie, I am really sorry for what you're going through, it must be so hard. It is also so hard to not know what is causing your symptoms. I don't know if this will help you or not because I've never been in your shoes but I intend it to be encouragement. The thing that always helps me when I feel anxious about my health (I have severe chronic illness and have spend the majority of the last 9 years in bed :p) is that I tell myself not matter what is wrong or what happens to me, I'm always going to find a way to be okay and work through it and that those feelings are okay to feel. Anxiety is often a way our nervous system try to protect us (especially of there is related trauma) so I just try to care for myself and be really gentle with myself instead of telling myself to "just snap out of it" because I know my nervous system is just doing the best it can.

Soph I can not explain how much it means to me (and I am sure many others) how much you share with us and how genuine you are! Thank you so much for sharing your raw health experience with us, I feel grateful to kinda (in some way) be along for the journey, cheering you on! Always sending you so much love Soph! xx

I just want to give you a MASSIVE hug (or two) ...I know that Sam works a lot BUT i KNOW that he would go to a Doctor Appointment with you in a heartbeat.. It doesn't have to be every one and even if he is just there to be 'the driver' to and from the appointment.. it would do wonders for anxiety/nervousness. 💖

Sending love and strength to you during this challenging time! Unknown is scary but there are experts out there to guide you and your loved ones to support you ❤ you will get through this

You are glowing 🤍

I’ve had the same symptoms before and tried the essential oil, sleepy tea, meditation, etc. I found one of the things that helped the best was to stop trying to stop the anxiety. Which sounds weird but not fighting it and instead just being with it and experiencing it and reminding myself that I am ok, and gently acknowledging that I’m doing this to myself and I have the power to stop these feelings. Know that your not alone in these feelings and it will pass & they may come back again but it gets easier.

I'll be thinking of you this week with your x-ray and heart check coming up. I've had to get these tests done in the past so I understand where you're coming from🩷 Sending you lots of love and prayers sweet Sophie!

Sending your virtual hugs! It’s hard losing a parent. Some days I just breakdown too. Our body really can hold trauma for so long without us even knowing

I’m sorry to see you so upset soph, I am truly grateful for you sharing such sensitive footage, I feel like unfortunate as it is, Alot of us can relate to how you are feeling, ❤

Sophie I really wanna hug you right now. This video makes me feel so bad for you

Hey soph, I never comment but this really struck out to me. I had some traumatic things happen to me when I was younger that I never dealt with. About 4 years ago now I started dealing with bad health anxiety. I had the same exact thing I would almost fall asleep gasping for air and then straight awake again because your body is legit stuck in fight or flight which also is causing the shortness of breath, which I had ALWAYS. Mine got so bad I couldn't even do things, I couldn't be alone without having a panic attack because I thought I was dying constantly. Anyways its a good story because I really really healed my past trauma with an amazing therapist who got to the root of my childhood and honestly I cant even believe how much I healed. I don't get any of those feeling anymore, I could ry writing this its so amazing to feel good again. I still feel anxiety from time to time which is completely fine but honestly its just so amazing. I also always thing that It was so horrible but I don't regret going through the hardesr time of my life because it was my body telling me to slow down and truly feel all the pain that I had left inside, I am a much more empathetic and strong person now so hang in there!!!! Lots of love

Love you girl❤

love u, ur such an inspiration

Watched your vlog last nite and the way you explained how you go to fall asleep then suddenly wake up happens to me too everything you explain is very similar to me I have had an accident recently and it's given me ptsd which has caused me anxiety attacks etc and yes I get aches pains etc then panic then anxiety kicks in its absolutely horrible I've just started therapy and had to go on tablets as it all go too much sending big hugs Sam is brilliant extremely supportive sending 🤗

I also lost my mom to cancer and can totally relate to you with the health anxiety. I always put off going to doctors or any medical exams because of past experiences even though I know I should go...you're an inspiration! sending you so much love and hope you get answers soon.

i had something similar happen to me. i’ve always had health anxiety and last year i started getting really bad chest pains, doctors said i badly bruised my ribs but x-rays didn’t show anything so i just had to wait it out. after 6 weeks nothing changed other than my anxiety getting worse and quickly stopped me from being able to do everyday things. i had to get a heart monitor as well and nothing came up. a part of me wanted there to be something and seeing you talk about this has made me feel so much less alone so thank you. i truly look up to you. i’m doing a lot better but still struggle often and it just comes with anxiety so starting to see a psychologist hoping it helps

Thank you for sharing Soph 💛

Hi Soph, i just want to send you love & support for your appointments & hoping you get some helpful answers. Also happy Easter. ❤

Hey soph I hope you are feeling better. I recently had a miscarriage at 21 and watching your video has helped me to feel not so alone

I’m so sorry you’re going through all of this! I can definitely relate. I know small things won’t magically cure my anxiety but I try what I can. I know it’s hard but I suggest you try cutting out coffee. Even if it’s just for one week, cut it out and see how your anxiety feels. I cut out coffee & alcohol for a month and I felt so much more stable. I still have both time to time but I just limit it now

I literally have this exact same problem, I honestly thought I was the only person and was just going crazy. My anxiety like makes me hyper fixate on my breathing and my heart beating and then it almost makes me forget how to do everything and then I go into a panic state. It’s so weird, I’m sorry you are also experiencing this soph x😢

oh girl u doing great getting help all just really goood 💕