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The most profound experience was when we stood next to each other. After that my whole body went through a kundalini rising. My whole spine felt like electric shocks going through my body. Every time I saw him more activations happened. Haven’t seen him in a year and a half. Feel like I’ve completely changed. Totally surrendered to this journey. 😘💗🙏🏻😇🧿
My experience as well! We are 2000 miles away, but a message he sent me activated something in me that kicked off a dark night of the soul, and then a full blown kundalini awakening. I had no idea what any of this was, just that something profound, deep, and spiritual was happening. The exact moment I awakened, the clock on my car radio was 11:11!
Hello soul family. I was having dreams of my twin from the age of 11. I met my twin in 2005 we worked in the same building at the time I was not drawn to him because I was married but later I found out he was drawn to me but did not pursue me because I was married we ended up working with each other in 2011 this was when the runner and chaser started I was the runner that changed in 2013 and again in 2020 we do still work in the same building but we are in separation he is still with his karmic I am going through a divorce we have a 10 year gap. This has been a hell of a journey but it is worth it . 2020! was when I finally learned my lesson and that was to love myself. I feel my twin all the time and I know one day he will know his worth 🙏🏿❤️
I have known my twin flame for almost 4 years. I am stepping out of the runner/chaser stage and going within by creating a subliminal message playlist which I listen to right before I go to bed and the moment I wake up. I can feel an internal transformation since doing that. I feel more at peace with myself and I try to stay out of social media to prevent any triggers. My twin flame is currently in a karmic relationship. I felt like I was spiraling whenever I was in the same room with him and her. I am so happy that she never confronted herself because I would have internally lost it. She knew who I was and can point me out because I was the one who was all over my twin flame while being in the same room. So anyways, I know me healing myself within will also heal my twin flame to the point where he doesn’t need to be in a karmic relationship anymore.
He is a runner, the moment we seen each other we both felt it..Anytime we spend with one another the energy between us is so intense and strong but so wonderful, we are both so happy, but then he runs for months, I guess to try to escape. But we always end up back together, but it gets to intense and he runs again...That time apart is so painful my soul aches the pain in horrible.
For me the first thing that happened was soul recognition on the moment of my twins birth, when as a toddler I was brought to witness her being born. Her first sight was my astonished face. She wouldn't sleep until we were placed together.
He was my best friend and we talked everyday. He was def the runner. His ex came in between us. I caught him with her and this started my spiritual awakening. That was the most horrible thing I have ever experienced. It was like he died. My heart has never felt so much pain. We are in separation and healing right now with no contact. We live in the same town and occasionally I run into him. We always small talk but that’s about it. I miss him terribly. I want to thank you for your channel and advice. Spirit led me to you and I am a member of your team and listen to your subliminals daily ❤️
OMG I WROTE AN ALBUM ABOUT LOVE FOR HER............NO ONE EVER MADE ME DO THAT.....THE INSPIRATION AND YEARNING......ITS THE BEST THING I EVER DID..........I LOOKED AT HER AND I MELTED.......I SAW HER SOUL...........I CRY EVERYDAY.....AND SEE HER NUMBERS ALL OVER THE PLACE..........OMG............OMG................!!!!!!!!!!!
Certainly experienced the “glimpse” (most don’t mention this) I’ve known my twin since childhood, and he has described the “glimpse “ to a tee. We were very young & I can only remember through photos..yet when expressed from my twins perspective, it’s like I’m teleported back.
I pray the universe grant your heart desire Hey friends I got my relationship fixed with the help of this great spiritualist who brought my ex after many months of separation
I am crying listening to this video from January and all I endured since December since he left our office for another location....I went through every single stage in my life thus far...craving and praying for our reunion...alone 😥❤🙏🤞
My twin flame...my DM is married for 30+ years, she is also significantly older and she is a she...totally didn’t see that coming when we met. She couldn’t face being in love with a woman who was also 23 years younger. We were both married to men over 10yrs but when I met her I saw myself and my worth and I divorced my husband. I never had any expectations she would leave her husband. When she ran she confessed she was in fact in love with me and that was the last contact we had almost 4yrs ago. Still breaks my heart because before it became emotionally intimate she was my best friend and I miss her so much. I miss the convos I could only have with her..she was my muse. I still hold faith that if nothing else we will reconnect as friends again. 💜🙏🏾 I keep hope for reunification but honestly with very little people talking about same sex twins (I know gender doesn’t really matter) at time I feel like I’ve made this whole thing up..but then I think why or how could I make up something this profound? Do you have any thoughts? Clarity? Suggestions or advice on this? How do you feel about SS Twins as an intuitive channel of guidance? Any help would be great as I feel like I’m slipping into giving up period. 💜💋
Even though I’m a female and my DM is a male, I believe in SS TFs!! It doesn’t matter we’re just energy. A RU-vid channel you might be interested in is Twin Flame Revolution. I love their energy!!
Exactly right? I also wonder why would I make up all these emotions and be so attracted to someone? Like what-? Just what in the world..? But yes twinflames are meant to teach others a lesson and heal others, after healing themselves. So keep going, I know its so painful but slowly you'll get it right. Trust the universe.
Honestly, I believe you. I had the opposite; I was moving steadily towards being more and more attracted to women and feminine-bodied nonbinary folx, and almost _never_ was attracted to men anymore for the last 3 years. Then I met my twin flame, who is a _man,_ and I was _shook._ Not only because of the energy exchange, but because he is a _man._ AND ten years younger than me. I felt like 🤯🥲🙃 to say the least. At least I don’t have to worry about coming out to my parents some day? 🥲🥲🥲 I’m no longer attracted to anyone who is not my TF, so I’m aro/ace now with an asterisk (I was always on both spectrums, but now I’m much further from allo than I used to be. Allo, as in alloromantic or allosexual, is used for people who feel romantic or sexual attraction for others, respectively, and is used to describe non-aromantic or non-asexual people).
When I look back in time, it has always been him...I ever yearn for. We both paint and write poems ❤️ since childhood. All my ex-romantic partners are reflections of his qualities that I basically have been looking for without the knowledge of his appearance and traits. On meeting our walls really knocked down and we instantaneously fall in love. And it shortlived for few hours. Then we moved away. He chooses to separate and I had nothing but to go with the flow. We stopped interaction and work on our own development, healing each other. I have let down my walls, hope he might have as well. Yet working on my stability. What remains is "reunion" ! I don't know anymore if I want to continue this journey or what can be the outcome but the healing of body, mind, and soul is what I am grateful for.
Yes I can relate. We are in karmic contracts right now but we still keep in touch knowing that this is only temporary. Remember that we are eternal and you are never really apart... working on yourself is a HUGE way to progress in the twin flame journey...❤️❤️☯️
I pray the universe grant your heart desire Hey friends I got my relationship fixed with the help of this great spiritualist who brought my ex after many months of separation
We are in the separation/ runner chaser/ dark night of the soul stage.. I've started listening to your videos and subliminals two weeks ago... Starting to feel the shift but as you keep saying it's not linear... Will we reunite? ❤ Thank you so much for all of you magic. So happy I found you!
We also were born a week apart in Hawaii. I met him first at a pool swim meet! The moment I saw my twin flame I was 24 and recently widowed. I did not want to go out that night. I looked up and I swear a bolt out of the blue hit me! It was instantaneous! We are now 71 and have been in and out of each other’s lives throughout different marriages. Most recently his wife passed 6 years ago. We reconnected but sadly he fell into alcohol and drugs and still does. We are now NO CONTACT because of his toxic habits. I loved him, but he is a player.😞
I just recently began listening to your videos as I was just drawn to learn more about twin flames. I met someone almost a year ago that felt a connection I could not quite put into words. I must say everything you have said is spot on and I truly feel I am on this journey. Currently in the runner/chaser stage.
We went all these stages from the first day i met him in person ..we stayed together 5 yrs ..seperated 4 yrs and over the past yr came bk into contact again ..slow moving he were in the running stage for a long time and now back together in physical union now 5 months and this is forever as he always remind me..and the triggers are real today
Recognizing walls between you equates to fears. Perfect love will always cast out fear. This understanding should eliminate obstacles that might cloud your relationship, by concentrating on the glorious love that you share rather than any negatives, Thank you again M
Allways been the one who wholeheartedly believes that there is some truth in every fairytale where the princess marries the prince and Cinderalla who finally gets her prince.... I ressonate with those movies anyways 😍 As a kid I had this vision how my prince would look like and what features I fell for. I remenber hollydays with my grandmother where we allways stoped at a place and I allways have felt a connection to that place after that. I had a pet bird who I named Jakob. After listening to you now I see why all these things happened to me.... The place we stopped at - my twin is from that place. The features I fell for as a girl and allways looked for in a guy all my life - my twin has them ALL! My bird - my twin has his last name starting with Jakob.... At age 17 I saw this guy older than me in my hometown. We saw eachother and I felt a sence of connection with this guy. Looked at me all the time and smiled. Saw him a couple of times before he dissapeard. I looked for him a long time after that. Felt some kind of grief not seeing him anymore. 21 years later I meet this same guy at work, and this time I AM NOT LETTING GO!!! My twin flame!!! I have been soooo scared of loosing him during separation, since I «lost him» 21 years earlyer. But I know I will NEVER loose him!!! Sooooo ready for reunion now ❤️❤️❤️ You give me so many aha-moments Infinity ❤️❤️ Thank you from the bottom of my heart!!! ❤️❤️
Hello, Thank you for sharing so many insightful, beautiful thoughts and pieces of your own personal story here with me through this comment ❤︎ Reading your comment here absolutely made my night! I feel so many twin flames connect with that experience of believing in the truth of the "Cinderella" story. So amazing ❤︎ The name connection between your pet bird and your twin flame was especially profound, too! Thank you so much for being here. I am so honored to share this journey with you ❤︎ Much love, - Infinity ∞
Sorry for just spitting out everything like this, I just need to talk about it, because I am confused, and this community is really amazing. As long as I can remember I have been searching for something, something to make me feel complete, a sort of truth that I couldn't really grasp. I don't think I was specifically thinking of a person during those times but once I met this person last year it finally felt like I had found what I was looking for. We had this intense connection once we locked eyes and it felt like I almost instantly started loving him, and for the first weeks or so it felt mutual. I remember one time, we had a lesson together and I had taken myself to school early because of the weird buss schedule. When I had already taken myself there I saw that the lesson was cancelled so I prepared myself to go the rest of the day alone and eat lunch alone(I have a history with loneliness so these kinds of times takes me back there and I just feel a lot of negative emotions), so I was sitting there feeling lonely for an hour, especially missing that person/my newly made friend and I was listening to some sad song about being human. Then out of no where he came and I asked him why and he told me he thought I would be there. Tho maybe we met a little early I dont know, we are in last year of highschool and maybe its weird that we are the same age, only 1 month and 10 days apart. Anyways, one afternoon it felt like he was starting to distance himself from me and this was the only time he put his discord status to Don't disturb(he did this right after I contacted him), since then it has not been the same as before, it has felt as if there is a wall between us kinda, but some moments we are taken back to how we were in the beginning, talking, connecting, the world around us dissapearing. I had planned on asking him to do something with me during the upcoming break and during a lesson on the last day it felt like we were comunicating telepathically, or that I was comunicating to his higher self or something about my plans. It felt like the conversation lead to us deciding that I were to messege him at exactly 18.00 so that was what I did, but he didn't answer. Later that day I started writing out another messege but sent it out too early, he saw it before I deleted it and it lead to me telling my feelings to him, he friendzoned me... So after that I was like, I am totally crazy, I have just been imagining all of this, why am I like this, and such. So I started trying to just view him as a platonic friend but everytime that I started to I was pulled back into it. I am really afraid of losing him because it feels like I will feel incomplete again then and I think often that there is no one else out there like him. Then one night I discovered about this twinflame thing and I was like what if... So I decided to listen to some light language video for twin flames and the day after I felt like I was connected to him stronger than ever and we talked to each other telepathically, I think I may have felt some phantom touches and such too. But I am afraid this is all just my imagination and that I am just some crazy person who can't let go of her first real love.
I believe your not crazy.... I felt like this too and I still feel as if its just an illusion and I'm just obsessed and weird. But then I ask myself why would I let myself live in pain and bear all this random intense physical pain, those overwhelming emotions, those random bursts of joy, those euphoric moments when I look into his eyes in photos, why would I let myself on a rollercoaster for a simple reason that I'm obsessed and clingy? Atleast I know my self worth to save myself from toxic situations. But then I'm like, gosh if I'm not obsessed in a negative way and my mental state is perfectly fine, then why in the world I'm so attracted to a man it feels like an obsession? God its so confusing and weird and crazy! I can totally feel the frustration you might have written the video in.. but believe me your not crazy, neither am I. Its just this ego that is such a pain in the foot- is almost maddening.
You’re not alone. I feel as if I’m going insane as well because the whole thing is just out of this world and makes no sense if I look at it with my mind which I assume is my ego. But, it is worth every single drop of tears.
Your story is beautiful my intuition is telling me to tell you stay friends give him a little space your time to be one may just not be right now but in a little while. Sending good vibes your way don't lose hope but try not to drive your self crazy while you waiting patiently he doesn't know how to feel about this connection with you.
My lights in my house started flicking about 2 months before we met, had different electricians come and check it out, not one could find a problem. Then it stopped when I met my Twin in a shop, he's at a shop counter and says to the shop assistance "im a qualified electrician", I knew something was going on and we had this connection for about 20 mins and then it was over. After I started seeing electrician vans everywhere and his name, 11:11, we have been in seperation twice now and exactly a year later my lights started flicking again. I'm learning now to just go with the flow.
Honestly what I feel is that the circumstances of a twinflame pair are unique but they all are tied to this path mentioned above. Its like its the base path that every twinflame goes through, just in a different and their own distinct way! With me- I'm in the glimpse stage right now. And after watching this video I feel the emotion of oddness I've been suffering for my entire life of 17 years now in the sense that what is wrong with me, why I am so drawn towards a person I don't even know the face of and just like why I always fail relationships when nothing was wrong actually between my relationships, why am I even drawn towards a person I just don't even know an inch about, whose face I never saw, whom I just label as Mr. Stranger, who came in my dreams so much, whose frustration I let out in a story form but still I can't seem to supress or get over that weird yearing. But then suddenly its like everything makes sense now cause I got the actual glimpse- I won't even say 'glimpse' because I know his name, face and literally every thing now but guess what? we never met. And now my whole life makes sense. All the past I've ever gone through, like literally every single thing it gives me goosebumps- makes so much sense that its so overwhelming sometimes. The glimpse stage for me is so pretty.. like its just so nice. I feel whenever I see his pictures on social media and stuff, its like I know every thing about him, all his pain, all his joys, as if I can read so much into him, its so scary haha. But we are miles apart. But its still so pretty. And I'm letting my intuition guide my path, and up till now I feel it turned out well. I must say, just trust the universe, in the end all makes perfect sense, and you will become happy no matter what pain and challenges and moments lies ahead you, you'll get the sense of calmness within, and know that the greatest force in the universe, is infact, you.
Yes I Go Through These Different Stages Of Knowing, n Then Being Uncertain, Falling Back In ♡, OR Having These L♡VING FEELING'S AGAIN, BUT, I Do Realize That What I Must B Feeling, IS, Coming Through To Me, From My DMs Healings, In His Own Chakra Sacral, Heart, Crown, That I Have Learned To Just Allow, For Him, B'cause He Has A Lot Of Childhood Traumatic Painstaking That He Holds Withinside & I've Been Doing Subliminals For MYSELF, In Order Of Helping My DM, In His Own Healings As Well❤😊🙏
My twin flame is 43-years younger than me! I was 65 years old and he was 22 years old when we first met. While we were hugging one another, the feeling that came from his body was pure unconditional love ❤️! The love ❤️ from my body was returned to him in equal measure!! The feeling is divine, not of the body but of the spirit!!
My twin is in a karmic situation. I don't feel there's anyone else but it still hurts having to let go. The only thing that keeps me going is knowing that all paths lead home and I WILL be with him again. Hopefully it'll be the last run
@@evelynjane4546 STOP!!! SERIOUSLY before I report you. I've been blocking all the trolls claiming that dumb false shit. Knock it off. No one wants your scam!
Wow I never knew glimpse was one..over 10 years ago I had just moved into a new apartment and I came home and there was man sitting on the steps,he said hello and smiled and for years I thought about his eyes and his smile and wondered who he was and wished I had a conversation with him..> never forgot his face..now we have been in this journey for 2 1/2 years..wow
I feel that I have that person who truly loves me for who I am wherever she is I really love you so much I can't wait to be your boyfriend and finally be your forever husband so that we experience this twin flame phenomenon together. I love you my future twin flame ❤😘☯️♾️
INFINITY I LOVE YOUR CHANNEL.......EVERYTHING IS SPOT ON...........THE MUSIC IS MINT....IM A MUSICIAN AND AN EMPATH............YOUR BEAUTIFUL..........
Reunion does not necessarily happen in every lifetime. My TF decided to continue with her karmic partner and we have no contact. Despite all the pain I have gone through I am greatful for the awakening and how I perceive life since. Still time to time as now I feel the connection and there is a song I want to share: Both sides of the moon by Celeste.
Wow me and my tf had a touch point - we met in highschool had crushes on each other and since i was a year older I didn’t want to date him after graduating and then we reconnected 9 years later and this passed year has changed my life - we are currently in separation, he is with a karmic and i am in the process of inner healing - i will be doing your meditations ♥️
The first glimpse with my TF happen when I moved to his state, 2 years before I met him, I was on a praise team/ band. My Leader's first name was my TF last name and my Leader's father's name was my TF First name. I also dreamed about him a few months before he showed up. Wildest I experiences of my life. The synchronicities are always on steroids when it was involves this spiritual connection.
Is there any interest in creating a private group for this channel? I'm not comfortable putting my personal information on a public format. Just a thought.
My twinflames last name has been in my life before I was even born. My mother picked my middle from her best friend who has the same as his. When I got married my mother n laws best friend had that last name. Then when I got into another relationship his father had best friends with it too. Plus my grandparents best friends had it. There's more of things like that has gone on throughout my life. Too many to list. Thank you for the videos!
I see her name everywhere, because the name gives me pain, I try not to look at the name. I am a Bangladeshi and She's Japanese. We are in a separation now for 9 months.
It's like a lesson, you keep on seeing or hearing their name until you realise what the universe want you to understand. Also in case of resistance, if you want to avoid your true feelings for TF, it happens. So, learn from it and reach the next level of this TF journey. God bless ❣️
I was seeing my goddesses name constantly or hearing it when people were talking to one another it drove me crazy and I missed her more and more, when I worked harder on myself and started to see her soul and not her physical being I began to feel her coming closer, let go of the need to have your twin, focus on healing yourself and your twin will come into your reality.
I pray the universe grant your heart desire Hey friends I got my relationship fixed with the help of this great spiritualist who brought my ex after many months of separation
Our initial names are the same. The strange thing he had tattoo on his wrist holding first letter of our names long time ago before he sees me, he said he had a child and she’s dead when she was a baby and he tattoo their letters and he used to cover it, I was shocked when I knew were twins and holding that unconscious (H&H) . We live in different countries we met in his country in summer vacation.
Dear infinity thank you so so much for this information this has been helping me explaining so many incidents in my life that I would always feel confused about. I had a questions about touch points. Earlier this year people from this specific nationality have appeared in my life and change it in so many ways. I have made a great friend with someone from that nationality and met a whole bunch of inspirational people coming from that background. And a few month ago I met someone who I kinda think that might be my twin flame (I'm still too scared to admit) which also happens to be from that nationality. Were all those previous encounters a touch point too?
We are at stage 4 runner/chaser, so far we have repeated the cycle 3 times. The roles have reserved currently and I'm struggling to communicate with him. I can't message him and he has left me alone, but continues to look at my Snapchat stories. He normally ghosts me but now it's the other way round. It's coming up to 6 months in separatIon. Thank you 🐷 xx
I am a twin flame. I just made 17 months bac. I met my twin flame in my late 16. Ooohhh my worst stage was the yarning stage. Yarning for something u know wont come physically. Haaa soo funny. Everything just happened soo fast yet sooo slow coz everyday left a deeper cut in my hrt. Its all like feelings you cant control. First we both were just there not until i started feeling wierd and lots of changes in mi i couldnt understand. Then i become the runner. Of late not any long he was the runner tooo. and now things r like none of us is the runner anymore. Even his home is soo visible from my homes view and everyday i pass via their home coz its the only route to center i still feel like i cant face him physically. Haaaa long story . I cant finish everything here. Buh just want to say that i normally come here to learn more to this journey of self answers.
Yes i always feel that there was someone out there and the panicattack the knowing from was a little girl he told me that used to live and work in a area and i was living there too
I know we will heal each other through Kundalini energy. He is guilty about his past sexual encounters but I understand his predicament, and this will help break the out dated Victorian age of secrets and shame of your body. 😉
I have experienced honey moone phase or buble phase, but now I think we are moving backwards due to circumstance. Our walls are up we are talking but seems diaconnected we both tried to let go but we both tried to hold on to harder. Am still triggered everu now and then.
Thank you for sharing your experiences here - be sure to keep me posted as we share this journey together ❤︎ Sending you endless love today. - Infinity ∞
I Have a different take on this TWIN FLAME...STUFF...I tend to think organized crime uses TWINS....Hard to explain....Perhaps my TWIN is really a alien from another planet....
My Twin Flame is married. I’m in the stage where the heart breaks then I’ll chase a ghost into the gates of hell where she stays married and I waste 5 years of my life getting over it.
Hello, can anyone answer this.. Is it possible not to have the knowing its your soul, because you never met them in person, but you have most of signs its your twin flame?
every journey is different. but! the signs aren’t always the only thing you should take in consideration. i met a false twin flame years ago and he had all the signs too but i didn’t feel it in my heart. of course i had no idea how a true twin flame felt so i thought that he was mine just based on these signs that you can find online. you should really listen to your intuition, your true twin flame is going to change your life drastically, to the point where you don’t recognize who you were prior to them.
@@martharentea1007 thanks for your reply, dear💕 but is it possible to see this false twin flame name also, their initials everywhere and seeing numbers also after meeting them? I really dont know what to think because he doesnt really seem so familiar to me like everyone says they should. Its possible he is false twin flame but again im just confused. Time will tell:))
@@mihaela8591 yes it is!! i used to see 11:11 before meeting my false twin flame. i had this strong feeling that i knew him from another life too. we also had the exact same birth marks!! that was when i found out about twin flames and the signs were the exact same, but the difference was, and i know that now because i met my real twin flame, i interpreted the signs differently. i didn’t feel them in my heart, i was almost trying to make them fit to my situation. a very big difference that i noticed between the two of them: the real twin flame loves you back!! at first, you’re both in love and everything is amazing. with the false twin, i felt infatuated with him for no specific reason. it was intense, but it wasn’t mutual. or at least it faded for him as time went by. the real love never fades away, the relationship ends because you are meant to learn things separately.
@@martharentea1007 I guess Im just confused.. maybe I analyse too much. Im looking forward to meeting my twin flame if this was just karmic. It all happens for a reason.. At least I passed this phase now, If I meet my real TF in this lifetime I believe it will be all easier than it would be if i didnt have this experinece. So, Im thankful whatever it is :) thanks dear 🌹✨
@@martharentea1007 you seem to be very aware of this twin flame experience and i’m lacking, a physic has confirmed this is my twin flame- but wrapping my head around it is a hard thing to do. he has changed my life drastically. he came into it when i was in my worst place and he turned everything upside down. after 10 years of depression i’m finally studying again, moving forward with my life. we would get synchronicities and text one another at the same almost everyday. he thought it was weird, he would point it out to me that this isn’t something he’s used to. he’s running from me at the moment. too scared to be vulnerable and unwilling to share his pain with me. this is the second time he’s ran. i’m struggling to know what to do and how to move forward and trusting myself is a big problem
Dear Infinity :) thank you for being you and for what you do Could you please subtitle the movie? - "INSTANT TELEPATHY " I do not know English very well thank you :) happy New Year
I’ve been in contact with my twin flame from 14 told it’s not real again middle aged but I had kids then now at 54 .hes 66 now .Contact 28 months his energies suddenly low he’s still connecting but very light yet been very physical I’ve cleared chakras but it does seem to be moving .I’m livid but he’s still being sexy ?
I'm bored now, really! I think she is not gonna be able to understand me or understand little and I 'm gonna feel empty like I used to.... better place my hope and happiness by myself.
