UNBOXING HIGHSCHOOL | Day 1 

I woke up today and knew the vibes were up

Rachel I’ve been following your channel for over 5 years now and this video genuinely made me cry at work. I also grew up in Orange County with the backdrop of very wealthy white families all around me. I’m Hispanic and immigrated from South America as a child with a single mother. We were not like the rest of the families in my neighborhood and I too let the kids ridicule my heritage, language, culture, and socioeconomic circumstance to just fit in with them. My heart breaks from these memories. Thank you for being so open ♥️

The “proud to be white washed” really hit me

love The Artist's way!

I'm 3rd gen Asian American and I was proud to be white washed at some point too. Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable

I also grew up in South Orange County and the moment I was old enough I fled to find acceptance. As a Black mixed woman, I got called a n*gger by people I called my friends, I was constantly the butt of prison jokes, and had my skin color commented on frequently. Teachers treated me differently as I was the only black kid in my honors courses. There was a time where I also wanted to be white so I could have the peace that the white kids had. Thank you for sharing. It both makes me sad and feel less alone to know your story.

had me at “questioning the reality of our lives”

Growing up as 1st gen Pakistani-American in Southern California then attending an east-coast private college, I definitely experienced a sense of white-washing myself at a very young and impressionable age. Unpacking a lot of that in my adulthood, too. You are worthy of taking up space, as you are. No white-washing required. Learning to practice the same.

This reminded me of a quote often used “Ni de aqui, ni de alla” which translates to “I am neither from here, nor there” I believe it is a movie title but the quote was applied and used a lot by people (often immigrants) that felt like they never fit in with white people. But they also never fit in with the people they shared heritage or culture with. I also felt this in grade school and high school. I never fit in with my peers because they were too white and i never fit in with other Mexican kids bc my Spanish was not the best and I adapted to certain parts of American culture. I had to live in Mexico for a year after living in California my whole life and i remember getting bullied by kids for being too “white washed”. I could never identify, i didn’t know who i was or who I had became. And i still struggle with that to this day. Thank you for sharing Rachel. I have always loved your content but now it’s getting raw and genuine and I fully Stan.

I started crying when you cried because it hit so close to home. I grew up trying so hard to fit in with white people and I felt so much shame about being Korean. I definitely tried to separate myself from my parents when I was younger and so many times I wished I was just white. Confronting our feelings about identity and race is hard, but everything that's been happening recently has just made me prouder to be asian american. Thank you for sharing, Rachel!!

I cried so much when you read your experience from high school because I can relate to it so much :(

I really relate to what you said in the vlog. As an Asian teen girl living in a white world it has been a struggle to navigate life trying to dodge racism and prejudice. The part of your parents’ accent hit me hard too. When I was younger it always seemed easier to laugh at the jokes targeting my parents rather than defending them. Thankyou for your honesty Rachel ❤️

I am simply in awe of your rawness and your gentle yet strong presence here. You are a blessing to us and for me Rach. Thank you for sharing and thank you for continuing your journey on YT. Love from Seoul SK💛

14 DAYS OF RANCH - I CANT BELIEVE IT

I was doing the dishes and fighting my tears. You seriously articulated the guilt, frustration and pain that comes with growing up as a BIPOC Thank you for sharing❤️

Thank you for sharing this thoughtful piece , Rachel. As an Asian American Woman who went through similar struggles, I stand with you; I feel this to my core. I hid who I was, I hid discomfort and hurt to accommodate my 'friends' and social circle up, even until my 2nd year of college. I wish I could go back and stand up for myself and own who I was. I hope that your words inspire other girls to stand up for themselves and own their Asian roots.

Rachel, those morning pages explained exactly what I’ve been feeling the past few days. Feelings I didn’t think I could even put a label on. You are so eloquent and I’m so touched by your words, as an Asian American myself - sending you love and healing!

as an international student and not Asian American, it has been so difficult for me to comprehend where my character fits into everything that is going on. thank you so much for being vulnerable and share your feelings

so grateful for the space you've created and the conversations you're facilitating

Your content (especially vulnerable/emotional pieces like this) always makes me feel connected to something deeply human. It feels like such an honor to be on the other side of it. Looking forward to more

"Never had the tools or language..." i felt this. Sending you love 💫

Rachel, thank you for this. It was an emotional experience hearing you put thoughts into words that I didn't understand how to vocalize. Your honesty and vulnerability are so refreshing and I'm so excited for the next 13 days

for the past couple of weeks i’ve just felt heavy-hearted, selfish, and hopeless. i’ve logged-off after reading everything about the shooting and since then i can barely stand to scroll enough to stay informed. i haven’t figured out yet how to process everything but seeing you be willing to unpack with us is encouraging and i’m looking forward to journey we’re about to take these next two weeks 💚🌼

I relate to your high school experience so much Rachel.. I’m so sorry we had this collective experience

Thank you for sharing yourself with us. It is a privilege to get a small snapshot of your heart and mind.

ah!!! she updated with a vlog!! and with 13 more vlogs to be updated im so exciteddd

I've never commented on a RU-vid video before but hearing you share your morning pages compelled me to respond. Thank you for being open, vulnerable, honest, and for expressing exactly how I've felt for as long as I can remember. It hurts to think back on my teenage years when I tried so hard to show how whitewashed I was, and it shames me to think about how my actions/words (or lack of) have contributed to the bigger problem. Now, I am so happy to be who I am, to look how I look, to eat what I eat, etc. I want to thank you for sharing your experience - it brings me comfort knowing someone else has gone through something similar. Sending you so much love ❤️

We're blessed to have you here

It's almost 2023 and I'm still rewatching these older vids.

You didn’t make an evil calculated decision to blend in. That’s what teens do, we wanted to fit in. Thanks for sharing and also for the previous vegetarian cooking tips and eco-friendly advice. Every little bit helps.

OMG YES TO 14 DAYS OF VLOGS

All I need for the beginning of spring is Rachels videos!

This made me so emotional. I felt you girl. I feel like by putting yourself back into those memories you forced yourself to relive that and it s hard, and by rationalising mindfully what was happening you will process those feelings, learn from them and let them go. And you come out stronger than ever, and you ll be an inspiration to many others that can relate 🖤🖤

girl this is exactly what i needed after going into lockdown no3... lets enjoy the fresh and joyous energy of the Spring in front of us

Thank you for sharing your morning thoughts with us. I can definitely relate to everything you wrote

I resonate so much with your journal entry & your ups and downs with depression throughout the pandemic. Thank you for being vulnerable with us. Sending love. ❤️

Love seeing all this content you’re posting recently 💚💚💚💚💚

Thank you for being so brave and vulnerable! I think we all are desperate for ppl to stop pretending. Your channel has been v transparent and I appreciate ur fearlessness to share ur feelings. Makes everyone feel less alone. Especially now, when we can’t talk to a lot of ppl face to face.

I’m a second generation Asian American, and I completely resonate with your high school unpack. I am here with you, I see you, and I appreciate you using your platform as a genuine outlet, Rachel. Be safe

Shiz. I just saw this now and cried. I’m so so so so grateful to you for speaking on your experience. Growing up in northern San Diego, I felt so much the same thing. It’s full circle now to see you returning “home”, visiting your grandparents. This is something in me I want to reclaim too. Thank you for making the hard convos, easier. 💕

14 days of that's chic!!! YAAY

Rachel, your strength lies in your vulnerability, and although I know it is not easy / comfortable, I appreciate you for sharing your strength with us. Definitely related to a lot of your morning thoughts, as a first generation Asian American myself growing up in a predominantly white So-Cal setting. What a privilege it is to grow. Your words are healing!!! Thank you. Sending you virtual hugs! 🙏🏽

Seeing someone being this vulnerable is so beautiful, you made me cry Rachel :) Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us. Looking forward the next 13 days !

thank you so much for your radical honesty. You are helping others find the voice they never knew they had.

i am SO excited for these 14 days. you always take people on the journey with you and i'm absolutely here for it

I had a long day of studying and now i feel like im facetiming with my older sister thank you

Eternally grateful for the space you provide for people to feel raw and at home with themselves among others. I love you.

Love you lots! I admire your bravery to be so vulnerable online (in general) and it really inspires me to question some of my own walls I’ve been building! 🤍 excited for the vlogs!

Rachel, this is so special. Thank you for sharing.

Thank you so much for always be so vulnerable, genuine, and open with us🙏💗✨ I’ve been watching you & chrissstttiiine for years & I practically grew up watching your videos because I didn’t see a lot of Asian representation in my life so I got so excited each time I saw a new upload from you 🦋💕 if you wrote a book I’d buy that soooo quick !!!

Move with Nicole is my fav too!

I resonated with this fully. I was born in Korea, raised in OC. Middle school and high school hold so much trauma and I, too, really pursued white acceptance and white washing myself. It’s always strange to think about home bc it’s a place my parents have grounded their roots in and a place I love returning to for my parents but OC is a place i also despise so much due to this trauma and so many experiences I wish to not relive. love you rachel 💜

HERE FOR IT!!!

I feel save that you are with us, I like hearing your morning thoughts, that was a nice touch ♡ enjoy your 14 days, I hope it will be a warm experience🌾

GOD BLESS 14 DAYS OF THATS CHIC OMG DAILY VLOGS AGAIN I LOVE YOU YOU NEVER FAIL TO MAKE ME ROMANTICISE MY LIFE AND ALL THE LITTLE THINGS I DO

Looooved this and your morning pages especially, thank you Rachel!

thank you for the wonderful vlog, and your vulnerability. please take it easy and don't burn out this time with the vlogs! love you

Thank you so much for sharing- it still hits me how so many of us have felt some version of this story and it is so comforting to have these thoughts shared with vulnerability 🦋💕

RACHEL THANK GOD YOU ARE BACK!!!

Thankuu sooo much Rachel. I was so happy to wakeup to your video! And knowing that you are doing a 14days blog is just such a blissing! Thankuuu for sharing your vulnerabilities to talk upon the issue of racism that’s been rising these days! I hope the world and yourself is kind to you every day! See u here tmr~ 💓

omg finally another vlog season!!!!!!! love it love it and love it!!! will be sitting in front of the laptop and waiting for you to upload your daily vlog! I'm so excited

omg!!! I AM LIVING FOR THIS! FINALLY SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO EVERYDAY!

ugh your vulnerability and love knows no bounds

i am so grateful for you

Thank you for sharing your world with us. Please don't feel any pressure , we love and appreciate you so much. x

these make me so happy

I can't believe you wrote that brain dump when you were half awake, it was so well thought out and powerful

thank u for blessing us with this, rachel

I love how honest you are and I’m loving the start of this new clogging series.

Well done! Keep doing 'boring' and 'uninspired'. Why? It's called 'reality' love, and we like it.Press on, sow and you will eventually reap, seek and you will find! Say 'Hello' to the dog!😉👍💚

Thank you for sharing your morning pages and being so vunerable, your words are so poetic

love you so much raych!! i got choked up watching this. thank you for sharing so vulnerably and honestly. really excited you're sharing your days with us again. i'm a big fan of the artist's way, morning pages can be so healing

Thanks for sharing your thoughts Rachel ❤️ I am really exited to see your another 13 days of vlogs! Have a good day!

Fuck yes Rachel! Rise in power and speak your truth. I can definitely identify with what your wrote and wanting to fit in when the colour of skin and features didn't look like others. It time to stop suffering and suppressing our feelings and break the code of silence that's ingrained in us as asian. Can't wait to spend the next 14 days with you! xo

Yes! Great news for the next two weeks :)

Unpacking a lot of similar things, I don’t have the words to express how comforting it is to listen to you share. You are not alone!!! Sending so much love and support. Very excited for the next 2 weeks.

wow thank you for sharing your journal entry, this is such important dialogue, my meditation teacher was saying there are people in this world that are totally unconscious and blind which causes them to act evil. he says that despite being victim to this unfortunate evil, there are parts of you that is perfectly whole and untouched and that deeper part of you is unharmed and when we connect with this deeper part of ourselves we can begin the process of healing, this in turn allows us to have the courage to bring up past events and look back on them from a different perspective. i think ego work is extremely powerful in helping us feel connected within this eternal infinity of energy.

hey rachel, thank you for sharing! it's not easy to be vulnerable, and i appreciate you uplifting intent vs. impact. like of course everyone usually has good intent, but if others are receiving what you say/do as harmful/oppressive, then that's just what it is and you have to accept responsibility. excited to be here and listen/learn with you these next 14 days!

Happy to see you do you vlog when YOU are ready not when we are 🤎🤎

Thank you for sharing your thoughts, your perspective, your vulnerability. Everything is hard and uncertain right now so I'm glad you are sharing your views with others. For some, you're helping them feel not alone with their thoughts. For me, it's helping me learn from a perspective that I will never see in hopes that I can become a better person iñ the space I take up. You're feelings and your efforts are valid and worthwhile. Thank you for sharing them with us.

cant believe that I can see you at least next 13 videos. Cant wait and so sorry for what you've been through. But you're the most beautiful soul. Be brave

this resonated al ot with me. I grew up (and still live) in middle Tennessee as a first-gen Mexican American. Colorism is real, racism is real, and I could never satisfy this sick and evil craving to be white. I was stupidly ashamed of everything about me that was Mexican-- ashamed of my parents' accents when they picked me up from my white friends' houses, ashamed of the lunched they packed me (I had beans and rice, and I just wanted my mom to pack me a PB and j), ashamed of my house and my culture and my dark skin and dark eyes. Thank you for this and for showing vulnerability. It's hard, but it's always going to be a process.

i’ve felt that way too. you’re not alone rachel, thank you for sharing ❤️

You are ALWAYS beautiful but I’m glad you know when to do a little pick me up makeup for yourself. But I also want to thank you for continuing to be so natural and confident in your bare skin. It really helps (me at least) feel more confident going out with no makeup! 💙

Your brain dump really resonated with me and I feel less alone. I’ve been having similar thoughts and I’m sending u all the love and vibes

Omg!!! So nice to have 14 days of that's chic! Thank you! Also, love Move With Nicole!! I'm doing her March work out calendar! :)

Why am I crying with you... Rachel, I enjoy these vlogs so much!!!!

always so nice to see ur updating

Hi Rachel, thanks for sharing. This means a lot to me as I grew up shaming my own culture for acceptance too. I know you know that your vulnerability is the reason why people love you. You are us. Please keep doing you. ❤️

raych

the way I screamed when I saw 'DAY 1'

Rachel, I know it is a huge undertaking to make these video series. Thank you so much for doing this. Take your time.

This upload feels like a hug

Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable

im so so SO HAPPY uploading more! Your videos honestly make me feel so calm and productive

love you Rachel, thank you for being vulnerable with us 🤍

You are so fucking genuine, Rachel. Thank you so much for being vulnerable with us

yay for 14 days of uploads!!! so excited for this!... this actually made my day! sending good vibes your way!

Love you Raych, thank you for sharing your beautiful vulnerable energy.

Rachel, thank you so much for your vulnerability. I appreciate everything you said so much and pray that you continue to find peace as you sift and sort through what you’ve experienced in your life. Thank you for being you.💛