I've gone through it both ways, lost some very close people to suicide and, massively regretting it now, tried it quite a few times, of which each time was one too many, especially for the people close to and around me... Therefore I do agree with you from both ends of the experiences. It's horrible.
I did, when I was nine. I answered the front door to a couple of village Bobbies, who told my mum who then told me after I'd heard her break down that dad was dead. It was 1984, he'd asphyxiated himself and had been found in a car park. Life was never the same and I suffer frequent bouts of depression which can be crippling. I'm nearly 49 now but some days I am still that little boy who answered the door.
My best friend killed himself age 45...completely out of the blue. Chris was a beautiful guy, very very happy growing up, but middle age changed him and that was it. He never talked about his feelings, didn't reach out, just went home one night and hanged himself, no warning. It broke my heart. Obviously losing a father is different. But I treated Chris like a brother. We grew up together, from boys to men. I never ask myself why, I just think my old friend was in too much pain and too tired and broken to go on. I'm truly sorry for your loss...and hope you find peace. After Chris's death, I became a Buddhist. My perspective on death has changed a lot. Being a part of a spiritual community helped me to grieve and share my loss. I hope making this short, yet very touching documentary has done the same for you. Your dad will be proud of you for having the courage to speak about something so painful. The best of luck and love to you and your family.
What type of Buddhism do you practice. I've read there is small vehicle Buddhism ,or hiniyana Buddhism, that is practiced in Cambodia Thailand srilanka.
@@josephmills-mw2hs I attend a Tibetan Buddhist temple. The branch of Tibetan Buddhism that I practice is taught by Tibetan Buddhist monks here in New Zealand.
I hope people start to realise that it's okay to not be okay. Nobody expects you to be strong all the time. It's okay to cry and vent out. Be mad, be upset, be frustrated. Be all that but don't bottle it up. It doesn't make you weak to share your pain, even if you don't understand it, and you are never alone.
@@GeorgeGalligan Nobody should feel what way? Grief?? Mental illness?? Struggle?? Pain?? Nobody should feel like this that but people do, it's life, it's the truth. Nobody should bottle up their pain, or their tears, or their sadness. Nobody should pretend to feel okay because they think feeling any other way is not normal. I'm not saying it's okay to feel this way and it's a good thing. I'm saying it's okay that sometimes people feel this way and they shouldn't feel the need to bottle it up and pretend they are happy and everything is perfect. Sometimes society makes people feel like we're always meant to be happy and if you admit you are not, then it's a sign of weakness. Also, I say it's okay not to be okay, but I also said don't bottle it up. Get help if you feel like things get too much.
CatchYouLaterr, I keep my sadness and tragedies to myself, as it will give me gumption to do what I want to do in life!!!! Pray for 🇺🇦 Ukraine, not me. I WANT to be alone with my books, my Elton John cd's, and Native American collection and that's ALL I want. I don't want ANYONE except Jesus!!!!!! 🙏✌💔
Met this guy last night in Manchester after his gig my dad died same way ,I give Stephen a letter to thank him for his music and work he’s helped me a lot love this guy hope he read it
I'm sorry, Professor Green 😐 As a person with frequent suicidal ideation (and I've attempted, came so close to succeeding last time!!), I understand your dad's pain. Again I'm so very sorry. Sending you love 💜
Mary Kelly, I'm so stupid, I couldn't even off myself correctly!!!! I vomited the pills, the bleeding stopped after cutting as I missed the darn vein. So, I guess earth is stuck with " THE PEST" ( ME) till I croak!!!! Shucks!!!! Pray for 🇺🇦 Ukraine, not me as I pray to Jesus myself. 🙏✌
Pro green has showed me a lot of things. He’s made me think how you can have everything but the material things don’t matter. Family and mental health has no price. Well done for talking about it. Absolute tears me apart watching another bloke cry.
this is so sad. it's great to see men talking about this. I hope it helps save others and change the traditional culture of how men have been expected to deal with emotions and difficulties.
Been thinking about my dad recently. I just lost him to suicide a couple of weeks ago. I moved almost 18 hours away from home and I remember the day I got the call from my sister. It happened right after his 50th birthday and on Father’s Day. I knew it was bad because I had 60 missed calls I knew someone passed but I never expected my dad and especially the way he did it. It never crossed my mind that he would ever do this. I miss him everyday and I wish he was still here. Randomly through my day I catch myself spacing out thinking about him thinking he won’t be here to see the beautify skies and tastes food. I need him here and he’s no longer here. I miss you dad. I love you so much.
My father took his life 4 years ago now. He was 46. Ik he was depressed and that his wife wasnt getting him help. Having been around her ik she made it worse. She was one of the reasons for my own suicide attempts. I'm the last living piece of my father, and it's not fair. He abandoned me when I was 10 (17 years ago) but I'm more hurt that he killed himself and took away any chance of us putting the issue that lead my abandonment to bed. For 10 years the only thing I've wanted was my father to come back into my life, for him to accept my olive branch and return my letters and Christmas cards. He couldnt. Instead he took himself out of the equation.. I dont know why he couldnt see that life could get better for him. Idk what thought told him we would be better off without him, because it's not true. Life isnt better, its sadder. I miss you Jody.
Never ever blame somebody for the suicide off your father , you convict yourself with it , he committet suicide nobody else did that. Accept and respect it and you will have a mutch better life . I am Dutch my father hangt himself whem i was 21 , it took me 20 years to understand this , i am 65 years old now . RIP everyone who committet suicide
I just lost my dad to suicide. Same age as green when he lost his dad. I can't believe it, I don't think I ever really will. The pain is unreal, but the confusing emotions that arise after a suicide are even more distressing
Credit to him to talk about it. My Dad went the same way when he was 42 and I was turning 14 the following day! No one will ever truly know what’s going on in someone’s head as from the outside they can be the happiest person alive but inside they are the saddest. This was back in 1999 so I don’t think there was really anyone to talk to so guess he felt like it was the best thing to do! 23 years later and still got questions, still cry but it makes me not want to ever go down that route as I’ve got children and never want them to feel what I felt. Stay stronger people!!! ❤️
im 11 years old this year my dad comitted suicide on the 23rd of febuary he turned 42 this year he huung himself after facing years of depression its really hard for me to talk about this but i just want you to know your not alone
I am with you brother. My dad shot himself last year before Christmas. He wasn't an easy person to talk to and we could not safe him. It's not fair to live with this for the rest of your life.
As having gone thought the same thing but at a much younger age ,I gravitated towards your understanding of what pain he must have felt to leave you all ,as I have come to understand in my own circumstance ,all i can say is he loved you and he's sorry
Support is the biggest thing... I need a network of guys like myself who have been through this cuz no normal person can bear hearing about it for more than 5 minutes... I feel so alone and the statistics of us ending up the same way are so high its a hopelessness I wouldn’t wish on anyone
If you connect with others, talk about your emotions etc i think it will really decrease your chances of ending the same way.. you are already here and expressing yourself so its good.
😅i grew up nowhere near other kids, I barely have friends and no one to talk to now I split with my 5yr ex. I moved to the city and haven't gained a friend in 13months. I ended up the first few months buying dinner for 2 and sitting beside homeless people just to not be alone. People say say I'm intelligent and good looking but I feel I can trust. Since 13 I don't know how many times I've wanted to just not exist. Just feel like another number lost in a system. Course I don't use my real name here
I tried to understand my dad he took his life when he was 35 and i was just 5 years he is going to be 34 years dead this week feb 6 i still hate his guts
Tormented it the right choice of word. Its torture knowing you could have helped... "was it something i said" or "You didnt love me enough to stay". When we fight or diasagree with a person whos alive theres always a tomorrow or a hope/possibility for an eventual resolution. When theyre gone we just have an empty void of thoughts and unanswered questions. Im not there yet, but im getting better. I've come to terms with the fact that this feeling isn't going away but it is getting easier to live with. RIP Dad. ❤ Im not JaRule, just a guy who lost someone i loved.
My aunt committed suicide, I loved her dearly. I miss her and don’t understand. Please don’t commit suicide, suicide hurts everyone around you. There is hope!
German Shephard, I don't care about my siblings as they don't care about me. My Father committed suicide 7 years ago!!!! I see a therapist to get anti- depressants and keep my sadness and tragedies to myself!!!!!
Not a big fan of his music. But Tyler has one of the biggest hearts I've seen in a guy. I know the carnage that suicide can leave. I've attempted it myself. It's one of the hardest things to deal with but one of the easiest to hide. A person who is suicidal usually outwardly seems fine. I believed it was all a state of mind until I struggled with it. Love and respect everyone because you don't really know how they are internally
I don't think its just telling depressed men that they need to open up. I think as society, people need to also show those depressed men that they are able to open up instead of being told to shut up about their issues. Depressed men seem to be ignored until they do something incredibly drastic.
My dad rang me bfor he took he’s own life I remember being in College and I had none around me I could tell I diddnt believe him I just thought he was upset over my Nan passing my dad was also call Daveid Ceasar
Sorry bro.he loved an loves u.he is sorry now I'm sure but when it's in your mind sometimes u act before you think about loved ones.he still with you watching over you
One thing have people in commen who commit suicide, they are always having a good personality , they do not want to bodder anyone with ther Problems and look happy. Respect and eccept it that somebody killed himself , I was 21 wenn my father hangt himself, you dont understand why and look for the why. I am 65 now and having very good memory off him. It took me 20 year to expect and respect this. RIP Everyone off them they diserve respect
Bless you sir. Im not being disrespectful but this country is cold and miserable. A horrible place. I think id like to get out somehow. Redpect to you.
Thank you for this Steve massive help to me my brother commited suicide 6 years ago and I am seriously struggling , pls hook me up I need a chat I need help !!
Props to this guy so sorry for his loss, but can people stop saying “I tried to kill myself” in the comments when they clearly are lying. This is his time not yours
why are they clearly lying? its this attitude that has people quite about what they are going through because people think they are just looking for attention. this is made so people can speak out. stop being part of the problem.
NO easy way for me to say this so I am going to be blunt and HONEST .. So it may offend some people.. He took the "Chicken shit" way out .. Life is tough for EVERYONE .. Only a coward does this and leaves behind loved ones... You are not here long enough to start with ... 1) Love YOURSELF 2) Love the people who care for you 3) Take care of yourself FIRST 4) Be kind to yourself and the people who you love and who love you 5) Get rid of ALL the toxic people from your life who TRY to hurt you and put you down .. And I mean ALL the toxic people ... Be honest and tell them TO THERE FACE that you would rather have NOTHING to do with them and ask them to leave you alone . I am so sorry for your loss if you read this Professor Green .. BUT I am also ANGRY with your dad for doing this to you and causing you so much inner hurt ... He let you down and in your heart of hearts... YOU KNOW I AM RIGHT. I would rather be an honest arse-hole than a well like liar!
Brian said it so it Must be t... Get off your friggin' high horse! It is not cowardly. My Father committed suicide because he was 87, going into Alzheimer's, alot of failing health issues and did not want to be bed ridden with nurses taking care of his personal needs. He watched his Father going through that and slowly withering away following a stroke. My Father didn't want that for himself or for his adult children to witness such a long painfull death!!!! You need to APOLOGIZE to everyone who lost a loved one, (especially a parent) to suicide!!!!! As the Native American saying goes: "DO NOT JUDGE A MAN UNTIL YOU HAVE WALKED A MILE IN HIS MOCCASINS" Your post is the MOST CRUEL post that I have ever read in my life! SHAME ON YOU! Have you ever lost a loved one or friend ( if you have any!) to suicide? I hope not! I don't wish any harm on you; but you will get your KARMA and believe you me brother, KARMA IS ROUGH!!! If you have any inkling of a heart, at least pray for 🇺🇦 Ukraine!!!!!
