Thank you for your honesty, and being able to put it out there. Acknowledging what is real for you is a way of being accountable, and also may help other's identify with their own issues. If you don't mind my saying, what I hear you expressing is a lot of fear about growing out of your anorexia, which is fair. I relate as well, and often experience feeling "stuck" in the place I'm in. It's this lure towards what we've adapted to, yet not fully recognized the self-harm it's doing, despite the short- term assurances. I think Fear of weight gain, Fear of a healthy body, Fear of the unknown, in a general sense is crippling, yet it has to be faced to move on, and live without restrictions. I would say, keep doing the opposite of what anorexia is telling you, repeatedly, until your brain no longer puts up walls that force you back to what you've done to cope for so long. You're determined. In time, this will hopefully feel like it happened to someone else. No one else's situation needs comparison to you, that's not fair to keep rehashing inside. It may seem impossible each day, to have to push so hard to keep going, but other's have modeled for you that IS possible. Focus on the you, You want more than anything else.
you. are. incredible. Keep going Alyce. This world is better with you in it. Thank you for your honesty in owning your emotions. So powerful. Take care xxxxxxx
i so appreciate this video, probably one of my favorites of yours. it's so real and encapsulates SO much of what goes on in the mind of someone who is recovering, including myself. keep pushing Alyce
Thank you for sharing all your honest emotions. It is very conflicting,and I feel the same things. I have no idea what my set point is either. I think its completely understandable to feel anger and sadness.🤗
Thank you for being so honest, I can relate to lots of the things you spoke about and never spoke about many of those feelings myself as I was too ashamed.
I’m so with you on the anger piece. That is probably the most prevalent thing I deal with. Well- maybe that’s a lie. It’s sadness I think….but sadness was not allowed in my family growing up. Only happy and anger- so many of my emotions got “changed” over to anger, if that makes sense?
You have become so gorgeous ..I love every one of your videos so much.I think it is really interesting when you tell more about yourself apart from the eating disorder…
It’s a pleasure.I see you as a big inspiration because you are so honest regarding all the difficulties….I also crave the sympathy and comfort and care when I am very sick but the n I remind myself that the people in hospital get paid for taking care and the sympathy is almost forced because who would not feel pity with a starved person..when you are healthy and someone loves you he or she will care for you no matter the weight.@@BecomingSunshine
Recovery does get easier as time goes by. I'm 17 months in and I know going back is not an option.....Why would I? What would that actually achieve? Having a smaller body is not enough of a reason to got back to all that crap, illness, no life. Have you talked through your jealousy with a therapist. If you havent, please do.
to be entirely honest I think it is a very sick mentality to miss being 'sick' and 'cared for' in hospital. you won't be able to ever fully recover if you have those thoughts and feelings. you can easily give yourself the care and compassion in the real world. also yeah you might be cared for in hospital... but don't forget about ALL the restrictions. nil by mouth etc. isn't it nice to just be able to go for a walk whenever you want? or to eat what you crave instead of an untoward meal plan or continuous feeds?
I feel the same way, expecially when she stated how she misses her old body. That really got me, and all the attention and care I'm the hospital. No hate of course. Just, since she's a recovery account and trying to move forward, you wouldn't expect that.
It’s the idea that there’s a certain weight or weight range that a body functions optimally at and will reach and endeavour to maintain through various homeostatic processes. Personally I’m not a fan, but it’s a popular idea in ED treatment
I personally think "the set point" ought to be the weight you get to while eating enough to maintain a weight without counting calories, eliminating any foods or earning food through exercise. So, basically live a normal life eating Intuitively/ listening to your body.
