you might like A LOT pretty much every songs from the album songs by Adrianne Lenker (Big thief's singer). i recommend especially zombie girl, come and not a lot, just forever (And if you can, i recommend to listen to the whole album)
I love how this song chooses to say “we’re nothing with the pills” instead of the opposite, because this suggests our narrator is acutely aware of her possibilities and potential when sober, but is compelled to continue using because of the little highs that come when she uses. This is a microcosm of her relationship to a partner who she feels she is bound to despite their abusive relationship. “I’m the fish and she’s my gills” implies a relationship that is infinitely co dependent, which is horrible considering the following revelation of emotional abuse and manipulation. I really like this song btw
the perfect poetic and verbal form of emotionally abusive / toxic relationships. Applying this song to my life just makes me realise and hold an understanding of all the fucked up shit I've felt / witnessed. I adore it.
I think it is also more than this. It describes the everything that happens in any kind of relationship, humans are chaos, disorder finding life in the search of meaning and multiple meanings themselves.
WHATTTTTT, no way bro, the new one is so much rawer, the vocals being so isolated feels like a panic attack, this version is cool but it sounds like a demo
I met a girl and her name was sam. She was the most perfect thing I’ve ever met. She understood my humor, my train of thought, my love for poetry, everything. She was perfect and I loved her and she loved me. We broke up almost 2 years ago and I still love her. I dont know if I’ll ever get over her but I know I’ll always love her because I’ve never loved anyone like that before.
I too had a sam. although different nane, I completely feel the same way. and I know I don't ever cross her mind yet she lives rent free in mine and I'm ok with that unfortunately
I honestly like the official release but removing the flute, 'for the last time in a row' AND the fish/gills line is criminal. It's her art, she can do what she pleases with it. But no one is a lesser fan for disliking ONE song.
THE LAST PART IS SO TRUEEE!! And also we’d probably have all loved it if she didn’t sing the demo first Wait edit THR FORST PART IS TRUE TOO I JUST DIDNT WANT TO COMMENT ON IT
Last part is so true, I'm sick of ppl pretending u have to love every choice a artist does with their music or personal life or ur not a "true fan" look at the ari stans defending cheating just so they can be considered real fans, is it ever that deep 😭😭
I love how music like this makes me feel. It's probably not healthy but I just chase this soul crushing feeling I get from things like this. I'm obsessed
I know it ….. the first time I heard it I became manic and then so sad and then empty and then manic again. how it sounds is so horrifying and sad and beautiful and i never thought I would be so GAY for a song god this makes me feel so. weird.
A bit literal, but I'm picturing a vampire depending on their old, emaciated lover for blood but trying to keep them alive because of how much their mortal lover means to them. And then their lover, nearly a corpse at this point, opening the window and jumping out of the window so they don't have to play this game anymore. Dependent and miserable for both people involved. The vampire joins them last second, burning up in the light of the sun as they plummet.
Just a quick reminder, if you’ve been listening to this song, thinking about the same person for more than 2 months, it’s over. Let them go, and I’m sorry for what they’ve done to you
Honestly both versions of the song are amazing, but the one line leads to two different stories, this version were she dosent escape and sings very dully as she accepts her complacency while in the official release she is much more angry and emotional as she realizes how awful this relationship is and finally walked into her dagger for the last time and escaped
Disappointed that they didn't include the solo in the final version, but I actually like "in her vampire empire I am" more than "in her vampire empire I'm the fish and she's my gills," it just makes more sense.
i don’t mind that but i think it’s an amazing line and miss it 😭, but for me the when i walked into her dagger part is what has me still listening to this one
Hearing this after a breakdown because your own mom is insecure about her self so she yells at you for her assuming something completely different from what was actually going on trying to get it through her head but she won’t listen instead she yells at you more making you cry and fuss then your voice starts cracking so you run up to your room then a few hours later you come back for your room and she acts like nothing just happened but you almost decided to end your life but she doesn’t know all the harm she’s done to you is just so great to hear this song💃🪩🕺
"I see you as you see yourself through all the books you read Overwhelmed with guilt and realising the disease" I read all the time and this shit hits hard holy fuck.
I had the most devastating breakup, my heart felt torn and spilled - it felt like this song. I am waiting for the future now; but its a different one from what I had once imagined.
The demo feels more sad,like just getting out of a bad situation.The released version is more angry,like getting mad at what happened in the bad situation.Either way both versions are good but Express different emotions:)
ik most of us listen to this with some sort of relationship in mind whether it’s romantic or platonic and familial for me i listen to it and i have myself in mind, both the singer and the one with the dagger. after years i was put into multiple institutions for anorexia and was quickly discovered to have borderline personality disorder as well. it’s obvious, ive sort of known my whole life. a culmination of where i come from and who i’ve been. i’m a victim only to myself. and every line hits with my relationship with myself and my mental illnesses and my every addiction. i could rant about each and every lyric but that’s for my notes app. i j wanted to put the broad strokes somewhere.
This song reminds me of wintergirls. I just relate this song to anorexia in general. “Well I walked into your dagger for the last time in a row. It’s like trying to start a fire with matches in the snow, where you can’t seem to hold me, can’t seem to let me go. So I can’t find surrender, can’t keep control.” That’s what it feels like to desire losing weight and slowly destroying yourself and body, never wanting to get better.
okay I just learned about this drama with the official not being as good, and I listened to the original first, thinking people are overreacting, but this is quite literally better in every possible way.
oh to be a lesbian vampire in the late 17,00's early 18,00's, falling in love with the priests daughter, and she loves me equally. And I start to attend her church (even though I'm a vampire) And when I start to get weak from church, she accidentally exposed me, and I'm being chanted at, so I run into the forest. I make it to an old tree house I made with the priests daughter, and I sit in it and slowly loose touch with reality and drift into sleep. Because I'm a vampire, it ends up being years I've slept for. And when I awake, I go to the town, and see my love old and alone, and she admits she has never found another love. I kiss her in her final moments, as she dies in my arms..
I liked this song so much that I listened to some of their other ones and was disappointed that they didn't seem to capture this energy on the others. Still think this one is incredible tho.
I always imagine the part of me that wants so desperately to be healed, the part that finds meaning in the sun and the stars , the part of me that loves me singing this to the part of me that is self destructive, the part that destroys everything it touches.
“its like tryna start a fire, with matches in the snow, where you can’t seem to hold me, can’t seem to let me go, so i can’t find surrender, can’t keep control. YOU TURN THE INSIDE OUT and then you WANT THE OUTSIDE IN. you spin me all around and then you ask me not to spin.” this is when you love someone and you’ve been in a relationship but now its come to a close. a complicated close, you did wrong, they did wrong but at the end of the day you still love them and you dont know what to do. but them? they’re conflicting, they say they care about you and want you close BUT not too close, they tell you hurtful things but sometimes are so sweet or just the same as they were and your emotions come to show and then they have no care for your emotions and ask you to shove them down, they DONT CARE. they tell you they wanted to try but now its come to a close and you’re left spinning with those feelings in your head and heart.
I walked into your dagger for the last time in a row.. It's like trying to start a fire with matches in the snow.. where you can't hold cant seem to let me go.. where i cant seem to surender cant keep control.. You turn me inside out and want me outside in? You spin me all around and ask me not to spin? You say you want to be alone and you want children?! You want to be with me and with him!? oHAIAKAMAAM I CANT WITH THIS OMG
okay, removing the flute is a war crime and unforgivable. but removing "in a row" isn't that bad- it symbolizes this isn't just the last time in a row, this is *the last time, period* .
He texted me on my birthday to talk about himself and didnt wish me a happy birthday till the day after because he saw the video i made about it tried to play it off as he meant to but was so busy. Hes treats me like his girlfriend and says im his bestfriend but he treats me like garbage but i cant leave him
Uuuhhmmm... I don't know if anyone will read this buuuttt... 😊 She was lying down on her worn out bed, her nose bled but she didnt have enough energy to try and stop it, she stared at the television. Half of its screen was static, and the other half was a show that made no sense. She felt cold but she didnt move under the blankets, she tried to move her head but failed miserably, it felt like her life was slowly slipping away from her, from the corner of her eye, she could see the pill bottle she was so used to feeling and seeing. Her black hair was messy and greasy, it was like it hadn't been washed in ages, her lips felt extremely dry, she tried to blink, her eyes felt heavy but she couldn't close them. (1/??)
