video essays have melted my brain... | Internet Analysis 

NERVOUS but excited to finally share this one! (and most importantly... to reveal my new hair, of course) thank you for watching!!! hope this satisfies the algorithm lmao

Lawd, lemme hunker down and enjoy the sadism of being a video essayist watching a video essay on how video essays ruin the minds of video essayists 😃

Kind of unsettling knowing that the 'critical voice' of randos on the internet is becoming part of a lot of people's inner monologues in this age

As someone who’s been watching since the pre internet analysis days, it’s not the hot takes or your most vulnerable moments that kept me watching, it’s always just been you.

Jeeeez, thank you for this video, Tiffany. You put words to a lot of feelings I’ve had since becoming a full time RU-vidr. The insecurity, the anticipation of criticism, the indecisiveness when it comes to sharing what and how much. I hate implying that this job is hard because we clearly have a lot of privilege to be able to do it. But it still begins to weigh on you. When I started RU-vid in 2020, I had long since been working on my self esteem. And I thought I was in a good place. Since gaining an audience, that self esteem has quickly been broken. I don’t think we’re made to have hundreds of people weigh in on our personhood-not even just our opinions, but us as people. It’s hard not to internalize that. I tend to hear the voice of negative commenters in my head whenever I’m doing ANYTHING. From scripting to just…living. 😮‍💨

This is exactly the kind of video I think will benefit audiences and creators equally - I would make this required reading for everyone if I could, you were able to put to words what I couldn't

This will undoubtedly be a confusing video for some, but holy shit this is so incredibly real to me, and I’m sure anyone who has dipped into the creator space. Genuinely in the exact place - I am terrified to read comments & DMs. I stopped posting on IG because it stressed me. Someone recognized my kids while they were out with a family member without me and messaged me about it (just to say hi, no mal-intent) and it completely freaked me out. This is such a weird space. And I did not intend to word vomit here. 😂 now I’m worried about the comments here lol

“Anticipating criticism before it occurs”. Damn you read my mind. Making video essays, I always feel this way especially towards polarizing topics. Tiffany is making every video essayist feel seen 🥺🥺.

I resonate with so many of your points - especially starting to add disclaimers in your real life to friends who actually know you and interpret you in good faith. Also so interesting about you saying you sometimes watch other people's videos and think 'they've done it better, need I do it?' because I've totally felt like that about YOUR channel before - we're so bad at seeing what unique function our stuff serves, I've decided I'm not a reliable narrator when it comes to assessing whether my work 'needs' to exist or not. I personally watch yours BECAUSE they don't have a fixed, angry conclusion and they cover lighter topics with unexpected depth. Also I don't think you should rule out experimenting with voice overs - I know the b-roll to gather is a pain, but I'd definitely still watch if it was a voice over, or even if you just appeared at the beginning. Anyway, this is the longest comment I've left on a video in MONTHS so I will go, but suffice to say, thank you for the videos, I watch every single one and I think you're great.

I can NOT overstate how well you captured the internal struggles of video essaying!! I feel like you hacked into my brain

I think the pandemic spiked views for a long while- and then views across the board for many creators have dropped, as people got out more, not to mention the craziness going on in the world, TikTok and so much else. I so appreciate the vulnerability in this video. This video is something that I think will resonate with so many. I am happy you're trying to find a balance and wish you the very best. You honestly make very thought provoking videos, and I think they have impacted many. I still find your content highly engaging. My very best to you, and thanks for all you do. ❤

The fact that this video exists kind of speaks for itself 😂

The first part gave me so much anxiety… Tiffany, you’re one of my favorite RU-vidrs. You can easily make internet analysis only a podcast and not have to be on camera if you wanted to take a step back but still continue your commentaries! And If you want a 9-5 job please do what’s best for you. You’re great.

We love a vulnerable moment! This video turned out to be so poignant, thought provoking, and introspective about the relationships creators build with their audience (and vice versa!). YOU'RE DOING AMAZING SWEETIE

you new hair looks SO GOOD!!!! wow this colour suits you so much. anyways i really am grateful for your channel i absolutely love the work you do :D

I am always shocked by how much people show their lives on social media. Their homes, neighborhoods, gyms, favorite coffee shops. It honestly makes me so worried for them! You not wanting to share too much of your personal life makes sense and is totally understandable. Take care of yourself! Lots of us will still be here regardless of what/how often you post

As a grad student with an internet rotted brain, I completely understand how you feel. I seriously wish you the best Tiffany, you’re trying your hardest and we appreciate you for it!!!

omg sold on the title alone

I’m pretty sure I’ve watched every single one of your Internet Analysis videos and I just want to say thank you for blessing RU-vid with such thoughtful and well-researched content! It can bring up really good points/questions and I always love coming to the comment section afterward because I know I’ll find really good conversations and opinions about whichever topic the video was on. Thanks for all you do Tiffany :D

I absolutely love your internet analysis videos for the very reason that they are accessible and thoughtfully and carefully cover nuanced topics. Every single one has enlightened me in some way, made me think differently or expanded my understanding of the topic. You can't be everything all at once, and I think you do what you do wonderfully. Sorry to hear the negative ways in which this has impacted you, but you are adding a lot of positivity into the world by critically touching on topics that many aren't willing to. Being critical and being negative aren't the same. Thanks for all you do!!!

don’t usually comment on youtube but i just want to let you know your hard work really pays off. i suffer from imposter syndrome and anxiety in my own life and even though i’m not in this line of work i understand how you feel. you call your videos “entry level” but they are intelligent videos that take topics that might not seem so important at first glance and show people that there is an underlying significance to them. steering people in the right direction and showing them underlying cause and effect might seem simple but is so needed and important for leftist education. i love your channel, thank you so much for doing what you do!

Even if your videos are "surface level", they are a gateway for the algorithm to start showing you other video essayist (at least that is something that it did for me). It is also refreshing to see videos that are not solely about right wing pundents. Your content serves an important niche, and I am excited to keep seeing it evolve.

i wanted to let you know that I graduate from college in a few weeks. I’ve loved watching your iterations of internet analysis these past few years. I even attribute my initial fascination with multi-level marketing companies to internet analysis. You’ve been a gentle source of older-sister inspiration to me since I was a kid on RU-vid, with dear 12 year olds. even though this is very para-social of a comment, i hope it serves that your hard work, stress, and hours of commitment have positively impacted a random 21 year old who’s about to be in the real world for the first time. You’re awesome, Tiffany :)

"I structure my videos like I'm talking to my friends" this is why I love them. I frequent the more "complex" and "deep" (quotations with a huge grain of salt) video essays and sometimes they're daunting to get through. Sometimes the topic truly ISN'T that deep. I love your videos because they're approachable but well researched, not a daunting long journey I don't always have the energy for.

I just needed to say that your section on boundaries and privacy spoke to me a lot and made me feel relieved to see thoughts that I always felt were "overthinking" or "too paranoid" are... not. I had barely 3k subscribers in a small community of youtube and I had to stop making videos because I was a wreck. I wasn't even getting criticism, but the way that community would twist words in the name of social justice made me feel queasy. I went through a crisis just from watching people tear each other apart. It's been over a year since I left that space and I'm still so paranoid. even posting a story is terrifying, like you said. there's no room to make a mistake. the consequences can be... a lot. horrible. far too much. I've closed myself off from the world. it's isolating and lonely and a really sad place to be in. with the size of the audience you have, I can only imagine how much more magnified you feel. I just wanted to tell you thank you for making this video, for even us small creators (or ex-creators?) can appreciate it, and that I hope you're taking care of yourself. I know that can be a bit of an empty phrase since we see it on social media all the time but I really hope you're doing well. well done on the video!

This is insanely relatable to be honest you should really think about incorporating a segment that is low maintenance, but still high-quality. That way you don’t necessarily have to worry about writing, super long script and filming for hours just a suggestion. Also, if no one‘s told you, you are enough and you’re an amazing content creator. ❤

There was a time where Tiffany would always respond to my replies to her Instagram story, not just liking the message, but actually writing back. This was after she already became a big RU-vidr. As much as I was thrilled to get her attention, I wondered how many other total strangers from her audience she’s engaging with! I can hardly respond to my mothers texts without having a breakdown. I wonder how she did it.

I have to say, you are one of the smartest video essayists who I watch. Even if you sometimes post "entry level" videos, you always add necessary nuance. In my opinion, it's also a huge sign of intelligence if you are able to discuss a topic in a way that's thorough while being accessible and understandable for everyone. You do that every video. Keep doing what you're doing, you're awesome!

oh my god every single thing about this is so accurate as someone who also makes commentary videos. it’s so mentally draining. thank you so much for making yet another amazing video!

I fully give you permission to stop overthinking your videos because you are one of the few good video essayists on YT, to the point where I kind of use you as a benchmark to size up other video essayists/commentary RU-vidrs. I think you do a good job of covering all (or almost all) of the perspectives and nuances of topics while still injecting your personality into the commentary so it's not boring. You are also one of the few White RU-vidrs who do a good job of bringing up important topics on race when it is relevant to the topic without centering yourself and also recommending BIPOC RU-vidrs. Very few strike that balance.

as someone who is still currently on tumblr (and has been since 2011), the speaking with a million caveats thing is too real. like dont get me wrong i clearly love the site if im still on there to this day, but i could do without the caveat brain rot lmao

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I have very little online presence and genuinely I really feel for people who do. I barely get any negative feedback in my life and I still have a hard time maintaining self esteem. I can’t imagine what it’s like to view yourself through the lens of mean internet people. Our brains aren’t meant for so much feedback

Tiffany's insights are some of the things we constantly look forward to. Seems like she has a lot of valuable lessons to share with her audiences.

I’m not a video essayist but I even feel that occasional critical voice in my head. Sometimes I wonder if it’s a symptom of being chronically online or just a response to cancel culture as a whole. It really takes the whole concept of thinking before you speak to another level because as you said best I’ll be talking and need to disclose my thought process as it’s happening. This whole internal dialogue is one of the reasons I started therapy this year because I realized I didn’t know how to live my life authentically for myself. I’m really happy that you’ve posted this video and let us into your world. It can be overwhelming but just know we are ultimately here for you.

I’ve always seen Tiffany as such an intelligent, caring, articulate creator and have thoroughly enjoyed the Internet Analysis videos.

im not even a content creator nor do i heavily use social media and i STILL catch myself overexplaining myself to friends or putting disclaimers in my speech; or i keep imagining someone confronting me about something i said (or was going to say) and i find myself having to think of responses to drama that hasn't even happened to me 😭 so thank you sm for touching on this topic because i've only seen maybe 1 person bring it up before

That part about feeling like there are other people who are smarter or can say things better then you is EXTREMELY relatable… I feel that same way. I think what helps is that even though you think it’s not enough it’s definitely impacting someone. Your analysis is always interesting and on topics I don’t see a lot of video essayists cover. I hope you’re doing better and I’m excited to see what you have down the line.

I absolutely love that your takes are always nuanced. I'd rather a video be longer and someone think about the many other perspectives over snap judgements and hot takes any day. Only half way through but I can also relate to having thought processes changed due to predicting criticism. Mine comes from being in a toxic relationship. I like people being direct with me and very open to constructive criticism for my art for example. But I had a relationship where he would hold on to things, expect me to correct my behaviour and take things I've said out of context. I didn't understand at the time that people could get you to open up to actually use it against you in the future. So, I began to fear being misunderstood even around friends like you said. Fortunately I've gotten to a point where my critical thinking is healthy and can notice the difference between wanting to be my authentic self/over explaining. When I get intrusive thoughts I remind myself that there is usually very little threat to someone misunderstanding you, only in toxic situations. Sometimes when it's bad, I'll watch your videos not even for the subject, but just to hear someone who takes the time to think. It's calming.

Man .. all the anxiety you're sharing just sounds like my daily life interacting with people on a basic level.

amazing video tiffany, as a video essayist who isn't into (or capable of) making 2hr films twice a month, i feel obscenely seen in this video and hope it starts a short trend of YT creators talking more about their process bc OURS ARE THE SAME 😭

Part One was so creatively done and also relatable. And also there is a lot of things I hate about social media, and I can't imagine what it's like having it be part of your job and not being able to just close your accounts because you want to. You're doing great, Tiffany, I love watching/listening to your videos. Sometimes I get oversaturated on video essays in times where it feels like everything is doomed and there is nothing good happening in the world. But I have always been coming back to your channel and your content is kind of comforting to me.

As a fellow fulltime content creator, I felt this... Thank you so much for sharing about these things so openly, Tiffany! You're doing an awesome job with your channel. P.S. Also love your new hair 🤗

Gosh Tiff it’s kind of heartbreaking to see how stressful this process is for you and the toll it takes. I absolutely love watching your videos and always find you to be so well spoken, intelligent and thoughtful. Also honest in that you don’t claim to be an authority, but you do speak in a very nuanced way that I feel gives a great overview of what many people’s experiences are without necessarily speaking for them. I don’t know if I’m making any sense, but what I ultimately mean to say is we SEE you making that effort and you should be praised for it! Not just that, all of what you do. Your videos are truly excellent! I really hope you find the right balance to feel happy/content. You could post a single video in a year and I would be there in your audience. Take care! ❤️

its a video about making videos about videos... a new internet era is born

I think literally every full time RU-vidr feels this - the part about 10/10 on the view count is so accurate and I totally feel you about the privacy paranoia. I’m travelling and I won’t post my pics of near my apartment until I’ve left - which is probably too much but you want to be safe - really good video as usual! nicely compliments the one you made about the life and death of RU-vid channels too

your vulnerabiliy and openness here is really admirable, and you facing your fears here is super cool! plus... hey, remember to talk to yourself like a friend sometimes. anxiety can sneak up and keep a lot away from you sometimes... but your friends and audience appreciate you!! i'm sorry to fall into the parasocial relationship slide, but as someone who watches your videos and appreciates your takes and intention to be critical, i just wanna say, you've got this!!!

new hair reveal a massive success

Tiffany, I grew up watching your videos and going through the same: becoming vegan, going on Erasmus, summer camps and uni, figuring out debt, political views… I may be biased because we have similar paths, but girl, you are amazing. Please. I wish you could swim in a river of validation just for the love. Internet Analysis is brilliant. It’s yours, and it brings new stuff to the table. I love your wittiness, quirkiness and even the self-deprecating humor because it is so relatable. Please don’t settle for this format or career if it doesn’t bring you joy anymore or at some point. You are a gem and should be living your best creative life as everyone should :) To me you’re not flopping at all, and if you decide to stay, I’ll be here to watch your videos! I appreciate your nuance and the depolarised view (even if you have an opinion about the topic) but to me it’s fine to loosen up the discourse, you have built enough trust - your audience knows you’re never coming from an intentional harmful or dismissive attitude. I really enjoyed spending the last 30 minutes with you in the open book old school format. Thank you for sharing and for the all the work that go into these videos. Sending you love!

your greenscreen selves are bringing me back to Lizzie McGuire with her little animated character offering running commentary

so sad that every creator seems to go through a really rough time in their online career, you'd think by now RU-vid would find an efficient solution and people would finally let their favs take breaks and take it slow. this is such an important video I'm so glad you felt brave enough to share with us, thank you, tiffany ♡ please take care of yourself!

To anyone reading, these feelings also apply to anyone who works with an audience. I'm an artist, so the focus of the criticism is more based on my art performance, but it still rings true. All the negative comments I've recieved in my life, and all the criticism other artists around me recieved, I internalize it and think about them anytime I post or draw. It's exhausting but rewarding. I'm glad someone is putting it into words, even if it's probably been done before, it still reaches new people.

GOD I've been waiting for a video essay about how video essays are everywhere now and are addicting and also brain melting

As someone who has a video essay channel that is still small, but starting to gather a kinda frightening amount of attention, it's really nice to hear honestly from someone who's been on the other side of that for a long time. Hearing all this is genuinely so helpful. And really, really you should give yourself more credit! You are in my opinion an essential voice in this sphere, and your ability to relay complex topics in an accessible and friendly way without sacrificing nuance represents a ton of skill. Not many people can do that, even the video essayists who may be more experimental in format or employ higher-intensity editing. I believe in you :)

I’ve been subscribed to you for a while but I have been a casual watcher, that changed today. I really resonated with your insecurity and the frankness in which you spoke today. You have inspired me, I have been wanting to make a video essay for months but my insecurities held me back. Thanks for sharing your thoughts into the world ❤

You may not have posted as much this year, but I feel like your videos from this year have consistantly been some of my favorites you've ever done! They've been very well-researched and empathetic; Internet Analysis is one of my favorite youtube series, for sure.

As someone who has dm'd you (asking for advice) it makes my heart hurt to know that you had anxiety over the notification, thinking about what it could possibly say, etc... I am glad you are finding ways to cope and still am thankful that you responded and gave me advice. Thank you for a transparent and vulnerable video.

I want to thank you for all your hard work. The way you describe and organize the topics in your essays make them very easy to digest. I also love how your topics are interesting to you, which make them unique compared to what you can find in the "bigger" yt channels.

You’ve been one of my favorite commentary youtubers since 2018. I really like how they open up a conversation and include voices from all groups of people, instead of speaking over them.

LOVE the hair and inner Tiffany dialogue and all the fun edits! As a very small RU-vid content creator, I can relate to every single step of uploading a video. I can’t imagine having so many more eyeballs though. The writing, the filming, the editing, the thumbnails, and the feedback it’s all so much

being a youtuber myself (this is ironic in itself already) this hits home. now comes the question, did i just want to make a comment because this is relatable, or is it just another attempt to have a small chance to be seen by many. going full meta in this video.

Yes to the hair, yes to the couch matching your eyes, yes to more videos from you. Your back-and-forth at the beginning is amazing. You're too talented to not create the content YOU want.

This was an amazing video Tiffany, as always! I really appreciate your vulnerability and even though I am not a video essayist I really relate to a lot of the thoughts and experiences you expressed in this video. Perfectionism/people-pleasing is so tough to deal with even without a strong internet presence, so I admire how much strength you and other content creators have. Good luck with working on balancing everything, it sounds like you're on the right track and doing your best, so I hope you are proud of yourself!

In love with the new hair already!

Long time occasional viewer - I appreciate your videos because sometimes i fall into times where i dont go online much for a few weeks, and i do learn more about what's currently going on. I really appreciate your creative process because it is so similar to mine. I will always watch you for the care and awareness of yourself/your possible biases/ the world's biases that you approach every topic with. For every doubt, there is another silent watcher/occasional viewer like myself that knows you as a truly good person that puts genuine thought and effort into your work. I haven't commented on a vid in years ... thank you for sharing!

Some things are unnecessarily long but I also love long form content to put on at work and not have to keep finding videos to watch. Jenny Nicholson does great long videos of interesting topics

LOVE THE HAIR!

this is literally me and my brains relationship with my channel! 😭 This was actually really cathartic to watch knowing I'm not the only one who feels this way. Tiff you are amazing and your channel is also amazing! I've been watching for years even though I never comment. Love ya! 💗

oh man, I nodded so much. yeah ... my brain feels like it did when I was struggling to finish my thesis, but like ... every single day.

Already 296 comments, but i feel like i need to post this. As an intj I totally get you, facts are a 'must' when talking about anything basically, which is why my family hates me sometimes lol. I started following you because of your comprehensive thinking style and your wide range of vocabulary which have definitely helped me in developing my own as an ESL learner. So, all of the effort that you put through your videos have indeed made a great difference!. In many ways I am very grateful to you for that, even though it may not have been your intention, for me it kinda feels like listening to a friend while learning at the same time Lots of love from Buenos Aires 👋

I may not have been your viewer before internet analysis but i appreciate the way you format your videos. I actually like how you're able to put forth most of the sides and views through research and spending time on a topic. And i love listening to these videos as podcast so I'm more of a spotify person. But i like watching you too! Appreciate your videos! ❤️ Also belated congrats on your wedding!

I’ve been here since before Internet Analysis. Hearing what it’s been like for you behind the scenes from then to now, especially as someone who doesn’t yet create content, is so eye-opening. I hope moving forward you can figure out that balance you’re looking for. And should you still want to make vlogs-know that there are still those of us out here who enjoy them so much! Thanks for everything Tiffany xx

I don't know if they are video essays but I definitely enjoy the mostly relaxed and casual tone they all have, and the fact that I learn stuff from them. I also appreciate the length of the videos - lately I play your videos while I lift weights and I go through two or three of them and they are perfect to keep me entertained while I lift but also focused on the workout. Swell Entertainment and Leeja Miller are also my go-to vloggers during my workouts and commutes to work. I love this video category on RU-vid. It's really perfect. Keep it up.

As someone who has always wanted to start a video essay channel this is definitely an eye-opener. I hope you're taking care of yourself? Your videos are incredibly meaningful for me, but I hope the way you're choosing to pursue this is meaningful to you too.

As an artist who has been posting on IG since 2019 and building my brand to 85k followers, ive experienced the exact same burnout you're speaking of. The quiet quitting, shrinking away from dms, being afraid to open your inbox, feeling disconnected from the community you've built and feeling like no one cares. It really gets to your peace of mind. And the sad part is that you don't realize it's happening until youre there in the void, scrolling your archives wondering, "who is this old me that used to post so much interesting confident content?". Ugh! Super relatable topic Tiff and I loved youre little cuts with your intrusive thoughts in this video. Literally laughing out loud and saying "yeah" to a lot of what you were saying. XD

I loved this cathartic video! And I think this is because I understand you - not as a youtuber, but as a person who consumes and has obsessively used social media in the past. I ended up creating an online image myself too. I posted a lot on Instagram for example, shared every view I had on every topic I had come across to, and it became uncontrolable for me to be on the Internet!! Now I'm also going on through a changing time of my life. I'm glad you shared all your RU-vid creation process and I support you in this "new era" (should I call it this way?). We need to have mind-shifting times and take them with patience. Your channel is easily on my top 5, so you can count on me! Saludos desde Argentina

Very thoughtful essay Tiffany ! I've been following your for years now, and I know it's easy to say, but don't put so much pressure on your content. Your content is *content* it's not a full 100% reflection of who you are as a person and your place in the world, it is allowed to be it's own thing sometimes. We appreciate you and the art you make ! Take care :)

Ended up finding this channel when I was recommended your video on "Suburbs, Walkability, & Car Dependency" video. It has been enjoyable to listen to you talk about something you're passionate about, or something you want to bring attention to, been watching/listening to every single video since.

I've been following you since the time you were living in France and I still love your videos 😊 I actually find them way more interesting than others because they aren't written with a specific opinion in mind and they're more open! I think it's a better way to start a conversation and make individuals think further about a topic. I watch a few other video essay channels but very sporadically, yours are the ones I identify with the most and I genuinely think it's because they are so open! ❤️❤️

also you were saying how you sometimes dont feel expert enough on the topics... as a journalism student I'd like to say you're literally doing the same thing as journalists! Welcome the club of being expert of nothing but curious about everything. We make info accessible :)

I look forward to your videos so much, whenever they come, and whatever they contain. While I enjoy the well-researched, sensitive and elegantly portrayed analyses, I’m here mostly because I just love watching YOU! You bring a lot of comfort to a lot of people on this strange platform. We love you!

tiffany i can’t thank you enough for your videos, i relate to you more than anyone else on this platform. one of the biggest things being that i also struggle with imposter syndrome and it bleeds into my work, my creative spaces, and even my relationships. it’s so helpful to hear someone’s experience that is so similar to mine. thank you for your continued efforts to be honest and transparent. 💞

I always thought you were quite authentic and am glad you don't always have a hard line drawn in the sand about certain topics. Takes a lot of moxie to do what you do. Keep the awesome videos coming ( at a reasonable and sustainable pace that brings you joy and refreshment, of course)

17:43 into the video, I'm very tired of my day and I usually finish long videos in two times. I find this very interesting and enlightening. This essay is personal enough so that we can identify to your struggles and learn from your experiences. I think it's more and more important to think about how the creator on the other side of the screen may feel. We may be nice and thankful, we're still consuming your work as if it was a open buffet, without seeing all the work behind. It's a hard job; I know that most youtuber have felt imposter syndrome at least once, but this job is so demanding on so many levels. And I haven't watched the "boundaries" part yet but that too, you're comprising with your private life and image. That is a big sacrifice to make, and we should pay more respect to that. I like the new haircut, you're always very pretty and it suits you just as well. And for the lighting, and angle, etc... I get you, I feel the same. But I don't consider myself to be photogenic and always abandon on looking "ok" enough for the camera. I think you're photogenic; I don't get tired of your voice nor of your face. And little mistakes or things out of place in the frame would not be taken into consideration when deciding whether the video was great or not. Ok, I'm not as concise as I'd like. But you're great. I meant to day it before I go to sleep and watch the rest tomorrow.

Great video as always, thank you! You are amazing and I love every video you post, it's always so well researched and well made! It's amazing that we all have insecurities and that is amplified as you become more and more of a public person, that must suck, and I'm glad that you post videos even with all that happening.

Oh PLEASE finish the video about influencers over sharing. I’m sure that could be a whole series. But I do find it interesting that some people let it all hang out. As for this video, the algorithm is feeding me your videos again. I saw the fall one last time and commented. Now I’m seeing this! I haven’t seen your videos for over a year. The most compelling part of this video for me was when you dove into how your habits on the internet have changed. I found that part to be the most vulnerable and quite frankly relatable even as someone who isn’t a content creator. Last, the red hair is LOVELY on you!

I love this 😂❤your inner voice is relatable -& trust me none of us think any of those things about you or your videos. If I was a content creator I would totally struggle with the same things & overthinking & judging my content. As an artist I sometimes do but I’m also not putting my art up for the world to see most of the time. Anyway, the self analysis & criticism is a universal experience for artists/creators 😂😅. We love your videos ❤❤totally just try to follow your inspo & don’t worry about anything else

Being a follower since 2016 because I didn't get in into my dream college (and I saw your viral video in which you talked that you didn't either), I must say that even though I love your internet analysis videos, I really miss your videoblog videos. Now that I'm getting married, I would love to get one or two videos on how is this new stage of life for you. Years have passed by, and you remain one of my favorite RU-vidrs. So, no matter what you do, your unique, thoughtful and beautiful personality will make your videos shine through the next following years. Hugs from Mexico!

Have you ever thought that there is simply more content and more people creating? People only have so much time in a day. As much as I’d love to consume more content, I find myself having to choose. I have never seen or heard of you or this channel, and then was shocked to see 170,000+ subscribers, and 100,000+ views on this video alone in just four days. THATS HUGE. And yet, I’ve never seen or heard of you! Because there is just so much content! There are so many skilled, talented, and valuable content creators!

I love your essays. Please keep doing topics you love. They are deep in their own way, and are a refreshing addition to the essay world. I think sometimes people go into these doom and gloom rabbit holes with essays and I think yours are an amazing break from that. The people who watch you, watch you for you.

I’m genuinely so grateful for your internet analysis!!!❤️❤️ i always look forward to it and i find the topics interesting. They also help me when I’m sick. I don’t even follow you on insta/twitter but my parasocial bond is strong 😭 ive been watching you since 2018 i think.

You've always been such a constant on RU-vid for me and are one of the few creators I still get excited about when I see a new upload. I love how calming but informative your videos are (I literally think about the good teeth / cost of dental video every night I put in my retainer).

Aw it makes me sad how hard you are on yourself!(I can tell from this video that our brains work similarly). I must've started watching you around the time you started internet analysis, and you're still one of my favorites to see pop up in my subscription box! I think your videos are always so well-done and and it's obvious how much work you put in. I like that your videos aren't super opinionated and attempt to look at thinking from different angles. I always learn something new and often get to hear about something i've never given much thought to... even if it's something that doesn't seem that deep (phone games?) Overall I just think you seem like an awesome, conscientious person and your new hair looks great!

The reason I keep watching your videos is you! Your voice is comforting, you are honest and critical of many things others take for granted or never think twice about. You may have been posting less but I really haven't noticed because I just see a new video and I'm like, ooh more Internet Analysis! I appreciate your vulnerability in this video but I also completely understand your hesitance to show your life online to so many strangers. Do what is right for you!

I think your channel is wonderful-always thoughtful and interesting. I am so sorry you had a bad experience. I've been there and understand completely. I hope that you continue with your channel-but I understand and respect what you choose to do.

I love this video, seriously so good to hear somebody talk about this. I got off of social media (besides watching YT and occasionally commenting) because of the intense anxiety of the void from even posting on Facebook. I have even gotten too scared to comment on videos because of being so scared about what could happen and it just not seeming worth it.

It's great that you're speaking so openly about these things. It must be really difficult being a youtuber, so much pressure, so much criticism (internal and external) and the stupid algorithm. I would be a ball of anxiety and I'm really in awe of you for coping with all of that. However frequently or infrequently you post, I always really look forward to your videos.

This was a really interesting peek behind the curtain! It helps me as a viewer better understand everything that goes into this - before during and after. From reading some of the other comments, it seems like this really resonated with other creators too! Also love the new hair! Happy New Year! Wishing you well and a great 2023!

i found you several years ago i think it was your first internet analysis video (or of the same vein) and you have consistently been my favorite account. thank you for being so vulnerable!! i look forward to whatever you bring in the new year. also a video about influencer privacy seems so interesting, it is really scary what people can find out

This is a fantastic video. I think it perfectly encapsulates the problems with social media and the internet in general, and why I've always wanted to be a content creator but never have, because I have all the same fears. At least you went out and did it!! Keep doing what you're doing girl