I have just listened to the live version for the first time, and it is amazing, even better than the studio version in my opinion! Raw emotion and impressive singing
When depression becomes normal, being ok is terrifying. You know it's not going to last long, and you can't enjoy it because of that anxiety. "When and how will this end?" Yeah, it's rough.
I'm torn between "I'm scared of being okay, 'cause all things change," and the line "In the gallows, balanced on my toes so I can breathe." Both of those hit me like a sack of bricks.
@@brattneyrose5652 And don't forget, "I'm still here in this bed that I crawled in... I hope that I'm someone else in the morning." So many powerful lyrics that I think anyone can relate to. A song everyone should know and hear.
I'm a 67 year old grandpa that grew up on Led Zeppelin & Black Sabbath. I am hooked on Ren and different reactions. Yours is one I always watch over and over. Thank you, Lolli ❤
These two together are the ultimate duo IMO, my favourite track on the past 10 years, closely followed by them doing " How to Be Me " and then very close indeed, " One Dance/Drunk in Love " Great reaction
Just wanted to say that, as someone who has struggled with severe anxiety and depression, the part where you pointed out that it’s really difficult “because it’s a fear of yourself” hit me as hard as the song did. I’ve never heard it simplified that way before and my god, that resonates. Thank you for that. Seriously.
At 51 I was just diagnosed with multiple sclerosis. I was told I've probably had it most of my adult life. I've struggled mentally for as long as I can remember. Depression, anxiety, cog fog, attention issues, blah blah. To now learn that most if not all of it could have just been chewed up wiring... who am I really? Who could I have been. It's got me really f-ed up. F-ed enough that I finally went into thrapy. Life really be life-ing on us sometimes! ❤
I don’t believe they understand how special they are together. Because so good on their own. But Ren might be one of the biggest savant musicians I have ever heard. There is no denying she brings something even more special out of him. She has a voice that is just unreal. It pushes him!! Love them both. But boy together it’s unreal Area 51 type good.
One of the great truths in life is that Ren is *always* so much better than you remembered. Even when what you remember was that the last thing you heard from him was life-changing. "Scared of being OK, cause all things change" - for me, I'm scared of being OK because if I were ever to get better and then get worse again... this time, I know how bad it gets, and also, how many people you lose, and also, how much work (and how long it can take) to recover even just to the point I've fought for today (which is FAR from OK). And since I've been on Disability for 19.5 years, if I ever got better to the point of being "OK," I don't think I could ever fully *trust* that I wouldn't crash again. I got an extra layer of emotional watching you watch this just because I know you had that voice-focused conversation with Chinchilla and felt that vocalist kinship strongly with her. I can't imagine we'll ever see another reactor react to Chalk Outlines only *after* having an in-depth conversation like that with her. Unique.
These two are precious. Individuals who have dealt with debilitating issues and stood at death's door know they can become chalk outlines at any moment. A sense of normality or "being okay" are scary feelings. Powerful performance.
I honestly had forgotten that you haven't yet done their duets. I think I had just assumed that you listened to them on your own and therefore weren't going to "react" to them. They were SOOOOO hot in the reaction community that it was hard to imagine you just not having gotten to them. That's not a judgement, just an observation. This song gets me every time. I myself have never been on psychotropics for depression or anxiety, etc. But someone very very near and dear to me was for many years. And whenever she would take them I could almost watch her disappear before my eyes, like a slow leak from an inflatable pool toy, and there would just be this empty person in her stead that kinda sorta resembled her. I've probably heard this song 200+ times, and still every time I hear Chinchilla chime in with the word "Sertaline" it absolutely destroys me. "The feeling goes, and you draw a chalk outline"...wheeeeww. Those words are like a baseball bat across the head. IDK what is going on with our society, where such a large number of us need to be on these life long subscriptions to mood altering drugs. IDK if it's the water, the air, or the fake food we eat...our lifestyles, or what. I don't want to say it's a scam for the pharmaceuticals to collect a tax from us, but I'd be lying if I said if didn't feel like it sometimes. Whatever it is we absolutely MUST get to the bottom of it. We are systematically homogenizing our young people right out of what makes them unique and special, and it's absolutely tragic. This is not to say that they are not appropriate for some people. or even most of the people that are on them. I am not qualified to say. But if so, the fact that we've made a world where this course of action is in any way appropriate for so many, is a damning indictment on our society as a whole. Please, please, please... I beg of you to do their live duet of "How to Be Me". Name your price...I'll donor it right now. Aside from the fact that I think Ren's message on mental health is a modern equivalent to Orwell's in the past, this particular performance is absolutely gorgeous. And I would imagine someone of your singing expertise would have a field day with it.
Ren said, Daisy was like a sister to him, simpatico. You our dear one are always amazing, how you truly let the music run through you, as it should. Everything we are is attributable to sound vibrations and you have good vibes. Cheers, Doc
This song was my first introduction to Chinchilla and she is leveling up so much from video to video that I see of hers it's just amazing. Your twitch streams seem very enjoyable! Time to check them out :)
Please react to The Tale of Jenny and Screech FULL version. It is truly Shakespearean in all ways. A masterpiece that will break you. In 60 years I don't think I've ever heard anything g like it
"it's a fear of yourself.. and it's a fear of your natural state.. of being. Which is a really horrible thing to experience." YAS this.. This is what I always get from this piece, is an understanding that there are other people who experience this and feel this way. Thank you.
“Chinchilla’s arguably more special…” [when speaking of beyonce and xtina] - facts! Thank you for saying this out loud 😁❤ Love your channels so much, Lolli 🫶
I'm not knocking CA or B. Good voices. Fun and catchy music. But so polished and produced. Not a lot of humanity left. I much prefer Chinchilla's rawness!! 🔥
One of the rare times I’ll recommend you listen to the MP3 version for a more nuanced sound; specifically for a half second of audio lol When Chinchilla transports into “Don’t cry ‘cause there’s a pill for everything.” That is unequaled music!
Great reaction. You need to react to Ren & Chinchilla busking. Sexual healing. Ren laughs out loud into the mic. 🎤 because Chinchilla belting is so damn good he had to react to it. Best Ren & Chinchilla moment ever. IMO
This is one of my fave Ren songs. It's so sad and lovely They are a power duo, 100%. I]m very familiar and comfortable with my dark side and I really get the line, "I'm scared of being okay, cause all things change." I wouldn't be myself without it, right? The struggle is as important, if not more important than the good times.
Such an incredible performance, these two are so great together. Also people should check out her analysis of Fingers with Chinchilla on the main channel, since I think a lot of people missed it.
One could tell me that ren and/or chinchilla was devoid of talent, technique and musicianship and I would still say they are the best thing to happen to music in the past 20 years.
Your reaction was so moving. This song already gives me chills, but watching your reaction kept my skin rippling with goosebumps. Im so glad i discovered Chinchilla through Ren's music. She has an amazing voice. Im not a singer, but ive been an orchestral musician. This blend of sounds and mood together..... amazingly beautiful.
I was today years old when I found out there's a MORE FAIRY VOICE MOTHER channel. Excuse me, while I go on a spree, since I've got so many videos left to catch up on this channel :P Great reaction as always, Lolli!
How to be Me. Great analysis at the end about being scared of your natural state. It took decades of drugs and drink, now therapy to feel comfortable in natural state of being. Good stuff.
We listen to music the same way! You flinching and making random noises because it is flowing thru ur body in an insane way that cant be contained. Love to see it
Fantastic insight. I’d rather the real - kids banging all weekend, posting feel down on Monday 😂- of course you do. Love their art. Good luck with yours.
Oh cool, you have special 2nd channel! I’m in!! Plus you simply HAVE to check out these two doing ‘How to be Me (Live)’. Possibly probably my favourite Ren song and they just kill it.
"The reason we have to learn Vocal Techniques is not because we wanna be a Vocal Technischen and impress people with our Vocal skills its because to have enough colors in ur vocal palette to paint the picture of what's going on inside." on of the most impressed sayings i hear in a long time ....thank u for that !
Absolutely love your reaction thank you. This would be one of my fave all time pieces if it weren’t for a song called “How to be me” which is even freakin better if that’s possible.actually it’s a cpl of levels better imho. It’s by Ren and Chinchilla. Do you know them? If you do check it out make sure once again you get the live version bc it’s basically the best thing ever. Thank you!❤❤❤
I forgot that you fell off the Ren train a while ago (or at least parked it in a siding 😂). There's so much in his catalogue and recent album I'd love to see you react to. Hope you'll get that train 🚂🚃🚃 moving again. He's the artist of the year for me, no doubt.
I'm so glad you came back to Ren! In another reaction you said something that made me immediately think "oh she's gonna love How To Be Me!", so please check out the live version - I promise you'll love it!
Thanks a bunch❤ money game 3 is amazing too. (And of course 'how to be me' if u want more chinchilla)... OK ok 'for joe' and him and sam busking.... ahhhh heck just react to all of Ren 😂
It's a lovely interpretation of a lovely song. I often wonder to myself why sadness can be so beautiful sometimes. Melancholy, saudade, etc... It's that sort of soft sadness vibe I get from this song despite the theme being drugs and depression. It's like god saying "don't worry young one, you'll never be truely sad, have some pretty".
I spend so much of my time in a slump but right now I'm doing so much better than I have in a long time, and the "scared of being okay cause all things change" line is really hitting me right now. I don't know how long this will last. I don't want it to end but I know it will.
"It's important to have enough vocal colours so as to paint a picture of what you're feeling inside" - what a beautiful way of describing it 🎨 This is an alltime Ren favourite of mine and perfect for vocal coaches to feast their ears on, so glad you finally did it, enjoyed watching your eargasms! Can't wait for you to react to How to be Me.. Meanwhile have shared this to my RENactions! FB group where we share our favourite Ren ( & friends ) reactions. Reactors also welcome to the group to plug their Ren related content
One of their collabs which is brilliant, which doesn't get enough reaction, is their cover of Marvin Gaye's Sexual Healing in a busking performance on Chinchilla's channel. They were on that day. She was belting so well. It's pretty special and raw.
I found this song and one they did called 'How to be me', when i was in a very dark place with my MH. I was scared to be ok as they kept forgetting my medication and i hit rock bottom. Xx
It was beautiful and real to see the song hit you. You went from talking about the song to talking about your real you. Then you brought them all together. That's why I watch reactions. To be able to experience it for the first time again. Love you.
love the reaction hugs all around love it when vocal pros chat about Ren and his crew! cant wait for How to be me live by ren x chinchilla and Humble by Ren and eden nash then one of my fav that most ppl dont do Blind eyed by Ren and Sam Tompkins ( must be the Mc sessions verison its unreal) anyways thanks for the reaction and p.s love the glasses
Purely as words on a page this song is incredibly stirring, but the beautiful writing is wholly and completely done justice in this performance. As I commented on the original video what seems like forever ago, it is a perfect balance of raw emotion and fragility mixed with impeccable swings of expression and restraint. Really a masterful song and performance.
It’s not books, it’s bound reports. Common in any kind of offices and all. At least 30 years ago when I worked in offices. They may get less terrified if not having hard copies these days.
As I am suffering myself from double depression, depersonalization, anxiety disorder and a chronical pain disorder (e.g. 20+ days with headaches / month) for decades by now I feel so connected to Ren and this masterful pieces of art he created and gave us. Also my "creative I" can understand his struggles and thoughts so well. The lines you mentioned regarding the fear of yourself and state hit me as well every time I hear them: They are so familiar!
Have you seen those video shorts where a young child hears, or sees colors, for the first time? Having lived almost 75 years before encountering Ren or being very familiar with music, that was the intensity of my reaction, starting with Hi Ren and bringing me here. Your reaction provided an exponential increase in discovery and appreciation, Thank you, Lolli! ... Subscribing.
Wow lady that was an amazing reaction 🤯🤯.. You broke it down perfectly ( you really picked up everything ),even describing his vocals with your knowledge i learnt how your muscles in your throat worked watching your video... I'm 53yrs of age and never knew that 🤯🤯🤯 ❤ for this thank you 😘👌✌✌️
I've been labouring under the impression that I was subscribed to you. I've done it again. This will be fun. I love your work, beautiful xx You didn't disappoint. I'm made up to see you enjoy this so much. Your Chinchilla chat was a wicked post too love. Thanks
I loved your reaction! So natural and honest! The little grimaces and groans illuminate the sections and techniques that impress you and following on I'm able to graphically see for myself those instances. If that makes sense. Anyhow, you help me understand more thoroughly what exactly is so special about Ren and in this case Chinchilla. Thank you.
Actually the worst part is fearing being happy because of the cheques and balances mentality and that to experience even a moment of happiness means something terrible is going to happen, the shoe is going to drop and your life is going to go to pieces in ways that were worse than before the moment of happiness. Safer not to be happy, safer to sabotage potential happiness. Safer to pull the cover of the depression and the anxiety over you and live in that so that it doesn't get worse. I think the most fascinating aspect of this song is the eye contact and the chemistry between Chinchilla and Ren because that's the reality of what people who experience clinical depression and psychosis and things are always seeking and needing and finding a like minded soul who gets what you are experiencing and can share that with you is more powerful therapy than so many of the drugs that professionals try to push on us. This song is also about how the professionals want to provide drugs and downplay the potential side effects, downplay the fact that the drugs are a crapshoot. They are throwing mud at a wall and have no idea if it will actually help or not. That so often what they force on us leaves us dead inside, no creativity, no passion, nothing but the chalk outline of what we used to be before they turned us into zombies. The fear of happiness is called Cherophobia, from the Greek "chero" which means to rejoice in something.
I have been tested on drugs for a very long time since I was born. The drugs tested on me now used to help others sadly they helped but they also caused me other issues as too young not used on children. My issues are easy but also complex and reason why I never married.
I think you would enjoy watching this. Ren & Sam Tompkins - Earned it /Mans World / Falling Its them playing live on a street. You get to hear Ren do more singing, and showing his musical side live with no production to add to it. And Sam also has an insane voice. Its a different side to what most have gotten to know Ren for. Search this for the video : Ren & Sam Tompkins - Earned it /Mans World / Falling
I so love your reactions i am VERY sensitive but use stoicism to control my emotions instead of drugs or alchohol... BUT when i watch your videos i can feel with you and release some pressure! TY!
