WE ALL NEEDED THIS | Linkin Park - "Fighting Myself" | FIRST TIME REACTION 

It's like Mike knew that we were all still reeling from Lost and wanted to give us something to lift us up. Even though the song is dark, all of them are, it's like they wanted to give us a gift. The gift of the sound and feel that got us all into Linkin Park in the first place.

"Everything i have learned to hate come out for you to see" ... What a line

Hearing Mike's vocals and Chester's vocals, bouncing back and forth, are like the thoughts in our heads, and the words we could've say. That's why I connected with LP. We are not alone in our struggles.

Before interpreting Linkin Park lyrics as a "cry for help", keep in mind that the vast majority of the lyrics were written by Mike, not Chester.

Mike is doing the intro singing and verses but in reverse. Mike said that he was originally looking for this song to release first but instead found Lost which he had forgotten about. He also thought that the demos only had his rapping and there was no copy with Chester. But someone found Chester's singing for the song but it was only 90% done. Mike just worked with it this is what we got. So we don't have the full lyrics but like Mike said it still feels like a complete song. This song was heard for the first time back in 2003 in a video that featured Mike recording the riff for the song. Chester was sitting by his side in the video. Chester didn't really write any of the songs. Mike did all that. But....both would get together and go through them and do some rearranging of lyrics in order to get the songs to sound right. Mike and Chester would talk about things they were going through. Mike would then write these things in songs/lyrics and present them to Chester. they would go through the songs first then present them to the rest of the band and from there work on the music more. From what I heard, Chester didn't write anything for the early albums. some of the last albums had some songs he did write though. You can tell just from the songs he did write, that there was something going on and they have more emotion coming out of him.

LP always helped me when I was younger and I'm glad the discussion around mental health has gotten so serious. I thank you and everyone else for the support, we might not be here without it.

LP songs gives me chills. Messages in the lyrics that are so crucial for mental health.

This song is a link between Hybrid Theory and Meteora sonically... What a gem to be dropping on us like this. I wish Chester could know how much we all miss him still.

Chester's voice will always be remembered. ❤

“ I can’t run with this weight on my back , I can’t see cause I’m focus in the past “ this one … im crying

If I remember correctly Mike wrote most of these songs as an outlet for Chester to deal with his demons and struggles mentally. They were a way for Chester to say the things he went through and was feeling so as to not bottle his emotions/issues.

Please don't take this wrong in anyway. We can't say the songs were cries for help but we can say the songs are about real feelings. The multiple attempts of suicide was a cry for help. Those close to Chester knew his battles. We are all just fans with real feelings. Posting the Hotline number is a Great thing. some feelings shouldn't become real. The numbers do help. Love the reaction video. im going down my own rabbit hole today. Lost and Fighting Myself all in one day for me. I needed to hear these songs today. What a roller coaster ride.

Even though a lot of your arguments are absolutely right, all of us Linkin Park fans somehow seem to forget how much of the influence with Melodies AND Lyrics actually are from Mike rather than from any of the others. Mike is/was the crazy mind behind all of this throughout the entirety and listening to the Demos now you really understand how much he influenced our entire thinking about their songs. Chester gave a voice to it and it is truly sad he passed away, but without Mike we would have never heard any of these songs... and he even wrote how Chester had to sing the lines with him singing the Demos himself.

Not just the lyrics Chester talked about his depression in many interviews the sad part is he talking about how bad it gets when he's alone which he was when he offed himself because when you're busy or around people you can fight off the depression

i found linkin park when i was 5 and have loved them since. i turned 19 recently and still love them

I've been thinking about this song for ten days and decided to deliver my story about Linkin Park that I had. When it comes to Linkin Park I believe I heard them first in 2005. At that time I experienced many different things for the first time: like anime called Naruto and I was very much into AMV's, and during one I heard "Somewhere I Belong" by Linkin Park. Since then it was the song that slowly became my favorite from Linkin Park. I enjoyed the sound of it more than any other and when I started to understand English language it resonated with me on a deeper level. Just like Chester I needed "to find something I wanted all along. Somewhere I belong.". I already found many people that I can call as my greatest friends and I still have my family that I deeply love. ❤Still this song "Fighting Myself" starts to resonates with me more than even that "Somewhere I Belong". When I think about it I remember every moment when I kept some secrets from my mom. I just didn't wanted to be "another source of problems for her". This is the lesson that I learned the hard way and I want other people to know it. It's important to adress the issues, that You are dealing with to people, that You can trust. Otherwise You will be overwhelmed with those problems, explode with "anger that is constantly inside" You and still become "another source of problems for the closest ones" , and feel like: "It would be better if I would adress those problems way earlier" (just like me). That's a long story I know. But I think I needed to get it off from my chest. 😂Great reaction! 😃

Chester’s singing and harmonies are literally tearjerking. 😭

I was six or seven years of age when I had a CD player in Indiana won’t say where. I suffered from bipolar disorder, clinical depression, and adhd all together throughout my entire childhood. My library had both meteor, and hybrid theory they were two of my all time favorite cds to grab and listen to at my apt complex so when Chester passed it struck a serious chord. If I remember correctly this song remained in the volt because it resembled numb and another song from the same album to much so they didn’t release it apologies I can’t remember the second song. Amazing reaction from a genuine fan to an amazing song mam thank you for this great video!

What i love about this song the most, not even Mike Shinoda originally knew that Chester sang for this track.. it feels like a gift from Chester for us

LP is, was, and will forever be the reason why I am still alive. When I was younger I had to deal with the death of many friends and family at a fairly rapid pace between middle school and the beginning of high school. I can't even begin to fathom the amount of times that I've contemplated ending it all because I just couldn't take getting my life getting ripped to shreds anymore. It was when I had first started listening to Linkin Park and hearing their music and how it spoke to my soul and everything I was going through, I broke down completely and let all that pain out. I got myself into therapy and started finding ways to express my pain, anger, etc. So yeah LP is legitimately the reason I am still walking around 20+ years later, I just wish I could ever show my gratitude for their music, their meanings, everything.

have you heard Grey Daze, it was the band Chester was in before he joined LP. i just discovered them and the original recordings are amazing. After he passed, the band re-recorded the original songs. such a gem.

Its absolutely crazy to think that the reversed vocals isnt Chester, though many would assume it was. According to Howard Stern, its Mike. But also for those who question it, and hope the curious can see this, the reversed lyrics are also reversed in order. the lyrics message out to "happen to this wanted never I." -> "I never wanted this to happen."

Linkin park was the tharapi that we 90s kids had. Mental illness was never something that we today taking open about. I feeling exactly like you do, it's bittersweet but such a blessing to hear his voice again ❤ And this 2 song is the therapy I really need now. Linkin parks music really have a big place in my ❤ Thank you for sharing your reaction.❤ Sending you lots of love from Sweden 🇸🇪 ❤️

I can relate to Chester in more ways than I care to admit, and I have thought many times over the years that I wish I could have been there for Chester in some way. I wish I could have told him, "I hear you." And I sometimes wonder if someone with his voice could still feel like people weren't listening, what chance do the rest of us have?

Looking at disc 6 of the upcoming rerelease of Meteora. We have another 5 songs to come. All have been off disc 6 so far. Thank you Aileen, you get across what everyone is feeling with these unreleased track XXX

For the Meteora album they had 15 songs, but only 10 are actually on it.

Welcome back. Thank you for another raw, honest, open reaction 😢😢😢 please keep inspiring and aiding others in their struggles. You were OUTSTANDING once again 👏!!!

They made Banger after banger. I met Chester Bennington one time at Ozzfest he was one of the most heartfelt people I have ever met

Chester expressing the emotions we felt from the afterlife.🤘❤️

i missed hearing LP, hearing these audios is hard but in a weird sense kinda of closure, and amazing video! keep killin it!

If you listen to "One More Light" album we can hear Chester telling us exactly what he was going through but it came more to light after his sudden death. I'm so glad they're releasing songs that were hidden just wish they could release new music if he was still here 😢🤘

This absolutely broke me.. tears fell.. you are so right. it's to late to look back, but all the signs were there.. check on your friends, so many feel the same way

I just wanted to say thank you for what you do. Linkin Park has meant so much, not only to me but also to so many people around the world. When we say they saved our life, we absolutely mean it. To hear you talk about the metalhead community makes me happy. Way back when I was in high school, metal was looked down on by "normies". I was asked if I worshiped the devil multiple times. I didn't but it made me appreciate when I found a community of people like me. Keep doing what you do. I appreciate you.

Linkin Park and killswitch engage both saved my life with there music and message

The fact that your reaction is so honest and genuine and that you care about the mental health of others earned you my subscription

I can’t be the only one that thinks about this.. but when Chester screams “ I can’t breathe” all I think about is the method he chose to leave this world. It’s sadistic, and I wish i didn’t think about it

Yes this is the song is from meteor it is on their 20th anniversary they have like five songs that they never released but it's going to be on anniversary album

Thank you for your reaction. It's really great that you take your time to discuss all the emotions song brings up. Nice catch with Figure.09. And for me, the begining of Mike's part reminded a 'A place for my head'.

Thank you for this. Life has been hard since he passed for me because they kept me going in the dark times of my life and losing him was as hard as a family member. So being open and talking about it takes a lot of courage to do. Thank you so much! Also I love this song. Kinda reminds me of a mix of paper it and figure.09 and system from the queen of the damned soundtrack. I love it!

LOVE THE REACTION!!! Those harmonies @5:56 hit so hard! Gave me goosebumps and took me back to my high school days! CAN'T WAIT FOR YOUR NF MANSION REACTION BTW!

this song hit me harder then Lost mainly because of Mike’s lines. a lot of what he was saying is extremely relatable and hits very hard.

This song and others like it have gotten me through some really dark times. Rest in peace, Chester Bennington.

I am so thankful these songs have been released. I needed this now more than ever in my life

Love you and your channel, your reaction makes me smile. Much love!

I miss Chester alot 😢😢😢

Yeah all the songs that they're releasing now are from the Meteora album that they cut for the 20-year anniversary of Meteora

Thank you so much Aileen for being a light ... in general ... but also regarding mental health. It´s super important to talk about it and to help each other out, I think. I personally can definitely relate to a lot of things you mention and I´m always thankful for your words 😊 Also never forget that when you´re feeling down you´re also loved and appreciated by a lot of people. Myself included 😊 Regarding Chester ... this song reminded me of my third LP concert I wanted to go to. Sadly I got sick and I couldn´t go but I remember thinking: "Well, what the hell. I´ll be able see Chester at another concert soon again". But that part didn´t happen. So, it´s so weird to think about that this "simple" concert opportunity got one of the most important parts of my life. I definitely regret that I didn´t go. But again, I wasn´t able to. Healthwise. Still, that song reminded me of that situation ☀

I love your personality beautiful heart with fantastic knowledge and gracefulness ❤

I believe that by saying "fighting myself i allways lose", the message that overcome for me is that we cannot fight against our instincts, and should try to make our own will towards the seek for self happiness

Like you, Lost completely broke me. After Chester passed I couldn't really listen to Linkin Park without tearing up... For some reason (maybe because as you said it's such a signature song) this felt like a release from that shackle and I can enjoy LP again after all these years. That being said, I just wanted to say I love your reactions. Not only because you're so real and don't shy away from showing your emotions but it's such a nice change to hear a reactor have deeper thoughts about the songs than "yeah this was cool". You're my favorite reactor to enjoy songs with at the moment.

Been waiting for you to watch this one. It is from Meteora days. The backward singing is actually Mike singing and they reversed it, I don’t know if he did that in 2003 or before they released this because singing wasn’t something he did back then I’ll have to go back and listen to the interview he did and see if he mentioned when he recorded that part but the song was written and recorded for Meteora. This has a very “Lying from you” vibes. Fun little Easter egg that metallic sound that sounds like a bat hitting pavement, they used that same sound in By Myself on Hybrid Theory. I love that sound for some reason. I try to listen to these songs without the sadness cause for me it takes away from the music I feel more thankful for everything this band has given me.

There is no better voice in rock and roll than Chester’s! He will always be the most iconic voice in music

LP is amazing. Damn, dipped before you did this on Twitch. It does get to you but also kicks a$$! 🤘

Keep it up 👍👍

I was starting high school when they dropped Meteora, which is my favourite album. It was also the time I started listening to Linkin Park. Every time I listen these days, it's a hit of nostalgia, some good and some bad. High school was the time that depression became a big part of my life. And at that time, having support and understanding was seemingly a rare thing. I was forced to suffer in silence. Linkin Park's music was something that I could hold on to, to connect with and relate to. It helped me feel a little less alone. Even after high school, their music was there even during my darkest time. These days it seems easier to come out about mental health, seeing as more awareness is being shared. I just hate that I didn't get that earlier, but I did have Linkin Park.

This should have been on the charts!! It relates to so many of us, and he needed to know we felt the same!!

At the beginning of a show Chester fell and broke his arm. The other band members said, shall we cancel the show Chester said It will be no different in 90 minutes carry on.

One of my friends, who is not very familiar with LP, was in the car with me and Shadow of the Day was playing and he said “this song sounds like a suicide note” and that shit broke me

I’d heard lost when I first found you but not this one. Excited 😊

This song is amazing. The feelings I felt before came back again, couldn't help but to shead some tears listening to this. Rip Chester.

LP навсегда!!!

Miss you always Chester...

Yes this is another song from the vault of Meteora. If I remember correctly Mike said orginally they thought that they only had his rap part but they were digging around some more and actually found that Chester recorded his vocal part for it and they put it together

I saw this commented on another video about this song but they were so right. Lost made us feel sad about Chesters passing, Fighting Myself made us all happy to be listening to LP again

Hi aileen. youre awesome, loved the nf hope reaction . ive seen many reactions i think urs is the best so Congrats u got another subscriber love you

Yeah someone like me with borderline personality disorder and personality infj which compose opposites I have fought myself and tried suppressing myself with drugs or alcohol that is no way to live if u make peace with yourself the anxiety snd depression doesn't go away but u steer the boat in the right direction to one day hope to hit land whole in one peace and it goes up from there cause it cannot get worse than the self doubt drowning in emotions not being able to let go off the past the internal conflict becomes too much to handle u feel like you are I a parallel reality when u try to forget the past and u succseed it makes u capable of coping but never moving forward it becomes this toxic mess and u think there is only one way out but that way brings pain to others around u and the true way out is to make peace and accept the road to recovery is a long one and a harder way a harder path than the one that keeps u stuck cause accepting it is not the only thing as others might not accept u and it is indeed only u who can make the difference no one will do the work for us sadly that reality doesn't exist. My family are narssasistic so I don't rely on them for any emotional support bur my personality is infact very different from them my high emotional intelligence makes it east to see the way forward and sitting in my bed feeling ashamed or guilty for things that they trap u into being in self doubt some of the things that happent to me those things were very bad and its a shock once u can remember what has happent to u and who your family are I was diagnosed depressed when I was 5 years old having few near death experiences before age 10 and becoming sucidal but now im 33 I was 32 when I finally found out how sick I am and that I have no emotional support and how much I have to rely on myself and always have. Comorbid anxiety and depression means I'm also treatment resistant but bpd is the most successfully treatable personality disorder there is no one who has it who doesn't want to get better but it takes long time, resilience, intution, courage , creativity, empathic, loyal and resourceful people with bpd have that in abundance.

Speaking on the school experience .. i was 10 or 11 in grade school.. 6th grade same as you.. found linkin park.. got hybrid theory as a gift.. listened until the cd stopped working.. chester saved my life. His lyrics helped me cope with being bullied and because of him i didnt kill myself. He gave me a strength i didnt know i had.. i could never be more thankful to the man...... im sure meny others have similar experiences

Yea..losing Chester was very tough !! Also..I think this would of been a great fit on Hybrid Theory tbh !!

I can’t wait for the 20th anniversary album to release

love your reactions to Linkin Park was my fav newer band and hit me hard when he passed keep showing their vids love them and will always be a fan !!!!

I was getting a in the end vibe from this song I'm ngl.. Its bittersweet hearing Chester after his passing. it's always artist making music like this asking for help sometimes there's just nothing we can do but listen and hope the people around them reaches out and try and help these artists its just sad that knowing he's gone!

This song SLAPS instrumentally and vocally, but the lyrics are so sad :(

Your back!🤗

I grew up on Linkin Park, but now that I’m older (39) I’m appreciating the lyrics so much more. Amazing 👌

I love this song been listen to this song since it came out i get crunk and hype by listen to mike chester gosh bring me back good memories listen to them on the in the end or papercut vides omg love that song

Love your reactions keep it up

I love the song...but I cry a little every time I hear it. Lyrically I relate so hard

Btw you are so lovely! Love watching your content. Don't know where the smileys are but here's a heart (Heart).

WHY am I masochistically binge watching all these LP reactions even though I cry almost everytime.. I just want to keep hearing that voice but it's so damn difficult 😫 Edit: but this song is just so damn good!!!!

LP was and is just awesome

I don't give a damn when a celeb dies, I don't know them...but Chester and Anthony Bourdain hit me hard. Literally in and out of tears because they were so vulnerable and open, I felt like I knew them. I'm just glad I got to see Linkin Park live once with Incubus, and I met Anthony Bourdain randomly at a party in LA and he couldn't have been more genuine or more kind. Not a bad bone in his body.

I can't even say what I want to, because of the fear of the hate I might receive. But all i can say is I understand Chester, I really do and it scares the shit out of me.

I feel everything you just said 🙌🏻

Ha! I've been listening to a bunch of Linkin Park reactions. First time reactions are always the best❤

Saw a few of your vids today. Link Wray - Rumble That’s all I have to say. The place where it started. The man and the song would go on to influence a generation of guitarists who themselves would inspire generations more.

I love your reaction keep it up

Im bawling right now..... Fuck i feel these lyrics so deep

I liked your reaction linkin park forever this song transports me to when I was young and where bands like linkin park slipknot korn orgy system of a Down among others promoted and premiered their videos on MTV when MTV was worth watching the chorus when chester sings is epic I love your videos you are beautiful and funny you earned a new subscriber and that's me keep it up success 🤘🤘🤘

Love these! 🔥

I can't remember which Ozzfest it was but I think it was Ozzfest 09 cuz Cornwell's are Drowning Pool and Linkin Park of course with Ozzy Osbourne and Black Sabbath it was the very last one they had

I didn't like Minutes To Midnight when I was a teenager. I was used to The Hunting Party album cut. Then One More Light came and it didn't take long to completely get me, so it's proof that there are people out there who listen just because of what the band did for them with their lyrics when people were down. And and it doesn't matter in which genre they composed it.

yep afiter i heard Lost i had the same feeling he was telling fan's he need help.

Mikes bars on this track are untouchable.

This is the first reaction I see of you and I'm curious about those numbers inside a circle that appear under the video you're reacting to. Is that your heartbeat? Btw I like how physically expressive you are, your facial expressions, it makes the reaction more genuine and interesting

That song is badass and powerful.

Fighting myself is -the newest version of papercut

I like the stuff you said at the end of the video just subscribed

Chris Cornell was same way. Told the whole story in his songs. Just had to listen.

This became another favorite song of mine once i heard his voice,so powerful

glad ur back 😊