I FEAR SUFFERING. But i have to let go of that fear as well. Just halfway through ego death. A lot has changed, my humanity is disappearing. I am changing, and sometimes i ask myself, was i ever someone? Then i surrender, to the suffering. I realised surrendering to suffering is the bravest thing one could ever do. Why? Because you'd have to let go of your fear for pain.
You're still clinging to ego if you feel the need to describe it. Does the body still hold on to memories if the soul has already exited? Or does the soul hold the memories of the body?
