I had an aha moment two weeks ago, suddenly i realized the ridiculousness of it all and it felt wonderful, at that point i lived just then and there. This experience is like a key for me, i know it's there, i know it's easy, now the journey begins. I was riding this "high" for a few days before it diminished and then i asked myself, why did i lose it? that kind of sucks... but then it occured to me, no one gets enlightened, the more i chase it the further away it can get. It comes naturally when i'm still, whatever "that" is. I will always feel anxious and overthinking and sad, that's just natural human emotions, but how much i identify with it is up to me
Yeah exactly , Don't chase it. let it be and let yourself be too. embrace all your emotions and drop all the bags that no longer serve you to make you even more lighter to go higher. ❤