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The real culprit of all this mess is the cruel and unfair circle of life. Bringing someone into existence is the root of all the problems of today's world. Life is NOT a gift because it will all be taken away from us one day. If it's morally wrong to sentence someone to death likewise it is morally wrong to bring someone into existence. BUT GUESS WHAT? EVERYONE LOVES PARTICIPATING IN THIS MASSIVE INJUSTICE THAT IS THE CIRCLE OF LIFE.
@@Romina2711 Still. If we all know that no one makes it out of this planet alive I think it is wrong to cause more and more CERTAIN DEATHS in the future. For example, every 40 seconds someone takes their own life in the world. Think about how many people are going to do that in the future and those deaths CAN be prevented if those lives are not brought into existence. Humans are the only ones that understand how unfair the cycle of life is but are also the only ones that can't let go of the circle of life, knowing that it always ends the same, there is NO HAPPY ENDING TO LIFE. Non human animals don't understand that they would be better off extinct. Non existence is non suffering. We can't solve suffering for the animals but we can solve our suffering by voluntarily seeing ourselves out from the terrible cycle of life.
@@Romina2711 no offensive but this isn't the place. 'sin' what about completely innocent people who are screwed over ? People who never harmed anyone, or did anything. Yes no body is perfect. but a lot of people who want to kill themselves have such major pain. in their minds it just clouds their minds. Trust me i know. I know what happened to me personally wasn't my fault but it haunts me daily. I don't wanna hear about 'sin' no one with mental health issues do. Sometimes people don't control their actions or thinking. Thats not sinful God... jesus will understand that
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You ever heard of Sunny von Bülow? In my opinion, she had the perfect life. Half of her life was spent in pure luxury without a care in the world and the other half of her life was spent unconscious and in a permanent vegetative state for 30 some odd years.
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@@bwater9160 that’s such a perfect explanation. I know I’m severely depressed when I wake up in the morning. I can feel that feeling in my chest and it continues throughout the day, sometimes for several days. It is always there but sometimes it’s intense and sometimes it’s barely noticeable
They said we go to hell G if we off ourself but that’s the only thing that hold me back. If we went to heaven I would of be been blew my brains out .I really wish I could go to sleep and stay sleep
@@SuitGuy6579 Don't do it. Everyone's life is difficult. There are always difficult moments. It's best to talk to someone. If you talk it out, you'll be better. Get yourself an animal, for example. It will also help. And don't listen to others, because they only want you to feel worse. And remember, I still remember you and I believe in you every day. Remember, you have someone to live for!! Call the number on the Internet. You can then talk to someone. Don't hurt yourself. Don't make a quick decision. Please. You have someone to live for!
Have wanted to go to sleep and not ever wake up for years. Having Mental health is so tough. One good thing about this video is that the comments section is very moving and comforting to know we are all not the only ones x
it starts out as “i don’t wanna die, but i don’t wanna feel this pain anymore.” but it gets scary when it turns into “i want to die and i can’t deal with this pain anymore.” you start to sit there and think, huh, the one thing that i’d never do, is now my only option.
I feel you man, I’ve been thinking about getting a gun and shooting myself tbh and it’s getting harder and harder. Please don’t give up man, reply to me so I can know if you’re okay. Yes you haven’t met me, or know me but I do care about someone’s life. Not hear to blow smoke up your ass and tell you to get help because some people can’t afford help (like me). Hopefully you’re okay man.
@@FunnyMonkeyReallyFunny hey that’s good to hear, glad you’re doing alright. i’ve been doing pretty good myself, taking slow steps, but hey glad to know that you’ve been doing well
Maybe we can in the future without any plane , so i guess we should stay and live , we dont know what we could get later , hardship will come and go , literally it will past , why bother kill ourselves , nobody being miserable all the time just like nobody being happy all the time , LIVE this shit guys ! dont be stupid
I sometimes wish no-one knew me, not in a bad way but if I were to end my life no-one would be so mentally hurt and devastated. I'm not sure how much longer I have left.
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Hope you're still with us, friend. You may want to try antidepressants from your doctor. I did, and although they didn't make me deliriously happy or anything, they helped a great deal with the anxiety and panic attacks and I've been able to cope with things on a more even keel. Enough to make me rethink my desire to end it all, anyway. Try it, what have you got to lose at this point.
xoel. i don't want to live anymore. i want to leave this world. i dont feel happy anymore. for 5 years my world has been entirely gray and i cant find solace in anything. im hopeless
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real it’s impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-EXQGTInPpZU.html
Y E S But deep down I kinda think I don't really wanna do it, it just crosses my mind very often... I simply want to numb the pain. Also, the thought of possibly causing pain to ppl I love is agonising, so in a way I wish I had never existed just so I wouldn't need to think it through.
I don't feel unwanted or unloved, I just wake up in pain everyday and want it to stop and the thought of not waking up seems lovely because I know there will be no more pain felt.
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I feel weird, it’s like a sight of relief knowing you’re not alone. There’s so many people out there who feel the way I do, it’s surreal. I’ve always felt alone, left out and misunderstood my whole life, but knowing I’m not the only one gives me comfort. It’s gives me hope, maybe one day we’ll all get better.
This might sound odd, but one thought that helps me sometimes when I'm feeling suicidal is the fact that one day I will die, no matter what - I won't live forever. It can be somewhat comforting and makes me think I might as well try and have a decent life in between now and then.
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real it’s impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-EXQGTInPpZU.html
We don't actually want to die, we just want the pain to go away and sometimes we believe death is the only way to make that happen. I still struggle with suicidal thoughts from time to time and it took me some time to realize this. I love being alive and doing the things I like but some heartbreaks and problems are so hard to get over.
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Same..You’re not alone as my suicidal thoughts got worst. People will say to me. “People will care when you are gone as there must be someone.” Here why i think not.. I feel alone..Dad is dead(he was depressed himself after he lost his mom and his second wife disappeared(she didn’t care about none of us,as she made it clearly so his coping skills was drinking). Mom don’t care about my feelings, as it all about her. Siblings are distance and only come to me for family emergency or money. The only guy i though cared about me and was falling in love showed me signs that i felt rejected by him which broke my heart and made me go into self harm. Job is the only thing keeping me on survival and even then. I don’t feel job security.
@@Matchcosplays Not ironic at all, in fact it makes total sense, usually the people that feel broken are the ones that understand other broken people at the deepest levels. I know because i'm becoming a therapist myself and I want to end my life almost everyday mate.
@@keyree2406 Hey mate, how are you feeling since you wrote this? quite often the dreams we have don't feel it's worth the effort of the struggles, but once we start making a difference and helping others, including animals our perspectives can really shift, and we can see it can be worth it. And that takes time, we move into that phase when we are ready.
Suffering will come despite being a loser or winner , we definitely know what we should choose , the fact that you dont know how worth it is will be , it means you should try , hardship will come and go , dont bother it bro
i just want to feel at peace. i wish my family didnt need me. i wish i could take back everything i put out in the world good and bad. i wish i could have made my mother more proud. i wish i never gave him a chance because i wont even give myself one. i wish i could just be at peace 1 year update: I wrote this at a very low time in my life. I was struggling with sobriety, pandemic hit, lost my job, my family isn’t the kindest (i’d rather not outright spread hate on them when i know the situation is a lot more complex), i have some ptsd, I may not ever make my mom proud because I wasn’t really what she wanted. But that’s okay, her problem not mine. I’m doing a lot better, I got my job back. I have a wonderful boyfriend and I am on anti-depressants now. I still have a lot of ups and downs, low self esteem. I’m a little more at peace and no longer feeling suicidal for long periods of time :) glad to hear i wasnt alone and some of you understood what i felt. i wish everyone the best
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. He's waiting. ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-EXQGTInPpZU.html
@Pixelhack normany that's even More depressive, but true, you keep living for your kids but that makes life even more stressful and your own well being pointless, I wish I could just turn off my concience and let my body do the work to provide my family, that would be like dyng
I've gotten past the "everyone would be better without me" phase and now I'm just completely dead inside and numb to everything. Can't wait for the end
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Try it my love, nothing is more important than helping yourself. Im with you. You are not alone. I know it hurts like hell and you feel you cant take it anymore... Ive learned that not all life grows in the light, somethings grow in darkness. Your life has meaning you are important to this earth. Sending love your way. Keep fighting you can beat depression.
Nothing worse than the limbo of not wanting to carry in but not being able to go through with it because of how others will feel when you leave them behind. So you end up stuck in this perpetual sadness that never goes away one way or another
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I used to care how others would feel and i still do about some, but for the most part, no one was ever here for me to begin with. Why should I care about them now?
For what ? Hardship will come and go despite being loser or winner , being poor or rich , we know what we should choose , why bother kill yourself when you know hardship will past , you have desire why not try to get it , achieve it hardship will come anyway , at least be the winner , at least get what you want , you might become someone that really useful for us humanity , stay man ! wtf is wrong with you
Its not always the feeling of wanting to die, more just not wanting to be here any more. So no one will need to worry any more and can get on with their own lives
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-EXQGTInPpZU.html Youre here for a reason.
My fiancé tried to kill herself last night, i cant sleep. the one time i ignored the signs and this happened. its my fault because if i had only thought, she seems okay why would she change? i gave her space thinking thats what she wanted then she attempted. i lost someone to suicide already and i am so scared. i cry all night, and i am learning as much as i can. I am so scared to lose her i love her with everything in me
Remy I am also sorry that you lost someone to suicide already. Please know that it is not your fault. It is NOT your fault! She has a lot of pain happening right now, that does not mean it is your fault.
This video isn’t abt helping the person. It’s just abt keeping them alive, same thing with the hotline. No one wants to help, they just want a better stat board
From my position of absolutely zero expertise I would say you’re half right. Whether they want to help or not, they can’t help you if you’re already dead. At the same time though, it is literally their job to keep you alive so…
People do want to help. Stopping a single suicide attempt can change the outcome of their life, whether it be another day before they try again, another 30 years or maybe never even trying again. No one can help if that attempt is successful. Every person is different, a person can only be helped if, even just a small part of them, want that help. And it's very hard to help someone that is committed to dying. What works for one person may not work for another. People do care, I care. I care because I want to end my life almost every day, I look forward to dying. I don't want to hurt those that care about me, sometimes the only thing that has stopped me is my dog. And other times, what stops me is talking to others that feel the same way and trying to help them. I have responded to many comments tonight, and i've been in tears reading and responding to almost all of the people you can see, just through their words are lost in pain, because I don't know how to help them, while relating to all of them, while their stories are unique and different, the pain behind them is all relatable. And i totally understand why many don't believe that no one cares, ESPECIALLY a stranger over the internet they've never met! And regardless of how much effort i'm doing my best to put in, I DO understand why they believe no one cares, and the most painful part to me, is even if they do believe either myself, or other people, actually do care, I worry that is just not enough to help them. I am in tears right now typing this. I almost wrote my suicide note tonight, and instead i came here. Because caring about others helps me stop myself from doing something really stupid that will forever damage the lives of those that deeply care about me. And i really hope that either myself or anyone in these comments can add just that little bit to stopping someone out there from doing the same thing i am worried i keep coming close to doing myself.
I just want to say, I get fully why that you fee that way. But I promise you, as someone who volunteers for hotline, I care very very deeply. As someone who has been there, who sometimes goes there time to time, I get the fight, the pain, the intense loneliness. So please know, that when you’re on the hotline, there are people who deeply care. I do.
I honestly think of doing it a lot, it hurts soo much. I’m really thinking of writing letters to my family and friends. I’ll miss them but it just hurts. The pain is just festering.
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-EXQGTInPpZU.html
I am 18 and depressed… I have no friends and all I do is sleep . Sometimes I ask not to wake up because the pain the and the way my heart aches is unbearable. I call out for help and people might say I want attention but I need help … I went to therapy and on medication but why isn’t it working? Ppl don’t care about what I am sad about , nobody actually listens.
I went from 16.5 stone, relatively fit and healthy person, down to 8 stone in weight. Several suicide attempts and eventually OD'd from prescription painkillers, was found and taken to a hospital where I was saved. Prior to that my family watched as I lost all that weight, refused to help and even talk to me. Had to learn the hard way, that literally nobody REALLY cares, family, friends etc, none of them will come to your help. Took almost 10 years of painful lessons and self care to get my life back. But I'll never forget being left for dead
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Glad you made it out. I’ve experienced the same thing with opiates. You’re right that no one is really there for you and no one cares. I have had the exact same issue throughout my addiction. I have managed to stay clean but never recovered from the depression and overall trauma that it does to your brain. I still feel like garbage every single day and it’s been 5 years clean now. No family no friends no support system of any kind
This video doesn’t help when you consider the fact it’s guiding people to be aware and notice suicidal thoughts from friends and family. But not every who is struggling with suicidal thoughts have the privilege of having friends and family who care about them.
@@user-wb1vm9ex4k don't worry. It'll get better. I promise. Just keep going; just try. You'll get through it friend, remember even when you feel you're alone, your not. Just Try. I promise there is light at the end of the tunnel. Promise. I'll pray for you. God bless, remember Jesus loves you sooo much,more than you'll ever know and He made you for a purpose. Yes you. He looked down at the Earth and thought there needed to be one of you. Don't worry. Just try friend;just try. THERE IS HOPE :) This applies to everyone :)
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I deal with suicide ideation and guilt everyday and only thing that holds me back is my anxiety and fear of death the only fortunate thing that keeps me sane is there are millions of us and I am not the only one who is not okay.
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My reasons for thinking thoughts like this is because, I'm 29 and have no friends... I feel like no one is listening to me or no one ever listens to me. I always feel like a vessel to people, I get used, no one ever sees any value in me. I'm unable to drive cause of my health temporarily. I feel like a burden to my family when I need a ride somewhere... either they forget or just don't have time. I needed a voice. Some company no one was or is ever available to see me. I even offered to compensate their gas for driving out to see me. But no not even that convinces them... all I do is work and sleep and repeat... I don't know who to turn to.
Do not worry, i know its easy to say but we all are in similar stage that is why we are here. Forget world , find ur own happiness. You are not the only one in ths situation. There are so many people like ourselves who are done but donot give up. Fight with everything for your existence and be a winner. Donot lose battle to depression. Find your happiness by yourself becoz u r the author of your story. Fight ... there must be something reserved for u in ths world.. tc nd dont lose hope
Listen. I’ll be ur friend. I don’t have friends either and I have driving health issues as well. I feel like a burden on everyone. I can’t even study because of my eyes. I don’t know how I’m even living through this
JstarJames trust me, ik it might not seem like it and that you are alone, but ik that your family and friends would be so sad and would miss you. there is so much to live for! did you go to all concerts of your favorite artists? did you get to find the love of your life? did you achieve your dreams? pls dont give up, everyone would miss you so much
@@kris6785 I wont find those things you listed anyway but thanks for the words but im not a robot like everyone else and always knew i didnt belong here my birth is an error
Sometimes there are no other options. I don't have a family, I have no friends, I lost everything. I was diagnosed with diabetes a few months ago, lost my home, now I'm homeless, can't store my insulin, so Im already dead.
Dang. Do you still have a job? Get a gym membership and take showers there. Live in a crappy car if you have to or a van. Get a motel if it gets too ruff out there. The hardest part is the loneliness. Try to make small talk with people. Don't go into the details of your life but enough so that you get some human interaction.
What do you do when you don't have anyone and completely isolated? I've lost everything and everyone. All I have left is my mom. And I'm 30. At this point, it's not so much I want to die, as I feel it's my fate and I can't escape it anymore.
Feeling lonely just feels so bad, I know, because I live it. But one thing that keeps me here is the hope that one day I won't be alone anymore, and I'll be so happy that I'll look back, and all that loneliness, it'll just be a memory of the past. Try to think that way too, hope helps you survive each day.
BELIEVE IN THE NAME OF JESUS AND BE READY FOR THE RAPTURE DO NOT LOVE THE WORLD NOR THE THINGS OF THE WORLD PRAY,READ BIBLE HAVE RELATIONSHIP WITH FATHER!
I’m 37 and I’ve been feeling this way since I was 17. Pretty much daily. I have made attempts and I’ve even been dead from intentional drug overdoses. About a month ago I took fentanyl and drove and ended up flipping my car and now my leg is messed up more and I can’t drive. They had to remove me by cutting the top off with the jaws of life. But yeah I have used drugs to escape although I’m on methadone maintenance now, and the only reason I’m not dead really is that it would devastate my mom. I have literally no life. I tried for 18 years working and then I broke down and now I’m on ssi. I haven’t lived yet and I’m getting old. I’m so sick of hearing myself whine and people literally don’t wanna hear about your pain so I don’t tell people anymore but yeah. I def struggle with this.
Also I’m on meds that just make me not like instakill myself. I can’t go off them because that pain will have me dead in no time and I’m very erratic, but yeah I’m just dead inside.
I don't know if you believe in any God but Jesus Christ sees your struggles. Jesus is able to give you wholeness of life that you had before 17. If you can, ask Him silently in prayer and He will help you. Ephesians 3 vs 20.
Some people decide to exit this world in what us “sane” individuals don’t understand. About ten years ago a good friend called me up-we hadn’t talked for a while-chatted for about 15 minutes then that was that. About a week later he walked into the woods with a piece of rope and never walked out. He had no history of mental illness. There were no drugs found in his system. He wasn't suffering from any terminal illness. He left no note. His apartment was clean, and his finances were in order for his age. Again, no “rationale” reason us “sane” people understand. After talking to his parents, my best guess was he had simply reached his “expiration date”, i.e. had his fill of the Human experience and wanted to move on. Yes, it's not the normal arc of life, but it happens, and others have to respect this, pure and simple.
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-EXQGTInPpZU.html
@@SuperVladdrakula Nice accusation but its not true. I share the good news of what Jesus Christ has done in my life in the chance that it could help someone from where they are because I understand it myself. Id say about 95% of what I hear from others is positive. Some have even said its saved them. So I don't think I'm going to stop I think you should.
I've been having these thoughts since i was 10. Im 21 now and i realize its never going to go away. I've been in and out of "Mental Rehabs" some were helpful and some were insufferable. Been on medication been off medication. I've called the suicide hotline multiple times even when they hung up on me. Throughout all this i realized that nobody can understand this pain as much as you feel it. We all like to *say* we can but that is just hope, a wish, a chance. The only things thay have ever dulled the burden of this knowledge are 3 objective facts. 1. Yesterday, today, and tomorrow will never be the same despite how you say it is. 2. The Universe is a strange place where the strangest thing ever in its history would be that nothing strange has happened. 3. Random includes you. Although objective is great one thing in my *opinion* that pushed me through everything was my VERY VERY VERY Malleable sense of humor. Learn to laugh, Why you laugh, and understand that laughter does *NOT* need to be moralized. Anything is funny if you try. Learning the fact that satire =/= real life is by far the most useful trait for surviving this. Other people will say feelings matter and somethings shouldn't be joked about. They are *half* right. It shouldn't be joked about publicly but if you are alone or a friend who is as understanding then Humor is something you should NEVER feel guilty about.
I’m in the same boat. I have suicidal ideations, images of myself doing the act in my mind almost everyday. I had undiagnosed Asperger’s Syndrome for most of my life, and it has negatively affected my life so much that it is easy for me to fall into despair. Something that helps me is the act of practicing gratefulness in some way. I will list on paper or just in my thoughts things I am grateful for, and it tends to raise my mood. Humor is also a good tool to fight these thoughts. I have the entire Book of Mormon musical in my phone, and sometimes they will randomly play and make me smile at the absurdity. This is my emergency humor video: m.facebook.com/SmoshGames/videos/1424713194363479/
if you need help go talk to your Friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help.
I thought i wouldn’t live to graduate high school. i attempted senior year. im still alive today and im 20, in college, and things are still hard as hell. the thoughts don’t go away when you get really down. but just remember. you kept going back then, you didn’t know why, but you did. you can do that again. find your reason.
I agree. There are reasons to find to live on, for me it is seeing all the people around me to succeed. However, I feel like some of us get to this point because we're tired of feeling hurt, let down, or miserable so we look for ways out. Quarantine definitely doesnt help with this because of the increased isolation it brought upon most of us, including mine. But there's always something you've yet to experience. So might as well live and see what you might come across
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real it’s impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-EXQGTInPpZU.html "Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest"
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-EXQGTInPpZU.html
Me after graduation and realizing how shit life is going to be at working at a worthless boring job that I never want and that I’m gonna have problem after problem and soon my parents are gonna pass away and being rejected by other people made me gave up hope of creating a family.
It’s really hard to share these thoughts because of the shame that comes along with them. The shame of not being happy you’re alive and live a decent life. The shame of not being happy for having the basic necessities like food, shelter, water, etc. that others don’t. It makes me feel like a bad person when so many others have it worse than I do. It makes me just want to force myself to change without even acknowledging the issue which really makes no sense.
I feel this so much. I feel like I’m ungrateful. My mom sacrifice so much of her life to make a life for my siblings and I and here I am being suicidal. I have a roof over my head with basic necessities too. I’m also still 19 living with her too so there’s that aswell. I just feel worthless, I have no passion no motivation whatsoever just a receding hairline and hope. My life feel as though as it’s on repeat I wake up go to work, come back home, shower then sleep and repeat the process all over again. I’ve opted against suicide cuz of the shame I’d bring on my mom if I’d ever did it. It’s also feel like it would be embarrassing for her too.
@@isolatedanonymous1979 I know this may sound cringey, but I want you to know that you’re not alone in how you feel. I’m older than you, and I live at home as well. I know how that can make someone feel. It’s hard seeing peers take strides towards their goals and be super ambitious when I’m still trying to figure out what I even want or who I want to become. I understand feeling hopeless about that or being stuck in an endless cycle. I wish I could help more, but I’m still trying to figure it out as well. I’ve started setting small goals for myself, so I can feel more accomplished each day. Journaling has also helped me release my negative thoughts more. Maybe something like that could also help you. You’re doing the best you can in this moment, and I’m proud of you for still being here. You deserve to find happiness.💚
I know what people like us need. Our very own island, away from stress, pressure and living a basic life, live off the land. Do it how the ancestors did, we'd be happy.
We appreciate you taking the first step of expressing your pain. If you or another individual is in immediate danger, please seek medical attention immediately by calling 911 or visiting the nearest emergency room. For 24/7 support, contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline by calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or contact the Crisis Text Line by texting TALK to 741741. If you are located outside the United States, check out our description box for links to find support in your area.
We appreciate you taking the first step of expressing your pain. If you or someone you know are in crisis, call 911 for medical emergencies or 988 for immediate danger due to mental health symptoms such as suicidal urges or go to the nearest emergency room. For 24/7 support, contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline by calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or contact the Crisis Text Line by texting TALK to 741741. If you are located outside the United States, check out our description box for links to find support in your area.
despite being loser or winner , being rich or poor , hardship will come and go , why bother to kill ourselves when we know its gonna past , nobody being miserable all the time just like nobody being happy all the time , LIVE this shit guys
@Daniel Trushov perhaps you still can do that to someone that you can really trust , or just be a stranger and put some comment , we can access everything these days pretty much really easy
I’m not equipped to handle the things in my life. I’m too weak to get strong enough to do those things. So I’m just miserable and everything is piling up and getting overwhelming. That’s when I start thinking about suicide and dying. I don’t know what else I can do
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” He makes a way where there is no way. ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-EXQGTInPpZU.html
Many things can change, it can be uncertain how and when, but many things could be better. There are supportive people who would be glad to help. There are different options to feel less pain and feel better. It can take time while experiencing ups and downs, feelings can change and there is chance that situations will be better for You. You could call: (USA) hot line 1-800-273-8255 (you can for emotional support too, or when some thought seems overwhelming, or feeling in danger) Or text (USA) 741741 if you send in sms HOME , a supportive person will contact you. UK: text 85258 , Ireland: text 50808 For numbers of other countries, you could search up the numbers by internet.
We just want someone to talk to honestly without being dragged to a psych-ward to stare at a wall for hours nor do we want our family and friends to know. We just need help processing emotions and getting through it.
Yes! To just be able to say what I really think without being redirected to the suicide hotline, or going to a psych-ward, or always having to be taken care of…just shown compassion, not just going through the steps to keep me alive.
This is so so true. The reason I never sought out any help was because of the extremely real and legitimate fear of being hospitalized against my will. If there was one thing that could have pushed me over the edge, that's it. Be very careful with crisis hotlines - they are not your friend and they will always act to protect their own legal interests first.
I get gas lighted as well. If i have mania or vast depression, its always the same. I will call "them" to get you to settle down. I've been hospitalized and every time its the same 5 days and meds and small groups but its not specialized. It doesn't help. Prisoners.
This is so true!!!! Everytime i be nice, kind. Everyone stab me in the back.. by lying, unlovable, bully me. People will say to me. “People will care when you are gone, as there must be someone.” Here why i think not.. I feel alone..Dad is dead(he was depressed himself after he lost his mom and his second wife disappeared(she didn’t care about none of us,as she made it clearly so his coping skills was drinking). Mom don’t care about my feelings, as it all about her. Siblings are distance and only come to me for family emergency or money. The only guy i though cared about me and i was falling in love showed me signs that i felt rejected by him which broke my heart and made me go into self harm. Job is the only thing keeping me on survival and even then. I don’t feel job security. Oh i have no real friends.. most are online..
Hey dude I get that you’re feeling like that but you know if you do it, you will never get to experience true happiness and I think that’s a reason you should live. So pls don’t do it
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-EXQGTInPpZU.html
It’s hard. I’m really young and I have suicidal thoughts. And no one listens to me, they just say it’s sadness. Maybe it is, but, the pain is continuously coming back. I am going to talk to my mother about it tomorrow. Or calling the suicide prevention hotline. I can’t talk this anymore, I want to fix me. I don’t want to die, but then I do. What is wrong with me.
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” God sees and knows. ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-EXQGTInPpZU.html
keep looking for someone who will listen and can help. I know it's not just sadness, but taking your life won't improve things for yourself or anyone. You are a valueable human being. Your Father in Heaven loves you so very much. People around you love you more than you think.
We appreciate you taking the first step of expressing your pain. If you or someone you know are in crisis, call 911 for medical emergencies or 988 for immediate danger due to mental health symptoms such as suicidal urges or go to the nearest emergency room. For 24/7 support, contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline by calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or contact the Crisis Text Line by texting TALK to 741741. If you are located outside the United States, check out our description box for links to find support in your area.
24, only been in one relationship my whole life, guys usually don't approach me much, no friends, no social life,i am always an outcast or ignored because of my social anxiety. I don't feel like I belong, or have a place in this world, i am super depressed. Atleast if i were dead, it would end the misery that i feel waking up everyday, the pain, and the hate i feel towards myself... i would be at peace finally. Mental health is no joke.
I think to myself when standing on the edge of a height/cliff... _It'll be over in a couple of seconds, JUST DO IT!!!! GO!!!!_ But then, i always have the fear of dying a slow painful excruciating death!!!!!!! 3'( I just want everyone to be absolutely pain free, i swear!!!!
Bro just do it on very high building head first you’ll die . Only 1 percent out of 100 survive a jump. If u scared drink a bunch of alcohol you won’t realize what’s happening
I don’t think that I’m capable of k*lling myself, but I just don’t care about anything, I just want that one day I go to sleep and never wake up again, and I don’t anyone to talk about it, I don’t get along very well with my parents and and don’t have any close friend, I don’t think anyone would care, maybe for 2 days or 3, but then just normal, I have been trying to avoid these ideas but every day they are getting stronger and coming more frequently:(
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real it’s impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-EXQGTInPpZU.html There is someone who cares. He makes all things new again. He is always here. "Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest"
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-EXQGTInPpZU.html
And this is what happens when you get help: You go to hospital, they take away your possessions, they force you on to medication, they restrain you if you don.t cooperate, they throw you in to an isolation cell, strip you naked, inject you with a sedative, they leave you standinfg there, you get mocked and humiliated, there is nobody to rescue you, you are traumatized and interrogated, ignored. Everything you say or do is recorded and held against you, there is nothing to do but to walk up and down the corridors, with other misfits, and maybe have to have electric shock treatment, and turn you in to a zombie, That is how they help you!
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real it’s impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-EXQGTInPpZU.html "Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest"
Hey, if you wanna talk, you can text me, just tell me what ur ig is or so. I hope everything turns fine soon for you. Don't mind to seek for professional help.
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-EXQGTInPpZU.html
@@Nouvuz I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-EXQGTInPpZU.html
Many things can change, it can be uncertain how and when, but many things could be better. There are supportive people who would be glad to help. There are different options to feel less pain and feel better. It can take time while experiencing ups and downs, feelings can change and there is chance that situations will be better for You. You could call: (USA) hot line 1-800-273-8255 (you can for emotional support too, or when some thought seems overwhelming, or feeling in danger) Or text (USA) 741741 if you send in sms HOME , a supportive person will contact you. UK: text 85258 , Ireland: text 50808 For numbers of other countries, you could search up the numbers by internet.
I feel like I’m being forced to live. I sometimes envy those who have done it. I know it’s a horrible thing to think. The “fortunate” thing is that I just don’t have the guts to end my life. But then I feel like I’m stuck.
The problem with this video is there are no doctors willing to help anymore. I have been suffering from anxiety, depression, ptsd, and chronic pain the majority of my life. Doctors are terrified to prescribe any useful medication anymore for the fear of losing their job over these new laws regarding opioids. I have even attempted to search the dark web for medication, but they are too expensive and I don’t know how crypto currency works. I do have suicidal ideology, but my mother and dog keep preventing me from doing it. I have no friends and there is absolutely no where to turn to.
Im 34 and since i was 8 i have had suicidal ideation with only one or two years of respite from this. i really struggle with this. i just go from one attempt at "starting again" to another. my life is a mess and i just dont like myself at all. i keep making stupid decisions and now im going to lose my job that iwas being supported by during covid, i just wish id caught it now. i gave up smoking in a house full of stoners and every day i have my old addiction pass under my nose. i dont have any savings and i cant afford to just move. most of the people i used to call my freinds dont even recogniser me. i despise everything at the moment. i just want the world and everything in it to fuck off. i have not really lived a happy life. not many people get to.
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real it’s impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! "“Truly, truly, I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of God unless he is born again.” "Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest" ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-EXQGTInPpZU.html
My situation is similar, I hate who I am. I get these thoughts multiple times a day everyday. I'm alone, I had friends. But as soon as I started to smoke weed, they left me, then I started drinking. I am in a job I hate, but because of my living situation, I can't just get another one. Because I live in a small town, I have alot of people limiting my own options as well. Corruption, harassment, loneliness, addiction. It's getting too much. I can't even handle being in a conversation like a normal person because of my anxiety.
@@GamersXnostalgia I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real it’s impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! "“Truly, truly, I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of God unless he is born again.” "Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest" ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-EXQGTInPpZU.html
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-EXQGTInPpZU.html
I tried to commit suicide at the age of 11 due to cruelty, beatings, discouragement and repeated insults from my parents,yes ! My parents . However , the rat poison I took didn’t take effect and I only felt a little rumbling in my stomach!! From that point,I knew God had a special plan for me.
I understand totally. When my mother was dominating and verbally abusing me, she said she was trying to protect me. She was the one I needed protection from!!!!!!!!!! She ruined my life and any chance for happiness I might have had. Unfortunately for me, she didn't die until I was nearly 50.
@@DonAlpha True, but, the scars, pain, sense of loss, and "why me?" will be with me to the moment I die. That is the ultimate gift to me by my "good Christian family."
I’m most afraid that when I’m most helpless and miserable, such as after a cerebral hemorrhage, stroke, or heart attack, I won’t be able to kill myself, and I’ll be forced to keep on living, abused and neglected in a nursing home. I’d much rather eat both barrels of a shotgun than keep on living as a useless eater. 😞
Please don't ever think of suicide, i know life is very hard and your depression maybe very strong and hard to get rid of. But think about the good think you've done. All of the good grades you've got, the subjects that you are good at. And the fact that you've helped me from feeling sympathy, i used to not feel sympathy, but now i do after reading your comments. It saddens me, and i want to help! I will try my best to make you happy, suicidal thoughts can make you think of negative things and it's very hard to think of the positive because you're focused on your flaws. Have you ever think about the person who shows cares to you? Have you ever think of my comment? I show care to you, and i care about you. We might be strangers, but hey. There's 7 billion of people in this world, and some of them cares about you. I could be one of them, because i truly care about you! I'll notice your sadness even if you were quiet, i will ask if you are okay, i will spend time with you to make you happy and i will learn your interest so that i could show you some stuff that you are interested in. I'll be here to support you.
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The worst part about all of this, I do not believe therapy will solve my problems. When you income drops or fades completely and the bills pile up not a soul will step in to aid you. I keep going because I don't want my dog to end up in shelter but when I contemplating the mountain of bills I have to, disappearing could be the logical way to escape
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Well I am not afraid of dieing because I already died inside. I mean nothing lasts forever but I carry those thoughts now about 9 years with me so I gave up all the hope I have.
I don’t want help or sympathy. I honestly don’t even want to die. I just don’t want the life I have and I don’t know how to change things or if I even can. I feel like my “friends” aren’t actually my friends and they just pity me and talk about me behind my back. I feel like a burden on my family. I don’t have any motivation or ambition. Everything seems too hard. My anxiety cripples me to the point of not even being able to go get a haircut. I indulge on my hobbies because it makes me happy but it also wastes the money I don’t make and the time I don’t have. My job is a deadend that feels plainer and plainer everyday. Asking for help is literally the last thing I would ever do. People treat you like youre fragile after that. I went to work with cut wrists and everyone all the sudden felt like they needed to talk to me. Like any of them actually care. I just want to be alone. If I could just leave everyone and everything behind and go live my life somewhere by myself I think I’d be happy.
@@saraali1328 I feel you on that too. I feel like life is precious because I don’t believe in an afterlife, so part of me doesn’t want to waste it. But part of me is so unhappy and dissatisfied with the life I have that I’d rather die and get it over with. There are moments of everyday where I do feel happy, when I get to be home and spend time with my animals or something. But being out in public or at work can be torture some days. Seeing people happy and me just being alone and comparing myself. Anyway I hope things get better for the both of us.
@@bluestang9530 i relate with all of that so much, i don’t believe in an afterlife either. I’m not religious or spiritual. And while i do enjoy some moments of life, I can’t imagine the future. It looks every bleak and i can’t even see myself in the next 5 years. Same, I really hope things do get better for the both of us. Hang in there
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I’ve had these thoughts since age 9. I’m 43 now. By now I fully realize that chronic depression cannot be ever cured. For a very brief blink of time I was happy; if I had died at age 7 or 8, my life would’ve been happy. Now I’m here just because my death would make my sweet parents sad; I’m only here for their sake. However I keep thinking maybe through therapy and medication, perhaps I can get to a place where I’m alive because * I * want to be here, not for someone else’s sake, despite having gone through over 10 antidepressants with no change. But fighting the ever strengthening gravitational pull towards the void every waking moment for 33 years straight is exhausting. I honestly don’t mind if today is the very last day I’m alive; I’m so tired.
