What Makes Healing from Brokenness So Challenging? 

Me, too.

👍🏼 Society has learned a lot in the last few decades and now we have the internet that brings it to us. So many people in late and middle age that needed love, guidance, help and support in their early lives but the support just wasn't there. It is now 🙏 And many others that understand.

Yeah, I hear you brother

Appreciate that!

It's a spiritual battle everyday and the resistance is always the greatest right before the breakthrough. God hears every prayer and wants us to wait on Him taking it one day at a time by faith in His deliverance.

@Olia Krist amen God bless you and your family!!! ♥️👍😁🙏😃😘❤️

I have intrusive thoughts also and I have a 1 year old son. You can probably imagine the kind of thoughts I have. The more I love someone or the more that I want to love them, the worse the thoughts are. They happen during prayer, at night when I’m trying to sleep, right when I wake up, and they happen especially when I’m tired. I tend to feel tired and stressed all day now for the most part and the thoughts feel non stop. Last night and today I’ve been having sexual thoughts about Jesus and it really makes it hard to feel like I love him or like they are not my thoughts or that he even loves me back. It blinds my perspective and I feel like a stressed out deer in the headlights. It’s very discouraging and confusing. Mark’s videos on Intrusive thoughts have helped me a lot, but some days it’s like all of my progress gets taken away. It’s like the darkness in my mind/ the stress/ the fear makes it difficult to keep a healthy and healing perspective. Even Mark said that sometimes when you get those moments of peace from the intrusive thoughts that the fear of when they will pop up again basically takes that peace away. These thoughts, if I’m right, are compulsions. The fear of the thoughts can trigger them, I imagine stress can trigger it aswell. I’m not in the best place at all right now. I feel rather depressed today but I just wanted to tell you that your not alone. I understand what your going through and how exhausting/ stressful/ tormenting/ confusing it can be. Fear is not our friend (as Mark says). Regardless of how we feel emotionally, let’s keep following Jesus and getting closer to God. I personally need to stay rooted in the word as I’ve been neglecting that. One more thing I want to say is, Mark has a lot of videos regarding intrusive thoughts. They are all worth watching. Whenever I feel like this, marks videos regarding intrusive thoughts can remind me that I’m not alone and that there’s hope, and it also helps me keep the right perspective on these thoughts. I will send you a video of Mark’s that has been helping me lately and I will finish this off by saying this, starving compulsions is awkward at first and the fear of these thoughts are feeding these thoughts. If you really want these thoughts to go away, stop feeding them with fear. Some days are easier than others but keep taking your baby steps and don’t give up. As mark says, it’s a journey and odds are it won’t happen overnight but you need to keep walking the path of healing even if it feels awkward at first. For example, when your really mad and you want to freak out, practicing patience can feel a bit awkward because your flesh is telling you to get angry and your anger is telling you to freak out, but even if it’s awkward at first, practicing that patience is worth it and it does get easier the more you practice it. In the same way, practice not fearing these thoughts or following their rabbit trails (it can be hard not to sometimes) and instead practice trusting God even if your flesh/ perspective is telling you to live in fear because of these thoughts (the thoughts that we don’t even want in the first place) it can be a bit awkward but our fear is not helping us get closer to God but instead paralyzing us and making us walk on eggshells. God bless you, I love you as a brother and I encourage you to keep following Jesus, even when it’s hard.

ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-gvkxyLedtas.html This is that video I’ve been going back to. I plan on watching it today because my mind is exhausted

Thank you, I didn't know this, I hope you get cured as well. I want you to know that God is with you, I will not give up, even though Satan tries to manipulate me, I know who is who, I need Jesus, I will do anything for him, even though these thoughts come, I made a promise to God, I will not give up and I'm completing this promise

Don't get me wrong, I don't hate I just don't understand the feeling of love. I do the best I can to use 1st Corinthians with everyone I come in contact with. I just don't have the understanding. Yes I know I need to get out of my head, easier said than done.

Romans 12:1,2 has been a portion of scripture that really came alive to me after I came out of alcoholism. It's wild how, especially in America, so many are unaware of the fact that we are being programmed by the world system - wants, desires, needs etc. If we don't have a certain house, car, job, marriage etc then something must be wrong with us. Seeing clearly for the first time Matthew 6:33 was mind blowing and like a huge slap in the face. Why was I striving to obtain something outside of what I already had in Christ? Now I never had a great job, fancy house or car and was single most of my life; but those things were still there in the back of my mind. Somehow I still held a lie/false belief that if I could obtain this list I could then feel confident that I had done right. This is what the prosperity gospel preaches. It aligns worldly obtainment with fruitfulness according to proper alignment with God. I mean don't get me wrong I am not saying there is anything wrong with having a house, car, spouse etc. What I am saying is that when there is an approaching towards these things from a warped mindset, instead of a renewed mind set on the Kingdom, these things manifest in our lives in a whole different context. Instead of God fearing fruitfulness, these things actually become our god and source. When the foundation isn't laid properly the house isn't built right. When God is our everything then the perspective we each carry changes drastically and those things which were once something to obtain lose their luster and there is a great exchange from a temporal mindset to an eternal mindset. Basically I had erected idols and somehow justified these idols through receiving the word of God improperly. I was listening to teachers of the word that were not rooted and grounded in the true Christ but another and who mishandled the word of God greatly. It's not hard to take the word of God and make it say something that it doesn't. What a blessing to have the Holy Spirit as our Teacher that leads into all truth.

@@propheticwarrior do u attend church? I have a hard time finding one that is not tied into prosperity gospel.

@@swirlingbutterflies Yes I do but I just started attending a new church. I attended a church prior to this one that didn't preach the prosperity gospel but didn't work out in the long run. I've only been to one service at this new one and I am not sure yet if it's where we will go but we are going again tomorrow...

You are in the right place! Ohhhh, to be 17 and to have this much clarity, insight and self-awareness to know something is (not you) off, you may not understand it but you're here. I'm a former Pastor's wife, worked in churches, counseled young people and I was so broken and had no idea what was wrong, no language to articulate my feelings, how do you ask for help when you have no idea what you're feeling. It's huge that you're here and at only 17. You are leaps and bounds ahead of me and I'm in my 50's. I'm just now where you are now. I'm encouraged by you. Give yourself grace, be patient with yourself and rest in the fact that you are in right place of your healing journey.

Hey Brother you are not alone. I'm a high ranking police officer who grew up in church. I struggle with salvation doubts too. I have to remind myself that my faith is not what I feel. Also unsaved people don't have salvation doubts going through their mind. It's a fight to the finish. stay strong my young friend.

Thank you guys 🙂

I know the struggle, but keep going. I am 24 and still fight these battles but it is way better than when I was 17.