The pain of separation from a loved one by death made me ask God if The promise of eternal life is stil there. Deep inside I know it is, but sometimes it is hard to just feel Eternity.
Wanda, you will find that, as you maintain a consistent schedule of daily Bible reading (usually a minimum of 15 minutes), your faith will be wonderful nourished to the point where, after a while, you will have built a rock solid, unshakeable faith. But if we slack upon feeding our faith, daily, with God's Word, after a while we can sense our faith becoming weak and ephemeral. God's best to you in your journey with Jesus.