to every weirdo who is weirdly obsessed with beks worry about ur rent instead of making hate servers about her over a discord server that didn’t even last a week you freaks
@@empireofpersiai honestly do not know, i am not a very discord person and was only made a mod cos me an becs are friends. from my understanding a lot of weirdos came in and got very obsessive over her and how she handled the server, the discord is gone (for the best) and a few of them have gone out of their way to make a hate server about her to insult her and such. freakish behaviour from actual cave dwellers
I don't get why people feel the need to ruin others fun just because they are weird like keep that to ur self, this was the first server experience that I enjoyed and it's gone because of some freaks :(
@@Dookie_David69 the greatest moment that week was us all getting on some roblox fashion game and someone with VIP making us dress up as buff stylish jerma
When the zoomer e-girl culture finally dies, only then will it be safe for youtube to become social again. Seriously though, I love this resurgence of vlogs.
Yeah this feels extremely nostalgic, reminds me of better days when SMOSH were lip-syncing the Pokemon theme song into their webcam. Maybe we’re heading back into the golden age :p
It’s really nice seeing channels like this pop up. I can get your anxiety towards the growth of this channel, especially at your age, with…well, the people on here. Despite that, please don’t be afraid to post your thoughts and feelings (if you’re comfortable)! You have the potential to reach so many people that can relate to you and build connection from your experiences and thoughts. And please be sure to have confidence in yourself and your rants. You’re a very interesting person and a good orator, and I’m sure you’ll only get better as you continue to make content. Also, I’m proud of you for getting out and going to the therapist. I know that might not mean much from a stranger, but I know how hard it can be, from both personal and interpersonal experiences. Keep on going on; you’ll make it really damn far.
I've had a really crappy week last week (and even more crap happening the last 5 years of my life). I found your videos about a week ago and theyve helped alot. I realized recently that even though i dont know what to do with my life and that life sucks sometimes i should just focus on improving myself. Also I really like Gorillaz/Blur/ anything Damon Albarn related and ive been obsessed with his stuff since 8th grade.
I just wanna say that i just stumbled across your content completely out of the blue and have been so moved by a lot of what youve talked about. I am relatively similar to you in age and as someone around a lot ot 15, 16, and 17, year olds, ill say its very refreshing to see someone who is so open and hopeful about their growth away from the things hurting them. I have struggled aswell with fearing death and wondering what this is all for. But knowing to appreciate your moment and find love for everything can really help relax the stresses of everything else Surround yourself in positive influences, love what you love without letting anyone take that away from you, and stay HOPEFUL !! I love the open and honest nature of your content, there are many people who will find comfort here including myself so thank you and keep creating !!
Channels like these are a comfort with people talking about what ever comes to mind. Just adding this. I always find it shameful when people just talking about their life have weirdos on the internet spreading hate. I’m 18 myself and have always gravitated to online spaces with yt twitch and discord, but have recently in the past 2 years have become more open and being myself and started to make quite a few good friends to chat with and just be myself and have fun. Always been introverted and having adhd and probably a bit autistic (I haven’t been diagnosed with it though. People say it can be masked by adhd and vis versa) I found people found me a bit much not sure how to put it and I was just nervous to be myself. Been off my meds for a long while now and I think I’ve gotten a lot better certainly with being myself. Channels like this just reinforces my belief to be myself and open to others online and in person. Of course you gotta stay a lot more cautious with people online but hey it’s the internet. Anyway enjoying the videos and sad to see the discord got shut down didn’t even get a chance to join. But does look like it was for the best with people ruining it.
As someone who has been through a lot of the shit you are, the fact you're self aware and somewhat optimistic about the future is a really good sign you'll crawl out of this. I had a lot of terrible things happen to me at once, which I'm still trying to crawl out of 4 years later. Like a lot of people say it does get better and a lot of these internet strangers believe in you.
honestly just be aware of accidentally saying various personal info stuff online over time that can get pieced together especially when it’s a channel very about ur personality/who u are cuz people get reeeeally weird sometimes idk why these small vlog style channels have been making a resurgence recently or have been on my recommended but cool shit tbh. i like the vibe. ygmi
I would like to say that I found you today, and you really make my day. Can relate to a lot of what you are saying even though we might not have the exact same experiences. I feel like we could be really good friends, I like people who rant, it’s nice listening to them. Hope you get better with your struggles you’ve mentioned previously and such. Have a great rest of your day!!
Im proud of you for continuing to post :) I have similar issues to you. Sometimes Im too scared to even get groceries. I really enjoy your videos, you are honest and sweet. Im sorry about all the creeps :(
my fav manga is punpun too and i think in a way you can take a lesson from punpun that life moves on and life can always get better (even though in the story it seems like his life always gets worse). living is painful and violent but there will always be things to love/things that are beautiful (inio asano's beautiful artwork). i feel like a lot of my happiness these days comes from finding things that make me happy in all the boring stuff and doing what i want to do because i want to do it. i think you seem pretty optimistic already and thats cool, its hard being an optimist lol :) i also wanted to say that i liked your art in the last video and i was wondering what inspires u + if you could share some more? and if you like punpun you should check out the climber/kokou no hito by shinichi sakamoto, the first part of the story maybe doesnt seem like punpun but it changes writers after a bit and the feel of the story and the artwork morphs into something amazing.
Your music taste is awesome, I love Weezer especially Pinkerton. I usually listen to metal and hardcore punk bands AND MIDWEST emo as well as some other emo stuff. I've been listening to lot's of Eyehategod, Mortician, and Sex Prisoner recently, as well as the best midwest emo band ever Camping in Alaska. Also the seal photo goes hard, i have a framed picture on my bedside table of a golden snobnose monkey.
@@_gunn_ honestly lot's of powerviolence, I recommend the Sex Prisoner self titled a lot, Weekend Nachos is also a 10/10 band their album Worthless is my favourite, and a really good underrated band is Livid, Life is Pain Life is Shit is prob my favourite release from them. What about you man?
Think I got this in my recommended cus of the Elden ring title lol, creating and consuming stuff related to souls games brings some weird stuff in from time to time. Interesting video regardless though. Also your music taste is pretty nice, Peggy’s been putting some new stuff out so I’m hype
Ii listen to an embarrasing amount of midwest emo, my fav band rn is an obscure j-rock band that only has a presence in japan and the only way to listen to all of their music without buying the cds is by downloading it off a youtube playlist of a guy who burned all their cds and put them up for download, my fav movie is "i saw the TV glow", bladerunner(1982) is a close runner-up tho, i really really love drawing, i love dnd and other ttrpgs but i suck at being confident around other people, im non-binary (they/them), im pansexual, im currently playing guitar but i really have always wanted to play bass (im saving up for one) thats about it oh and im starved for interacting w people i find cool (oh and i hate weezer im soory)
Although stage fright is really only something you can cure with more exposure to being "in front" of an audience, try not to worry about disappointing your viewers, since your rants, healing journey, and weird videos are what we've subscribed and watched you for.
Ppl can be nasty dude. Glad you're holding up. I recommend just taking walks around your neighborhood. I mean i know some ppl, live in unwalkable awful American suburbs, but if you can, it's therapeutic. Darksouls is digital masochism. Change my mind ✨
I’m so happy to see you’re feeling better and that everything seems to have turned out for the best. It was heart breaking to see you so distressed, having been in a very similar place at that age. I wish you good luck and all the best with everything. 🌈💐
Don't feel pressured to succeed, remember why you made the channel in the first place. Prioritize yourself and move at your own pace. Numbers are just numbers and no matter how many people watch it's not your job to entertain them. And of course, don't listen to creeps.
I can relate to getting social anxiety from the size of your server, I'm barely active in it for that reason. But I'm glad to be your friend, don't let the weirdos get to you bekkie :3 You know maybe I should be more active in your server, it looks fun and you're epic
Damn... Awful that you had to deal with the creeps and freaks out and about. I hope ditching the Discord helps, just make sure you do not cut yourself off from the folks who passed the "dont be a creep" trials. I hope things get better, I've been unable to handle Discord myself lately, so I do empathise, it can really feel like far too much sometimes, even with the nice people who are not gross.
Hey, the YT algorithm has just put up your video since my YT is on autoplay, probably because you mention Elden Ring in the title, but I just wanted to chime in and maybe recommend trying to pick up an instrument. I was/am socially awkward and allergic to people, but having a hobby that forces you to concentrate helped in many ways. Not just to stimulate the brain, but becoming better at something is also quite satisfying and can help with self-confidence, which also resulted in less self-hate and pessimistic thoughts, which then helped me to be able to talk to and speak with people, until I became relatively chill among people. It's a nice snowball effect that helped me more than gaming, probably because our gaming group has no contact with each other any more, so the social aspect has fallen apart
You have acquired 1.52k maidens but now you must beat the boss that is anxiousness, anyway got to love the 50 year old men who've had the most basic life 101 but talk trash and the guys who unironically say "i can fix" you oddly have a stinky odor coming from their room and dont even know how to fix themselves
U are going to be okay I promise. Being dedicated to getting better Is all you need to do. You have so much time to figure shit out! I was completely mentally fucked At ur age aswell It gets easier it just does
Sucks the discord got taken down just as i found the channel should of gotten some good mods for it but oh well Great content authenticity is underrated
Argh, that is horrible. People shouldnt even leave weird comments when you are older than 18... I wish more people would protect all young people from predators. I wish you well, and i hope your vlogs become very helpful to you!
My favorite manga is Berserk. Its 18+ though, mostly because of its graphic violence. But its very deep and meaningful, and you should look into it when you get older, unless you wanna check it out at once.
crazy to think we're the same age! i thought you were like, 20. you're such a vibe, and im sorry people are so freaky. it's what happens to weezer lovers ig.
dude, i personally just don't remember being this cute + funny + intelligent + ratio when i was only 16 years old. i ain't trynna be weird about it, i'm just impressed anyway, about me. ummm...idk, i can't think of anything. i like the gym? and thank goodness i do, because if i liked anything else i'd think i was too old for all this manchild shit i still get up to, like watching anime and eating milk and cookies every night after work. my music taste is sleep token. as in, just sleep token, all day, every day. oh yeah and i'm another australian LMAO WHAT IS UP WITH THAT
Hi there, random commenter guy here. I definitely relate to how your feeling from the previous videos you've posted, but I can assure you that if you put the hard work in you can improve and get better, in social life, self-improvement, anything. some suggestions I have is to make a routine plan if you dont already have one. like alarms on your phone or a calendar, anything to remind yourself to do things. secondly, when a task comes into your head that you think will be productive, immediately do it, because if you dont start it like in that five second grace period you wont want to start it again, so ignore all the annoying thoughts, essentially saying "fuck you brain, i'm doing this body" and put priority on your body, not mind. and thirdly, BABY STEPS. Nothing will be easy, especially if you rush headfirst into big tasks or goals to change your life. do simple things/routine and set goals for each week you know you can accomplish. Practice makes discipline, and discipline makes perfect. Hope this helps.
im also living the jerma obsessed life right now its pretty great. Just waatching this video I looked over and saw a third of the recommended is Jerma stuff lol ITS NOT A PHASE ITS A LIFE STYLE MOM!.... also you should upload clips of the discord server stuff too
You should listen to frailty by jane remover! I was a lot like u when I was ur age and that album helped me through some really hard times. It seems matched with your music taste aesthetically too!
Good luck with your channel and your life Becca! ^-^ I hope most people who come here can be respectful. Sadly there will always be people who won't be that "/
I really wanted to join your discord server but it said the link is invalid T_T No pressure though! Also your videos are awesome man, very relatable and interesting! :D I also adore Jerma, Minecraft, Weezer and Miku... I also thought of reading Goodnight Pun Pun but I'm not sure yet, should I check it out?