Why Evangelion makes you feel Lonely 

Loneliness is when your surrounded with people, friends or family, but you feel out of place. You can't interact with anyone because your too different than them. You're inside your mind which is pointing out your flaws in the heat of the moment. Everyone is yelling, laughing, and you're silently watching. That's how I see it at least.

This anime had me questioning my life. I was in such a weird state, my heard felt like it dropped from this anime. I constantly felt like there was something in the back of my throat, like I wanted to cry.

To be honest watching Evangelion didn’t really make me feel lonely but made me realize that I am lonely

oh man this is the best explanation of Evangelion I've ever seen, got me tearing up a bit

Loneliness is like emptiness thats screaming at you

Yeah idk why but i always feel the sense of nostalgia when i think of Neon Genesis Evangelion, I always shed a tear, and it's hard to make me cry.

Wow, this is amazing. Haha I actually started crying at one point. You helped me to understand the meaning and story behind Evangelion on a deeper level and also helped me to understand an emotion that everyone has, yet it separates us. It is a message I will carry with me forever, thanks :))

I feel like I walked in on a support group for people who got emotionally wrecked by this anime.

I've watched the series 4 times till now in my life, the first time it aired on tv and I was a little kid I didn't understand anything I was like wow cool mecha robot fight and ew gross adults. next I watched it all by myself, in a much more darker space all alone, surviving just on cup noodles, addictions, and locking myself in my room for months and I cried on seemingly meaningless instances, it felt relatable. third I watched with a friend, the friend who helped me quit and recover but also he was who committed sucide cuz of loneliness well he did right at least he had the courage to. And now again I'm watching it, relapse into my addictions, locked in one place, watching online with a few of random people from an anime server, all of us are alone and have a connection just on the surface only for this one reason, and I've never even had any connections to give this one any comparative value to. I'd say I have "friends" that I've never seen or met or heard but atleast they respond to me when I say something. I will keep coming back to this series and each time I'm just as lonely, my life been stagnant since the 1st to the 4th watch, I can say I'm getting numb to the sense of suffering but I'm still so scared of being alone, I literally fear it more than death I'd cry out of this fear I'm afraid to lose any little significance I have, I just want to be known for having existed. The whole human instrumentality project connects to me. I too would chose a collective existence through a single being than having to compete amongst ourselves for making an impact, for recognition, to be cared for cuz I just know I'm not worthy or special enough anyway but I still want to live.

INFP, Girlfriend broke up with me a year ago, heroin/cocaine/methamphetamine addiction/relapse ravaged my life, gave up trying because it always returns to nothing, alienated all my friends due to drug addiction, always depressed because I won't get back the early days of happiness and ignorance. I've lost everything, everything that matters to me, matters in this world. I used to think Shinji was a wimp, but I can relate to him so much. My last two gf was like Asuka and Rei. Hell, the one that was like Asuka even had red hair. There are times I felt like I failed them, while at the same time, I wish they understood me, but at the same time, I feel like I would only disappoint them from their own expectations. A paradox of sorts .I don't understand life, I don't understand people's motives. All I can understand is getting high and having an idealized notion of how people should be. I wished people had an understanding on how I felt. I try to understand people, but people never turn out the way I expect to. A lot of points, I feel like I end up getting betrayed from those I've tried to help. I've tried to do good, but all I do is hurt others. I disappoint others and I disappoint myself. I don't want to try anymore because I feel like it will lead nowhere but I don't exactly deserve an easy way out either. I shut myself off so I don't inflict pain on anyone and because it's easier to live in pain than to experience greater pain from disappointment. God damn, it's fucking scary how I can relate to this anime.

This video caught me off guard. You have a really good eye for graphic design, able to convey a strong message that is relevant to even more now than ever. Hope more people get to see this message.

I've come to terms that all humans are alone. We alone in our thoughts our hearts. The existential dread of the human existence is so much weight

Great video and especially a great observation that Shinji, Asuka and Misato (and all the others) don’t really get closer together in some way - that part depressed me the most and had a lasting impact on me emotionally.

I think this has become my favorite RU-vid video, I could not bring myself to understand why this show made me feel sad but I think it is because I suffer from loneliness as all of the cast and probably most people do. You have really helped me out by just making this video. Thank you

1:10 is how I've always described my experiences in life pretty much since middle school. (I am 31 now.) I've always felt like I was a ghost, out of place and out of time, not belonging anywhere, invisible to everyone around me, observing, watching, but never actually being part of anything or connected to anyone.

13:54 Damn this scene is really sad he was the only one who turn to lcl soup without comfort

This came out right before the pandemic. Imagine how much the numbers grew in that year of absolute isolation.

Neon Genesis Evangelion nearly drove me to suicide. Seeing Shinji suffering is like seeing myself suffer, because at one point in time I was almost exactly like him, especially back in 10th grade when I was bullied to the brink of suicide. I simply cannot tolerate watching Eva. I felt forced to relive my trauma upon viewing it. I’m deathly afraid of it. Twice I had a nightmare where I saw myself as Shinji choking Asuka and starting the Third Impact. I’ve been struggling with this newfound depression ever since. Evangelion is nothing but a bright shining lie. There is no instant cure for depression as so many on RU-vid and Reddit claimed and praised this series to be. I was obsessed with the series for over a year to try and outwit the Coronavirus pandemic. It only increased the burden, and kept the memory of my friend’s recent suicide alive. Sometimes I hate myself because I fail to appreciate this series which people treat larger than life, because of how much pain it resurfaces. Watching the End of Evangelion was like peering into a broken mirror, and I was viewing the hell I would’ve put myself through had things turned out differently, had I decided to give up living. It still haunts me to this day. Sometimes I hate myself because I fail to appreciate what so many have claimed to idolize, and I beat myself further for failing to worship what they call praiseworthy, I forced myself to watch a show that reminded me of nothing but pain just so I wouldn’t be alone anymore, I was willing to sacrifice my individuality for some company amidst the isolation of the pandemic. But it only spiraled me deeper into depression, which I’ve been struggling with for over a year now. I just want Shinji to be happy, so this past self of mine can be laid to rest once more. I’m afraid to decouple myself from him after losing my friend to suicide, which Eva made me feel responsible for, especially when I saw Shinji kill Kaworu, of which I fail to understand how anyone can call it praiseworthy. Until then, I feel nothing else matters. There’s a reason why I keep coming back to Evangelion; something that reminds me of nothing but pain. I want to prove to myself I’m not crazy for feeling this way, that Evangelion really did force me to relive my trauma, that my depression is not just a figment of my imagination or another anime plot point But the fact I’m the only one I know in existence who’s been traumatized by an anime makes me feel like I really am crazy. Whenever I feel this way, there’s something I remind myself with. “There are no answers in Evangelion, only illusions. There is no truth in Evangelion, only falsehoods. There is nothing to be gained from Evangelion, only pain.” But finally, with 3.0+1.0 released, I can rest easy knowing that Shinji has finally reached the light at the end of the tunnel. Evangelion is finished, and I want it to remain that way. But if things hadn’t turned out that way, I wouldn’t be here today. I’m still recovering…

Shinji didn't "witness his mother's own death."

Evangelion brought my life together after a long 3 years of depression and loneliness

beautiful said bro, thank you

This is a brilliantly made video - thank you. It really struck my heart. Praying for all you lonely souls

My expirience in episodes 1 to 15 with no spoilers "its not bad, i can understend why its a classic". After episode 16 and to the end "i fell my heart violated, now i know how asuka felt"

This is very wise and insightful. Thank you for making this video

evangelion made me question reality

Loneliness is when everyone ignores you despite being in the same room. Isolation is being physically apart from other people.

Naruto: why are you so focused on Itachi Sasuke Uchiha: it’s better to try and avenge my clan than to let someone who take everything away from me go walking freely. I don’t need this weak village. I am facing the truth. Naruto: you’re scared of being hurt. Of losing others again. So you close yourself of to everyone from the village, saying they don’t concern you. Sasuke: im not scared to lose others. Naruto: then why do you run away from us? Sasuke: I don’t. I’ll take on the whole world’s pain, and kill you even, my best friend, who’s shown me kindness and responded to my feelings when I didn’t even reach out. How am I scared to have my trust betrayed. Naruto: because you didn’t reach out. I just responded. You reached out to Itachi, and he bettayed your trust. Or so you thought. Now you fear reaching out to others besides me. You fear they’ll betray you like Itachi, and take themselves away from you, how Itachi took the older brother version of himself as well as your family and clan away from you. You’re not facing the truth head on. Sasuke: cries.

This is such a beautiful and well-thought video, thank you

this show just made me realize something

I have become so isolated that I rarely feel the wish to connect anymore at all....but I understand that is due to my mental illness but I have no idea how to get out of this. I get meds but no therapist and with trauma, dissociative disorder, depression and being on the spectrum it is really hard to find the will to live. I heard about these hikikomoris (sorry if I spelled that wrong?) and felt a kinship. Since I cant find people outside or even inside a hospital who deal with similar issues I go to media. And Mr. Robot and NGE were two shows that stayed with me for a long time...still do, to be honest. With Characters in which I could see myself. It doesn´t solve my problem but gives me the illusion of not being alone.

I cried watching this

I sit by my computer all day waiting for the day to finish but i don't want to do something else I think i fear the possibility of that changing.The real world is to much hassle. I love my privacy so i try my best to keep my parents away from me but that does not mean I don't talk to anyone. I have a meme server on discord that some of my friends are on and some random people. On the server I post memes and things i have interests in like music and youtube videos ect but most of the time i feel like I'm talking to my self because very rarely do people respond with there own opinions or general comments. Other wise I'm good and living life fine :)

Such a great video, truly amazing stuff. You deserve more subs, keep up the AMAZING work!

Well, I STRONGLY disagree with 1% of the video, but the other 99% nailed it fantastically! Amazing!

4:55 god… that quote. Anno just described me better than I could do so myself.

Dude I can't believe so many great but criminally underrated anime channels exist on RU-vid. This was a heartbreaking but fantastic explanation of Evangelion. You've definitely earned a sub. I look forward to more of your video essays in the future. To show how great your video is, here follows a personal description of my journey on the path of Evangelion tied to the theme of this video. When I first saw Evangelion, I just didn't think much of it, clearly couldn't get all the hype surrounding it and more importantly dismissed it altogether as some edgy wannabe dark show. I was extremely young and naive back then. I still am, in fact, I'm only 16 right now but I still have a love-hate relationship with my past self who dismissed this show. I hate him because he was stupid enough to throw away the beauty that is Evangelion completely even though it was his own fault. But I love him because the main reason he dismissed the show was because he couldn't see the reality in the characters of the show. In other words, he had no experience with adult life and more importantly, hadn't felt loneliness till then (There were many emotions portrayed in the characters, but most of them were a product of their fundamental loneliness). And honestly, I wish I could say the same about myself at present. As I grew up, being an anime fan and coming into contact with some great people who understood what a show was trying to say, I could never really escape Eva. It was always in the back of my head, and I always tried my hardest to find whatever flaws I could find, even better if they were technical, so that I could confirm my bias and undermine the show. But the more I grew up, ironically, the more I became like Shinji, the character I thought was a plot device to move the show to as dark territories as possible. I didn't exactly become him (I had a much stronger tough guy act up), but many of his traits including loneliness got passed to me almost identically. Still, it was just something at the back of my head which I didn't pay much attention to except sudden moments of "Wtf am I really becoming Shinji" realizations and laughing it off. At last, I realized what I was missing. The final piece of the puzzle - Hideaki Anno himself. Last year I randomly stumbled upon a video titled "Extra Curricular Lesson with Hideaki Anno". My problem was that I never really cared about the creators of what I watched, which is part of the reason I was so misinformed all the time. I saw it and said to myself "Yeah, sure. Let's see what the creator behind this overhyped show has to say" and clicked on it. I won't describe all of my feelings from it, just going to quote a certain part- Kid: Do you like the anime you make? Anno: Like...well, I like some, but hate others. Kid: What parts don't you like? Anno: Hmm... The parts where I see myself Somehow that was it. Hideaki Anno suddenly brought realism into the show I considered unrealistic. I felt sad for and somehow related to the then 39-year-old yet to-be-married man wearing a t-shirt and shorts. I immediately wanted to learn more about this man and unsurprisingly, there was a lot of stuff available about him. The more I learned about him, his values and what influenced them, the more I understood Evangelion. Besides, the dilemma I had been going through myself made everything even more evident. And that's all personal, I'd already been feeling the impact of Eva on the industry the more I watched anime, and the personal connection I later established cemented the show as one of my favorites. I now hold immense respect towards the show and the man behind it, and most likely it's only going to solidify more and more as I grow up. Loneliness and vulnerability are truly enigmatic. Thank you for the video. I'm not a native English speaker so I hope I could express myself apprehensibly. To anyone who's read this far, please, take care

because it direct reflects my inner demons I'm just like Shinjii in EoE i dont see it go better any time soon and im on the brink of suicide He got closure i dont

lonliness is like a shadow, when you look back thats what you'll see

Too few views for this video.

An extreme people pleaser will either end up in a ward or a casket by 30

1:23 Go watch Mr. Robot.

I feel a strange strong connection to Anno. Like how he lost himself in otaku culture before becoming disillusioned with it I lost my in comic book culture and now I'm in a disillusion state with it. And it kinda makes me depressed that something I once enjoyed I now don't enjoy nearly as much.

I hate this anime. It makes me so uncomfortable that when I try to watch it, I just cannot. It's too dark and confusing for me. Not to say it's bad and I'm certainly not hating on it. There are clearly people that like it. It's just not for me.

Seeing Shinji suffer is like seeing myself suffer, because at one point in time I was just like him; a “wimp” and a “loser”, clinically depressed from being relentlessly bullied. It absolutely pains me to see him hated by so many people, and pains me even more to see him suffer such a terrible fate. Ever since my childhood friend committed suicide just before Quarantine, Shinji was the only coping mechanism I had during the isolation of the pandemic. Unfortunately, the Evangelion fandom on social media cyberbullied me for over three years for relating to Shinji so much, even accused me of faking my trauma and depression, and blaming me for the suicide of my friend. I have this delusion that I can sacrifice myself for Shinji’s happiness. More than anything, I just want Shinji to be happy; even if it kills me.

honestly loneliness for me is just that I realised There aren´t really people with whom I can form depep meaningfull connections, so at some point I gave up trying to not have the dread of always being dissapointed if it doesn´t work. Instead finding Comfort and Security in being alone. But somehow my comfort and security in being alone doesn´t mean I don´t feel lonely. I do. It sometimes just hurts not having anyone around to do stuff with. to interact. I think it is just so limiting for our brain when It doesn´t interact with other humans.

how do you describe loneliness? me: EZ, "f*ck"

This is the best analysis I’ve seen of the series. Really good video, it’s incredible to see how many people relate to Evangelion and maybe it’s just me, being the lonely person I am, but somehow a seeing how many people relate to the series like I did makes me feel a little better.

I already feel and have felt lonely my entire life and will probably feel that way even with company, because I’ll never truly meet anyone I feel comfortable around

🌏Anyone knowing "Fear of Closeness?" Which can lead to "Feeling lonley coz of missed Sharing emotional Vulnurability, Which can Bring you emotionally closer to Humans" but being in a Headgehog Dilemma, Which can stem from Childhood Traumata and therefore Developed non Secure Attachment Styles. Half of Population learned following: Fearful, Fearful Avoidant, or Avoidant Connection behavior towards self and Others. Which of the 4 are you in? CBT Millenilas and Generation Z feels more lonley, because Connection via Tech bring's Not more closure, but less emotional Connection with Others on Long run. Proof my thoughts and perception wrong. 🌏 Hideaki Anno himself IS an infp and this mbti might struggle Most INSIDE, because of emotional Feelings INSIDE and Outside in real world. Infj might also have hard time.

Damn. What a good video. Thank you 😊

12:35, It’s good that there’s also attention brought to the Nerv officers and technicians. While they have little character development, they are just as integral to the story as the main cast because they are the opposite of them, not strictly defined by personal issues (14:01, or if they have them, they are able to mostly push past them for the sake of protecting the planet), dedicated to their shared cause and pushing past fear and setbacks to eventually find solutions. They are the opposite of the usually self-absorbed, emotionally stunted main cast, with Misato being perhaps the best out of each of them because while she may be lonely and depressed, struggling to make meaningful connections and at times using work as escapism just as Shinji and other main characters avoid their problems through an external crutch, she still perseveres in spite of all of it. As convoluted as this franchise can be (with it notably having three different endings, four if you count the manga), it’s themes still manage to connect with a wide variety of people. It was this series that got me to think beyond the work itself and consider the artist behind it, something I’ve rarely cared enough to do before. 10:10, Realizing how much Anno’s struggles and the rocky production of the series shaped its narrative made it make a lot more sense, as in the end, while the story may not have always been intended to be the way it was and even Anno himself wasn’t always satisfied with it, it was his journey, not Shinji’s, that mattered, his journey of rehabilitation and relapse until he could get himself to a better place of mind. How Shinji eventually overcame his fear, shame and insecurity, thus maturing as a character after several cycles of progression and relapse, was learning to understand and empathize with others (14:08, empathy being a demonstration of maturity) instead of retreating into ego and becoming selfish, bitter and cruel like Gendo, arrogantly only able to consider his own suffering above everything else while ignoring the suffering of others and even inflicting further harm onto them (8:58, 9:26, a lack of empathy demonstrating the characters’ lack of maturity). Overcoming loneliness or depression isn’t always as simple as finding a friend, but being brave and patient enough to endure the times when all you have is yourself while also being humble and compassionate enough to accept others, being able to forget and remember these lessons again and again until a little more progress gets made.

Loneliness is when youre alone

I have this feeling of nostalgia, where we can't get out anymore without having to walk apart from strangers, and where you simply can't give yourself the chance to interact with any strangers and meet new people out of nowhere. Mass transportation has become a life hazard. Massive events are unthinkable now unless everyone is shut inside their cars. The only thing that is still confusing for me, is 12:18 getting left behind from what exactly? If everyone has to stay at home, no events, no festivals, no travelling, no turism, no amusement parks, are we really missing something? It feels like we made up all these things as a bunch of excuses, trying to cope as a society with the fact that everyone is really alone.

I relate to shinji in a way I can’t explain. I had a girl like asuka in my life unfortunately I was always far far away because of me being in the military. In the end she had a guy who was as old as kaiji and started dating him leaving me behind yet still keeping tabs on me via my mother. I don’t know what I’m gonna do I’m helping others with all I can because that’s all I can do but I just I want someone to love me to hold me and to care about me. I am so extremely lonely and I feel like this will never go away no matter what I do. I atleast wanna know what being loved feels like I never had a functional family and that girl never really loved me she just used my love and attention to satisfy the fact she was lonely. She used my loneliness but never loved me. I really miss her but I know I must move on I can’t let someone have all my love when they aren’t giving any back. You can’t save people that don’t wanna be saved.

Being alone does not kill me same thing with the pandemic it does make me feel lonely. My soul always feel connected with deep anime, like now than here and there. Graves of the fireflies and Neon Genesis Evangelion.

Man this video really summed up what this series left me feeling after I finished it. Its only been a week or so but I still can't get it out of my mind because it really struck something in me unlike anything else. Also id like to add that I also saw the ending of the series and movie as the inevitably of death and there's nothing you can do to stop it when the time comes.

The real loneliness comes from not having any friends who won’t ridicule you for watching and wanting to discuss Eva.

Thank you so much. This anime hit me like a fright train. I have been struggling with depression and it made it worst but now I feel like I understand it much more now. How you went through the pain of watching it again is beyond me. I might do it again some day.

Honestly, Evangelion was like seeing myself for the first time. I am autistic and this anime spoke to me and how hard it is to be around people but want, need them to see and like me.

I really thought eva is just mecha and a tsundere, then I tried to go down the rabbit hole on why I always have a vague feeling that eva has a deeper part to it, put in mind I haven't watched the anime yet, as I go down the hole I realized that "yep, this is fucked up".

If you or a loved one watched Neon Genesis Evangelion, you may be entitled to financial compensation

Masterpiece

Evangelion made us all feel the same emotions and we always feel like were alone in them but were really not. Stay safe out there my friend.

This is a great video man, more subs deserved, for sure, I'm off to check out more of ya content

Tbh Evanfelion just made me questoin whats after death if theres a god or just nothing

being alone is not locking the door when you use the bathroom because no one is home being lonely is locking the door even though no one is home thats my theory at least.

I just went through the show and movie. I didn't feel lonely, so I'm interested in seeing what you got to say.

Shinji being eva pilot is actually the sole reason he was able to interact with others since he was needed, otherwise he thought that there was no other way he was wanted since he was abounded by his father after her first caregiver his mother passing away or Projection of the sexual desires into woman that may dont want him. Shinji had people required him so that he was able to change. Unfortunately nobody requires you (me) and you actively searched for this video since you desire to belong to somewhere or something the urge to feel intimacy makes you so depressed that you feel like nobody requires you or that you are afraid of being rejected. I hope you find something that makes you feel at ease or that you belong, for you (me) if there is an anything.

I'm sorry, but am I the only one here after having just finished watching the latest Evangelion film, with an emptiness inside and an unprecedented loneliness? I just wish I had an ending like shinji's... but i can't find my way in this world...

Second Greatest animanga of all time

ı just finished the anime and i feel so weird ı cant explain it you cant put it to words , ı questioned humanity, existence its really difficult to explain.

That's different than Isolation.

“Accurate description of the situation!” Great video.

hey as a lonely person, even with the way this show makes you feel lonely, its not in a bad way, its hard to explain but here me out. it doesn't make you feel good, maybe it makes you feel bad, but I think its an exceptionally good antidepressant as while its fresh in your mind and you think about other things its hard to feel depressed about your own life. the only piece of media i think does this better is neir automata.

You make great content and your voice is so chilling bro ,goodjob and i subscribe

amazing vid! one of my fav vids from you so far, even though i didn’t watch eva ik what it is, and what you’re trying to say, makes me watch eva right now but waiting because i want to binge watch it. The dismantle intro was freaking amazing. would love more vids like this with great music and high quality editing. Would love a new eva vid after 4.0 release about how you feel about rebuild movies and eva general. keep it up bro! :)

Wow... that was a pretty great video, dude. Really gave me a different look into Evangelion. Here's my sub.

This video is amazing man. Please keep making more great videos

Another great video for the Evangelion community Thank you.

it doesn't make me feel lonely, but i feel the loneliness in the show

For loneliness, have you ever seen Wong Kar wai's movies

beautiful video man

Watching Eva was a weird experience for me. Even in the first few episodes, before things got all mindfucky, I just kind of found myself in Shinji’s mindset for a few hours after watching. Just going through the ropes, feeling like an outsider, not just in the world among my peers but also in my own body? It was a weird out-of-body experience of consciously controlling the vessel that is my body rather than me just moving myself. Never really experienced this outside of watching this show, either.

This was so beautiful I'm not going to even try to put more praise into words. I'll just share that I first stumbled across nge years ago when it aired on Adult Swim, and probably for a lot of the reasons you mentioned it really stuck with me. Many times I wanted to imagine a happier, I suppose more conventional ending, but just like watching the original show I had to admit that that's escapism too, which perhaps makes it even more sad. Still, I think feeling those feelings is cathartic, and hopefully it can help some people go about life in a better way. Ultimately, like any story, it's what you make of it. You can imagine any variation you want to and decide what it means to you.

Thank you. I think everyone has a desire to share love and give love. Unfortunately society has belittled the idea of faith as something silly and fake, all while Christ indicates that he is always there for us, if we have the faith to truly accept that, it helps.

how do you describe loneliness? me: EZ, "f*ck"

Watched evangelion on netflix 4 months ago and sure it was the worst way to watch it but I experienced the anime and I understood most of what the characters were feeling because I was like that, and if I can be honest I still am. Well things changed where I decided to get up and do something, and I have someone who cares about me but we can't be more yet because we need to learn from each other. But the loneliness feeling scares me that what if she really doesn't, and then I fall into that loneliness feeling. I watched your video a year ago but since I watched the anime most what you said I understood it, because it happens, at times it's just lame and sad and sometimes it hurts....alot. but I just want to take the risk to find out, even if it's gonna hurt me

This is what happens when you put people in constant hyper-competition with each other in every context of human existance. If this alienation trend keeps going the world will truly end.

The ending of this anime fxcked me up so badly

I finished this anime today, i am not feeling well, i don't know what to do, i regret tons watching it

They don't make youtube videos like this anymore... I'm glad to have found this. This is real. A real person I can hear and one who can hear me. Thank you.

I've been put in odd spot you see I watched nge recently and I've felt empty ever since despite the fact that things have been going well recently

Can please anyone tell me the font used in this video?

great video

How does this not have more views

Underrated channel

Thank you for this, you beautifully explained human relationships well.

Wow, probably my favorite eva video.

I love this

How can a show make me feel something I’m already leaving at the peak