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The Lord Jesus Christ loves you and is with you always. Please call out to Him and He will come into your life and change your spirit, mend your hurts, and save your soul. I know this world is a terrible place that does terrible things to good people, but there is hope and that hope never requires harm to anyone. I'll pray for you to receive the peace and contentment and healing that comes only from the Lord. God bless you and keep you always🙏
In the idealist philosophy, consciousness is fundamental; thus our spiritual experiences are acknowledged and validated as meaningful. This philosophy accommodates many of the interpretations of human spiritual experience that have sparked the various world religions. From this vantage point we see that some of the concepts of various religious traditions become as logical, elegant, and satisfying as the interpretation of experiments of quantum physics.Know thyself. This has been the advice through the ages of philosophers who were quite aware that our self is what organizes the world and gives it meaning; to know the self along with nature was their comprehensive objective. Modern science’s embracing of material realism changed all that; instead of being united with nature, consciousness became separate from nature, leading to a psychology separate from physics. As Morris Berman notes, this material realist worldview exiled us from the enchanted world in which we lived in yesteryear and condemned us to an alien world. Now we live like exiles in this alien land; who but an exile would risk destroying this beautiful earth with nuclear war and environmental pollution? Feeling like exiles undermines our incentive to change our perspective. We are conditioned to believe that we are machines-that all our actions are determined by the stimuli we receive and by our prior conditioning. As exiles, we have no responsibility, no choice; our free will is a mirage.
Are you INTJ? I lost my job early this year and the same thing happened to me once I had the free time to process my life. I ask chatgpt to pretend it's Carl Jung to analyze and provide prognosis for shadow work based on my personality type. I also study his book Personally Types. If you don't understand yourself you will forever be unsure of where you should go. A clear view over the landscape of your strengths and weaknesses will determine your path forward towards self actualization or individuation, as Jung calls it. I respect your bravery at being so honest and as a fellow traveler, I hope you find your way.
Return to your childhood joy. Trust me. Go full on into doing the things you did as a kid. No matter how silly. It will reset you. Also get lots of sun and play outside. Good luck. ❤
I don't know if you'll read this, but this is what helped me with my extreme depression. You cannot feel depressed and grateful at the same time. Every time you feel depressed, literally force yourself to think of things you are grateful for having in your life. Things like, I am grateful for my brother's wedding. I am grateful to freely speak my thoughts to millions of people online. I am grateful for waking up today. etc. When you think of these the things you are grateful for, think about them with all of your senses. What does it look like? Smell like? Sound like? Feel like? Taste like? After you do this exercise, it will grow your gratitude and eat away the cancer that is depression. It is similar to lifting weights at the gym. Wishing you the best! :)
"It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society." - Jiddu Krishnamurti "Before you diagnose yourself with depression or low self-esteem, first make sure you are not, in fact, surrounded by a-holes." ― Sigmund Freud
I'm sorry to hear about everything, Ruri. You are so strong and I'm always inspired by your hopefulness and determination to take charge of your life. Sending you love and support ❤ and congrats to your brother!
You saying how you can’t remember most of high school is so reassuring for me, I’ve been worried recently because my friend will bring up memories from school and I literally can’t remember it’s been concerning me. But this being a result of trauma/depression makes a lot of sense. Just knowing I’m not alone is so comforting.
Before the video starts lol, I just want to say thank you for actually changing me as a person. Like completely. 12 months I found your videos and literally changed me PHYSICALLY and MENTALLY. I went from a self harming overweight toxic person to literally a very positive and active and more fit person. You were my teacher around these months of last year after I had an awful toxic heartbreak drama I don’t even know what to call it. But thank you. Now the tittle of the video worries me but i believe in you and hope you stay strong. ❤
@@ruriohama Ruri, it's important to acknowledge that MOST people face struggles with depression and thoughts of s*icidal. One approach that has helped many individuals is the Japanese concept of Ikigai. This philosophy is about finding one’s reason for being, and it provides a framework for discovering purpose and meaning in life. By identifying what we love, what we’re good at, what the world needs, and what we can be rewarded for, Ikigai can offer direction and motivation during challenging times. It’s a way to create a sense of fulfillment and clarity, helping us navigate through the darkness and find light and purpose in our daily lives.
I'm from Brazil and I don't understand English very well, but I like following and watching your videos (Even though I don't understand everything) And I know how difficult this whole situation is, but we are here hoping for the best! Sending love and support and congratulations to your brother!!! ❤❤❤
I watched your video with a lot of respect and admiration. It’s important to talk about these topics, and you did so with so much grace. Thank you for being a voice for those who need it most.
Ruri, I’m truly sorry to hear about all that's been happening. Your strength is remarkable, and your optimism and resolve to steer your own path never cease to inspire me. Wishing you lots of love and encouragement, and congratulations to your brother as well!
Ruri, the title was scary enough...and usually i do not like commenting...but i just wanted to tell you that you're a massive inspiration for me. I struggle with depression and at times find life meaningless due to certain circumstances, however because you've gone through something similar but keep marching forward, it makes me admire you more than I can verbalize through words. Please stay strong...
@@ruriohama Glad to hear you've gotten help and are getting better. A book that may interest you is one called 'Seven Mourners,' which was written by my late father (Dr. Bernard MacKinnon) who was a psychiatrist.
I started watching your videos a couple of years ago. I found the advice to be useful but also a bit overwhelming and intimidating. Once you started talking about your family background, I felt like I could see the pain you were suppressing and started to hope that you would realize there were more important things than stressing over financial success. I teared up a while back when you made a video about coming to that realization. And I really admire your honest followup in this video. You're a strong person and I hope everything keeps coming together for you in life.
Why I think being a RU-vidr is a lonely job is that no matter how many people say, ”I support you,” the RU-vidr will never become the most important person in their lives. Last year, a famous RU-vidr in Japan committed suicide, and many comments flooded the comment section. However, their lives likely remained unchanged, whether the RU-vidr was alive or not. In the end, I feel that human happiness comes down to cherishing the person right in front of you.
I'm alone in my bedroom, going through a major burnout (I'm AuDHD), crying every hour or so, and every time this happens, s*icidal thoughts surface, it is so f*cking hard to avoid them. I was feeling really isolated, but seeing someone I admire going through it too makes me feel less alone. Thank you for sharing, and I hope we both can keep moving forward.
I feel u man I was there for 2 years isolated alone in my room all day everyday suicidal so broken hated everything but I can finally say after a long 2years I’m finally breaking free finally feeling joyful again with purpose 🙏🏽 point is man i know you can push through and get out of it it can only only be done with a little bit of effort day by day it’s tough but so worthwhile if you need anybody to talk to I’m here bro real talk 👊🏽
Hello, Ruri! I’ve been going through a lot in my life as well, and right now, I’m still working on getting everything back on track. ADHD, anxiety, and moderate depression have tried to hold me back, but I haven’t given up, and I won’t give up! Despite all of this, I’ll keep trying, and you should too, Ruri. You’re a beautiful, smart, and inspiring person! To anyone reading this, don’t give up-we’ve got this!
Depression is not easy, it hits deep and not easy to get out of! Just know you are strong and vigilante Ruri! There will always be someone there to extend a helping hand! Love Love Love!! 🙏🏽❤️🙏🏽❤️🙏🏽
1.4 million subs! Youve done so well. Inspired many and your videos have helped so many other people in this situation. Ruri your smashing it you should be proud of yourself and its amazing that you have done all this to support your family. The world needs more of this.
“If you’re walking through hell, keep going” -Winston Churchill Life is pain. And it can be really freaking rough. Sometimes it feels so easy and relieving to want to just give up completely, and ask yourself what the point of all of it really is. Some get off easier, some of us, get crap thrown at us, and the only thing we can do is control the way we react. Nearly losing both of my parents, multiple times, and other unique problems, I do often feel “numb” at times. Working on solving our own problems, battling things alone, and sharing it with others takes incredible strength, and is painful. However, giving up is also painful. Really the only thing we can do is just accept the fact that life can be too uncertain for us to beat ourselves up, and just keep going. Hard times creates strong people 👊🏻
That is a lot to balance! For anyone. Thank you for sharing, as always. A good reminder that growth and recovery is not a linear thing! Hoping everything eventually works out as you need it to. Step by step, right?
So much pressure and responsibility for a young woman is really intense. Don't let yourself be stressed and think about your health. Wishing you all the best.
I've noticed a renaissance amongst so many people I love all over the internet, coming back to themselves in time with myself coming back to myself. It's amazing to see, and I'm genuinely so happy for each and every person and for each and every moment of newness they discover within themselves. Best of luck to you ruri !! you've got this
and on depression, hello fellow diagnosee ! I got diagnosed quite recently and have had a much shorter period being on and now off antidepressants and I hope all goes well for you as well
Ruri, I am so impressed by your strength, determination, and candid words. You are a generous, caring, and supportive daughter and sister, shouldering so much. It is essential to look after yourself now, and I wish you all the best in your journey. Big Hugs!
I have been watching your videos since covid time and i've learned so much from you!! you're such an inspiration cuz the way you're managing everything is just outstanding! you never gave up you're a fighter for this! as a viewer from your initial times i just wanna say im very proud of you!!
I really thank the RU-vid algorithm for leading me to you, you have inspired me a lot Ruri and in fact in the future I will be making videos, you have also helped me a lot in learning English.
Çok güçlü bir insansın, eminim kendi yolunu bulup daha da iyi yerlere geleceksin. Hikayeni paylaşman da çok teşvik edici. Seni seven ve destekçin olarak buradayız
Oh snap, I'm really sorry to hear about all your problems. But I love hearing your story and let me tell you: you've been one of my inspirations for starting RU-vid, and writing scripts, and recording myself. Seeing your resiliences and success and even though English is not your first language, it inspires me to start my own channel and put effort into it. So thank you for being such an inspiration.
I think you are absolutely amazing and the world would not be the same if you were not here that I'm certain of. If you haven't been told you're an amazing daughter, sister, and granddaughter. Having to deal with all those betrayals is not easy. Stay strong Ruri you are loved. I want you to know that you motivated me to start making content. Know that you make a difference. I'm trying to spread light, expose heavy corruption in law enforcement and other betrayals that have occurred in my life. To help others heal.💪🏼♾️
losing interest in something you are passionate about is the realest thing I have heard probably in my entire life and honestly I don‘t even know now hat the hell Im gonna do
For almost 1 year I have benefited from your videos. Ruri, I understand you and please don't feel sorry for yourself. You are a very strong person and please never lose hope. I have had similar problems to what you are going through but I did not give up or give in to life. Life is very challenging but you need to understand yourself. Write down your feelings on paper, then set your goals and move on. Remember that nothing changes in life with or without you. You come to this life *once* as Ruri, you don't have another chance. So please do your best 🙏
Yaşadığın şeyler adına üzüldüm. Son 12 ay diğerlerinden çokta farklı değildi ve düzensiz hayatımı düzene sokup, konfor alanımdan çıkmam gerekiyordu. Bunu gerçekleştirmek için uzun uğraşlarım sonucunda bir kulübe giderek antrenmanlara başladım ve eş zamanlı olarak iş aramaya başladım çünkü hem kendi adıma hem de ailemi desteklemek adına buna ihtiyacım vardı. Zamanla futbol kulübü için yetersiz görüldüğümü t direktör den öğrendikten sonra beni başka bir kulüp için davet ettiğinde hayal kırıklığıyla karışık tuhaf bir duygu yaşadım. Ardından iş arayışımda bir gelişme oldu ve istediğim iş için kabul edildim fakat psikolojik olarak olumsuzluklar yaşıyordum ve bu tekrarlayınca başlamadan bırakmak zorunda kaldım. Şu an profesyonel olarak destek alıyorum, ilaç kullanıyorum ve biraz daha iyi hissediyorum. Bu arada videolarını izlediğimde sürekli bir şeyler yapma ihtiyacı hissediyorum (dil öğrenmek, yeni planlar yapmak) ve bu çok iyi hissettiriyor. Bunun için teşekkür ederim. Umarım dilediğin gibi videolarını yapmaya ve aileni desteklemeye devam edersin. Kendine iyi bak. :)
Hey Ruri, I'm very new to your channel and honestly, you've been the best inspiration in helping me get my life back on track and being organised. Just wanted to say, you are an extremely strong person and it's so nice to see you discuss your experience so openly with us watching. We really love you a lot and for me, you're the blessing in disguise I seriously needed when I felt like I was doing absolutely nothing with my life / was beyond help. Thanks for being that role model and sending much love, strength and support your way! Yo've got this💝
Proud of you for coming out with this. You're strong and amazing. I can speak for myself when I say that listening to your advice made my life so much better.
And we will be here for you! Thanks for sharing such deep personal story, and be sure that we will be here weekly waiting and watching each video and supporting you in every way we can, stay strong, keep it going.
Thanks a lot! I needed that, my last 12 months were a carrousel of emotions (right now i just got dumped), so it's hard for me, and also i need money for college which is hard to gain at the moment (working 2 jobs), but i'm still trying to chase my passions (basketball and movies), and at the moment i play almost daily basketball which is the only thing that kept me positive. I do not have many friends but now i can appreciate them because they helped a lot after this girl break up with me, and i kind of regret not talking to them when i was with her. Again, i thank you because your video helped me, and now i'm willing to push much more than before. Thank you!
I understand you as I'm going through some depression and dark times, I've had 3 losses and other trauma in the last year, RU-vid is not helping me anymore and I just dont want to be around anymore at times.
I’m in tears. Actually I’ve gotten lots of inspiration and encouragement from your channel. Can’t imagine how such a extraordinary girl diagnosed with depression. Love you, We DO NOT want to lose you.
Damn, this is extremely relatable. I got admitted into a mental hospital earlier this year, I had an episode. Got diagnosed with major depressive disorder and been dealing with it for a while, but it does get better. I don't enjoy giving people advice since everyone is different, but for anyone dealing with similar things, I'd really recommend the book "The Depression Cure" by Stephen S Ilardi, she's a psychologist. It's at least what has helped me, a lot too. Also, If I learned anything from being in that mental hospital, it's that literally anyone and everyone can go through this. I hope things get better for you, and all of us.
This, I think the stigma surrounding going to a psychologist or psychiatrist and being admitted in a mental hospital is what makes even harder for people to seek help.
Love you Ruri .. Love you even more because you're doing your RU-vid business with the people around you in mind ( kinda of my goal too even at only 500 subs and no equipment to kickstart my vision for my channel). You're building so that you can give a hand to someone who needs it . And that's powerful. I respect you for that, I love you for that.
Depression and su**idal thoughts. Been there. But didn't need to take any pills to stop my autism. I just learned to accept the bad situations that happened and better control myself. I'm currently in senior high and doing great. I still feel the issues, but that's just a part of me.
Hey Ruri, last year was a terrible one for me and I totally relate, I was as well diagnosed with severe combined type ADHD and sounds like my depression has been at least partially due to that. It's important to let it out, cry it out, free your emotions and do whatever you need to feel better. And about the antidepressants, I know it's hard to accept but I too am getting meds that are tipically used for depression and they actually help me avoiding ADHD paralysis and just ate least start doing stuff. I truly hope you'll feel better and get out of this in the best possible way, you can do it!
It’s not cool to say, don’t kill yourself. I know you mean well, but that’s not the way to express concern for Ruri. Simply say something like, Ruri, we are all here for you. We will support you through these tough times.
Thank you for sharing and being so vulnerable, Ruri. It takes strength to do that. I’m so glad you’re in a much better state of mind, and that your healing continues. Very sorry for that betrayal- how awful.
I'm sorry to hear about everything you've been going through. Glad to see you back on youtube and getting into a consistent healthy routine. Excited to see where things go from here!
My little brother was diagnosed with bipolar and depression 4 years ago. I share this because I thought I knew what he was going through from the outside looking in. However hearing your story kind of makes it hard to ignore what he’s actually been going through all these years. I’m in a different province from home and your story just made me realise I need to go home frequently because sending money every month alone isn’t the same as being physically there. ❤❤❤❤ I have a lot of respect for you Ruri 🙏🏾
your videos are very inspiring. i havent been watching as much lately, been going through some stuff myself. but it's nice to hear you talk about these things and glad to hear you're back posting again. keep it up.
I was diagnosed with ADHD last year as an adult. It's a relief and a worry feeling at the same time. Be sure that many people here who watch your videos are not all consumers, curious, or just scrolling for fun. Many do care about you and wish you the best. One step at the time, my friend. You got this!
I really sorry for all bad things in your life. You have been a teacher and helped me to grow up fast as a man. Everything is gonna be alright, trust it
You are so strong and resilient. Life can be so hard… for everyone I think. We find happiness in moments with the people that matter most to us and also our successes. Hard times show us how strong we are when we look back at our lives. We shall all keep going and encourage each other. 💯🤗💛
You are the only one motivation channel on youtube that is not cringe...I organize my life thank to you and next year I want to go study medicine (I am 25 years old) I started on work myself thank to you because last 3-4 years i was really depressed and you helped me a lot ! thank you
Hey Ruri. Thank you for being vulnerable. You’re still very young. You’re going to change and grow you have no idea who you will be in 5 years time. You inspired me to start my RU-vid channel - so I’m glad you’re back. The benefit of your position is you’ve built a loyal fan base and even if you take some time off to get right with yourself. We will be here because you’ve given us so much value over the years. Wishing you all the best. Keep going. Kaizen 1%
I'm 19 and I found your channel 1 year and a half ago and I was terrible at editing and animation,(which are the things I wanted to get good at), and over time to now, I basically learned the ins and outs of Premiere Pro, Photoshop, illustrator, and adobe animate. I worked in a warehouse for 3 years and after work, it was painful every day to get the energy to learn all this stuff after working hours palletizing pallets, but now I help a big animation youtuber animating for them full time and a part of that dedication was from watching your videos, thank you Ruri.
You'll be fine, Ruri. My brother, the eldest son of 52 (there are seven of us), has been battling depression for at least 10 years. It's very sad that we can't see him because he doesn't want us (in this case, the illness) around, except for our two children. But we'll never give up on him. Constant support is important.
Ruri, this is a friend from afar (from Ghana). You have been impactful to a lot of people, including me. This struggle is a springboard. Once we are bold enough and stand firm, it will mature us and build character. (James 1:2-4) I will say a prayer for you.
i am a game artist student and being that caused me a burnout. i do like the course but we need to do so many things. besides that i deal with loneliness and probably depression. because we need to do a lot we barely can't do anything outside school because of our homework.(and also because of friend issues) i'm now in the 3th year and i hope that things go better than the first two years. last week i thought about ending (you know what) because i couldn't handle myself anymore. i am so sorry you're going through this Ruri. i look up to you since you always seems to me super productive and i hope that i could be in that place again. i had the feeling that something wasn't going right with you since you left youtube for some time. i am glad that you're doing better now!
it's crazy to see that the people u least expect go through these things but if I had one thing to say it's u are a very beautiful person carrying and stepping up for ur family in itself is beyond me u are something special even tho u get it a lot I truly mean it I pray that God gives me a wife of ur determination and girt u are a trailblazer for young girls and quality women just know we love u and we are there to support u no matter what
