i see her light up the screen always when i least expect hate how that one little word can have such an effect mum nan says i shouldn’t pick up both of us know how this ends there’s something stupid inside me that always pretends maybe it’s gonna be different maybe i owe her a chance so, i’m answering the call when i get a call maybe twice a year or so opening the door like i did before ready for the latest blow thinking ’bout her eyes as i realise that she’s only asking for money i’m sorry i guess i should know by now fire in my face thunder in my ears blocking out the background noise don’t know how to say i don’t wanna talk but i wanna hear her voice wish i didn’t want everything i want suddenly she says she’s gotta go i ask why she hangs up without saying goodbye stepping out, stepping in missed my birthday again brush it off, she’ll explain just you wait and see almost wish that she were on the other side of the world so i’d stop hoping she’d ever visit me i don’t even hate her now i don’t need her anyhow i just sort of want her to ask about boys or school i could block her number or call her up and say no more but, i guess i’d rather keep playing the fool ’cause maybe it’s gonna be different maybe i owe her a chance so, i’m answering the call when i get a call (answer the call) putting on the perfect show (answer the call) opening the door like i did before (open the door) letting the excitement grow (open the door) thinking ’bout her eyes as i realise that she’s only asking for money i’m sorry, i guess i should know by now (guess you should know) fire in my face thunder in my ears blocking out the background noise don’t know how to say i don’t wanna talk but i wanna hear her voice wish i didn’t want everything i want suddenly she says that she’s gotta go i ask why she hangs up without saying
i see her light up the screen always when i least expect strange how that one little word can have such an effect mum. nan doesn’t know that she calls i hide it all from my friends i know it’s stupid but something inside me pretends maybe it’s gonna be different maybe i owe her a chance so i’m answering the call when i get a call wondering how it’s gonna go opening the door like i did before letting the excitement grow thinking bout her eyes as i realise that she’s only asking for money i guess i should know by now fire in my face thunder in my ears blocking out the background noise don’t know what to say don’t know how to help i just wanna hear her voice wish there was a way she could be okay suddenly she says that she’s gotta go i ask why she hangs up without saying goodbye stepping out stepping in missed my birthday again brush it off, she’ll explain just you wait and see almost wish that she were on the other side of the world so that someone could help her who isn’t me. i don’t even hate her now i don’t blame her anyhow i just sort of wish she was like all the mums i know i could block her number or call her up and say no more every time i try i just can’t let her go cause maybe it’s gonna be different maybe she’s gonna be fine so i’m answering the call when i get a call wondering how it’s gonna go opening the door like i did before ready for the latest blow thinking bout her eyes as i start to cry i can’t do a thing bout it NOTHING MUM i should know by now fire in my face thunder in my ears blocking out the background noise don’t know what to say don’t know how to help i just wanna hear her voice wish there was a way she could be okay suddenly she says that she’s gotta go i ask why she hangs up without saying
