Ptsd.i hear you JR and I am glad you can speak on the subject.You have been to war and you have survived.You came home for a reason, to find peace to spread the word there is recovery from PTSD. To enjoy life and be productive. Your family needs you to be present and whole. As a survivor of DV 30 yes I feel your pain. PTSD for me is still present in my life everyday. For 30 yes I was in a garden every week day where I found a certain peace and have now almost come to terms that I am safe. You are a strong man, you have saved lives.I too have saved 3 children's lives from car accidents.I am still on this earth to praise God and Exodus 14.14 The Lord shall fight for you and you shall hold your peace. Love, B.