You sweet thing. I watch you and I see I have been where you are. My taper took 17 months and I am 7 months out. I would cry like you are, breathe like you are, struggle to speak and think. I can't even tell you all of the BIZARRE symptoms I experienced for years. But you beautiful woman, I am healing. Slowly but surely. I am healing. You will too. I promise you. It's very hard, but you are so right....we are brave, strong and true warriors. You too will look back on this video and be so proud of yourself. And say "IVE MADE IT!" And life will have a whole new meaning with no fear and so much beauty! It is criminal and inhuman what we have been through. But be proud you have had the strength to post this. Awareness is crucial. Much love and many prayers. ❤️🌈
Dana, your message is old but you mentioned it was hard to think. Did you feel your brain doesn't function normally and can't understand a simple thing and become overwhelmed of any normal things and can't understand that people can do normal things? I call it brain lock. I was prescriped a big amount of benzo and no warnings after trauma. Had been living a healthy active social life and now i'm alone mostly because I tell my hell all the time to my loved ones and feel like I am in a different reality from other people. I feel depersonalization and derealisation and disconnected from people and enviroment and my loved ones. Two tapers went badly wrong too quickly. Now with Ashton manual and have a good doctor. I have horror waking ups like you feel you die in that second and can't take one day anymore like this and feel you have to die. I was confident and active and grateful to God from many things. Now I fear taking trash out. I have done crossover from klonopin to diazepam and tapered from total amount of 60 mg of diazepam to 30 mg of diazepam and have at least 7-9 months to taper. I fear I won't survive. I fear I'm the worst case and have the worst brain function problems. I have partner, he is waiting but I can't be with him. I can see just my mom when she helps me to get food from store. Thank you if you can answer and all the best.
Dana, I try to ask again. Did you ever feel your brain doesn't function normally and can't understand a simple thing? This is my worst symptom. Brain is just shut down. I can't function. I'm doing Ashton manual taper and have many months to go, from 60 mg of diazepam to 25 mg in four months. I have agoraphobia, depersonalization and derealisation and disconnected from people and enviroment and my loved ones. I was very active social confident person before I was prescriped a big amount benzo and no warnings after trauma. Thank you if you can answer.
God bless you Sweetie. This to shall pass that is what I tell myself. IN JESUS PRECIOUS NAME AMEN. WE WILL ALL HEAL IN TIME. LOVE AND PRAYERS FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY 🙏🏻♥️
Rewatch this video, and listen to the accolades you give to others, and realize you are speaking of yourself! I too was put on when I was 16-17 long time ago, so I don't remember, and now have about 17 months left to go. Thank you for your courage and message! You will get there look how for you have come! Much Love and Respect! -Matt
Praying for you ... I’m 10 months off of 4 mg for ten years to stop the panic from losing my body to multiple sclerosis. The most horrible thing ever ... hang in there. It will end, I promise ♥️♥️♥️
I was on Xanax after about two years you start to get tolerance with drawl it really sucks, then they switched me to k pins For 20 more years, I was on 4 mg per day I worked my way down to 1 mg which is where I am now by the grace of God I’ve been living a normal life so far, I use a jewel scale and I just scrape a milligram every day then I’ll hold for a little bit then I’ll start scraping so far so good
GRACE GEMINO I’m OK I’m a little ashamed to say this but I’m gonna tell you the truth, if I party too hard sometimes I take 5 mg just to bring my head down I never once re-Kendall it doesn’t happen to me I guess I’m Blessed, no no let me repeat that I know I’m blessed you take care kiddo
Praise the name of God, I never rekindle neither I am also ashamed of the same crime, like I said I’m down to 1 mg and there’s times I take five if I get too high and then I have to calm down, nothing to be ashamed of his long as you keep Fightin
You will heal and have the rest of your life ahead of you; and will be so strong because of this and so much smarter, you will not fall for these drugs and what these doctors tell you.
You’ve got this Jenny! I was also put on this drugs as a teen at 13 and I would also research and tell my psychiatrist and he will gaslight me telling “how dare I say I know more than him” and that “this is so safe” even when I was reading that it wasn’t. I was manipulated into thinking I was arrogant for not obeying psychiatrist. I’m now 18 and decided to quit this poison. I feel you and I hope you’re better. ❤️
Pls I need to respond somebody to me... I need to do on surgery from cyst ovarian and I am in withdrawal for 5 months still have sever heart palpitation is dangerous the anesthesia??? Pls i need to know
Delia - All women who ovulate have ovarian cysts. The only occasion for surgery is if you have a blood test showing cancer antigen 125 or if the cyst is 10cm with solid tissue growing inside. If the cyst is benign then you do NOT need surgery - it will reduce on its own. You need to do research into this before you agree to have surgery. If you haven't yet learned through benzo withdrawal to not simply trust what doctors tell you then I don't know what more to say.
Delia, I feel for you, I know you are scared. Wait until your blood pressure is under control. If it isn't cancer I wouldn't worry to much about it unless you are in pain, some cyst can grow and cause women pain. I love ya and you are in my thoughts. Hang on for a little while longer, I can't give no advice but I can send you warm thoughts of support.
to others: when someone is crying out for help, terrified, confused, going thru this hell of benzo w/d draw and all they have is this internet community of others going thru it to engage with others trying to hold onto what is left of their sanity. Kind words have echoes that are truly endless. of course we don't trust doctors anymore that is why we try to ask others who may have some knowledge as to wtf to do!! Its scary and no one believes us, just be kind when someone is asking for help, they could possibly be all alone, and trying to read during benzo w/d is sometimes impossible yet trying to think straight. Don't add to the disabling depression!!
@@NoName-pu5ls YOu are so right Shana! I am really glad you commented and gave support to Delia. Ordinarily I am very supportive and loving. I have the same fears as Delia as I am also needing surgery. My right kidney dropped down into my abdomen and through this experience with medical harm I am terrified of doctors/hospitals. I projected that fear onto Delia. I am sorry Delia. I am right there with you. I am so sorry
@@THXx1138 I am so sorry I am bawling my freaken eyes out, I am tapering but, I had surgery to remove my left ovary, it went well. I thought for sure well here it is, I won't wake up and good, yeah that's how I thought, but it went well, I had a mass the size of a grapefruit they called it a cyst? during tapering I had it done, after surgery they told me it had hair?? I still don't even know if I heard that right? but they removed the whole left ovary and I Lived. OMG!! the fear you must feel this is your kidney!. I would be scared to death. I understand the fear of hospitals/doctors. I just figured the surgeon would get it out of my body but YOU need to trust a whole spectrum of docs' an abdomen doc and kidney specialist, oh dear I just don't know what to say to you, it breaks my heart you have to endure this with the terrified facts that most docs don't know what harm they cause. You sound really smart, I hope you can research the likely hood of surgery in your own case. Mine was in and out surgery, I don't know if yours would be or not. I would think you need surgery of some sort? I did take the pain meds they gave me, only 2 days worth and I smoked pot afterwards, for pain, it helped. Please don't let that kidney go that sounds way too serious, I am so sorry and I Love you too!! Please check out all your options Please we need you!! The world needs you
Do some research on human growth hormone (HGH) there is a reason why athletes take this to recover from injuries and i found out that it repairs nerves and receptors in the brain , I used this after I got completely off benzos in my 4th month of recovery ,and after using it for 2 weeks I felt a huge difference plus working out and eating healthy played a role is it as well but for sure HGH was the main reason for the way I feel today , the only problem is it’s expensive and hard to get and don’t know if insurance companies will pay for it or if the doctors will administer this type of therapy on patients, but it doesn’t hurt to research and talk to your doctor and figure out if this is a route you wanna take , you said you got another year of taper so look into it and ask around about it
@@xxx-ly7jf I didn’t have any issues when I used it But if you can get real HGH and you start using it take small dosages and see how you react to it Everyone is different so some things will work on some people and have no issues and might not work on other’s and might have issues
@@conz7474 I’ve been almost 6 months off, my biggest symptoms are withdrawal induced depression, bad derealization, anhedonia, bad brain fog, and no libido.I also have other minor like neuroemotions, irritability, light and sound sensitivity, blurry vision , fatigue, dizziness, weight gain, mild akathisia, etc but they aren’t as debilitating.(btw I’m 18 years old and female)
Thomas, why are your comments always negative? It is not doing you or anyone else any good to spread that around. You really need to adjust your attitude friend.
@Duke Christopher Surviving benzo discontinuation syndrome will fundamentally change just about anyone. The experience is far and away too extreme to remain unchanged.
@@thomasrehder9608 Yes, there are many people who are prescribed 6mg of Xanax. That should be a criminal offense with doctors going to prison for life. And I am not a "dude".
