depression lead to two paths... Life or Death... Life to which consists of love... Or death which consists to torture or hate... Dont make a deal with the devil
I haven’t felt ok ever since you left this plane of existence my soul feels lost and it’s searching for someone who’s not there anymore my eyes hang low in disappointment to know I’ll never get to meet him I love you man R.I.P jaseh fly high brother I’ll see you in the next life
M I D N I G H T R A N T one morning I woke up and realized that i'm just fucking done with everything. I don't want to go on.I don't want to live my life like everyone.I don't want to live anymore.people will understand me when i say i'm just done...There comes a time period where you realize things you didn't before and its up to you to extract that information and use it or abandon it and blend in with everyone else.its very clear that i chose the first over the latter.it was just 2 years ago when one afternoon i felt completely lost and gone (if you know what i mean then you know that its a dark and scary feeling) i basically found depression. i was alone and desperate for a feeling other than happiness and i found it...or it found me.either way i was instantly mesmerized by the understanding that comes with it.my knowledge and perception was completely altered and when people would ask for help i was finally able to help them.I figured out that the best possible way to provide help is to disregard your feelings..your emotions..your inner most precious thoughts and just open your mind to knowledge.its the key to a lot of things.it helps you.the only side effect is you will truly be A L O N E.its very rare to run into someone with the same ideals as yourself but if you do its a compatible friendship.its usually that one friend you have that puts you in check.now notice i said friendship and not relationship. their is a reason for this nd its because relationships are suppose to run off emotions and feelings and that is where the issue is.i cant feel anymore and i'm losing myself.in all actual seriousness i'm crying for help.i wake up look out the window and just become something else.i'm alone and single.with this i learned that its a dangerous combination.it eats you up till there is nothing else left.just a shell.my friends are a ex and a truthful friend that i hardly talk to.it destroys me knowing i destroyed myself.i explode then implode my feelings once in awhile. That's where everything hits you at once for a fraction of a hour and it resets.its weird.its what i could say deadly.cause based on how you handle you can make a quick recovery and be just like new...or you can keep it inside of you and never let go ever. That's what happened this morning.i woke up and started crying knowing i'm all fucking alone,knowing that i cant find someone cause i'm scared to love. i never been in love before. I've liked girls and obsessed over a girl i used to know but that's it...never L O V E. I guess im done for now but if you would like to talk my instagram is @xnathanpalmerinx ~ E N V Y ~
Dead inside Spend a lot of time stuck in this head, of mine Under the assumption love is dead, already Just let me be here Where was I? When he was feeling on you with his hands, at night? Seen the vivid pictures in my head, at night It left me in tears
