7am here in australia. i haven’t been able to sleep. she left me and it’s all my fault. she needed me and i wasn’t there. i lost my best friend. my job. and now her and i’m spiralling downwards. i don’t want to do anything. maybe that’s the problem. i hate myself and i will never forgive myself for being so selfish. people tell me i have my whole life but ahead of me but i can’t hear that. to think of life without her is like a flower without sun. or like a beach without sand. we were supposed to start a new life together next week and now she’s going alone. i feel like i’m at rock bottom again. what do i do?
