These vids always make me feel so grounded and glad there are people who have brains that work like mine after thinking for years that I was going crazy
I’ve gone through the “my dad hasn’t responded to my texts for like 4 hours, I guess he’s dead, and I have to accept that, and I will now mentally attend his funeral” many times as an adult.
@@paigepeach9882 I believe you on that. I was going to write a long-ass comment explaining why I believe this to be true and how deep it goes for me, but part-way through decided I didn't have the energy to explain my life story. I do believe it can come from a fear of abandonment and/or rejection and other things though. I have experienced it from prior to age 10 and still majorly struggle with it. Even as a kid I was determined to un-alive myself before my parents died bc I knew in my mind I couldn't handle losing either of my parents, especially my mom. Not that it matters either way, but I did end up losing my mom to ALS in 2013. I obviously survived it, but it's been extremely difficult.
I do that now as an adult, but even as a small child I had that fear of mortality, kept asking my mom "we're never gonna die, right?" and had recurring nightmares about it, would cry almost every night bc "my parents are gonna die someday". Wonder how common that is lol
@@JustJ-Me Did you ever find anything that helps with this? I have it really bad as well and when I was younger I would have panic attacks about my parents dying, specifically my mom too. I always just attributed it to anxiety, but it seems like it could be more than that. If there’s anything you’ve learned that helps the fear of your parents dying please let me know😅
I swear to god Drew is so relatable. It literally surprises me how much of what he says I relate to. For example, thinking about if one of your parents died and then instantly thinking about the next steps of what to do. It's good to be prepared I guess
this is actually something in dbt therapy they told us that can help lol. like if u know something inevitable is going to happen, you can take time to "freak out" about it and then once the time actually comes, it will be easier to handle since u already did kinda prepare. the hard part is only doing this at a planned time and not randomly XD
Drew has such a gift. It’s like never ending nonsense and it’s so entertaining and genuine and funny. Not many people can just talk and be entertaining
@@Jordan-ns8ymfor real. He always comes back around to the point it's so impressive 😂 When I talk I sound like drew without his wit or his talent, mines just a stream of consciousness fs
I just wanna say I am so proud of you for being so authentic on the internet. Your videos don't feel like shallow entertainment, they feel like genuine human connection.
I kinda feel that way too but then I’m like wait no ones here. But then I export the footage and post and brokeankle says hi and I’m like ok I knew they were!!
Drew's ability to articulate his thoughts is so good, it reminds me of Bo Burnham in interviews, just the way he can summarize a very specific feeling in a sentence is amazing
The part about thinking your mom was dead, thank you for that, as weird as that sounds. I have gone through that same thought process and internal experience multiple times when my parents take too long to get home or don't respond to my texts, and I will truly convince myself they're dead and start to do everything you explained, and it's so comforting to know that I'm not alone with that
Not sure whether to say "I'm sorry" or "Congrats on your divorce" or both, but I'm glad you reminded me that Drew is the go-to person for divorce tips. 😆 I have no clue how he effortlessly makes everything so damn funny, but I LOVE it!
@@Fany823 Been through a divorce myself, and though it was tough bc I still love(d) him, I was the only one working on the marriage bc he stuggled/struggles with addiction. I hope all goes as well for you as possible. I would have loved to hear Drew coming out swinging with the whole "divorce tips" joke straight from the beginning! All the best to you and I hope you're able to find more humor through such typically difficult times.
Hi it's me just wanted to say that with this video in particular I am actually very curious to hear your thoughts on, I know a lot of people might watch this and just want some specific type of GOSSIP COMMENTARY TEA (which is my fault bc of the title I think) but I'm really interested around the topic of like "hate watching" in general, the things we consume online but don't really talk about in IRL life, negativity being fostered by social media, if watching shit with disagree with is morally wrong or does it matter at all because we're all consuming so much every day and how could you vet all of it for ethics ? is there any thing or anyone you watch or spend time consuming or even reading about that you wouldn't ever consider telling your friends about or would be ashamed if you ever did? I know this vid has kind of a "clicky" title but beyond all that I hope that it resonates or brings up some interesting conversations or thinking for people because this is stuff I'm really interested in and interested in talking about more and I'm curious if you are too! I did a Q&A on patreon also www.patreon.com/drewmonson I'm gonna go try and calm down now (always)
i can only hate watch with other people or else i get too mad last thing i hate watched was the after movies it was horrible but obviously i watched all three
I watch so many personalized tarot reading vids to the point where the predictions literally do not make sense bc I watch so many that practically every scenario is given to me but it still makes me so anxious and I feel like I have to watch them or I’m gonna miss soemthing
I think the q abt consuming morally questionable content is really important b/c like, while we may be able to analyze the content as Bad and therefore we are Immune to its effects, by consuming said content we implicitly platform these problematic creators. the more ppl who casually watch Rogan, the more Spotify allows his misinfo on their platform. Like ya, I can say that joe Rogan is bad, but if even .5 percent of his audience is radicalized by some of his more controversial guests, that’s hundreds of thousands of people. it might be important to be cognizant of that even if ur just casually consuming/watching.
@@emilyjilson7795 I do hear what ur saying! but I do wonder if making like, 1 view on someone is actually making a big impact, or a bigger impact than just talking about him right now. I know small things make a big impact when it comes to things like idk the environment or something but I feel like I never have fully been convinced that like giving someone .00000000001 cent on Spotify or RU-vid something is = to support or platforming. people say the same things with like, listening to a problematic artist on Spotify but I always feel like, especially with major label record deals and what percentage of that money the artist actually gets WITHOUT a record deal (I know bc I release my music independently) the amount of money or popularity one person can give someone else is smaller than most people think. the other thing is, we don't know exactly how algorithms work (I think) but I believe that even looking at something on twitter, or even spending more time viewing tiktok comments (the apps boost things more based on how much you time looking at it, be it a topic, comment thread, tweet you scroll through and pause on for .7 seconds more than another one, video whatever) can contribute to someone being shown to more people. I know that is true) can actually indrecictly give something more of a platform? do you know what I mean? and it is very difficult because I think a lot of the decisions we are making with our devices regarding what we look at (And therefore what we are making more powerful) happen so quickly at this point I could barely even qualify it as a decision! I mean, our computers/phones track everything we do and even type and not only show it more to us but use that data to show it to other people, so even you and I typing more in this comment thread about Rogan right now could potentially be gaining him more of a platform, In a fucked up way? Maybe I'm just rambling though! and I also could just be rationalizing my hate watch! I definitely feel it more with like, quote tweeting or making a video essay dedicated to why something is bad leading them to being more of a public figure and like u said radicalizing more ppl with the conspiracy rabbit hole. and I worry I even do that talking about him here but then I wonder, does anyone who watch my videos no know who he is anyway? or maybe putting him in their brain is enough. it's all so complicated! did anyone read this?
Yes but you shouldn't be ashamed. If you oppose something or disagree with someone it is good to expose yourself to it to check your biases and assumptions. It's good to understand what you oppose. Sometimes thinks are just low bandwidth easy to consume and it's a bit embarrassing that someone indulges in it sometimes but everyone has an u healthy guilty pleasure.
I love your authenticity. More people need to expose their hate watching lists. It’s an interesting way to understand ourselves as humans. We all do it even if we don’t want too.
Drew, just wanted to let you know how much of an impact you’ve made in my life these last few months. There are certain things I’ve felt and thought about and watching you has made me feel like I’m not alone. Thanks man
omg what you said about your mom was so relatable, I randomly think of my partner being unalive, and what my reaction would be, about the funeral, how much I´d cry, how I´d have to eat alone and not being able to hug him... it´s a mess, overthinking is a real issue I go through pretty much everyday
Yesss I do this too, we make ourselves feel that heartbreak for no reason 😅 in those moments I try to switch it to picturing us together in the future, cute dates or something to shift the narrative to be more positive focused
I wish I was as confident as you on camera and could freely be myself and just talk without being nervous or over thinking, you have a real talent and you are so entertaining, everybody loves your work and thinks what you are doing is fantastic
Thank you honestly it has taken me a while to get to a place where I feel comfortable (enough) letting myself talk this long without interruption and actually showing it to others. And the positive reinforcement from comments/views/money is a bit part of it ! People underestimate that a big part of creative growth/finding your voice is being rewarded for it and some people just aren’t or haven’t been yet so unless you’re me it’s hard to compare yourself to me without the context of my life, I’m sure you are impressive in many other way.
The parental death panic is something I go through very often, except it happens for me with everyone I'm in contact with, or people I haven't contacted in years. I feel the crushing fear and then I cry panic trying to contact everyone who *might* know where they are and if they're okay. It's a mix of anxiety and OCD, lovely little concoction of emotions 🙃
It actually kinda freaks me out how you’ve brought up so many things that honestly probably a lot of ppl have thought of but I just never heard anyone say out loud but it’s the exact way that I think so I’m feeling very validated. I always look forward to these vids! Have a great week drew
I TOTALLY get what you mean by the evening anxiety attack. When I start getting tired and eventually have to sleep that's when the "all my loved ones are dead" train starts chugging along. I also relate to the parent death anxiety as a child, every time my mom was late coming from work or an outing I would just assume she had died in some horrible way. Brains suck
That’s a trigger response from your traumatic past that has yet to be resolved. It’s like you have to challenge that negative belief and use a positive belief instead.
I get crazy-bad anxiety surrounding sleep and I both have insomnia as well as a fear of going to sleep for a multitude of reasons. (None of it has to do with a fear of not waking up- just to be clear).
@@JustJ-Me trying to put myself into a calm mood beforehand by drinking a soothing tea or meditating can help me get into the right state of mind to sleep but when it gets really rough smoking weed is super helpful. I don’t want to become dependent on it for sleep but sometimes it’s the only thing that works
@@elenaascaso9090 I've tried chamomile tea but unfortunately it hasn't helped. Perhaps I'll have to try something else. As for weed, I've heard a lot of ppl say it helps them sleep. It gives me major anxiety. I'm glad you've found stuff that helps you.
I wish I could see the confusion on first time watchers faces when you talk about the little British boy 🤣 You know, even when I'm having a hard day the moment I see a notification saying you uploaded my day instantly gets better. I feel like I'm listening to an old friend and it calms me so easily. Even when you bounce all over with what you're talking about it literally brings me such peace. Perhaps it's because I feel like you are genuine and you tend to show the realness of being human: the ups, the downs and the all arounds. ❤️
Holy I'd say it's a dopamine party now after your reply! Lol and you're probably right about that's how people react haha🤣 they'll end up watching more of your videos and slowly realize it's now more than just a random British accent 🤣
I’ve been listening to you talk on this Channel for about 5 hours now because it’s the only thing keeping me grounded during my anxiety today. There’s something about your stream of consciousness that’s so comforting and grounding. So Thankyou.
Also instead of “Hate Watch” I feel like we should call it Popcorn Viewing because I watch a handful of people who are objectively terrible but I keep watching because it’s like rubbernecking when you see a car crash or other incident, like “get the popcorn, this is gonna be good in a bad way” lmao
And the crazy part is if anyone is keeping you engaged (even the bad ones because there is stimulating bad and boring bad) they are objectively good at their job?? Bc the job is to make people watch. Idk if being a content creator is the same thing as being an artist even.
Hate is so strong too, and I def don't care enough about my Popcorn Viewing to hate. If anything, I appreciate them for still living life and posting as such. The world is big enough for nuance
Yes, I've had that moment with my mom several times. I don't hear from her for 17 minutes and then I'm mentally attending her funeral in my head imaginging what I'll say to greet people.
I do that pretty regularly, thinking family members are dead when they take unusually long to respond. It's a weird double-edged sword where on one hand, it's nice to feel relieved and grateful when they inevitably are not dead, but then one day they will be dead, and I feel like it'll be more shocking and depressing when it finally is true, because I've been conditioned to think it's just a silly irrational fear that historically has never come true. I think our brains put a lot of weight on past outcomes when forming our concept of reality.
For me there’s a weird line I try to draw between curiosity / knowing what’s going on in certain RU-vid / social media communities and then at what point that blurs into supporting or mindlessly consuming that content. Like information and awareness mixed with entertainment and consumption. It’s a weird blur sometimes for sure!
Here’s a story: I had Covid and I completely lost my taste and smell. I could still feel salt and sugar on my tongue and I could tell when something was bitter. But it’s like nothing had flavor. So you couldn’t taste spices or seasonings or just a basic flavor of meats or whatever. So my taste and smell didn’t come back for TWO MONTHS. Not too big of a deal for me at the time. Still ate to satisfy my body, not really my mouth. But when my smell/taste came back, it came back WRONG. Just one day everything smelled and tasted like sewage, dead bodies, just nasty flavor. I could only eat bland foods or diary foods. FOR SIX MONTHS. The medical term is parosmia. It was hell. I cried a lot. 😅 I appreciate so much in life now that I had been taking for granted. Like walking, pooping, easily breathing, having all my body parts, etc.
I’m going through this right now :’( About 3 months after having covid (and after my taste and smell returned) so many things smell awful now. Pretty much exactly how you describe the smells, and more stuff adds to the list as time goes on. It’s a living hell, even toothpaste (and anything mint) is like sewage :( Bland food and dairy are my safe foods too but I’ve seen loads of people say dairy and water smell and taste awful for them now :’)
I experienced the same thing. Even brushing my teeth was horrible. It’ll be one year tomorrow and I can now eat more than before, but some foods still taste and smell ABSOLUTELY horrid. Such as orange juice or burgers. Most fruit has a strong, unappealing flavor which sucks because I used to love fruit so much.
@@leigh1220 good luck to you, hope it doesn’t last too long. Who would have thought this would be an issue in someone’s life? Good thing you have those safe foods.
@@carlaizaguirre9984 damn it’s been a year for you and still that many stuff is bad 😭 it’s been almost a year for me too but only like five things are still bad: garlic, coffee without a lot of creamer, most chocolate, bananas, and perfumes just smell nasty. It might have been a coincidence but when I began pushing myself to eat foods that were a little nasty but tolerable, my taste and smell improved. And I kept pushing the boundary.
@@daniellerodgers6493 thank you ☺️I know, it’s wild! Also who knew garlic and onion were in SO many things. And why are there so many coffee shops everywhere, the smell is disturbing haha
I feel this so hard. my "hate watch" thing is the tlc show Sister Wives. I will literally spend hours on the subreddit. sometimes I catch myself tearing up at emotional moments on the show, or laughing with them. Ive stopped trying to fight it at this point
In terms of dissociation, I do this thing where I’ll look down at my body and have a moment of whoa, I forgot that was there. Which sends me into a next level of anxiety because it feels like I’ve spent the whole day up until that point completely unaware of my body. This is definitely why mindfulness is a helpful tool but it doesn’t necessarily help this from happening all the time.
these videos really mean so much to me, it is so incredibly comforting to feel so understood. i always feel so bad when i catch myself doing these things, but seeing another person put exactly how i feel into words and say that they do it too, and then seeing so many people in the comments agreeing and saying they also do it helps me so so so much. not even just this video, all of them. its like you take my inner monologue and make it easier for me to understand and feel okay about, and then bring together a community of people who feel the same. thank you so much drew :)
I always get those intrusive thoughts about someone in my family dying and I end up creating scenarios in my head that get my blood boiling or makes me tear up and it definitely manifests into some sort of panic attack. It's so stupid, it especially happens when I'm alone just driving in my car which is never a fun experience to drive while screaming and or crying
Omg the pen thing!!!! It’s always so jarring when that shit happens. Like when you encounter a weird interaction like that and you’re like “ew am I weird??? Am I making it weird???“ but then you walk away and you’re like “maybe they’re the weirdo” like sometimes there are just weirdos out there, and it doesn’t always have to be you!!!!
i used to have that feeling whenever someone was about to see my search history. i realized i was hiding part of my personality by hiding my likes/interests from my friends. accepting it and confronting that discomfort is the best thing i ever did for my self esteem. everyone has ‘guilty pleasures’ and personally i think there is no shame in liking what you like because thats part of what makes you unique. ethically evaluating your likes and dislikes will be an endless and fruitless task. i think its ok to enjoy the entertainment value of something while also being critical of it. ok love u byeeeee
i have genuinely never felt so safe to watch a youtube video. i was pausing and putting in my own commentary 😭. im 17 and i have bee watching you since middle school. thank you drew for being such a comforting and welcoming person. you saved me from a very bad spot in my life and i love you and everything youve done for me.
drew honestly you seem to be very introspective and self aware and that’s a good thing. combined with your humor is just soooooo entertaining. i love your second channel you are very funny and comforting. love u babe
I have generalized anxiety disorder and this video is super relatable. I have a phobia of people dying and I fixate on it at night especially to a point where I will get out of my bed and go check to make sure they are breathing while they are sleeping (it makes me seem like a creep). If I can't check on them in person - I will have an anxiety attack unless I can reach them immediately. Sometimes I feel like it is bothersome to other people I am always so hypervigilant. I always thought that I was alone, but it makes me feel better hearing that there are people like me out there with the same thought patterns. I am on medication, but it only helps so much. Also, I am a cancer woman, so I understand the stigma. Thanks for the video, Drew!
When you said it’s like an after school gossip session talking about people you hate with your friends hit home for me the most. I live and work alone and I don’t see my friends very often so it feels so good to listen to others on social media rant because it almost fills the void of community and chitchat. It’s such a good feeling as a human to have others validate your feelings and to have a sense of community among likeminded people. Hate is such a powerful emotion and it’s cathartic to hate on things and hear others hate things too.
the way i looked up from my phone to see drew reading the joke on the luigis box and seeing that blue purpley stuff drip down made my jaw drop and i laughed a great laugh. i cried for hours earlier today bc i'm a jobless autistic 26 yr old living with their parents with no money. i needed that thank you drew for uploading ily
sending you virtual hugs and love. i know hearing this from a stranger means practically nothing, but i just want to let you know that someone somewhere in the world is also struggling and also cried for hours earlier, and that thought is comforting for me at least and so maybe it is for you too.
Also yes about the hate watching thing I've absolutely fallen down the hall of reading forums about youtubers that annoy me before and I've had to snap out of it. Oh and the twitter thing too back when i had twitter
You literally never know what it feels like. My brother, mom and dad died and I’m not even 40 yet. It’s messed up. You will always have regrets even if you lived the best life with the best relationship you could have lived. It’s sad and it feels unreal no matter how old you are. It will always be unfair but life isn’t fair. People have said wow you are so strong. There’s no other choice? You either keep living or you don’t.
drew i never comment on videos but when you started talking about the “parent death” and already believing that it’s true i have never felt so seen. i will make up a scenario in my head that someone’s passed and i will fully play out my grief in my head and go through all of the emotions. one outside factor will pull me out of it like a text and then i just move on like nothing happened it’s so weird
Hey drew just wanna let you know im happy toure starting to be more aware of your anxiety and shutting it down when it starts. Thats the first step to getting better i love you keep it up!!
Here’s my simulation moment: I was in Walmart in like 2013 around 8 pm, and some bohemian looking girl, maybe 25 years old, came up to me and asked me if I could buy a perfume bottle from her so she would have gas money for her cross country road trip. She opened up her backpack and asked me to smell the perfume. For some reason, I felt so enchanted by her, I smelled the perfume and agreed to pay her like $10 for an already opened perfume without the box or anything. It was such a weird liminal experience. And then for a couple weeks I felt spooked out every time I saw the perfume on my dresser, that I threw it away. 😆
Drew, you’re the realest. I relate to you so incredibly much. It’s nice to know someone else is going through something similar. Sorry things are hard. You’re the coolest and very interesting. I’ll always be here to watch! Love ya!
I do this too but on a smaller level. My therapist says it's called "catastrophizing" situations. Like thinking the worst most terrifying scenario of like everything for no reason.
You make my mind open up so much to how similar all of our human experiences are and u seriously make me realize so much about myself and the world, idk if that made any sense i just wanted u to know
YES!! About the parents dying thing like oh my god i do this ALL the time when my parents are like late or won't answer their phones it's so weird and a relief hearing that other people do it too
Literally i felt when u said how you overthought your mom not responding to you for a while, i get stressed and put myself in a position of grief and get ready for any sort bad news 😭 Like it’s crazy how the mind goes that way and you feel it all in your body
Yeah I know what you’re saying. Like you made some POINTS in this video, and honestly this just felt like one of my friends having a monologue to me. It was like,,, so comforting to hear someone just think, stream of conscious, like I do all the time.
i lost taste and smell bc of covid and i can’t even describe it you think you’re tasting what you’re eating because it’s a familiar texture but there is simply no taste. it’s like eating nothing. i know this is a horrible explanation. i took a bite out of an onion to get the taste back and it was the craziest and also worst experience. great video btw!
The thing about "the lightbulb looking different yesterday" and being scared about everything falling apart, I've never felt more understood in my life. Almost everyday I will start to think I'm seeing things different or I'm losing my mind but rationally I know I'm not. Sometimes I really freak out and start almost convincing myself like "yes u are losing ur mind and things are moving and maybe I should go to the hospital because what if it's a tumor", and then other times I'm simply like "shut up brain ur anxious and everything is fine." And it's a really lonely experience almost because I thought I was the only person who did that, and it almost affirms that anxious "maybe I am losing my mind" part so you saying that really helped affirm the rational part, if that makes sense. Also I've had entire meltdowns because someone was a little late, one time my boyfriend fell asleep and was late to a date we had accidentally, and it ended up with me like on the floor sobbing that he was dead 🙃, which in hindsight was crazy but in the moment felt like that was no other option. Idk I'm just rambling so this might not even make sense but I felt like my adhd needed me to vent about that so...thanks 😅😂
I was looking for this commentttt. I’m so sensitive to my environment if the “vibe” feels off it ruins my entire mood n i get really anxious and can’t focus on anything but why the vibe is off. And then i start overthinking it and realize that I’m overthinking it and feel crazy like i have no grasp on reality. It’s an annoying cycle but hearing that other ppl going thru the same thing is a little reassuring.
@@lazybonezz23 Yes! I'll even convince myself somethings moving when it's not if I'm in a really anxious place, like I'm subconsciously trying to freak myself out more or something? Or affirm that somethings wrong when it's not. I'm sorry you go through that, I know first hand how scary it can be sometimes but I'm also happy I'm not completely alone in that 😅
@@arieltiffany2002 yes it’s the worst feeling! Definitely grounding to hear we’re not alone, because i be feeling like I’m stuck in some weird time warp and that I’m imagining everything. Thanks for replying to my comment! I feel seen n heard lmao :>
Thank you drew for talking about this kinda stuff!! I think the "my mum died" thing (replace mum with anybody you care about) goes under maladaptive daydreaming and is an extreme form of anxiety/OCD. It feels so silly afterward but intrusive thoughts can be so jarring and feel so real. You are not alone.
“It’s a parental death thing” hahahaha Omg this was actually so REASSURING bc I never answer my mom right away or I always answer her right away, there’s no like decent 5 minute grace period that any normal decent son would take to reply back. But the ONE TIME she like doesn’t reply back I IMMEDIATELY think “oh my god she’s dead” “oh my god what am I gonna do” is that anxiety? Probably… but like tell me why I literally go through the 5 stages of grief when she doesn’t immediately reply BUT THEN I DO THE SAME THING ALL THE TIME 😔😔😔
@@SpecialBlanket I think I see what you’re getting at but the two aren’t necessarily mutually exclusive. Like everyone experiences anxiety, a generalized or non generalized anxiety “disorder” is when anxiety is in such excess it becomes pathological. Just because something is a symptom of anxiety doesn’t mean it could not be very widely experienced
drew i know this video is from a long time ago but i have found u after like 7 years and have watched almost every video on this channel in the last 48 hours… anyways i too am a bisexual cancer with at times crippling ocd and i cannot express how grateful i am to have found u again & how validated you make me, and i’m sure so many others feel. especially the part in this vid where u talk about dipping a toe into grief when your mom doesn’t immediately answer her phone. i do that at least twice a week & am glad i’m not alone 🫶🏻
I'm currently in quarantine after being exposed to covid (and losing my mind) on my college campus and Drew's humor is really helping me get through the DEEP lonely feeling that I'm experiencing
sometimes when i would wait for the bus, i'd get it in my head that gravity was going to stop working, and that i'd start floating out into space. but would i even just float? or would i be flung? due to the spinning of the earth? that dumb thought could really send me.
I've definitely done the parent "death spiral" many times before. Oh Drew... there's so many things I can say I relate to you on, but I'd be commenting forever. I've already re-typed this comment 4 times now and have come to the conclusion I'll never be satisfied, so I'll just say this- I appreciate you so much.
Drew, when you talked about your mom not responding and you basically taking the next steps into what you have to do if something happened I felt it in a literally spiritual level. There's no way to explain how many times I've been there, with almost planning my journey back home to go through her stuff, or even calling people who might have seen her last. I even started planning for how long I would have to get out of work. Granted, my mum is not young and also has cancer, but I did the same things even years before.
I've never seen a RU-vidr so relatable. especially the 6-8pm panic attack every night. I start thinking the room around me is glitching or thinking something next to me wasn't there a second ago and getting scared lol. And just not feeling real. You make me feel not so alone lol
Drew I’m busy and I have to watch later but on the off chance that you see this comment I want to tell you that I get so excited when I see that you’ve posted. I’m looking forward to this and the patreon vid so much
I’m not sure if this is true, but I heard that thing where you convince yourself that a parent has died is some sort of coping mechanism for abandonment issues, often in people who have already lost one parent or have an absent parent. Like your brain preemptively prepares itself so you don’t have to experience that trauma again. No clue if it’s true but it’s interesting to think of the things your brain does when you’re anxious
Drew i'm just letting you know that you're my go to listening therapy while i read a book These long talking videos are just perfect and very relatable to an overthinking king who's got an overactive brain like myself i love it honestly You're not shy to just talk and bullshit about things going on in your head which is rare on youtube these days I hope you have a good day babe
@@livingirl92 you do both things 50% i was reading i switched over to a magazine after a few minutes, my incoherent brain couldn't handle to read something serious and listening to drew at the same time 😂😂
The panic attack thing as a kid is relatable- I used to bring myself into this weird dissociated state sometimes where I would start thinking like “this is the only life I will ever live and I’ll never experience anyone else’s life and I’m not a character in a movie, I’m me and I’m living my life” and I would get SO freaked out and become weirdly dissociated-
its the weirdest thing ever to think im definitely getting older which means so are my parents and they will not live forever i dont like it. im always like what if they die before my wedding even tho i literally dont want to get married so they definitely will
I get anxiety in the evenings too. It makes me anxious that another day is coming to an end and I start getting tired and six is too early to go to bed but I’m too tired and anxious to do anything so I just kinda sit there in a crisis every day
Your parental death fear (I have to say knock on wood because otherwise..you know) is so valid. I’ve been in a terrible pattern of having to keep myself up all night otherwise something will happen to my mom. I’m not past this yet unfortunately, it’s currently 4am. But when my parents and sister went to a wedding in a different state and I stayed to take care of our puppy, my brain literally had to plan funerals and what they would wear and then I got mad at what my distant family might say that would be insensitive and I would get so mad. I don’t know. You get it. Ocd fucking sucks, man.
I really wanted to type something thought provoking here, but my brain just sputtered out like an underfed engine. Just know I appreciate you and I'm so happy I found your second channel. It has been a huge benefit to my mental health, because I identify deeply with every point you've made so far. You are a deeply joyous part of my life, and I'm so proud of you.
Not necessarily negative but I so relate to wanting to share an experience when watching a movie or something. I frequently do the "search actor's name/title of movie along with a specific adjective on twitter" thing to make sure there are other people out there that feel the same way I do
drew these long videos are literally so perfect. they’ve become the things i watch when i’m at the gym because they’re so consistently entertaining the whole time that i’m focused on you instead of watching the clock and being frustrated that more time hasn’t passed than it feels like because exercising sucks. you are amazing and keep my attention 100%
DREW!!!!! i do the same shit with my mom like already going through the grief process when my mom is alive but just isn’t answering me. it comes from my anxiety and irrational/paranoid thoughts. it also probably stems from being abandoned by my (abusive) dad so i am extra scared and protective over my mom. like if she’s late coming home from work i panic and think she’s been in a car accident, bleeding out and i can’t help her. ive gotten better at recognizing that my thoughts are in fact irrational and that nothing bad has happened to my mom so far so i should try to relax. my therapist tells me whenever i’m having paranoid thoughts i just need to make a list as to why these thoughts are irrational and sort of argue against my brain as to why these thoughts and fears are wrong.
this has nothing to do with the video but one time you said in a video “when I have over $400 in my bank account I stop looking at price tags” and I think about it all the time because of how emotionally validated I felt. You’re doing humanitarian work Drew
I've realized recently something that should have been so obvious, but when I spend my 'relaxation' time watching callouts or drama videos about people who did bad things (ex creepshowart) its not actually relaxing?? And I could just listen to music instead of spending hours researching problematic people, I don't have to do that! Changed my life! (not really I'll still do it)
It's such a short term therapeutic activity that just long term makes you a more judgemental and hateful person... but I do it too :') Sometimes I feel like it makes me judge people in my real life less though because of "getting it out of my system" with strangers online. Who knows if that's actually true.
THE ANXIETY AT 6-8 everday that is literally me at this point I just get annoyed that its happening i will literally acknowledge it with song at this point "i'm just waiting for this to be done so i can enjoy my soup please be done goodbye" was literally a song I sung yesterday waiting for me to feel normal and not like I was going to projectile vom at any moment
I LOST it when you said “pack of buddies.” Drew, you really are SO entertaining, and I absolutely love ALL of your tangents. I think that’s the main reason I actually finish all of your videos! I literally never know what you’re going to say or do next but I know I’m gonna enjoy it. Thanks for being you and sharing yourself with us! Your videos make my day!
"what if the universe never existed" hahah i used to stand in the yard and look past the stars and say to myself "it goes on forever, and ever, and ever, and ever" after enough "and evers" i would hit a weird nerve in my head and run back inside. glad i'm not as alone as i thought i was
@@drewmonson2 your comment means the world to me. I’ve been crying all night… going through way too much atm. Awww I’m laughing and have tears streaming down my face. Drew, thank you 🥺😭
i have never related to more or felt better towards my anxiety than knowing someone else gets the 6-8 pm scaries/ panic attacks, literally to a T the same thing happens to me. Especially being scared or paranoid of my surroundings and feel like I am about to lose touch with reality.
The point you made where you were like, “I feel myself smiling and resent myself for enjoying it” I feel like sums it up very nicely. Like the cognitive dissonance you get when you watch David dobrick or the JRE and you’re like kinda enjoying it but you know you’re not supposed to. It’s almost like “hi brain, things aren’t just black and white ❤️ I can enjoy parts of something and criticize the other parts”
I love how you take the time to explain what you’re talking about for your grandma 😍 I had Covid I’m November and I still haven’t got my sense of smell or taste back, I can only taste the difference between sweet and salt but it has no actual taste. It just feels like textures in your mouth because you concentrate on that and not what you can taste like you normally would. It’s horrible and I don’t know if i’m ever going to be able to taste properly again! 😳
the fear of your mom randomly being dead is so relatable omg, that was one of my first obsessive anxieties as a kid, any time she was late or was away for a night i would stay awake at night freaking out. now as an adult when i’m trying to sleep i always get intrusive thoughts about everyone in my family dying or getting in a car crash or something, probably bc i try to distract myself from my anxiety all day and then at night i can’t do that lol
I laughed more to this vid than usual because of how much I related to the parent death, dissociation, fear, loneliness etc segment… it all sounds so hilariously ridiculous but I know it as such real and intense experiences. Funny shit. I’m experiencing awful anxiety the past couple of days because I found out my ex is seeing someone new and I was not prepared for how such a thing would make me feel - apparently incredibly awfully painfully devastatingly anxious, at least I think that’s what it is. But I am getting through it. It will pass. There are things to look forward to. Like going to watch the Q&A on patreon now :)
hey Drew; ive written a few comments before but i think i always end up deleting them bc i know you read the comments and i get nervous lol. but i just want to tell you that Ive been having a really hard time (like everyone else lol) and your videos literally always make me feel better. Im so glad youve been making these videos so often bc ive been subscribed to you since i was in middle school and i missed when you werent uploading (although i always supported you and whatever you need to do for your mental health). anyway you started posting again when I needed it. thanks for being so vulnerable and authentic bc it really feels like im hanging out with a friend and you always make me laugh.
Seriously about to go back and watch all his old videos to find my comments cause I never thought I’d dream about having Drew notice so much of my existence until like recently and this video
i rly feel like I’ve never related to a video more than this one, especially when u were talking about how u thought ur mom died, things like that happen n go thru my head all the time, I feel less alone now 😭
I've been hate-watching videos of "Karens" lately. It gives me a weird kind of satisfaction to watch someone act completely rude and entitled and read the comments of others feel my same outrage. It doesn't feel healthy tbh, but yeah that's where I am
omg ME TOO I found the r/PublicFreakout subreddit the other day and spent hours watching videos of Karens on there. I think it relates to Drew's point about wanting to see raw human interactions, there's something so fascinating to me to have captured how these assholes act in every day life, especially when they don't realize there's a camera on them. And then seeing them freak out even more if they do notice the camera. I agree it doesn't feel healthy or productive, but still provides some weird kind of satisfaction to like shame the Karens in the comments together. Almost like those scenes in movies when everyone joins forces and turns on the bully.
I honestly feel like people can bond over our shared hatred of Karens. it's weird but strangely comforting. It also makes you feel not so alone 😂 sad I know.
i love doing my mundane daily tasks and listening to drew’s mind dumps, the whole rant about not being able to socialise and actively trying to be normal in front of like cashiers and stuff- 😭 so relatable because i don’t know why i can’t just converse
I am sitting on my bed crying because my husband said he wants a divorce and I turn this video on and you start talking about divorce 😭😭 at least I’m laughing now I guess this is a sign.
The ways in which i relate to some of these topics so much is craaazy, When my mom doesn’t get home at the time she says and isn’t answering texts, i go on full grief mode and start picturing the funeral and everything😭 When i hear her pull into the driveway i have such a sense of relief 🤣 i full on feel all the emotion, i almost like try to relate it to the shows i’ve watched and it’s like i’m in a drama. LMAOO i’m high rn but wow you put into words my thoughts
Hey King, i need to get something off my chest. Have you ever heard the saying about how if you spend enough time with someone or you get close enough to them you eventually start to look more like them? I think the amount of your content I’ve consumed from 13 years old to present has resulted in me being convinced that I look like you. A girl can dream, you know? I didn’t watch the video yet but I needed to say something and I hope you’re doing well twin
Someone told me once that mirroring someone's laugh/facial expressions/etc can result in the tiny muscles in your face developing in a similar way to theirs and that's why long term couples start looking similar. If that's true then I for sure also look a little bit like Drew now lmao
I have been thinking that either im crazy or everyone is as messy but dosent show it and we all live in a lie. Probably both but Drew shows that there is other people with messy and bouncy minds. I dont have a ”brittsh boy” type of thing and im not as scared or bibolar disorder but i have my own mental thing that make me dysfunctional and ”weird”. Its healthy to see that there are other people with messy mind and life and struggles but its human. I wish that in movies and series there would be characters like this that are not antagonist or a example of a failure
