stayed up all night, couldnt cry, i was so tired, mentally and physically.. but this, this finally made me have a mental breakdown, but not in a bad way. I feel so much better now, but i feel more alone than i ever have. Honestly hate myself. Every night is like this but i usually cant cry at all, i suffer from BPD & MDD, and i can never get a good nights rest.. my thoughts are so loud, they refuse to shut up.. i just, i want it to stop. i want to stop hurting, and now, i can only see one way to get it to stop for good... and its scaring me.. i dont want to die, but i dont want to live.
hearing this song while looking at my old elementary school on street view just overwhelms me with nostalgia and childhood memories. i made so many friends there. i'm still in contact with only one of those friends, but because of strict parents and covid, i'm not allowed to see him. my life just fell apart after elementary school and i wish i could go back and live in that time for the rest of my life.
Wataru's departure from the 2kki dev team was something that, honestly, I wasn't expecting. I heard the news very suddenly, not from any announcement or forum page or anything of the sort-- but from a description from a streamer's video. The news was quite hard to take initially-- anyone that's read my comments could correctly guess that Wataru was my favorite contributor amongst all of them. Sure, his worlds didn't have the technical prowess and progressiveness that qxy's worlds do, and they don't have the visceral and raw feel of 2i9's worlds, but they were still very special to me. Not only because their OSTs (which, if I recall, is not made by Wataru, but Koronba) were what got me into commenting in the first place, but because Wataru's worlds just gave off that special, surreal feeling of loneliness that most other worlds just don't seem to grasp. Even Rio, an author whose worlds are incredibly similar to Wataru's (and are equally as great, mind you, every contributor has done and continues to do an amazing job with world designs) fails to catch that desolate and isolating feeling that Wataru's unforgettable worlds hold. They were incredibly special, and I will never forget exploring those worlds for the first time. I doubt Wataru's worlds will be forgotten. They were a big part of Yume 2kki for so many players and fans, and their removal certainly left a hole that will take time to heal. But ultimately, we have to accept these changes, get up and move on. This game, despite the hiccups along the way, will only continue to get better, greater and more expansive as time goes on, and even long gone creators like Wataru will still continue to inspire players such as myself. Farewell, Wataru.
This track always brings me to tears, it reminds me of all the fun times I had as a kid with my parents before I had to face the harsh reality of “adulthood”. Now those memories of being a kid are stored away in the back of my mind, collecting dust and slowly rotting away as I grow older.
this reminds me of those summers i spent laying with my dog sadie. she was this playful pittie. 3 weeks ago she had to get put down, my mom was having us prepare for that moment because we didn’t know when it was going to happen. i don’t live with my mom though, i only see her every other weekend. she died on a thursday, while i was at my dads and i couldn’t go over and tell her it’d be okay. its weird and surreal. when i eat dinner there i’m just waiting for her to prance up to me begging. or hearing her little snorts she always did. she was the dog to walk into any room with her tail already wagging. she really was something. house isn’t the same without her.
My own child self would weep uncontrollably if they saw me 😢 That little boy would endure far too much in his life And, nobody would be there to help him
@@toxic8705apparently I don’t know if it’s true but I heard time Nikki was inspired by LSD Dream emulator, it’s basically time Nikki but in first person 3D and your always in a dream, unlike yume Nikki where you can at least wake up
Now this music is for remember the amazing world maker wataru,he delate all his words and leave the project, fortunately we have the new talented maker named Qxy , but if wataru return, we are really glad to re-seeing his splendid creations. In this, or another game.
A far away dream No one can hear my scream The empty noise fills my head A lonely heart filled with dread I spent hours waiting But I knew no one was coming As my world begins fading This world I know is breaking As my body is awaken I lay once again in my room All alone With the world waiting outside my room But I won’t go anywhere Because no one wants me there No, I don’t want to be there So I dream a far dream And let my mind take me anywhere Anywhere but here (This story is yume Nikki and 2ikki inspired Thanks for uploading one of my favorite Songs)
There’s nothing more beautiful than the human mind, it’s beyond survival, it’s a journey of emotions and memories that will be remembered and live on with others.....
At first I thought this soundtrack represented "loneliness" perfectly... but after listening to it for a while, it made me think of something a bit different. It makes me think of some sort of sad realization. Well, not a depressingly sad one. More like... a melancholic feeling. It's as if someone understood your feelings, "finally". I think it represents a cathartic feeling. Of finally having someone that understands these simple, yet crushingly painful feelings that you bottled up for so so much time. "It's all so pathetic. And absurd. But I can't help but be this weak. It's not my fault. It really isn't. I think... no, nevermind. I might be better off not thinking about things too deeply, otherwise I might encounter something that I won't like. I'm weak, it's inevitable. It's not my fault, but... well, no. It's okay, it doesn't matter. ...But thank you. Regardless of the absurdity of life. Both my suffering and your compassion are just stupid human things. Things that don't matter to the universe. But they matter to me. And I hope they matter to more. ...well, nevermind that. Thanks for understanding me. Thank you." something like that I guess.
When it’s 4 am and you’re watching the rain out the window and you remember your best friend from elementary school who moved away, and you wonder how they’re doing or if they remember you…
Man I feel that so much. I often do think about this person and hope they remember me and all the good times we shared growing up. Most importantly I hope they're doing alright in life wherever it took them.
... Sigh... I don't know what I'm supposed to do about anything anymore, starting with how to talk on the internet though... It's weird, it's never been this bad before, but apparently on places like Facebook and Twitter, I've been having a lot of my stuff marked as spam for some reason. ._. As if I just simply talk too much, or... some of my stuff is more risque than normal... and admittedly, some things on the net might really piss me off, even just from manga site comments... ... There's plenty of times I'm wondering whether or not I should die just from loneliness and boredom to begin with though, and living in a world with a lot of shallowness, prejudice, and overall hatred... ... I don't know if I can bring myself to fake my identity to become someone that people want to see... I mean, I'm worried about being banned everywhere no matter what I do, or how much I posted and how many years I've used something... Hell, it hurts so much, I feel tempted to just act like a freaking robot and speak in morse code... ... I kind of wish the world would just disappear...
Here's some sad quotes for you depressing people: ×♦---------------------♦× that's the problem with being the strong one, *no one offers you a hand.* *-M.H.* you write so beautifully. the inside of your mind must be a *terrible place.* *-Unknown* when you are not fed love on a sliver spoon, *you learn to lick it off knives* *-Lauren Eden* I have noticed that if you look carefully at people's eyes, the first five seconds they look at you, *the truth of there feelings will shine through, for just an instant before it flickers away.* *-Sue Monk Kidd* people do not seem to realize that their opinion of the world is also *a confession of character.* *-Ralph Waldo Emerson* *'no'* is a necessary magic. *'no'* draws a circle around you with chalk and says, *'I have given enough.'* *-McKayla Robbin* if you ever feel overwhelmed by who you once were, remember, *your bones have grown, but what makes them has never changed.* *-Nikita gill*
so there were about *69* quotes i was going to share but that would be long so instead i put a link to wattpad that has all the quotes. *(haha 69 funny number)* www.wattpad.com/story/240578262-the-most-beautiful-words The Wattpad link information: Name: *the most beautiful words* About: *to put it short, sad quotes* Pages: *69* The story's about page: *the most beautiful words combined. I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THESE QUOTES. This book is filled with quotes/short poems I have encountered that are simply beautiful. I would like to share them*
it's so cold, like im going to shatter any minute now. but i just have to keep going until i find a campfire, keep going until i find one of those statues. it'll end soon; i hope it does.
I heard this song in a liminal space compilation video some years back, and have been looking for it since then. This song evokes a deep sense of longing in me, and I’m glad to have found it again!
The uploader of the video is a channel called dreamlock, with 21 subscribers. Their icon is a white lock on a black background. The video is called “Liminal Spaces You've Seen Before [2]”
It's like returning to where you grew up remembering the people who lived close to you and all the fun times you had together Only to find that they've all died and their homes are dark, empty and silent with only the ghosts of memories haunting the dimly lit rooms
i know im 3 years to late and its likely been said in the comments but i felt the piano was really familiar and i recalled the kingdom hearts 2 title theme. rather close imo ;) i believe the track is Dearly beloved by Yoko Shimomura
1.break up depressed 2.depressed 3.loney 4.abonden 5.fake friends 6.used 7.lost someone 8.no one cares for you 9.everyone hates you 10.feels galactic 11.falling
I love this place. but sadly, I heard we can't reach there now. "abandoned apartments" and "melodic picture-book library" are my favorite songs in yume2kki.
And if you have time… Could you upload "the Eyeball Archives" theme? It's called "the Melodious PictureBooks Library" in Japan. I think it's one of the best songs in yume2kki.
for me, it sounds like this ost is trying to sound hopeful but fails miserably, like visiting an abandoned place that was once full of good and happy memories, but now is completely worthless.
I like to come back here when things are tough, no matter how devastating. It could be the loss of a family member, or simply a bad grade. It’s nice. Update: Things have indeed been tough recently. Lost a grandparent on both sides of the family. College is wrecking me. Money troubles. Health issues for my cat. It’s hard. But I’ll make it through it! I always have so far. Everyone else in my family is working hard to help me through this, so I just need to work just as hard to get through this. I’m not alone. I’m sad, but I’m happy.
im lucky to have found out about yume 2kki and played it after wataru’s maps were readded time for this one to be my next place to visit also found out ive actually heard this more than a year ago from a slender fortress map
No matter how hard I try nor what I try to do, sometimes I get really bored or "annoyed", let's say, because I don't know what to do and no matter how much I think, I can't come up with anything. It's in moments like this, that I would find a reason to come back here and proceed to think, to feel unnecessary, to silently cry while both I and my brother are in the same room and he's raging against his homies on Apex, Valorant, R6S and other games. In moments like this all I can think about is "Nobody would notice. They'd just trample over me without noticing I'm long gone." The only things stopping me are guilt. Cowardice. The voices and thoughts in my head telling me I'm so unworthy of being here that I deserve to live the worst life ever. A life with a massive void. Wwithout any wish. Without any purpose. Without the belief that maybe, there is something that is worth living for.
You're worthy. If you weren't worthy God wouldn't have made you, you wouldn't have existed in the first place. For some reason, you exist. You might not know why and that's okay. Just know, even though your life may seem meaningless, it isn't. I'm not going to try to be some corny idiot going off about how everything will be fine. But even if you feel like there's no place to go and try to take your life, your ending will be for no reason. You'll think you try to take control of your life, and then... halfway from the jump, halfway into the high, halfway into the bleeding. That's it. You can't go back, even if you want to. The "control" you thought you were taking was never there in the first place. You let the forces of nature take you out. You let the circumstances of life kill you. You think you're escaping, but you're just taking the final pause. I know it doesn't mean much coming from me, but try talking to God. He will always be there for you. Go to therapy. Go read. Go outside, live life. Act like you're someone with something that you have to live for. And you'll find it. Good luck my man. Stay safe. I love you.
Starting at Red Streetlight World, go east until you find a lamppost with 4 lamps, interact with it and you will be in the Gray Road, from there find a hole leading downstairs leading to Grass World, find a building and enter it, then exit and you will be in a different path, in the path you'll find two structures which Transport you to Green Neon World when walking between them. Go north east after entering and interact with a teal cube which transports you to Construction Frame Building, go inside an elevator and go to the top floor, after exiting the elevator go left and you'll find a door with a spinning nail inside. Interact to be transported to Cog Maze, the Cog Maze is a fairly easy maze and you'll find a broken nail which transports you to Forest Pier, from Forest Pier go north west and ride a boat, ride the water until you get to a abandoned structure which transports you to Abandoned Factory. Inside abandoned factory, make your way to 3 tunnels, each one having a sign with a number on it. Enter the number 1 tunnel and go to the end, where there is a door that's leads you to Arc De Pillar World. North East from entrance you will find a black door leading to the Mansion. In the mansion make your way to the top and enter a door leading somewhere upstairs. If you find an npc, it most probably teleports you to Deserted Pier when interacted with. After doing it, go north west until you find a small house, which takes you to the Deserted Town, from the deserted town you will have to go through a long path which is too complex to explain, so i recommend either finding the map in the wiki site, or finding it by yourself. Once you find a door leading to the Abandoned Apartments, you will have to go a one way path until you reach to this section.
Nobody will probably see this comment in a 100 years but if you are reading this i am about to end my life so thank you for reading this and i am 13 years old i am tired of my life rest in peace. Bye ☹️
