I had this long-distance relationship 2 years ago and it was one of my happiest and also the most depressing time of my life. He was there for me the whole time and the only way we could connect was a simple call every single night before bed. I would tell him about my day, all the little things that made me happy or sad. It was usually sad. I would cry every night without knowing why and he would just be there on the phone, listening.
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I wanted to write a song about that. To be that one call for someone.
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Because I know how those late-night calls made me feel accompanied and safe like it isn't so bad to be this way.
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Loving someone that doesn't love themselves is hard. Loving that someone from afar is even harder. So thank you.
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I think I relate this song to my mum the most. She's in Thailand right and I haven't seen her for about 8 months. I feel like I never express how much I miss her when we're on the phone because IDK, I just couldn't say it out loud but I do miss her a lot. I guess this song also resembles a little part of her reaching out to me and a part of me saying I fine mum don’t worry.
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thank you daniel this amazing arrangement
thank you lester for writing this beautiful song with me
thank you enoch for making this feels complete
here are the lyrics:')
Spacing out,
I hold myself tight
How should I send my warmth to you,
Through the night
I know you've tried,
Oh so tired, I know
Not everything's in control in life
So take your time
Just breathe (it won't cost you much)
Breathe (and youʼll be ready to)
Figure out someday,
Even if you don't itʼs okay
Just breathe (donʼt hold it in)
Breathe (don't worry we still can)
Figure out someday,
Even if we don't itʼs okay
It'll never be enough
Wonʼt ever love yourself
But thereʼs always one beside you
Although he may be far
So far, so far, so far
Just breathe (it won't cost you much)
Breathe (and youʼll be ready to)
Figure out someday,
Even if you don't its okay
Just breathe (and let it out)
Breathe (don't worry we still can)
Figure out someday,
Even if you don't itʼs okay
beautiful outro outta spacccee
2 ноя 2020
