The worst part is that when I put myself first, I get told that I'm "selfish" by the same people that I know don't care about me and that aren't my friends.
Im fucking done, i always help as many people and friends as i possible can. I get nothing in return, everyone only thinks about them selfs and i was there for all of them when they needed it. I cant call them friends anymore… i guess i never had friends. It sucks that i do my best and my mental health keeps getting worse and i have no one to talk to. Ive been a bad person in the past and maybe thats why i dont deserve a good life, it doesnt matter how much good i do now. Im not getting better.
I am like thet but not completely i am not eating health food or food i don't like and my mum thinks i don't eat but when ther is junk food i am like i don't know i just eat evrithing i have been made funn of almost my wholl life yers but not because of being fat no i am not fat i am not gaining weight belivet or not i was made fun of for my height for being tall and it can be saem as being bulled for being fat one of my classmates He even called me a pole stick you know thet thing you clean the floor and abut eating i was eating and i chude eat wholl cake my close friends know how i eat so much but they don't know thet this is not only because i love sweeties i was maed fun of nather things too and food was my only friend and now too i am just not gaining weight but i am just like her and i am going in different school this yer and i hope it will be better ther and sometimes i was coling my self thet too because i thought sometimes ye its just a jok but when i sayed ye like ye funny they laughed well something like thet my friend was bulled too she was colld pig even thoe she wasn't even fat and i cried sometimes too and i was gaining little bit weight but after long time and i started to think thet i was being fat and ugly i stil think thet way but my friends tell me i whish i hade your body and it helps me little but my friends have ther one securitys and wear made fun of this dayes i appreciate my self more and i hope you all will appreciate yourself too god loves you gayes and whudent make you if you wear not mant to be on this earth but i still fell thet i shude be perfect not only abut my body but abut everything i hope it will get better
eating because you're sad or anything about emotions is called emotional eating. It's not bed or food addiciction, but it can turn into it too if u get addicted.
My best friend buddy live away from me he has different life too 😢 i wish we were close we barely see each other and off corse he has other best friends . But me I have friends but they stoped telling me they are going out so I barely interact with them its just so lonely bruh😢
It sucks when you are forgotten.. when all your life you’ve put everyone first.. and when you need it everyone’s gone.. your world crumbles, never put first never remembered
The feels are real. I'm just there to people and for people, I'm not the one they go to and just say hi and chat. When people are down, I try my best even when I'm sad, and I'm down in the dumps, but when I'm down, I always end up alone. It sucks sometimes, when you have that awful feeling that you want to go to someone and pour out the feelings but there ain't no one to call or talk to.
Do you ever just feel so exhausted of having to work so hard to just be okay… the separation between myself and others just feels so impossible to cross sometimes
I always feel like the second choice to my friends when it comes to hanging out. It feels like they would rather be hanging with anyone else but me and it hurts knowing I probably won't be anyones first choice.
If anyone sees this can relate, tell me: I feel like there's no one actually in my life. I'm no one's best friend, oldest friend, fuck having a relationship people don't even want to be friends with me, and it's definitely not for lack of trying I've tried. So. Hard. In the past. But I'm done trying. I guess they call this acceptance. Alone, forever, meeting people in passing, never letting anyone truely in... Thinking back not much will have changed, just removing the stressful "trying to change it" part. I suppose we all have our roles, mines gonna be "loner in a shitty studio drinking smoking sleeping or working all day, but always alone"
People feed of from others. They love and cherish certain ones because those help them feel validated. We all have our jnsecurities but we should never become needy. I'd prefer to be appreciated and respected. It's a stronger position I think. I don't think I've ever been anyone's favorite person. I felt sad about it for awhile. But when I was told it was because of my strength and because of me being my own person, I wasn't bothered by it anymore. True friendships are based on much more than making others feel or think that they are our favorite person. That I am sure of.
People been through had eating disorders skipping breakfast lunch dinner you stop eating that not normal damage your body and starve to death people pick you bullying you make fun you don't listen to them not listen haters out there mess their lives Tell them is my body positivity not change it's your fat and skinny girls and women have shapes and sizes both equal beautiful
it’s hurts knowing the people I consider friends only hang out with me because they know I have the answers to their homework. It’s all they ever use me for.
My own self gives me violence. My lovers give me silence. My mother gives me lies and I feel worse cause the lies I'm buyin. My so called friends give me invisibility. Some people give me vulnerability. I hate being left alone but now it's just become my ability. 😞🥺
I was always 3rd choice. I will not say I don't have friends, but my friends have their best friends 🙂 In fun to see their behaviour change for me every now and then. I guess I am meant to be this way 😄
I have 2 bestfriends but One is changed that she doesn't talk or reply much..another one is available but we dont talk much ...SAD PART IS I AM NOT EVEN TRYING TO FIX IT RATHER THAN WAITING FOR TIME TO FIX EVERYTHING ITS ABOUT MY GURL BESTIES AND MY TWO GUYS FRIENDS WE ALSO DOESN'T TALK MUCH ..BUT AFTER SO LONG WE MET TODAY IN SCHOOL BUT THEY DIDN'T EVEN LOOKED AT ME AND DIDNT EVEN TALK SO DIDN'T I.. ANOTHER GUY FRIEND WHO USED TO BE MY BESTFRIEND FOR A LONG TIME WE PERMANENTLY STOPPED TALKING WITH EACH OTHER BUT TODAY WHEN I SAW HIM I EXPECTED SOMETHING TO HAPPEN, IDK WHAT ,BUT NOTHING HAPPENED AND HE DIDN'T EVWN LOOKED AT ME ..I MISS HIM..HE USED TO ADORE AND LOVE ME SM..I FEEL THE OLD US..I MISS EVERYONE BUT I WON'T EXPRESS IT ..GONNA KEEP ALL TO MYSELF..NO OME GIVES A DAMN ABOUT ME.. I USED TO BE THE MOST POPULAR GURL WHO IS SURROUNDED BY SOLID GROUP OF FRIENDS BUT NOW THERE IS NONE..BECAUSE OF PANDEMIC EVERYTHING HAVE CHANGED SO MUCH..IT REALLY TELLS US AND TEACH US LOT OF THINGS ..NOTHING TAKES FOREVER..NOT EVEN FRIENDSHIPS 😖🥺💔
I realized something…I wanted to talk to someone,like really wanted to talk about the real things and abt me and I looked at my phone and couldn’t bring myself to text anyone bc Ik that they wouldn’t understand. I asked my “bestie” who her fav people are and I wasn’t even in the top 5
I had a best friend who always put me first and made me so happy she made me feel like I was good enough but now she just talks to me when she doesn’t have anyone like I’m her backup person to talk about her feelings with we haven’t talked in like two weeks and she texts me today to talk about her boy problems now that we finished talking about it she doesn’t respond to me anymore. I’m either everyone’s second choice or nobody’s choice at all.
