Your summer "flu" was probably Covid, which is well known for mood altering after effects. Anyone relying on their brain to make a living should protect it from this virus by masking indoors.
you make berlin look like such a lovely place, I have been there during winter, so my memories of it may not be a great representation, but your videos make me want to go back during summer. best x
You should! ☺️ The city definitely comes alive once spring starts, and the vibe is completely different. When I first came here to visit it was also winter and I remember that I really hated it. But a few years later I came back during spring and the experience was the complete opposite. That’s when I decided I wanted to move here. There’s so many trees, wisteria and parks around the neighbourhoods (specially residential areas), that it’s hard to believe how grey and heavily industrial everything looked during the winter months. Hope you can come back soon! xx
This postcard of the Venice cat is just adorable. 😅 It's a shame about the bad weather in Berlin, let's hope it gets better for the rest of the summer. Fantastic video by the way!
well it looks like the summer will only last for a week..... I am seriously so sick of this city. This is my second summer in Berlin and people always told me that Berlin in summer is just amazing.......well I haven't seen anything amazing yet. It is all grey, rainy and cold. So I started to question whether people are lying to me or, the winter here is so dark, long and horrible compared to winter yes summer might feel amazing.
I know, right?? I was just having this exact conversation with my husband the other day because this is also our second summer here, and I just don't understand how so many people claim that summer in Berlin is genuinely amazing... I just don't see how... 🥲 But also yes, considering how terrible winter is here, any sun day feels like a treasure.
I really love your videos, the music you use is so good and the way you shoot is so good and I just love your whole vibe. I'm so happy I found your channel 💕😀
I am 26 (turn 27 soon) and its been2 months that i came to Germany for studying. I terribly feel lost and my social anxiety has become worse. I rarely come out of my room and really feel lost. Watching your video made my heart warm.
I'm 34. I still live at home, have no education, never had a job, never had friends, have alway been bullied, have been rejected by every girl I asked out. I have been lost all my life
Just found your video in my feed. I too turned 30 this year and I'm still chasing my fig tree, like you I applied for an internship but at a company related to art. I've applied to tens of dozens of studios and I finally received one that was interested in bringing me on, however, also like you they wouldn't be paying me, couldn't guarantee a position after the internship and due to the way production times worked they couldn't give me a definitive date meaning that I couldn't co-ordinate something apprioately with my current employer for time off. On top of all this it was also in a different city which I would have to temporarily move to and pay for rent and food all out of my own pocket. Long story short I didn't end up getting offered the internship in the end. Like you I feel lost and this experience didn't help but I choose not to give up hope though the older I get the more I feel like I'll never achieve my goals however varied they are. I hope you figure something out and that your future is rich and fulfilling too, we're all in it together no matter your age but maybe as you get older it gets easier to sit in that discomfort.
This comment section is literally gonna make me cry. Like girls, thank you for being that supportive and open! While I was reading I felt like this is a safe place and I realized that wherever we are in the world we are going through similar issues in our lives.
I'm 29 too (will turn 30 September 11), my life is a big ft mess and i'm so ashemed of describing it. But the good points are: 1 Will soon start a careern in mechanical engineering, always loved the field, always fascinated me, life has smashed me very hard in the head, literally but i'm still there. 2 "the smash in the head" is a CPTSD from a very abusing household, isolation, bullying and finally all the problems i've dealth with (depression, anxiety, social anxiety). At least i've found out what it was holding me back in life. Shared it for knowing you are not alone, have good luck! P.s We are late millenials, we are the first of this generation (late millenials/gen z) to hit the 30's wall, you will see in te future how hard it will be. Society is changing very fast and we are struggling as whole generation, some more, some less. Just my 2cents, see y!
Are you kidding? Portugal is a civil country and they certainly have some apparel stores, So take a minimum with yourself, and buy extra clothes in Portugal as you need them. I do it all time.
I'm 43, and I stopped working a few months before I turned 40. I had just immigrated to France with my husband (who's French), and it was the middle of 2020, so not many jobs anyways for foreigners, and for English speakers that don't have a masters and limited French ability even less options, I was also severely burnt out from working for 5 years in Korea and for 16 years previously in my home country working very labor intensive jobs full time barely being able to survive. I started suffering from anxiety after the move, and the pandemic and France having 2 very strict lockdowns my first year here made it worse, and adding all the appointments and classes and tests that people under the visa I have that have to be done in the first year of living in France was extremely stressful. I never fully recovered from the anxiety, and my desire to work outside of the home became less and less. My husband thankfully has a job with a fairly decent salary and a type of contract, called a CDI, that it's almost impossible to be fired or layed off from, we are very lucky. I'm a homemaker now, not exactly what I've always wanted to do, but with less stress I feel much better, I handle most of the things in the day that we wouldn't be able to if we both were working (like post office and many of the errands to places that close in the evenings and on weekends) which is an advantage. I do get a little embarrassed when I meet new people here and they ask me what I do, because being a homemaker here in France is really looked down upon, even more so if you don't have kids, if you have kids they only slightly let it go, so I often find myself trying to justify it in ways they might understand, though I don't lie to them, I tell them about the bad burn out, and say I'm on an extended sabbatical, making them think I have every intention of going back into the workforce, even if I don't. The only thing that is not good about my decision is that it puts me in a slightly precarious situation economically, because there is no dual pension for married couples here, nor is there a pension for stay-at-home parents or homemakers that never brought in any outside income Also because I'm a US citizen, I'm really limited on what I'm legally allowed to do for passive income and investments, which doesn't help. Also the way the French inheritance works makes it almost impossible for the surviving spouse to receive all the assets after death, even if there are no children in the relationship, half the assets go to surviving family members on the dead spouse's side, I think there is paperwork that can be done to prevent it, but the base system treats death the same as divorce when it comes to assets, which I've always found super bizarre. My hope is that me and my husband never get divorced (though I can't foresee into the future so I can't absolutely say that we will never get divorced), that my he never becomes disabled and can't work (though his job isn't physical technically so he'd have to be a full on paraplegic with his mind not working to not be able to do his job), or that he never dies before me. My desire is that hopefully I will pass on before him, he's 8 years younger than me and in fairly good health, if he has no accident I think he will outlive me. I hate that money has made me think about those kinds of things, lol, but it has.
As a fellow 29 year old who feels lost and on a totally different life path from those around me, I found this video so relatable and comforting. I was within months of earning my bachelor's degree in a field that was making me miserable and I knew I had no interest in actually pursuing post university, so I pivoted and dropped out of the program, switching instead to a different one that starts in the fall. Even still, there's a ton of uncertainties and unknowns about how it will go, and meanwhile I see those my age around me making these major life accomplishments, and I'm nowhere near them in terms of my current life path. It's scary but I just remind myself that all in due time things will sort themselves out, and it's okay that my life doesn't seem the same as those I know, I am my own unique person with unique goals, interests, challenges, etc. We are all important human beings regardless on how similar or different our lives look from our peers, friends and family, and in many cases its so true that "comparison is the thief of joy" as they say. Take care! You'll get to where you need to be in time!
This was such a comforting video to watch! Thank you so much for being so transparent and sharing your thoughts... it's so reassuring for us watching as well. Often the best time to create something new, or revisit an old love and passion, is when we feel lost ☺ From a new subscriber 🥰
I rarely comment but I feel like I´d enjoy a conversation. I have been on the verge of quiting my "career" in academia after 4 years. I am heavily struggeling with mental health, the last couple of weeks I started having panic attacks. My master´s thesis is coming up, and baiscally everything connected to it makes me anxious and depressed. I didn´t get to learn what I wanted to learn during the degree, I hate the job as research assistand that I had before starting the degree and yet I am unable to just pull the trigger and quit. But I also already quit my career as an engineer after the Bacherlors thesis, because I didn´t enjoy the work at all. So now I have amounted two failed tries in two different fields, and I have no idea where to go from here. The other s*itshow in my life is personal. Never had a romantic relationship that motivated me to just pull through, recently my best friend told me he felt suic*dal, which threw me down a spiral too, I stil live in a shared flat at 29... Everything just sucks. It´s doesnt look or feel like it can turn better, because nothing ever was as I expected, and nothing ever worked out. So from lived experience I just want to give up.
Thank you so much for sharing. I know sometimes things are tough and it’s hard to deal with all at the same time without know when things will get better. But I’m sure they will ☺️ Sending you all the love 💛
I love the way you put your thoughts together 💕 You're making me wana paint again, watching you do the watercolours felt so peaceful 🕊 You're such a creative soul, and the path you're on, whilst it may feel daunting is incredibly brave and exciting. Unfortunately entry level positions, internships and a lot of apprenticeships are predominantly unpaid, that is the uncomfortable truth. In this economy employers are cutting back and cutting costs anywhere they can, if you're new to a certain industry they often consider the experience you'd get learning from them on the job to be an advantage rather than having to pay to take a yr long course or other alternative. I'm not saying it's right but it's what I've also been faced with for over a decade of trying to get into any creative role, swallowing my pride to do the free work only for it to go no where and be faced with the same again. Reshaping your idea of what success looks like is going to take a while, especially as we've been taught to value money as a measure of how valuable our time is. Other people's permission or financial support in doing things doesn't negate whether or not you're an artist / baker or if you're successful - unless that's how you continue to choose to measure success. Everyone's on a different journey, the best advice I can give is do something that makes you excited to try and experiment, don't worry about permanence or perceived failure, learn to play again - even if it's uncertain it's better than waiting for the 'right thing' to come to you. When your focus shifts away from the end goal and focus on what you can enjoy right now, you'll realise you have everything you need to create a life you love 💖
It is unfortunate that seems to be most industries standard practice… I personally had to start like that too, and it’s so exhausting and demoralising. No one should have to work for free, specially in these challenging times. Thank you for the kind words 💛
What I've been discovering in the last couple years is I can save all the figs I want and eat them when I'm ready. I feel like I've had multiple chapters to my story where I could try on different things; going to university, doing film photography jobs, being a teacher, living in a new city, discovering more about myself every day. I don't think you need to choose, you just make a first step in trying the first fig. The others won't perish, I promise. Loved that passage of the book though! I'm 34 by the way, and have multiple figs still waiting for me: vanlife, living in another country, starting my own small cultural campsite, be an illustrator. All will come in time.
I am in my 40s and still find this so relatable. When you said you have goals and dreams other than specifically career or children, I thought "Yes! Exactly!" It feels like society focuses in on those 2 things to determine if one is successful in life.. it's comforting to know I am not alone in having dreams, desires and lifestyle goals that don't fit perfectly into what is expected of us. Your videos are beautiful by the way! ✨️
I love this. I’m a creative person and I’m coming to realize I have multiple figs as well. Nothing wrong with it at all. They all play upon each other!
