I can't imagine what he went through and is still going through. If it was any other group he would've been kicked out. The kpop industry isn't known for its kindness. (Look how long it took Suga to admit he needed an operation). So he must have though his dreams were over. And although the members cared for him, him still didn't want to admit how bad it truly was. He must have been dealing with a lot of physical and emotional agony the last 17 years. Yet, they are so loyal to each other. I'm so glad he's with SuJu. Everytime I catch a glimpse of him on stage I feel happy and excited. I hope they can find a way to include him without increasing his burden. Like him playing drums. Elfs all love him and wish him the best and, if he wishes it, to spend another 18 years with us.
After LifeBar ep 44, the PD actually revealed SuJu personally went to him asking him to cut out all of the crying scenes as Heechul, Eunhyuk, Shindong also ended up crying. They believed that viewers only want to see them laughing and they've definitely ruined the broadcast by crying too much . This just broke my heart to million pieces . I know SuJu relied on variety since they debut to survive , and I can't bear the thought of the strict disciplined and expectation they were put through since young . What kind of monster tell young kids they can't cry or show weakness just bc they're ' entertainers '.
