Deon’s Dream Diary ON BEING 43 MONTHS CLEAN: Morning #13 (after losing my house and going on 335 hours just now without eating an actual meal unless it's a spaghetti tv dinner): I just want to point out that the *BOLDED* paragraphs are thoughts I recently added and hoping that the 4-7 min. read isn't going to be a bothersome by anyone. Kome *DECIDED TO START FROM PENCIL SCRATCH ON A NEW CHANNEL AFTER FEELING HEARTBOKEN ON LOSING MY APARTMENT.* *IF I EVER GET MY SWAMP BACK AND LIVE A HEARTY 'N' HEALTHY LIFESTYLE AGAIN AND NOT BEING CRAMPED IN A WHITE-CONCRETED BEDROOM THAT I HAD NO OPTION TO LIVE IN THANKS TO THOSE 3 CARIBBEAN GREMLINS THAT MADE MY MOTHER & I'S LIVES MISERABLE, I WANT A PERSON TO REMIND ME TO PLAYBACK THIS SOUNDTRACK OF HÄNDEL'S ANGELS!* Not much to type this morning after feeling both mentally & spiritually drained after seeing her devastated my mother felt after how my brother's girlfriend (Duana) stolen our house away from us by refusing to pay my mother $900 but hope to Buddha's belly the ones that read my comment this morning is having a healthy & hearty sunrise of the start of September! 2 weeks (14 suns) has passed since Aug. 19. that my older brother & mother had to give the key to the office of our apartment my brother & I lived in and still feel crushed to this day knowing I will 96% likely won’t return after that Caribbean Reptile mistreated us. Not only I have been losing sleep and going into heartbroken syndrome by her and her kids (Driana whom is 18 & Trevon whom is 26) treated me as their potato maid by cleaning up the dishes of leftover food crumbs in the sink and flies being born around the moldy sack of 13lbs. potatoes they left. They even left body wash soap all over the bathroom before they drove off without notice that I didn’t had the opportunity to cleanup due to being too poor for us to afford cleaning supplies and feel so darn awful of the maintenance men having to see their mess. I WILL GET JUSTICE EVENTUALLY DUANA! IT’S BECAUSE OF YOU YOU PUT PRESSURE IN MY MOTHER’S HEART FINANCIALLY AND WILL NEVER FORGIVE NOR FORGET WHAT YOU HAVE DONE BY DOING A PITIFUL CRIME! It will be 3 mornings from now on Sept. 7. 2017 7 years ago after my Siberian Husky (Elijah Garth) passed away from abdomen cancer of tumors that grew inside his testies and will have a meltdown during that morning and had to type out how I feel currently. *4 important reasons why I want my apartment (swamp) back.* *#1: My neighborhood is extremely safe to walk around to when it comes to grocery shopping.* *#2: I miss seeing the street view whenever I look outside of my front porch and viewing the cute crescent moon at night.* *#3: The Mexican maintanence men (especially Alberto) that I developed a crush on that were super friendly when fixing our house.* #*4: The stray cats that I started to befriend (somewhat) downstairs nearby the wooden small bridge that I fed small pieces of chicken.* *I'LL DO ANYTHING IT TAKES TO COMMENT NIGHTLY TO BE HEARD JUST TO SAVE UP $ TO EARN IT BACK EVEN THOUGH $10K IS AWFULLY A TON BUT WANT MY OLDER BROTHER & I TO BE SITUATED BACK TO OUR APARTMENT AGAIN FOR 5 MONTHS AT LEAST TO RE-RENT IT!* shorturl.at/cVumc - Fundraiser by Darren Xu: Save Deon's home: Donate now! (It's a close viewer of mine wanting to support me). For those that are curious about my GoFundMe Situation because I have nowhere else to go but to type out how I feel throughout music I normally listen to randomly when going for my grocery walks. Please don’t feel hesitant to visit my channel randomly. I feel cold, isolated,& clinically depressed during my financial situation and missing my house from those 3 Caribbean squatters that I am losing the appetite again to eat after not eating 4 nights in a row after I had to move in here at my mother’s house. I MISS YOU APARTMENT 260 AND DOING MY BEST TO BROWSE THROUGH MY ANIMES MUSIC PLAYLIST TO EARN YOU BACK ! ~ Deon James Mucker Garth Wed. Sept. 4th. 2024 @ 6:13am. Arizona Mountain Time
dear youtubers or anyone the youtube subreddit that’s willing to share my youtube comment. hello and beware of one of the longest comments i would normally be typing. deon’s depressed diary: night#6 (after losing my house and going 156 hours without eating an actual meal which would be a spaghetti-type of tv dinner): unless you count eating 7 strings of green beans, 3 chicken honey tenders that had to be 115 calories altogether, a burrito that took me 5 hours to eat here and there, & ketchup and trying to aim $10k in donations to have my other brother’s name on the lease after my mother got robbed away to pay $900 for our monthly rent that our eldest brother’s girlfriend refused paying as a last resort. WARNING: this is a copy ’n’ paste but typed differently for each music video just to get my voice out as a last resort. please remember that and pardon me for bothering anyone due to that caribbean ogre of a human being. thank my eldest brother’s girlfriend for this and please pardon me for diary spamming because i am desperate for support/donations and just want my voice to be heard and feeling i want to give up in life by starving myself but sluggishly want to eat bits of food due to the trauma i had to face which i typed out why while feeling too devastated to eat anything for 5 days. i will never forgive nor forget her for ruining my life on being her potato maid by cleaning up her mess that fat caribbean pig by seeing how messy her 18 and 26 year old kids did (driana & trevon) left in the kitchen sinks, having body wash soap all over the bathroom, and worst of all, leaving moldy food that she paid a ton of $ more in my fridge and not bothering to touch any of them and yet, giving me a temper tantrum for being so hungry on sneakily snacking on some of her butter & jam i feel deeply guilty for. not only i feel meaningless as a human being being desperate for $10k in donations to have 5 months rent in my older brother to be on the lease again before someone else snatches my swamp to own but been feeling so weak and losing a ton of sleep now that i have to live in my mother’s house. i miss going for my 3-mile walks to dollar tree. i miss watching the simpsons every evening. i miss my honeycomb lamp, wish stick, canadian-french pillow i designed out of marker, & recliner chair my older brother has to throw out just in case of bed bugs in our mother’s house. I MISS MY HOUSE! I AM DESPERATE LIKE A SONORAN CHIHUAHUA TO GET IT BACK AND RATHER STARVE TO DEATH KNOWING I WILL NEVER GET MY SWAMP BACK! my older brother and i done so much to keep our house that the relationship between is like Ed & Al. please don’t comment “get a job, it gets better, seek professional help, &/or stop complaining” when i refuse to read any comments because none cares about my pain and everyone thinks it’s a joke which is why i am spamming these type of comments throughout music videos as a last resort. YOU SNATCHED MY LIFE AWAY DUANA (MY OLDEST BROTHER’S GIRLFRIEND) AND YOU MADE ME GO 5 DAYS WITHOUT EATING ANYTHING DUE TO MY C-PTSD, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, & CLINICAL DEPRESSION! WHY?! Sigh… beside that, i want to share something out of context this morning: 🇵🇹💚🛡❤ *Lisbon, Portugal in Western Europe had a 5.4 magnitude earthquake which is the hardest earthquake that hit the city let alone the country in 5 decades from the google trends i got suggested by and a RU-vidr from California named Dave in Portugal mentioned a video about and that the earthquake happened in Hollow's Day about how the Virgin Mary's body was transported to heaven for the sacrifices of humanity being made unless I misheard. I am still undergoing depression in the head without going mentally senile here in my white-concreted bedroom without bathing for 9 days let alone never leaving the house. Hope to buddah's belly of Bhutan none died from any injuries which doesn't seem so being that the earthquake happened off the Atlantic Coast blissfully but thought I could type about it.* back to the topic once more: i miss you so darn much my apartment #260 that i like to call my swamp. ~ deon james mucker garth po box 121 deon garth c/o bonita garth glendale, arizona 85311 please forgive me for this but if anyone ever wanted to donate anywhere on youtube as i don’t know what to do and having to get teased and maybe threatened on here, my viewer named darren xu setup a gofundme for me in my severe living conditions from my playlist because i don’t want to spam the link due to the *returned error* and not wanting to be too much of a troublesome commenter even though i have no other option to support my mother. i am living at my mother’s house which she has been struggling with bills alongside our 4 pups and feel even guilty knowing that she can’t even afford almost $28 george laceless i normally buy at walmart that used to be $20 due to our financial position and don’t even know the last time i bought socks for myself except my 5-pair avatar socks which was over 4 months ago i think and was planning on doing a video of them too and haven’t bathed in 9 days due to my clinical depression. ps: i even decided to have the courage to post a goggle review of my apartment (swamp) on how much i miss living in it after 1 week from today has passed and hoping to buddah’s belly none will own that swamp of my house. thank you so much for reading if you have done so. pss: MUCHAS GRACIAS PARA TU AYUDAR on donating $5 on my gofundme Christian Reckons! ^-^ it may not seem much but to me, it certainly does as every dollar counts and thank you so much to my skeletal malnourished heart for it! the extra leftovers i had at 4:29am.: the other half of my burrito 1 spoonful of chili 2 bbq pringles psss: i finally ate 4 amos cookies at 6:30am.-6:38am this morning to gain a sample of my appetite. tue. aug. 27. 2024 @ 7:40am.
dear youtubers or anyone the youtube subreddit that’s willing to share my youtube comment. hello. deon’s depressed diary: morning #4 (after losing my house and going 106 hours without eating): unless you count eating a forkful of my mother’s rice ’n’ beans i sneakly ate in the kitchen and having an famous amos cookie the other night and trying to aim $10k in donations to have my other brother’s name on the lease after my mother got robbed away to pay $900 for our monthly rent that our eldest brother’s girlfriend refused paying as a last resort. thank my eldest brother’s girlfriend for this and please pardon me for diary spamming because i am desperate for support/donations and just want my voice to be heard and feeling i want to give up in life by starving myself due to being bullied and too devastated to eat anything. i had an interesting dream of me being in bob’s burgers’ family and we were eating this delicious blue cake that has to be blueberry flavor. me and eugene were eating the cake in the kitchen for having a contest while our teacher was watching us eating the whole thing while louise was taunting us and telling us we were eating like pigs and bob filming us having a wonderful time in the family kitchen table. i think linda was out running errands which is why she wasn’t in the house with us. i miss you so darn much my apartment #260 that i like to call my swamp. ~ deon james mucker garth po box 121 deon garth c/o bonita garth glendale, arizona 85311 I HOPE YOU GET FOOD POISIONING FROM A PUFF FISH AT A WALMART FROZEN FOOD SECTION FOR SNATCHING MY LIFE AWAY FROM ME DUANA (MY BROTHER'S GIRLFRIEND) AND MAKING ME GOING OVER 100 HOURS TO NOT EAT ANYTHING AND HAVE PROOF ON THE DARN MESS YOU AND YOUR 18 & 26 YEAR OLD KIDS HAVE LEFT ME AS YOUR LEGENDARY FIRE BIRD MAID! feel so mute, so powerless, so weak. had to add some classical music while feeling dead inside being ignored in human society. i really would adore laying the heavenly chorus if it's ever humanly possible to rent my swamp back and being in peace and being able to eat again. ps: i am living at my mother’s house which she has been struggling with bills alongside our 4 pups and feel i am a mulllosk of a monster for wanting to type all of this out and setting up many animes / 80’s playlists to be heard. pss: i suppose being "only human" is a curse when it comes to having poor mental health and people only label you as a mental criminal and avoiding you similar to the black plague. sun. aug. 25. 2024 @ 7:10am.
when you stand in the pub for hours. and you want to go home. and you're grumpy. and she asks what you are going to do. home. she says I am going home too. you come with me. I say I don't have a bike. she says I do have a bicycle. You sit on the back with her. And you come to her house. And she takes off her top... and you see the biggest most beautiful breasts ever!
To think what Heaven will be like. A perfected and more beautiful version of the world than we could ever imagine. In the presence of the Almighty God, our Father, and Lord Jesus Christ. His throne surrounded by Seraphim and Cherubim singing His praises forever and ever.
When you wake up in a summer night and you need to use the bathroom but you get scared cuz you watched a scary movie before that and so you stay up think you're going to stay up all night but you hear your father getting ready for work and putts the lights on and you can finally go to the bathroom cuz it's 5 am !!! (What just happened to me so I'm listning to this cuz this came to my mind when i finally got there)
