I've always held a specific place in my heart for this song, as my mum had sent this to me about a year ago now and saying she loves me to matter what. I wasn't too sure what she meant at the time, even while listening to the song constantly for a few days. Seeing this animatic makes it hit hard what she meant, as I was an accidental pregnancy between my parents after a month of them knowing each other (in which my father likely baby trapped my mother by getting her pregnant) and I've always felt some regret that my existence is the reason she stayed with my father and had another kid with him. No matter how much she tells me that whether I was born or not, she would've stayed with him because she thought he loved her, I will always hate that part of me that stopped what life she could've had. She's since left my dad and is building that life she could've had for herself now, and I'll always be grateful that she never resented me for existing, and my mother has loved me all my life no matter what and no matter the circumstances of existence. I'm truly blessed to have her as a mother, and I couldn't have it any other way. And this song, and this animatic, reminds me of that.
"She Used to Be Mine" It's not simple to say Most days I don't recognize me That these shoes and this apron That place and its patrons Have taken more than I gave them It's not easy to know I'm not anything like I used to be Although it's true I was never attention's sweet center I still remember that girl She's imperfect but she tries She is good but she lies She is hard on herself She is broken and won't ask for help She is messy but she's kind She is lonely most of the time She is all of this mixed up And baked in a beautiful pie She is gone but she used to be mine It's not what I asked for Sometimes life just slips in through a back door And carves out a person And makes you believe it's all true And now I've got you And you're not what I asked for If I'm honest I know I would give it all back For a chance to start over And rewrite an ending or two For the girl that I knew Who'll be reckless just enough Who'll get hurt But who learns how to toughen up when she's bruised And gets used by a man who can't love And then she'll get stuck And be scared of the life that's inside her Growing stronger each day 'Til it finally reminds her To fight just a little To bring back the fire in her eyes That's been gone But used to be mine Used to be mine She is messy but she's kind She is lonely most of the time She is all of this mixed up and baked in a beautiful pie She is gone but she used to be mine
