I hope everything is going well for you ! My trio of favorite singers is You, Chelly from EGOIST and Sayuri. EGOIST disbanded this year 😢 Sayuri passed away today 😭 Please take care of you !
itsuka no koe ga ima boku no kokoro wo kyuukutsu ni shiteiku aa dattandesho kou dattandesho migatte kaishaku receiver kawaranakya akimashitatte kawareba kawarimashita yo ne tte ittai nan dai? sore nan dai? hoko to tate wa nakunaranai you de shite shiawase wa pin boke suru furyouhin ai shattaa kurushii koto wa sensai ni utsuru kougashitsu renzu de seiippai yattenda betsu ni kimi no tame janai nee sou daro? shou ni awanai koto shite ikireru hodo yoyuu nai jinsei sou hai ni jinsei sou mae ni jinsei soumei ni ikitai no wa yamayama da ga wari to konkyo mo shoumei mo nai you na genjou sekai kurai ga choudo yokute jinsei sou rafu ni jinsei sou tafu ni jinsei sou geemu mitai ni tanjun na mono de ii daro A, B botan de kakete kimetai mirai mo arunda hiiroo no puraibeeto wa kitto shoumonai to omounda wari to negativu dattari futsuu no ningen shiteru sa tanin no koe ni madowasareru hodo yoyuu nai mou isso furan ni mou isso fuantei ni mou kitto setsumeisho doori wa kireisugite shimau kara yogose kowase kimerareta tsumaranai kotei gainen nante sutero mou jissai dou ni demo nare oshikoroshita koe de yaritakunai koto ni karugarushiku unazuku no wa yamero agero kao wo agero tsukarete shimattanda hito no ego de tsukurareta utsuro ni dake wa naritaku wa nakute jikan wa mada aru to iza hitori me no mae ni shita koukai to shindenzu wa gushagusha no manma omou koto wa tada hitotsu urei urei urei urei urei urei urei jinsei sou hai ni jinsei sou mae ni jinsei soumei ni kawaritai no wa yamayama da ga watashi wa konkyo mo shoumei mo nai you na genjou sekai kurai ga oniai da jinsei sou rafu ni jinsei sou tafu ni jissai sou geemu mitai ni tanjun meikai ni ikitakutte A, B botan de kaete mitai mirai mo arunda
Deon’s Dream Diary on being 13½ days clean: Day #33 (after losing my house and going on 793 hours just now without eating an actual meal unless it's a spaghetti tv dinner):. *KONNICHIWA Minami listeners! ^-^* Hope to Buddah's belly of Burma your afternoon went swell as I haven't stopped by lately for feeling quite blue and wet in the heart filled with blood raging inside my stream due to a horrible nightmare I have which I hope it's fine for me to copy 'n' paste out but thought I could diary-type how I've been feeling currently. *From Sept. 24. 2024 @ 3:24pm. Deon's Nightmare with his mother on Verbal Abuse because of Duana stealing my swamp from us.* *I had a nightmare about my mother and i have the worst argument a mother and her son could ever have by using being verbally abusive to each other, my mother attempting to call 911 because of how suicidal i’ve felt and for domestic abuse even though i didn’t physically harm her as my older brother tonio was by my side and was panicking seeing if the police would arrive at our 2nd. story house when it was just a random mexican guy in his 20s making food delivery service similar to uber eats. i had a serious talk with my mother on her wanting to kick me out due to my outbursts even though i intended to run away from home and her wanting to call the police because i was a runaway or about to be even though i am an adult and her being so upset with me and some stupid reason why is because of how she told me how much she hate crying babies. she must’ve felt irritated when i was a newborn that my cries must’ve drained her mentally that she wanted to get rid of me and convinced her about her favorite movies so that i wouldn’t have the police take me away for being verbally abusive towards her even though i hit her lightly on the leg due to how upset i was since she also did the same back i believe while i was bringing up about her favorite movies to calm her down from ptsd and her boyfriend chris watching us arguing but not wanting to get involved since he knows our family situation will be solved while this happened during the late evening before the sun was setting down.* I'm currently doing my best to reach $3K just so my older brother & I can have our swamp before October which I know is humanly impossible but had to try the virtual obstacle before I lose even more time even though it feels it's too late for a new owner taking our swamp now. Speaking of rain, it has NOT RAIN 1 single day since I had to move here at my mother's apartment (260) that was stolen from us which makes it even more of a desert depression what Duana has done for not wanting to pay us $900 of month's rent for living with me for almost 2 months straight squatting on our roof and me being their kitchen butler that I miss seeing the sunlight in my old swamp of an apartment. *PO BOX 121* *Deon Garth C/O Bonita Garth* *Glendale, Arizona 85311* *#GIVEBACKDEONSSWAMP**!* Tue. Sept. 24. 2024 @ 4:20pm. Arizona Mountain Time (Weedy Time). 🌿🌬💨 (@deongarth is my Insta-Gram but currently inactive due to mental health reasons).
