I'm a 41-year-old trans man (he/him) from the UK who started his transition in 2018.
I start you through my journey from a 35-year-old and hopefully, you will continue my journey alongside me as I become the man I’ve always dreamt of. I'm was on a shared care basis with Gendercare (Private) and the NHS. I have been on the waiting list to be seen by an NHS gender identity clinic since 2018 for a first appointment. This still hadn't materialised four years and is why I went private.
I started testosterone in November 2018 and had top surgery with Mr. Miles Berry (Cosmetic Surgery Partners) on Thursday 1st April 2021.
In 2022 I had a hysterectomy with Chelsea and Westminster hospital after experiencing extreme pain which turned out to be vaginal atrophy. Shortly afterwards I joined Trans Plus a pilot scheme that is taking over the NHS gender clinics. I was then able to leave Gendercare. I am now currently on the waiting list for Phalloplasty.
I'd often been mistaken for being younger anyway, but my favorite after-starting-T incident was going to buy vapes (have to be 21, I'm almost 43). My partner was paying for them, and the lady behind the counter, who had seen us in there MULTIPLE times when I was girlmoding, looks at my partner, points at me in boymode, and asks them "Is he old enough to be getting these?" It was so funny and affirming that I couldn't even be mad about showing her my ID even though it has my birth name on it. It really does seem like second puberty makes trans folks of all stripes look so much younger.
Been following you for a long time on twitter (which I've now given up) and on yt. You've always posted the most lovely, honest and kind trans content available. It's such a shame that you get attacked so much when the algorithm picks something up. Keep up the great content and keep on being yourself!
I'm a trans guy too, been on T for 5 years as well. I'm intermittently open and visible because of the same reasons. Although I don't necessarily agree with the term, I'd say I "pass" in most situations and can avoid abuse by just not acknowledging my identity online. One of my fondest memories was the time a person created a hit piece on their blog about me stating that "I might be a tr*nny now, but I'll always be a b*tch" because I ghosted/blocked them. I'm sorry you go through this brother. Love and support to you! I really appreciate your channel. ❤
"Exchange with some guys at Enter Shikari gig" We need to get away from labelling everything and everyone, Whether it be gender, race, colour. I don't know your full situation, But i'm sure you'd rather be called a man than a trans man?
I’m a man in public life. For the purpose of this video and story I’m using trans and cis to distinguish between the men I was talking to and myself. The point is people can’t tell I’m trans in person like everyone likes to claim they can.
I kind of had similar thought from reading the title, but honestly especially in this context don't think there's any issue with the distinguishing labels. Would prefer a world where it wasn't like that, think the main issue is when those labels and terms are using in a derogatory manner. Also congratulations on passing must be a feel good moment for you too, get your glow up.
@@_Endeavour I understand why you used it, But do you not see the contradiction? It comes off very divisive. I'm not a cis man, I'm a man, As are you. By even using the word Cis, basically puts a wall up that you know we are different, And you put that wall up. Not me, Not the lads you spoke to. I'm trying to learn and understand like everyone else. (quite frankly, if I was called a cis man to my face, I would probably walk away from the conversation wondering why i'm being labelled something I am not, or haven't agreed too..)
If you’re not a cis man, you’re a trans man. Both are men, but a different type of man. Cis and trans are Latin pre fix adjectives that are descriptors. I don’t class them as labels at all. To me it’s like saying a tall man, a short man. Cis and trans have been around for years (organic chemistry for example). Cisgender just means your gender aligns with your birth sex and mine doesn’t. In certain conversations it’s relevant to distinguish between the two like in the video. The video wouldn’t make any sense if I didn’t state the difference. It’s been used between myself and my Doctors. Cis doctors describing themselves as cis. Why would you get called cis to your face? It’s like you’re preparing yourself to be offended over an unlikely scenario. Majority of trans people are stealth for safety reasons and to be honest if they knew you were offended by an adjective they’d probably avoid you anyway🤷♂️. So nothing to worry about.
Well I’ve never used the word cis to a person in a derogatory manner, but there have been many a time that being called trans (often the offensive version of the word amongst other things) has been said to me. It’s delightful.
This is the first video I've seen of you, and it breaks my heart that the other comment is so hateful. So I wanted to comment as well to say that this is a beautiful and informative message, and you dont deserve any hate for it ❤
Actually this is where you’re wrong. My birth certificate says male. So my marriage and death certificate will also say male. As for what my cells are saying who knows, I’ve not had them checked and neither does it matter to me. Calling me sister is that meant to upset me? It bores me.
My mum is dead. When I’m dead why would I be bothered if someone saw my bones? Like who cares? I won’t care because I’ll be DEAD 😂. Besides I’m being cremated so it’s really irrelevant. Have a nice day red37i59.
Wish i never took it feel queasy all the time. Not going to have booster. Just going to go back on the better rhe devil you know, testogel. I know its not a proper go at it, but gel is more in control. Probably the surge making me queasy. Did you have to wait 12 weeks before going back on testogel? Hope not but still have 20 sachets left.
Quick question. I'm having Nebido soon. Do you order it through a prescription or do they have it ready at appointment? On testogel at the moment. Doesn't give me right level. Thanks
@@_Endeavour Thanks. Might try and stay on testogel. Bit lazy, which won't help absorption. Need to get active. The thought of waiting 12 weeks after boost, worries me. In a dip at the moment. Not had one like this for ages. Probably sweated a lot of it off, because of weather. Did add half. On one and half a day. Last test I was 12.6, 4 hours after I put it on. Always avoided Nebido. Don't want to go on it, until I've done all I can for gel. Used to be on sustanon, but keep having manufacturing problems. Spoke to consultant today. But it's going to be a nightmare getting balance right and a lot of suffering. On it because I have klinefelter syndrome. Different to you, but I appreciated your feedback. Seeing doctor in a couple of weeks. Gives me time to see if I can stay on easy gel.
There was no side effects and no periods come back. It didn’t affect the testosterone levels at all. There is a worldwide shortage of the Estring at the moment.
I need to be more monotone I think. Also, if i speak quietly, my voice stays low. The minute i get excited it goes way up. I feel like a knob. Lol i guess it just takes practice
That is incredible :( I'd put money on it being the Tories starving them of funds and causing the NHS Gender clinics to be in even more of a mess than other parts of the NHS. I really really hope other trans/NB folk get the chance you got to get on a pilot scheme.
Sometimes it takes little reminders like that to show us how far we've actually progressed. I think I've been managing to extend my range (that is, keeping fairly close to my 'old' voice) because I still default to my 'customer service voice' at work, which helps me keep my feminine range. But when I play around to see how far down I can drop, I tend to surprise myself with the bassier tones and resonance that I'm achieving. Haven't got any before & now footage to compare, as I've never been fond of being recorded, but when I pay attention and push a little, I hear a distinct change.
@@_Endeavour are you still taking the gel, yesterday but chance I went to the endocrinologist and he prescribed testo blend, in Brasil we call Deposteron or durateston 1ml/250mg every 12 days.
@@_Endeavour on the 12 weekly injections, after that what you use to do? I don't know how.yo say in English but in Brazil we call what translate as therapy post cicle, and it suppose to be 4 weeks of serms or serns, like clomiphene or tamoxiphene, is that what you did ? Thanks for sharing. Also do you prefer pumps? Why, the absorption is lower? But less collateral effects? How is the libido with gel? God bless.
@@_Endeavourhi i am from Germany i will Switch to gel to but my doctor says it dosent work so good. I say i hate Injektion 250mg all 9 days. So my question helps testo Gel or is it just wasted money
I never understand why the GCs are so obsessed with such a tiny percentage of society that most of them have never knowingly interacted with IRL. Inclusivity and diversity enrich everyone's lives and doesn't threaten the majority! Gah! Solidarity as always, Endeavour my friend x
comparing this vid to older vids of yours i'd say your hairdo is making you look younger. ive seen a lot of teens and twenty somethings with a curly top and short sides.
I’m so sorry you have to put up with this shit. You and every trans person deserves to be loved and appreciated, not bullied and abused. I’m sending you all the love and healing my friend.
Sorry you’ve received all this hate. These people thrive off of spreading hatred. Please keep sharing your videos and keep doing what you’re doing ❤The transphobes will always exist as will we. They can either continue to make the lives of a small minority of people who they are never going to meet hell, or accept us. Its that simple. However much bile and froth they unleash they will never be able to wish away trans people. We will continue to exist ( happy) as we always have done. It’s been great following your journey! Much love and solidarity! x
Oh good heavens about the drive! It's actually almost a little intimidating. I'd nearly always had a pretty high drive anyway pre-T, and I've absolutely noticed an uptick, even just microdosing. When I first heard about bottom growth, I was a bit apprehensive, but once I started thinking back, having old memories coming back up at me, I'd realized just how often I'd wished I could single player mode *that* way instead of how I'd been stuck having to do so, and that nervousness just went up in smoke. Obviously microdosing means things happen more slowly, but I get excited to find those little changes as they happen ☺️
Oh mate, this sucks - I'm sorry you have to deal with all this 😑 FWIW I've quit Twitter and moved over to Mastodon which is much better for my MH. Also 'be cool, be weird embrace your quirks' is epic and is now going to be my philosophy!! Sending much love as always x
Dude, you're smashing it... Some people just can't understand that we can be happy and trans. And some people are hateful bastards with a heart of coal
my dog, my fucking dog. Originally it was Ash, bc i was waching pokemon and i liked the name ash, but then i was like, yk what. I like the name asher and here we are.
I had no idea the process of transition, I thought it was tablets etc. Wow, I learn something new every day 👍 Following, because I think it is important to understand every aspect of human life. Thank you for sharing
Im a 40+ cis woman, my feet have gone up a half size... or maybe shoes are made differently by make *shrug* Maybe because your transition was after puberty?
A really interesting story - I remember you telling me on the Birdsite where the name Endeavour came from but it's fascinating to get the full context. BTW, if it hadn't been for She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named, Severus could have been a good option because IIRC he was one of the decent Roman emperors!
Aw thx for sharing! Tender. I never posed this question to my parents. But when I chose my current name, my mom was very enthusiastic about helping with the middle name. It was funny how into it she was. I have an entire story about how I found my name, too long for RU-vid post though. Enjoying seeing your posts, man, thank you! 🥰
Lol, 💯 on everything you said. I'm like...how do cis-guy teens get any work done 🤣. You hit the nail on the head, so so different- the urge, strength, "the punch", sensation. I mean it's awesome...different awesome, but just a big adjustment to figuring out my "new" body. Keep the videos coming, lol (no pun intended), I appreciate your candor
Thank you so much for sharing your experience. I'm at T 18mos, and got like 4-7 dark and gray hairs (tons of peach fuzz lol). And I'm like...oh f@#% it, it is what it is. I got a friend who has a similar T timeline, and he's got a full beard.. so yeah, genetics. And my endocrinologist said you get a better idea of what to expect after 3-5yrs on T. Also I figure, cis guys don't just grow beard overnight, they have puberty for like 5 years or more maybe!
I unfortunately did not inherit the impressive facial hair, but other than that, I'm doing fine. Love that you're continuing to educate people and share your experiences!🔥🔥
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