i loke men. i am a man. i like men and im proud of all the. queers. 👍 lol this comment sounds like it was written by a bot but could a bot say… idk idk what a bot couldnt say idk srry. subscribed :3
I have a visceral reaction to my deadname, even when it’s used as someone else’s name, and I think it’s because of my childhood trauma. I must’ve developed an association between my deadname and being reprimanded that has caused the former to become a trigger for me. My current name not only validates my (lack of) gender but also allows me to distance myself from my past. I haven’t revealed it to anyone in over three years and it’s gotten to the point where a lot of people who met me after I started going by my current name don’t even know I have a deadname. The only person who purposefully deadnames me is my great grandma, but I give her a pass because she’s a product of her time (born 1922) who is otherwise very kind and wise. I don’t think she even understands that I’m trans, especially since she only speaks Spanish and there are no gender-neutral pronouns in Spanish. I think she just prefers my deadname to my current one.
7:35 is EXACTLY what happened with me andd the name JIll/Jillian (moreso Jill). But for me for AGES I was name swapping like crazy and thought no names would stick at all for me like EVER, and one day I'm watching a woops video that has his editor Jill in it. She's fucking awesome I love her SO much as a person when she's in the vids. But when I was watching my brain went "what if you used that" naur I'll go by blake or something pseudo fem. remembers old twitter moot "J I L L I A N" naaaaahhhh I'll go by fuckin V for something. "J I L L A A A YYY". Suffice it to say after plastering the name to myself, I've never once thought of changing it, it stuck like glue straight to my dome piece. And I'm happy to be SO done with my name search. And with my deadname? idc about it, I've used so many names someone could give me a new one at work and I'd probably respond on instinct (I did that to myself with not being able to 1. hold a stable name for myself, and 2. changing usernames so much LOL)
I have vague memories of before becoming trans, where my friend (who’s also trans) sent me an email regarding something, but their email used their deadname. So in a brilliant fucking display of my stupidity, I responded with “okay, ‘DEADNAME’” as a joke without realizing then a year later, I realized I deadnamed them and now it makes me want to throw myself into a pit of angry republicans. we’re cool about it but I still feel really bad.
This is so real, like im still figuring myself out and its so wierd when i think about how others think of the me that i present because im a coward and im too scared to talk about myself lol.
Also, i wanna make july an honorary pride month part 2 because im queer and im a july baby and having pride month end like right before my birthday is dumb to me. So happy pride month everyone!
2:02 i cant tell if he said “i have smash friends who follow me” like he has friends who play smash with him or if he said “i have smashed friends who follow me” 😭
I really appreciate this video. It can be a little sketchy to share queer thoughts online because there are always people who are gonna hate, but im glad the comments here are chill, and its all just wholesome
Please know that your content doesn’t really interest me much, however I will fully watch any video of yours with the kbity in the thumbnail. Please keep doing that.
I've been searching for days now and I can't find this clip anywhere, my remaining theories are: this clip is from Discord and nobody ever uploaded it on RU-vid, or the clip is from a random VA that made a parody of this anti-hate PSA and I can't find the channel. I'm sorry, I have no idea where to find it.