Story time. When I was younger I got sent to rehab in Newport Beach, California. It was... an experience, to say the least. They told me I was alcoholic. That one day I would die if I didn't quit and the only thing that would save me was a blue book and "giving myself up to god." Not only that but I didn't have any desire to quit. Still I knew I was not in a good position and I remember I used to go sit on the beach and listen to this song. It felt poetic or meaningful, ironic I guess is what I was going for, given the lyrics and my feelings at the time. This song takes me back to that beach. I used to listen to it while I drank for years thinking about those moments, wondering when I would finally die. I came to think of that moment in my life as my "death sentence." You see, for me, it wasn't a choice. As far as I was concerned those people, at the rehab center, they told me I was going to die. I'm an atheist, as if my moniker escaped anyone, and an alcoholic. I don't do god, or anything else I don't want to. Even under threat of death. I tried to quit on my own many times but it never worked, so I drank. Alot. Every day. For almost 20yrs. Then, one day, I decided to try one last time and told myself if it didn't work this time I was going to eat a 9mm and call it a day. I'll have 4yrs sober in March and I am inching close to the term happy. No gods, no books, just therapy and Naltrexone. I found the place with no walls. I know no one cares but I had to come here and write this for me because I don't have to think about the beach when I listen to this song anymore.
Coming back to this album, 15 years after I used to rock out to it on my way to work when I was 20. The songs all hit very differently.. It feels like a lifetime ago.. I wanna go back...😩😩
I'm a teenager now. I love this song. What sucks for me is my music taste was given to someone in the wrong generation. I wish I could go party to songs like this but most people I know just listen to the hip hop crap that is popular these days.
Cant believe this album is almost 2 decades old. Headstrong on the radio made go out and buy this album I listened to this album so much that I had to buy 4 all together and that was before you could listen to it on RU-vid. I'm 37 now in 2021 and I listen like this is new music at least once a month. I still have a whole bunch of cds you buy just to listen to 2 or even one song not this album every song is good. My favorite time to blast this is on dark and gloomy raining days dont know why just do
cr4kh34dproduct stuff like your username is why youtube is so strick be mature dude who cares about grammer its the thought that counts and the effort they put in expressing their opinion you have no right to judge just go look on your un grammerly name and channel its kinda immature my videoas arent good cause im an amature and i dont i use my phone camera but i sure as hell dont hate on other peoples expressions i think that was rude and change your name nobody wants a cerackhead on youtube
ITS NOT RU-vid ITS the idiots who see omthing in a video they couldntdo in theirs and they report it or they try and get channellers reported if yhey have rivals with more veiws and its also the people with the most benjamins that control yutubes rules thank big tv and the goverment trying to dumb us down and have no creativity you know how much copyright i seen in movies or songs in movies from other mopvies itsd crazey i look at it like this as long as you bought the song data you should be able to use irt otherwise hoqwcome noone is addressin parodys of stuff thats like saying hey im cxopywriting my ifea from yours and they actually use the beats lyrics and some video how come thwey dont get shut down cuz its funny7? no cause no onweb got jellous or lost money over it so they left it but GODFORB ID IF YOU INCLUDE A SMALL CLIP OF MUSIC THESE PEOPLE ARE USING THE SAMESONGS AND DIGITAL JUST CHANGING THE VOISE AND A FEW LYRICS HOW IS THAST OKy but the other isnt and whats with a;ll the ads now everything i click has an ad it sucks.............#i dont care about grammer i got freedomk of expresion and speech can say what i want how i wan t study up on your copyright ansd intern et data laws you might learn hoqw to get aroun d it like i do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!\
