2 years later, or even more than 3 weeks later, have you noticed any improvement? I went though hell and back for about 5 weeks after my 3rd session (3 weeks for all 3 sessions), but starting after the second week. That chunk was way worse than i was before i started the ketamine. Thankfully things started shifting for me (felt the change physically and mentally) and I've been doing much better for the past almost 2 months. (I am questioning that if i did it one more time i wouldn't be in this pit im sort of in now but i would have died most likely in the in between limbo. Its honestly a miracle im alive now)
Thank you for sharing this. I was looking everywhere for research about hair loss from ketamine. Its been 3 months since my last session and its starting to go away. I would comb my hands through my hair and clumps were falling out. It was not normal. And not much has changed since then, so i feel like it has to be from that! My hair is so thinned out and gone. But i guess id take the happiness and real changes ive seen in my body and life over the depression. (Another side note- the ketamine caused me to be extremely suidical and i couldnt trust myself to be alone with myself. I wanted to harm myself for almost 2 months ... something i didn't struggle with prior to the ketamine as intensely, and im sure also not talked about enough)
I relate to a lot of what you're going through, and appreciate your updates. It may be weird, but sometimes when I'm going through a particularly rough time, I'll watch your check-in videos to remind myself that hope and optimism can prevail even though it may not feel like it currently. Although I wish it on nobody, there is oddly some comfort in knowing I'm not in it alone. Thanks for your candidness, persistence in exploring the state of your health and its treatment, and for seemingly never losing faith in identifying effective health-promoting habits.
Always love hearing about improvement boost. Saw many of your videos --don't recall you ever say you tried Low Dose Naltrexone..... If you don't already know at low doses Naltrexone works like an antidepressant. I have been on it for years and it does (did) improve my mood. It also increases endorphines and improves sleep. Just curious if you heard of it and / or tried it ever. I know you tried many things so far. ....Your Kitty rocks.😺😺😺
Have you tried medications that increase dopamine like agomelatine? I'm considering it since it increases libido and the creation of new brain cells (neurogenesis). I wish you all the best in this battle I suffer from too.
I did try wellbutrin but the side effects were very bad. Nicotine gum has been a good addition for me. as well as creatine. I do recommend trying creatine if you're looking for extra help. and thanks. I wish you the best as well. I'm very optimistic. I've spent the last 8 months learning what works for me and the improvement yesterday shows that my protocol is working.
@@mentalhealthdiaries3494 Great to hear about the improvements. I'm 20 years of age now and have had DPDR for almost a year now. It has destroyed my memory but I'll always try to get it back.
maybe if you took benzos for several months it would go away. but i really don't recommend you do this. you have to find the things in your life causing stress that you deal with every day. medication is not the solution.
hi man! again, i beg you to do the stuff from jordan, if you want i cant even give you my stuff to entry the course for free (this is no joke) i fucking know how it is, and i thought my life was literally over. im 101% back to normal and 101% anxiety free. but yeah because people with dpdr have tried so many fucking things they understandably veeeeeery hesitant when it comes to what helps and what does not.
I was wondering how much tension you feel in you body? Like shoulders raised or holding yourself in certain ways without knowing. I think we have similar stories on how we developed this
yes I definitely find myself with raised shoulders. But I'm not sure if that's just from adjusting to my computer or what. but I do correct tension when I find it. I have a lot of tension in my stomach basically 24/7.
@@mentalhealthdiaries3494 I’ve been working on relaxing my body for the past six months. To the point where it’s uncomfortable to relax. Long story short I’ve felt a difference. Your body is always on alert from the unpredictable environment growing up which triggers the dp. That’s my theory
Been struggling with faces/people and places..they seem unreal or erased; something feels off, and I'm not sure if this is, a visual processing disorder or something else, such as dissociation or derealization...
I just want everyone here to know but One of the best people I have seen explain and help people recover is Jordan Hardgrave or Trauma Free Academy on RU-vid you should definitely check him out.
This is very strange. You just randomly appeard in my feed. And your story, the way you talk, think and reflect upon life and the entire DPDR case, is so similar to me, it's beyond worlds. DPDR is so fun, isn't it? xD I've been in this hell for about 6 years. And DPDR really just makes you question about every single aspect of your life. The consept of self and no self, meaning of life, purpose, reality, human biology, traumatology, emotions, spirituality, somatology, brain chemistry and it really just forces you to dive deep into every aspect of human psychology. Now i've been pretty much in every nooks and crannies on this earth when it comes to the topics of DPDR, Depression, anxiety, supressed emotions and the whole 9 yards on human traumatology. I even traveled across the entire globe and became a buddhist monk in hopes to resolve, fix, heal and hopefully overcome it all. But thats a whole different story. I always love seeing every single person that is part of spreading awareness about DPDR. And you and everyone that shares insightful and helpful information that helps everyone on the recovery journey. DPDR can be very complex and there is a lot of different factors at play. But what is without a doubt, at the very core of DPDR, is Trauma. And trauma can be complex. But it dosen't necessarily have to be. Simply said, it's just a place in time where we mentally and emotionally reach a point of complete overwhelme and shutdown. I've realized that 1 of the most important steps to healing is setting a strong foundational routine of safety, security and relaxation. Combined with the implementation of some deeply going, emotional release techniques like TRE (trauma release exercises) and somatic breathwork, where you might end up finding some deeply stored emotions/trauma, which can be fully released in a safe environment. Where you can scream, shout and let it ALL out. Anger, fear, sadness, laughter and excitement. To CONNECT again, instead of disconnecting. And to fully connect to your most real, alive, authentic self again. Some supplements can be really helpful as well. Like fish oil, magnesium, Vitamin D, L- Tyrosine for dopamine and Tryptophan for serotonin. Green tea and rhodiola can be really good too. For mental clarity, more focus and wellbeing. This condition can be really confusing and terrifying and i wouldn't wish this upon my worst enemy. One minute, one hour, one day at a time in the right direction and DPDR is defeated in no time. Happy reconnection!:)
Been struggling with faces/people and places..they seem unreal or erased; something feels off, and I'm not sure if this is, a visual processing disorder or something else, such as dissociation or derealization...
hey thanks for the comment. I'm well on my way to getting past this. it's taken a few years to learn everything that's required like you said, but I'm finally seeing predictable results. are you still struggling?
hi man and people who are reading this. i had the worst case of dpdr i think you can have (ok, probably everyone thinks this lol). unbelievable brain fog, 101% confusion, extreme feelings of disconnection, completely numb, at times didn't feel my body at all like zero percent. i think i could complete a psychology final exam with all the stuff i learned bc i thought that was the answer lol. I beg you all, im just a normal 21 year old dude, no advertisting or whatever. but jordan hardgraves course brought me 101% back to normal. im even more connected than i have been all my life. and chrisbent is 100% correct with things like tre and releasing emotions from the body. i beg you, i you have dpdr, no matter what your mind tells you how hopeless it is, get jordans course and do it as he tolds you. this shit works, believe me. <3
and what the dude in the video is talking about with the feet touching the bed / floor - thats actually one KEY aspect of recovery, its called interoception.
Just wanted to say thank you for making these ketamine videos. Really important to hear from people that did not respond and/or had negative side effects. I’m still probably going to try it, but I’m really glad to know beforehand that it may not work. Keeps expectations in line. Also, you seem like such a nice person, and well spoken, and cute :). Such a shame such good people have to have depression. I hope you find some real help. Keep trying.
Awesome channel to check out! You're right. I definitely wouldn't have found it. Glad to see you're finding work that move you towards recovery brother.
thanks. hope you find some good stuff from his channel. Like I said, he's one of the smartest people I've heard talk about this stuff. I'm going to implement exercises he recommends in his course everyday starting monday at the latest.
@Mental Health Diaries Sounds awesome man. If it helps you a lot it would be sweet to do a video on the key takeaways from the course that you found to be the best!
Im 18. Had derealization since I was 12 due to loneliness + being forced to attend tutoring classes. Ever since then I had not made a single friend because I can’t socialize. Wake up tired everyday, can’t get good sleep. I fell into victimhood, existential crisis, more loneliness. If I keep the trajectory I’m on there is very little chance I’ll ever become successful man if I just fuck around in my 20s. after watching your videos Im gonna try to identify areas in my life that cause stress (although making friends is impossible for me at this point. I literally dont feel connection towards anyone not even my family). But the least thing I can do is stop watching porn, study more efficiently, and get good sleep (even though ive tried forever and never done it) thanks for the videos man I hope life gets better
I feel for you. your symptoms are very relatable. the good news is that you caught it early, even if it feels like you've had it for too long. it's a complicated problem, but yes, it all comes down to stress. my advice is to live as simple a life as possible and obviously include plenty of rest. I can't guarantee it will help you, but what has helped me immensely lately is a very consistent sleep schedule and again, the simple low stress life. If you want you can view this video on my other channel I Just made: ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-Hpc80YDG9lU.html&ab_channel=KramerMcEleney lastly, I think nofap is overrated if you have these mental health problems. I've done it. it just made me horny and chase girls I didn't care about. it didn't make me less depressed or depersonalized.
@@mentalhealthdiaries3494 Hi Kramer, I watched the video. It's definitely something that should've been obvious to me but I was so worried about techniques like interoception and letting go instead of the basics. About ur third point, getting rest is tough for me because when I don't distract myself with social media, I have to experience first-hand DR, lethargy, loneliness, anxiety, and all that BS so it's very hard to rest my mind and body. Real-life feels miserable without distraction. I tried things like accepting, meditating, but they are so boring and I can't do them for a long time or consistently. Do you experience the same issue where you can't be by yourself without distractions?
@@playcostz1407 It means a lot that you took the time to watch it. So you're very welcome. I don't think those things are useless, but I certainly have more faith in real life techniques rather than just the manipulation of our thoughts. and based on my many years of dealing with this, consistency and feeling in control via environment control and having a predictable life are the best thing you can do by yourself. In an ideal world, you would just have the love and care that you need, but maybe your parents can't give that to you. Mine couldn't. I think distraction is ok. it's still better than many things you could be doing. I would encourage you to watch uplifting shows (anime, for example) over social media. It's very hard to not judge ourselves when we see our peers doing better than us. Meditating is boring for me as well, but there are times where I use it. For example, if I can't figure out why I'm extra sad. i'll sit quietly in my room to figure it out. Accepting, however, is very important. This is one of the reasons I've become the strong person I am today. I don't know what practices you're implementing for accepting, but I have never sat down and "worked on acceptance." it's just an attitude I have. regarding distractions - you're right. you're stuck in this state (for now) and there's not much you can do sometimes. I do that too. Start by implementing what I mentioned in the other video. Build a consistent life 1 week at a time. start with your sleep schedule. feel free to ask more questions.
@@mentalhealthdiaries3494 Will do. Everything you said means a lot to me. Even though Ive been trying for so long and the road is extra hard for all of us, I will put in effort and update you on any progress.
@@playcostz1407 hey man. I was thinking about our conversation and feel like I forgot to mention some important stuff. I wanted to give you the opportunity to talk more if you wanted by adding me on discord. feel free to add me : Kramer#0091
yes from time to time I would also experience vision problems. my best advice is to focus on living a calm low stress life and seek things that bring you comfort. friends, family, animals.
I drink coffee & energy drinks but mostly just out of habit. caffeine does very little to me nicotine, however, has been helpful as a stimulant & antidepressant. I chew 1-2 2mg pieces a day
I have had two IM injections for PTSD and major depression/ chronic SI. The day after my first injection I felt like absolute shit. The day after my second injection I had a panic attack that lasted over 8 hrs. But this is not unheard of for me. From 2017-2018 I had 6-8 hr panic attacks about 4-5 days a week. I get them rarely now but my other symptoms from PTSD and depression remain. I'm debating on whether or not I should go back for the third injection. If K brings back my 30+ hr a week panic attacks it will be hell on earth.
I would literally kill a baby in order to alleviate my tinnitus. I contend that it's the worst thing that can happen to a person and nobody even fucking talks about it.
Hi I remember I used to suffer from anxiety, I became anxious about anything and it was going on for a long time, I was always worried and I remember I was watching horrific clips on RU-vid for a long time because I love scary clips and scary movies Suddenly I started to see reality differently and feel that I am far from reality and separated from reality and the people I love DPDR؟
Hi what about meditation inducing depersonalisation? I had this and am suffering with severe dp ,disconnect from self,memory disturbances and headaches.It specifically started after Joe dispenza's meditation breath meditation. I am sick of this!!
Im 21. Been in a 3 year severe depression with severe anxiety with also dpdr. With depression being the absolute worst. It all stems from a traumatic event in the beginning of 2020. I failed all antidepressants. I am going to try emdr and if that does not work I will try ketamine or try to find other psychedelic treatment to try to resolve my trauma. Hang in there man, only thing we can do right now.
I have chronic migraines and dizziness. I also have a hiatal hernia on my esophagus. I stress daily. I am a single mom and I work 45 minutes away. My stress is crazy!! I just recently started experiencing depersonalization. It's scary!!
honestly I'm not an expert on that aspect of the disorder. if you've had it for less than a month I would expect it to go away on its own. if it doesn't then you probably fall into the same category of having some sort of unmeet needs and it was just brought on by weed. but to fair my theory doesn't take weed into consideration and I'm only sharing what has worked for me.
Dpdr is a defence mechanism that activates to stop you from hurting yourself pretty much. So anytime your brain thinks you are gonna hurt yourself mentally it activates for example if u have a panic attack. I had a panic attack on weed and it got triggered so hard i didnt know who i am for 10-20 minutes. If u fear the state of dpdr it will get triggered everytime you fear it. You have to teach your brain that there is no reason to trigger by accepting the state of dpdr. Try to implement it into your day and embrace it everytime you think of it. DONT FIGHT IT :)
I’m getting my 5th ketamine infusion today. The 6th is the last scheduled one. I’m gonna hold off for weeks to decide if this has been worth it but at this point it has not really been anything close to what a folks describe it to be. I knew going in this wasn’t a magic bullet but damn…folks talked so highly of it. I don’t even enjoy the treatments. I actually feel relieved when the infusion is over and I feel myself coming out of it. I think my body just doesn’t like the stuff. I would not recommend to anyone to purchase additional treatments in advance. I purchased the 6 at once. Good folks at the clinic…but so far this seems to be a waste of $$.
most doctors have no idea what DPDR is. You're better off hiring a specialist or learning to treat it yourself. and yes you will be ok if you follow the right steps.
yes. it worked 1 time and the the other 2 or so times it did not. it doesn't seem like a sustainable solution so I wouldn't recommend investing more time into that treatment.
You can still see attributes that you like in people even if the feeling of positivity is weak. But if you can focus on doing things that don’t rely on others that would be ideal. Animals, exercise, cbd, new job, etc
My brother I have dealt with crippling depression for 6+years. I am 24 now. Unfortunately for myself anti-depressants didn’t work. My cure and current system to beat the crap out of depression is; Pro-EPA fish oil (Nordic Naturals), vitamin D, Probiotics, Very low dose Lithium( 1mg). And also Magnesium Glycinate. I take the fish oil, vitamin d, and lithium everyday the others I use 3/4 time a week. It’s been working miracles for me and life-changing etc. This was just my personal experience, it takes time at first but within couple months the change is undeniable and growth upstream.
glad to hear. I'll refer to this if I need inspiration for new treatment. I already take fish oil/magnesium. I imagine the lithium would be quite helpful in mood regulation.
@@mentalhealthdiaries3494 yessir lithium is what keeps all your neurotransmitter working properly and in balance. Extremely vital and it kickstarts serotonin synthesis which is supplied by the EPA fish oil. Also, not all fish oils are the same I highly highly recommend the Nordic Naturals or any other pristine brand. It made such a huge difference for myself. All be it, it’s more expensive but EPA IS MUST. This is your sword and lithium is the shield. Anyways good luck brother hope you can find your “cure”. Stay safe keep fighting
I had my last one may 25 and it's 6/9 now and my depression has came back..I paid 2400 for 6 treatments..and I have ringing in my ears but I worked in a factory..my anxiety has came back. But also know I needed more treatment my body is just different. So I called them today..good luck to everyone
