A near-death experience as a teenager resulted in a instant kundalini awakening that shifted the course of my entire life. I suddenly felt energy surging throughout my body and I could read minds and I felt everything around me at all times. Unprepared, I spiraled into addiction and depression attempting to mute the uncontrolled waves of energy.
It took me nearly 10 years to fight my way back from rock bottom, reconstructing my body and mind in the process by way of trance meditation and psychedelic use, as well as hard work in the physical world--diet, exercise, and education. I came out of the shadows the soul worthy of that spiritual awakening that had occurred all those years ago.
I'm a healer and a teacher now, my mission to bring people back from the darkness and into the light. I do this with empathy and by sharing my personal stories of trial and triumph.
Just got back from Mexico last night after spending the weekend in Tulum. I did Bufo twice, back to back, and it was the most intense experience I've ever had, for sure. I consider myself a soft atheist and still do. This had zero impact on my feelings about a god. I just felt so peaceful (the synesthesia was real and I could SEE peace, not just feel it) and now empowered that I understand the only thing that can stop me is me. This has had a huge impact on some personal struggles and I intend to make it stick. I highly encourage people to take the plunge and expect your life to change (for the better).
You do realize that consciousness literally could not/did not exist for (at least) the first 400,000 years of the universe's development, right? We only have beliefs about a "divine creator" and theorize about extradimensional entities because they suffice when we can't conceive of answers for complex questions regarding the nature of our own personal existence(s?), and if it has any purpose that is objectively significant. Hallucinations - not just on psychedelics (as any fallible belief or flawed understanding can technically define a hallucination, at least as exemplified by AI and sociopolitical/psychological/sociological biases), but when considering sensory hallucinations experienced and perceived by humans, especially on dissociative psychedelics - are inherently reflective extensions of combinations of one's unique physiological makeup, their neurological & psychological processes, and the latent knowledge, beliefs, and memories floating around in one's brain. Our brains literally fill visual space with whatever is most resourcefully efficient for the altered state of function you force it into when taking psychedelics (hence why sacred geometries and fractals are common LSD/psilocybin/DMT hallucinations -- they take the least amount of effort and are spatially efficient). DMT/NDE entities are nothing more than subconscious projections of what one would otherwise normally categorize as existential information, the validities of which cannot be empirically proven to exist objectively, regardless of how many times that multiple individuals report subjectively perceiving them.
He is not wrong. Put effort into becoming selfless, work on knowing love. If you are someone like me who chemically is messed up and feel constant sadness and pain. This is an illusion to an extent. This is our burden and our burden to bare. Thus In my pain and suffering I reached despair and from despair I found purpose. And in purpose I found love and a reason to live and what I want to make this world. A place of love and beauty. Respect to the natural cycles of our beloved earth and constantly question and search for the truth. Searching for God, not the false western style God but our true father and our existence itself. Who truly knows what’s happening all around us but in a sense if we come back here in a new form time and time again then this is proof of this being a trial. A plain of existence, a dimension to which we train and test to grow the soul and raise our vibrations and light. We are creatures born of the dark. It’s in our very eyes. If you ever peer into your eyes the windows we see from are of the blackest black. All creatures see through the void. Perhaps we are as of right now connected to the outer worlds, the spirit world. Then we look at our vast universe which feels so empty and vast… I wonder, perhaps this ‘space’ is filled but we can’t see or interact with what’s filling the space. I love the theory that space and the cosmos is the mind of God and we are a construct of his imagination and we are all a part of him and thus is why our lives exist as a space in his mind… one world where both good and evil live. One once of Eden where good Raines supreme. This plane of existence must still be out there. If not then this realm now is the broken remnants of the gardens destruction. Perhaps this is why the world is so alive unlike the rest of the universe to a Degree. Sure there’s some types of life on plants but we have yet to find anyone like us out there…. We are alone and alone we must find the path back home. To become one again.
absolutely incredible story ... i feel were on such similar paths ... everything you say resonates in a way never felt from another human before ... truly thank you brother ... & thanks for that tip for the B vitamins ... going to be a massive game changer ... also have you dove into any inner child therapy? its been coming up heavily over the last year ... mixed with liminal spaces and a possible link to CPTSD ... if you do please, id love to hear on a video on it ... blessings bro
Thank you so much for the kind words. Blessings to you as well, my friend. Yes, I do know about that therapy. I'll def put that on the list. Hope you have a wonderful day.
Please don't speak of concepts like purpose. We clearly don't have a purpose. Children and newborns don't die in war because it's their purpose, they die because of evil humans and a cold uncaring universe.
Billy, I suggest you reserve your assumptions until you've expanded your mind beyond what we see in front of us. There's so much more happening here. Don't live a life in the dark simply because the darkness exists. Your energy is not part of the solution. I hope that one day this changes in you.
I wanna go trip out on DMT with you lol. I mean, I'm just saying it's something I need in my life now. I've become so jaded but I've had those moments that remind me that this thing is fucking beautiful. I can relate to what you say. You don't happen to be from California, no?
@@HoldenLee333 Thanks! I will not only do that, but I'll tell you how it goes after I do! I appreciate you and all your videos. I showed my mom your "Cheeseburger" video and she started crying at the end. I was like, yes, that's the appropriate reaction, mom.
Very profound. I enjoy listening to your perspective on reality. I’m on my own journey of sorts having experienced some controlled OBEs. Haven’t had any experience with psychedelics. But I’m highly interested in them. As all I think & research is on spiritual things 24/7. “Who am I” & “Why”. Trying to find meaning and purpose. As the material grind is depressing. But at the same time scary to change the status quo. Thank for sharing your personal journey & insights.
You and I have many parallels, I'm a guy, post cardiac NDEs, approaching 60 and - this video made me pause and wipe the tears and snot away. For a while after my NDEs due to cardiac conundrums - I'd stopped eating meat and made other changes. Eventually relinquishing many choices due to peer pressure and tbh, that hurts, bc it ain't me. I remain deeply estranged from my old life despite concessions. Ego holds sway and I cling to -almost exactly the same things you had. Maybe spare a prayer for a guy who would see himself do better please. May Peace and Joy be yours with abundance for this outstanding generosity found in these videos, you re-kindle hope. It is doubtful I'm alone in that. (You are and incredibly good narrator as well). TLDR most Xlent work Mr. Holden Lee
Thanks for sharing this with me. This comment means a lot. Lots of prayers for you to rediscover the soul you know is right below the surface. We’re never more than a blink away from that moment that turns our life around.
Holden, I watch every video you do. Please keep doing them. They are great and you're a great storyteller. If you come back out to the PNW let me know! 🍄
Hello! As a reminder, please be kind in the comment section. Some of my viewpoints can be considered highly controversial and not everyone is viewing life through the same lens. Change occurs from teaching, not bullying. Much love to all.
After going blind in one eye and paralysis in my left hand I was on the verge of suicide. I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis and spent years in a crippling depression. Because of a good friend, I turned to shamanic practices and psychedelics. This is where I found true healing. These high dose mushroom trips and dmt breakthroughs are the most profound experiences to be had in this life. I was shown a new paradigm and had experiences that modern science won't acknowledge and deems impossible. I was propelled into spaces of geometry and fractals, and arrived in a place that looks like a private chapel, and everything was jeweled and throbbing with energy and these machine like alien insect beings were performing cosmic surgery on me and communicating with me with a telepathic colored language. I came back and I couldn't believe it and my life has never been the same since it's much more meaningful and magical and now I'm able to get the most out of this life and live without the fear of death
Dmt, LSD and psilocybin containing mushroom are amazing. I was severely traumatized years ago as a teenage, got diagnosed with cptsd. Spent my whole life fighting cptsd. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
I'm so very happy for you, Psilocybin is absolutely amazing, the way it shows you things, the way it teaches you things. I can not believe our world and our people shows less interest about it's helpfulness to humanity. It's love. The mushrooms heals people by showing the truth, it would be so beneficial for so many people, especially politicians and the rich who have lost their way and every other persons out there.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Germany. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them
YES very sure of Predroavaro. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, BPD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
Mushrooms are very medicinal. This is why anybody familiar with psilocybin and any other kind of fungi will tell you, "They are alive." They have a very ancient wisdom. To my experience, all mushrooms have always said, "Pay attention to your life. How you think, how you feel, and what will you do with the information that you always knew, but now are seeing in this point of view." This is why mushrooms are so respected in tribal cultures. This mental health treatment works for me too. Half micro doses do the trick for me. At least a few days at a time with lengthy time in between. Never addictive. Thank you for sharing this point!
If you aren’t a believer in the Christ Jesus I would be shocked. Your message is one of love. You speak truths that I don’t even think you realize. Either way, you definitely have the right way of thinking. Much love sent your way.
Is it just me ? I didn’t fast beforehand I ate some food and Crushed my mushrooms into a hot tea.. I couldn’t sleep the whole night but didn’t feel anything much nor did I get any visuals.. just couldn’t sleep.. this was Penis envy.. I took about 6 grams
i think the reason why so many people meet these beings is they hear the storys about it and they want to see the same stuff so they convince themselves to see the same thing self hypnosis it is more than likely
@@HoldenLee333 ive had my experiences with it completely different than others but i have seen it qhere people well listen to all these stories about trips and really want it and then get it . but then i have seen people that have tried it with hearing none of the others peoples stories and have had completely different experiences. in many cases. it seems pretty logical to assume that people having those experiences is because in there mind the really wanted to see that stuff and got it
DMT was mind blowing for me. I saw every mathematical equation that ever existed, I lived the life of every creature. I was a dinosaur with an elephant trunk that lived on a planet with a blue sun and red vegetation. I heard colors and saw sounds. It was truly magical.
That makes sense. N-n definitely requires 3 massive hits. The 5 as I understand it requires just one good one. Can you imagine 3 massive hits of 5-meO? Mike Tyson took 2 and he was beyond beyond the unknown.
Interesting. Could this repetition be because your NDE could have been caused by your brain (pineal gland specifically) released a massive amount of DMT right before your clinical death? I know people might be angry at me for suggesting that the experience might be chemical and not supernatural, but, without ego attached, that is one possible way of framing the experience. Yes, it could be "something more", but it could also be something more prosaic. All possibilities means all possibilities. Even the ones you might not like. Having an open mind doesn't just mean having your mind open to the supernatural, it also means having your mind open to the mundane too.
@@HoldenLee333 That said one day when I'm not in a career field that will fire me for experimenting, I'd like to try DMT. Especially since our body readily metabolizes it within like 15 minutes (correct me if I'm wrong). I want to see if there is anything meaningful that I can bring out of an experience, or if it's just my brain making stuff up that has no real world applications. I see alot of people having experiences, but the information they bring back is either not something you can use, if you know what I mean, or it's spiritual aphorisms that I have never needed a "trip" in order to realize. However, after hearing about the intense spiritual experiences people have had on this stuff I'd like to see what it's like for myself (especially since it won't show up on a drug test and isn't addictive). I just don't want to come to work with my mind blown, which would affect my personality, and in turn make all of my coworkers and supervisors suspicious which would cause trouble for me.
I didn't understand everything (English is not my mother tongue) but it came across to me as if you thought taking a substance wouldn't help. It depends on things like love, all the things you said. It's true, it depends, but to really feel it a substance helps, or rather it is necessary in quite a few cases. Otherwise it's just words, you get stuck in the words, but you can't really feel it, it doesn't resonate. Maybe you can't imagine that because you had a different experience so early on in your current incarnation. My experience. Thank you for your interesting video.
I really struggle with this. Comparing NDE’s to DMT trips like this, because it kind of confirms to me that NDE’s are a result of the DMT being released in the brain. Which kind of just feels like an evolution based coping mechanism we developed over time to make death a more bearable experience, which would explain some people not having it. Maybe their gene pool hasn’t developed that mechanism? But at the same time it’s hard to really explain away the similarities between a lot of NDE’s and similarities of DMT trips. There’s a lot of corresponding threads. Even if you read between the lines of stories you can see people explaining the same thing someone else did just in a different way, because they interpreted it themselves differently. I’ve had a big spiritual awakening over the last 6 months, but I’m really trying to figure out how to logically perceive these sorts of stories. Undeniable piles of coincidences that stack up to the point of clearly not being a coincidence, proving the afterlife. Or is it just a coping mechanism our body developed? I wish I knew, and I wish I could find DMT to understand firsthand what you’re talking about.
There is most certainly something beyond this reality and we return to it. Until you’ve had some of these experiences, it’s really tough to understand exactly where you go. I’d be skeptical too. But once you’ve touched these realms, the would we are in now is clearly the dream. Fear not.
My experience was profoundly intense and emotional. Initially, I was gripped by fear, genuinely believing I was on the brink of death. However, in the final moments, I was enveloped by an overwhelming sense of love and peace. It felt as though all the love I had rejected throughout my life was flooding back to me, which moved me to tears. It was almost as if I was mourning for myself.
I’m gonna be honest. This video touched my soul. Like I really was drawn to this video for a reason and it helped me understand an answer questions. No one else has been able to help me with so far. Thank you so much for this.
This story just makes me wanna say , I love you to everyone. We are too addicted or distracted from what really matters, at least I am. What matters is you , me, us, everyone here who is just trying to connect. ❤ thanks for your story. I heard that sound once it’s like a buzzing sound.. I call it the bee train. Feels like a train is coming. I got from praying and falling asleep with my eyes open by accident 😂
