Im in love with one boy, and tonight I had a nightmare he rejected me.he treats me as a friend, and he never saw something more in me.that's why im here..
for years ive been yelled at for doing wrong things.... ive only recently learnd all these years i keep doing the same mistake because i dont feel empathy
I’m sorry I really am trying I am I’m sorry I’m trying my hardest I..I’m sorry I really am sorry I’m sorry i said sorry please stop please…I’m sorry please forgive me…i’m sorry
"I've spent 5 hours to make this theory! I've looked for information for so long and all for what? For being devalued!" Sorry my friend, I can't realize if I hurt someone. I can't see it. I don't know why I bite...
timestamps! 0:00 - 5:22 | Black out days 5:24 - 9:32 | bang bang bang bang 9:33 - 18:40 | Never (Idk for sure😓) 18:40 - 21:51 | (IDK IM SRY) 21:53 - 27:23 | Chamber of reflection
"Don't lie!" "How come everything you touch gets broken?!" "Sorry won't make it better or fix it!" "Why are you acting like _______ now?" "You don't want to grow up to be like ______ now do you?" "You were such a good girl when you were younger, look at you now!" "You waste all your time on the internet!" "The internet ruined you!" "Your so selfish and a brat!" *"Your a bloody liar, -dumbass-, cow, selfish brat!"* *"Your so addicted to your phone/ internet!"* POV: your the younger sibling growing up with an abusive older brother who ruined your mental and a bit of your physical health Your older brother is now the disappointment of the family, and they now finally focus on you to make sure you don't grow up to be like him *Too bad they tried too late.... Or is it all your fault? You don't know anymore, you just want to disappear* *Your terrified of growing up now* *Is it everything your fault? **-No Yes?-** You don't know anymore....* *You just wanted to understand him, you wanted real love from him, why? Why is it so hard to be just loved and understood, you* *forced yourself to go through his perception, it just left you more broken, why? Why? WHY?*
"we will never be like them. and they need to realize that" - Eva Apel (me lmao)<3 Phantogram -- black out days 00:00 -- 5:22 Sohodolls -- bang bang bang bang 5:22 -- 9:32 Mag.Lo -- never 9:32 -- 18:36 Ezekiel -- help_urself 18:36 -- 21:50 salad days -- Chamber of reflection 21:51 -- 27:20
_T I M E S T A M P S _ Black out days: 0:00 - 5:23 Bang Bang Bang Bang: 5:23 - 9:32 Never: 9:32 - 18:45 help_urself: 18:45 - 21:55 Chamber of Reflection: 21:55 - 27:23
When you got blamed for something but you don't know how to communicate well under pressure and everyone is mad at you, you get defensive and make it worse because no one believes you.
You're sitting handcuffed in The back of The police car, staring wide eyed down at The car floor. Your eyes flutter to your blood soaked hands, and One singel sentance repeats in your cracked mind... "i did'nt mean to... I did'nt mean to... I really, did'nt mean to..."
my entire life I've been criticized for thing I've never done or would never do and it sucks when nobody believes you and your just sitting there thinking " its not my fault why wont you believe me?"
Heres a small vent, since i need to find atleast one person who can relate! Right now.. I'm not even an teenager. Im below the age of 13 Rn.. My parents think that i'm happy and all because im still under the age. But i'm not. I don't feel much. The only thing i find comfort in is music, drawing, and reading. Thats all. I don't know where my happiness went. Its been so long. I miss it. I hate feeling like such an burden to my friends and family. I like to be alone, but at the same time, i dont want to be left out.. i want to know the feeling of someone being there for me.. i need an shoulder to cry on, a hand to hold at difficult times.. I need someone.. anyone.. Not some fake comfort character.. Not some fantasies.. I need someone.. I cant do this sh-t anymore. I cannot. I want to end it. but.. i'm just too young, and i'm scared to.. Ive been too tired to even try.. My friends dont understand me, and left me.. i basically have noone to talk to anymore, since they have their own friends. At lunch, i do sit with them.. but they just dont speak to me, unless they have an question or if they need something from me. It f-cking hurts like hell. I miss to lean on a shoulder. Now ive been growing more independent, everyone thinks i dont need someone. Im sorry if you can relate. Have an nice day while you can.
Man i fucking hate these cringe ass emo edgelord playlists that plague RU-vid. Sad part is that if you posted something like this in 2016 you'd get annihilated for it but idiots like you which sadly make up a good proportion of RU-vid users have had your brains fried so now you can post shit like this and get support. Sad.
