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Oink Oink.. Few days ago.. I went over to the Big Window.. and I was given a Note with your Picture.. when I saw the Picture of YOU.. I fell in Love with YOU.. and I don't know How I can just by looking at your Picture.. I wanted an explanation How can something Like this happen to Me and started to Question my self.. what is it about YOU I saw that YOU are so Special.. and I would flip the Back side of your Picture.. A Note was attached in the back of the Picture and you have written an Address.. I am thinking about.. why would you put your Address on the back of your Picture with the Note Card.. I know that I have been going over to my Window in my room.. and when the Day goes by and I see that the Night has Come.. I would open the Window of the Room.. trying to get some air into the Room.. and I would sit.. and I would Look Up.. I started to ask Questions.. is there an Angel who can Hear me.. can the Angel come near and take a Message to YOU.. would the Angel allowed me to speak so that the Angel knows my Heart.. knows how much I want YOU to know that I love YOU.. to Know how much I think of YOU.. will the Angel come on my side and help me to get to YOU.. So I would always sit by my Window in the room.. it was the Day I went over to the park.. just to walk around and to enjoy the people loving the Out doors.. and I would stop to catch my breath.. I stood there by the Tree.. and I saw you at the Park.. wearing the White Dress.. and I saw you smiling.. there were children around YOU.. and the way YOU gave the attention and the way you gave the affection to these Little Ones caught my eyes.. that I see you love to be around children.. holding hands.. the little hands of the children.. little Boys and girls would give you the Big Smile when they look at you.. if YOU love these children and they are not your children but neighbors.. it can be strangers or friends.. Not sure who these Children belongs too.. can be from the Relative of Yours but I would see them always wanting to be close to YOU.. to be near you.. wanting your attention.. and crying over you for the affections they need.. and they just don't want to share but want to be with YOU close.. I remember I had the camera in my hand.. I don't know why I have taken this Camera but for some reason.. I told myself maybe I might need one just In case and Yes.. there you were.. smiling with the Children.. lowering yourself on their level and making each faces to smile.. giving hi fives and I would hear the children laughing and making you laugh.. I had to take a Picture of YOU.. I am so sorry if it can bother you because YOU may not know me.. but I have this feeling.. YOU may Not know me yet.. but I believe that YOU WILL find Out soon.. you will know my Heart.. as I put the Camera lens close to my eye and I would zoom in closer view and I would stand still by this Tree and as YOU would get UP standing tall and YOUR Head turns in a direction where I can see the whole view of YOU.. I click on the Camera and It has taken a Picture of YOU.. such a Great view it has taken.. of course YOU did Not notice.. did YOU and I would lean over on the Tree on my Back side to turn away.. because I did Not want you to think I am a stocker.. which I am Not.. just some one who admires and adores YOU is the better word for it.. NOT TO confuse you being weird or strange.. I started to trust ON this One Angel.. and I had to get a Prove.. a Picture of YOU.. I started to go over to the Window and I would lift UP to open the Window in the room.. and I would wait.. as I would sit by the Window.. and I waited.. Angel.. OH Please Angel.. come this very Night.. I wanted to show the Angel the Picture of YOU.. and I wanted to ask if the Angel answers Wishes or can it be a Prayer in my book.. so I would wait for the certain Hour which I would meet this One Angel.. As I waited and the Hour becomes pretty late into the Night and I can hear something which woke me up.. I be leaning to sleep by the Open window of the Room and this One Angel shows UP.. and I would LOOK at the Angel.. and I would ask.. Do you answer about Love.. and I would show the Picture of YOU to this Angel.. I know that it might sound very strange to YOU and to this Woman.. but I want to ask you a Big Favor.. I want the Heart of this Woman.. I want the Big Heart you have.. can YOU please help me to get to YOU.. of course the Angel tells me to Introduce myself to YOU.. and to be your friend at first.. and to show YOU how much I wanted to treasure and cherish this friendship and to make the TIME to let it work the Magic of Love and I am thinking.. I am Not good with Words when it comes direct connection face to face.. maybe I can be shy which is NOT good.. which I can be showing the lacking Sign of NO confidence because I know myself just too well of my Low Points.. but I always wanted to share and show the strength of what I have.. I too have my weaknesses but I also have the strength that can do something Much more than my weaknesses.. that is why I am asking this Angel to help me another Way.. because I don't want to risk something very valuable to lose it all for Nothing.. but I want it all.. and I want to win it all for Love.. Can this Angel please help me.. the Angel smiles knowing that I do want Your Love.. I want your attention and want your affection.. want YOU to know that I wanted it all that means everything.. the Angel looks at me.. and I would show this Angel the Picture of YOU and told this Angel.. it was at the Park I saw YOU.. and that I saw with both eyes how much YOU enjoyed being around children.. and Never felt this touch IN MY HEART which moved me so deeply.. that I saw your smile growing with time as YOU were close to these children.. and Yes.. I would go to the Park from time to time.. just to get OUT and to enjoy the Nature.. and of course.. just hoping that YOU be there at the park.. and each time I would come or go to the Park.. YOU are with these children.. and they would follow YOU around.. and I would watch YOU sitting down.. the Boys and Girls circles around you like a picnic and I would watch YOU open a book and YOU are reading to the children.. hands are going UP HIGH as you would ask Questions and I hear answers from the Little children.. I am standing by the Tree.. Only thing that I can hear is my Heart just be beating.. wondering WHY do I feel like this way.. I don't even know YOU and YOU don't even know me yet.. does this means something.. and I would just stand there and watch YOU smile and even laugh with the children together having FUN.. I would go home.. wondering about this Heart.. it feels like an Heart attack on me.. is it me who is weird or strange.. but I know that I am Not really into children.. but when I look at you with the Children.. even though I may not be close.. I just feels close and Near YOU and I just smile watching YOU having FUN and enjoying that TIME.. when the Children are all smiling Big and they are all glowing because of YOU.. and I would stand there.. maybe it means that as a MAN I am changing.. recognizing the Need of a Love.. of a LOVE from a WOMAN Like YOU.. wanting to be close to YOU and just to enjoy the time with YOU and to say I love YOU.. I would wait by the Window.. the Angel does Not come this very Night.. and I am thinking maybe I should Not of asked this Angel anything.. maybe this angel just can't help Me.. that is when I have received something at the Door.. the Next day comes.. and I hear a knock at the door.. and when I open the Front door.. there was a Picture of YOU and in the Back was the Address.. of course NO ONE was there when I opened the Door.. the Picture was on the Floor and I had to go pick it up.. and it is the Picture.. the WOMAN that I have taken picture from the camera.. it is YOU and I am thinking.. is it the Angel WHO really talked to Me.. was the Angel there are the Park with Me and He saw YOU which I could Not see this Angel.. and Your Address was written.. and I am thinking.. what does It means.. does it means that I can go visit YOU.. but there is One thing that I can do that I can give.. I can write YOU Letters like NO OTHER MAN can.. I can tell YOU things that I know for sure Only YOU can hear but what MANY OTHER WOMEN can't.. and I would look at your Picture.. flipping the back is the Note with Your Address.. I remember the First time I went over.. I was in the room.. all I could think of is YOUR BIG HEART.. so I would sit by the desk.. with the Pencil.. and I drew a BIG HEART.. on a sketch paper.. I took it with me.. looking at the Address.. and I had to wait for the Bus.. I never thought that it be a LONG RIDE.. the park is so close to my House and if I am taking the Bus to go to the Address YOU gave me.. it was like three HOURS long of the drive.. coming to this Park.. but I am sure there must be a Park near where YOU LIVE because while walking for 30 minutes long after the three hours of bus drive to the bus station.. I saw a park.. a BIG PARK when you look across on the Other side.. but YOU come to the park which is close to My House which means YOU are taking the same Long hours of route.. but I am wondering WHY.. I remember I was by your BIG WINDOW.. and I would be asking for YOUR BIG HEART.. I wish that I did Not come out the strong to YOU.. I did not mean it like that if I scared YOU OFF.. I was excited of going to the right Place to the right person.. to YOU.. I wanted to show YOU that I came to show you that I was here but wanted to tell YOU what I truly desired from my Heart.. that I wanted Your Big Heart.. because that is what I saw when I first saw YOU.. where I can Open my arms wide
MAH MAH.. I see YOU sitting on the King's Throne Chair.. and YOU stand UP.. pointing the Sword at the 1st top General and in the Outer court.. behind is a Place where YOU spar.. and I am looking at YOU.. Your Sword Points at me.. and I am wondering what does this Means.. and I turn to Look at YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. and I would go down on two Knees.. My arms stretch forward.. and My Head LOOKING at the Ground.. YOU point the King's Sword at Me giving me the Permission to speak.. My QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. what does this Means.. WHY are you pointing the Sword to Me and the 1st Top general.. and there is the Messenger in the Back.. and I see YOU pointing your Sword at the Message at the back to Speak.. and the Messenger who has the scroll unfolds and shares about what is Going On.. the Enemies of the War is drawing Near and the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH wants me to challenge to Fight the 1st Top General.. and WHO WINS will take that Seat.. and I turn to Face YOU.. and my Head looks down to the Ground.. Your Sword Points at me to speak and I would say.. HOW can I fight the Best.. I am truly UNWORTHY to fight the TOP GENERAL.. I have NO training of Wars in combat.. this General wins battles at Wars and has helped this Nation.. I have heard that HE can KILL many armies with the Sword.. and I am Not much of that experienced of wars.. ONLY thing that I am good at right now is Loving YOU as My QUEEN.. the QUEEN of my Heart.. and I see YOU still pointing that sword and Pointing that Sword back to the TOP.. the 1st General.. and I would hear.. the Seven friends of Mine all comes behind Me.. two knees on the ground.. arms stretch forward and Heads looks to the Ground.. Please.. I can't fight the first.. the TOP General.. and I see YOUR sword still Pointing.. and It seems like the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH is Not having it at all.. and I see you stepping down the Steps to the Ground.. and the Sword on my Neck.. and I would say.. if you need to Cut me.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Please do so.. it is better for me to DIE by that sword.. I rather Die by your Sword because the Sword belongs to the ONE WHO I Love the Most.. if YOU would LIKE to end my Life right here.. Please so it Fast and Quick MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would lift UP my head and close Both eyes.. and I wanted to see you strike my down with the edge of the Sword.. I be the Most Happiest to even die by that sword because YOU KNOW that I am dead by the ONE WHO I love the Most.. I would watch the 2nd Top General and He comes behind the Seven friends of mine and two knees to the Ground.. arms stretch forward and Head looking to the ground with the Seven Generals who walks with HIM.. they all goes.. two knees hit the Ground.. arms stretch forwards and Heads all LOOK to the Ground and shouts together.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. SHOW MERCY.. SHOW MERCY ON US.. strike all of US together.. and I am thinking.. what is happening.. and I open both eyes.. and I see YOU back Off and I just can't believe what I am here.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. YOUR sword is close to My neck.. and It is ready to take my BLOOD.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. please strike Me down Now.. I am ready to Die.. ready to die by your Sword but before YOU strike me with that Sword.. remember HOW MUCH I Love YOU.. I don't care any More.. NOW the 1st general.. the Top best walks UP and He kicks Me on the chest.. without getting the permission from YOU the QUEEN.. and It makes me so Made for NOT HONORING who YOU are.. and HOW rude is that to do it without the CONSENT of the QUEEN.. YOU are Not the Princess any More.. but the One TRUE RULER NOW and I fall on the ground.. and I see YOU angry at the situation.. as I am laying on the Ground.. I would get UP from the GROUND.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. because of WHAT this MAN has done without your WORD.. without your CONSENT.. without your PERMISSION I will take this Challenge.. and I get UP.. Now the Men would make a Big circle around and He walks to the Back where the sparring ground takes Place.. and without.. kicking me in front of YOU when He did Not ask for the Permission when YOU are standing there against my word.. I don't like that at ALL.. so I would walk to the Sparring Ground and the 1st TOP GENERAL stands there with the Sword.. and I am just.. How can he do this when YOU are speaking with me.. and did NOT even ask the permission or have the Word consent and I would pull the Sword Out of the sheath and I would LOOK at this General.. and I see you walking back UP the steps and YOU stand.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I see you POINTING the KING'S sword and YOU swing that sword to Fight.. and I look at Him and I just run UP with the Sword in my Hand.. HOW dare YOU to act rudely in front of the QUEEN.. Our QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Show some respect by Honoring and I would jump UP AND swing the Sword in my hand and the 1st General counter Blocks with his Sword and the Blades hit each Other and my two feet lands on the ground and I swing the Sword side way and Would JUMP UP doing the back Kick and I would kick HIS face with a round HOUSE kick.. the 1st General falls to the ground.. and I turn to LOOK at YOU MY QUEEN.. I will Not lose for YOU.. I know that the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH has chosen this Fight with a Purpose in the Mind.. I know that there is a reason why YOU have chosen us to do this.. BUT I just do Not like to show anything.. But just to remain close to YOU.. to just to Love YOU by your side.. I hate to Fight but if it is needed I MUST defend it for YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. and the 1st General gets UP holding the Sword and HE swings the sword left right left.. right left right at Me as I am going back countering Blocking the Sword.. hearing the Blades Hitting.. IF I lose today My QUEEN.. if I lose I know that I must die.. just the way it Goes But I just can't Die.. I need more years so that I can love you More.. I just got started to Love YOU MORE.. I can't just die like this right.. I need More years to see HOW FAR I can love you so that IT can Out grow from NOW.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN and I would grab the Sword Tight and I would Jump UP forward and I would start to swing back at the 1st TOP General.. and the Blades Keeps ON hitting each Other.. and I would side KICK and then move forward with the Back KICK and able to HIT him in the chest.. and I would Jump UP and do the SIDE kick and strike him on the chest again.. at least One thing that I have fully grown to Do in my Heart.. TO LOVE you when YOU were the Little princess.. I started to Love you since you were so YOUNG.. and I always dreamed of Keep on loving YOU till the End.. Now YOU are my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. my QUEEN and I still Love you as strong as I did when I was YOUNG.. this never changed.. My Heart of loving YOU have always remained faithful because NOW I KNOW how much I love you.. the 1st General looks at me.. hearing me speaking as I would turn too LOOK at YOU.. he just freezes watching me.. and knowing that I have loved YOU for such a Long time and I turn my Head to face Him and I would look at the 1st General.. the TOP Warrior and I would say.. if you know what a Love Is.. it does NOT matter How many people YOU have killed on the battle field if YOU do NOT even know what it means to Love a WOMAN.. it does NOT matter if it is the QUEEN.. I know that I must be punished.. and I will die for the crimes.. if the Law says I can't Love the QUEEN and I am going against the law.. I will stand in the court and will be trialed for the case.. If I should be charged to Die.. I am ready to DIE for the Heart of My QUEEN.. if I am a dead Man walking.. at least I had the once in a Life to LOVE.. to LOVE YOU my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. if people in the court wants to punish me and this is a Crime to Love YOU.. I am standing and I know I am ready.. I have take so Many years to Love YOU.. and if I die today.. Please Bury Me with my parents.. and I would look at the 1st General and I would run UP and I jump UP and swing the Sword at HIM the Swords HITS.. the blades Hits and His sword falls to the Ground.. and the 1st General.. his two knees goes down and I put the sword on his Neck.. and I can hear the cheers of the Military troops shouting Out and I turn my Head to look at YOU.. and I see that YOU have pointed your Sword NOT TO KILL him.. your head telling me NOT TO strike Him and I raise UP the sword into the Air.. and I would shout.. and I turn around.. TWO KNEES hit the ground.. dropping the sword to the ground.. my arms stretch forward and Head looks to the ground.. and I am crying.. because YOU are standing there.. the Messenger behind is promoting me to be the 1st top General.. and I am just weeping and mourning in Joy.. and I see your Sword.. pointing at me.. and knowing that you want me to speak.. But my Words.. it is because the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH believes in me.. it is because YOU have given me a chance.. how can I come this Far.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. YOU even gave me this Permission to speak and to tell YOU about what it means to Love YOU.. even this is the Once in a LIFE time chance you give me.. I am suppose to be punished.. either be stoned to death.. die by the sword or hanged by the ropes.. YOU gave me the chance to share HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. I can be arrested and be thrown into prison and also it can be a treason
MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH gave me.. even this was a Once in a life time.. without your Permission.. without your consent of the Word How can I even challenge the 1st Top General.. it is IMPOSSIBLE.. but YOU have allowed and granted a WISH but I am NOT even allowed to be here.. NOT even as a PALACE GUARD.. I cried and Cried when YOU looked at the Official seal and YOU LOOKED at me and gave me the Permission to come into the Training ground.. when I saw YOU and How you looked at the Guard who was by the back gates which IT lead to the training ground.. I just could NOT believe because I was waiting for many days.. MANY people had to go home and were NOT ALLOWED.. but when YOU saw me.. YOU looked at me and told me I can come IN.. I cried that NIGHT.. because I needed only ONE CHANCE.. just a ONE SHOT and started to Love YOU because why would you even care about this Low Born.. a SON who was born to a SLAVE MAN.. why would you even give me this kind of chance.. and I would cry looking UP at the MOON.. that just for this ONE CHANCE in a LIFE TIME.. I will never disappoint YOU but show YOU what a REAL MAN.. who is from the most lowest Place can DO.. NOW.. YOU are the QUEEN of the Nation.. in the highest position taking on the highest chair.. and MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. YOU have given me the chance to fight.. just to raise me UP to the 1st TOP general.. and I would be looking at the Ground with my tears falling down.. giving me dreams to dream BIG.. How can a MAN dream like this without YOU giving me this kind of permission.. this kind of chance to be here.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. I wanted to thank YOU so Much for believing in Me.. Not just the miracle of life.. but even How much I love YOU.. I never stopped dreaming but kept on dreaming that Dreams can come true as long as YOU love.. I have never stopped loving YOU still.. this is the main reason why I am so driven and so determine.. so that YOU can see the Heart of MINE that I still LOVE YOU.. that watching YOU taking your Father's Place.. which HE once ruled as the KING.. NOW you are ruling in his Place as the HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would see the Seven friends of MINE.. they come behind me.. two knees goes to the FLOOR.. arms stretch forward and HEADS all look at the Floor.. the 2nd Top General and even the 1st top General with their generals all.. two knees Hit the floor.. arms all stretch forwards and Heads all look on the ground and tears of these Men weeping before YOU showing HOW much YOU mean to Us.. as the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH MANSAE!! and My hand grabs the Sword and I raise it UP to the Air and SHOUT LOUD and Clear.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MANSAE!! the voices of the Men behind me all raises UP.. HOORAY to My QUEEN.. MANSAE TO HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HOORAY TO MY QUEEN.. YOU are the true QUEEN of MY HEART and shouts so LOUD it shakes the ground together.. MANSAE to my QUEEN.. HOORAY TO HWANG WOO MAH MAH and we all cry together in tears.. as I would look at YOU sitting on the THRONE.. the King's Chair as YOU raise UP the King's Sword in the Air and tears falls the eyes and tears falls from the sky.. IT IS raining in joy in tears because YOU are the ONE TRUE QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH..I am thinking about the Meeting Board.. and watching the Moon that has come UP before me.. the Black smiths are all Hitting the swords with a Stone Hammer and I am waiting for My sword to be more sharpen and More stronger.. as the Master of the Black Smith is inside the place where He is at work.. and with the Seven Friends of Mine standing at the back of the training Ground.. waiting for the Swords.. and the 2nd Top rank General with the seven Generals are all with Me as they are too waiting for their Swords as many Black Smiths are using the Stone Hammers.. I can hear the hammers hitting Hard on the Blades of the swords as I am waiting for the Next Great War that is coming.. as I cannot believe that the 2nd top rank General has joined me as friends.. I have turned to LOOK up at the Moon and I am thinking of YOU.. the Queen.. who has approved the United Hands to work together.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. you know that It has been since Long.. I have been loving YOU.. and as I am Looking UP at the Moon.. I just can't stop with a big Smile.. and I would think Back.. when I saw YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. My Father would be pulling the horse.. and I would be sitting on the TOP of the Horse.. Looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I would be begging my Father.. Just to take me Once to see YOU.. and I would be looking at the Art Sketch paper.. my arms around the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I would Not eat.. I would Not sleep.. but in the Little ROOM.. after the Garden was restored and was Build UP.. My Father would take a LOOK at me.. finally I would collapse and Fell into a Deep Sleep.. and I did Not wake UP for three days and slept.. I remember my Father would be by my side.. he knew if He did Not take me to see YOU.. I might end UP dead Like my Mother.. when I woke UP finally.. my Father in tears looks at Me.. almost lost me there.. and told me that He was going to see YOU.. I just could not stop.. but My Heart kept on beating Louder and Louder as I grew to Love YOU.. Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I don't know why but I just can't stop.. my Heart just can't stop Loving YOU.. Please tell me why.. what have you done to Me.. to My Heart.. and My Father.. with the Horse.. He carried Me and Put on the Back of the Horse.. I am thinking.. am I dreaming.. please don't wake Me UP.. if I am dreaming.. if I shall Never wake UP in the Dream.. Please.. I just don't want to get UP.. as My Father would be pulling on the ropes of the Horse and I am sitting on the TOP of the Horse.. I remember my Father asking me.. WHY do I love the QUEEN so Much.. WHY do I love HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. what Makes you so Special that even I could Not eat for many days.. and even went into a deep coma for few days and been begging my Father for a long time that I must go to see YOU.. and what if I get caught by the Law.. which a servant Boy cannot Love a Royal BLOOD LINE.. that I can be put into death.. it can cost my own Life.. isn't my Life more precious than to Love and I would be sitting on the Top of the Horse as my Father would be asking me these things.. I would say.. I only live Once.. and I will just die if it means to Die.. but to Love is just Once in a Life time.. I can't just love anyone.. must be because I know that I have a BIG HEART.. even though I may be so small.. may be nothing.. has NO NAME.. be a slave Boy.. to LOVE is to love the QUEEN.. if my Heart can only love the QUEEN and NO ONE else and even it means my Life is on the Line.. I don't care what happens to Me.. even I went into Coma.. and does Not that tell YOU enough.. that I can only Love Once and when I love.. I want to love so Big that It be impossible and for Other MEN to say.. that is HOW a Real MAN should Love.. to Love His ONE TRUE QUEEN.. and My Father stops.. and He turns to LOOK back at me.. and he smiles.. but pauses because my Grandfather was close to the King.. which is Your Father.. PEH HA who just passed away.. Must mean something there.. He was the TOP COMMANDER.. to the Highest.. the Chief Commander He was is what my Father would say.. Must be something that I am connected to HIM because My Father never dreamed anything but just to be a Head of the servant.. and I am nothing like my Father.. I want to love My QUEEN.. I want to love my HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and when I put my mind and Heart into something that means something Real and BIG.. I will Never give UP.. until my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH sees me and believes that I may be so small what Others may be thinking.. but My Heart.. my Dreams and VISIONS are much more greater and in a SUCH HIGHER PLACE.. and My Father looks at me.. and asks.. what if I die because of this.. am I not afraid.. am I not scared and I would tell him.. if I was afraid or too scared.. I would never tried it in the first Place.. I would of never started something that I just could not finished.. I believe in Love.. and My Heart is very BIG even though I am a small person.. I am so small but my Heart and my Vision.. my Dreams of.. I will never stop until I know that my QUEEN.. which is YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH knows it the best in your Heart.. I don't care what anyone says.. but It has never stopped me to come this very far and still I have so much more to go.. and my Father laughs Out Loud and He pulls on the strings of the Horse and He begins to walk as he pulls the strings of the Horse. I am siting on the Back of the Horse.. Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I see the MOON appear before me.. I see the twinkles of the stars across the Sky and I am smiling as I am looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU and I would say.. MY QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am coming to YOU.. I will see you soon.. it takes few days to arrive to the Palace and My Father shows the Card that HE is the Head of the Servant.. the Guards by the gate opens.. and He walks while pulling on the Strings of the Horse and He goes to the training Ground.. I am looking from a distance.. and I see you standing there.. the Chief Generals with the Commanders.. even the Chief Commander is there watching YOU Practice.. I am seeing YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. as my Father keeps on walking ahead pulling on the strings of the Horse and gets closer and closer
MAH MAH.. Maybe when I am dead and gone.. he can finally see how much I loved YOU.. anyways I just could Not live with this Pain of keep on missing YOU.. my Heart kept on aching and breaking.. I would sit in the Little ROOM.. I even asked my Father again because I wanted to say something to My QUEEN.. to my HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I had NO little ROOM.. I had No shelter to put over my Head.. I had to sleep outside or at the friend's house.. felt like a Homeless Poor Boy.. but now I had a Little ROOM that I can put my Head over.. can sleep.. and I would hear my father telling me NO NO NO.. it is just too dangerous for me to get close to YOU.. and he did not want to see his son dying before his eyes but I am already dying.. I feel like I am going to die if I don't see YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. and One early Morning.. I would had two full buckets of water walking back to the Home.. and I fell on the ground.. some one saw me laying on the road and knew who I was.. knew my father and called him to get me.. the doctor looks at me while I was in the coma.. because I did Not sleep for days and did not bother to eat for few days either.. I just did Not want to live any more.. missing YOU drives me crazy.. it really kills me instead and the doctor asks my father.. do I love any one.. because the doctor knew the cause of this Pain.. this suffering came because my Heart was aching inside.. of course my father did Not say WHO I loved or was loving.. but knew this is because of YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. it is because I never stopped loving YOU since the day I first saw YOU.. ever since I met you at the Garden.. and How you came to visit and you heard about this Garden.. the first time I saw YOU.. you were sitting On the TOP of the Horse.. but had a large gathering of people surrounded you.. I came here sitting on the Top of the Horse.. only One person who brought me over is my Father.. who serves YOU as the Head servant.. I know that I have put my father through many pains.. but I am suffering too.. for loving YOU I had to cross many rivers.. looking at many oceans.. through the travel of the feet.. even getting this Horse Back ride.. but My father knows now that I love you just too much that he does Not want me to give UP.. my father told me when the doctor came to see me.. He told me because my Heart was suffering.. in so much pain of missing YOU.. as I would look at you holding the Bow in your hand.. the Other is the arrow.. and YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH would turn the head looking at the Target.. I don't know why I am here.. but I wanted to see YOU.. I missed YOU so Much my QUEEN.. it took many many days to come here.. and did Not eat much coming.. putting my father through so much pain.. of course I feel so bad but.. I knew If I can't see YOU.. I rather die.. I made that choice to die.. when My Father said NO.. and kept on telling me NO.. I could Not see YOU.. My QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I can't see YOU.. I made a CHOICE that I am going to end my Life.. I just could not eat.. I would be looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. I could not sleep.. this pain inside.. this Pain in my Heart.. this Ache kept on coming UP to me because I wanted to see YOU.. I wanted to get close to YOU but How.. I knew if I only begged.. my father would say No.. if I die.. then He will know that I love YOU.. that is when I knew.. I really loved YOU this much that NOW I am here on the back of this HORSE with him.. as I would watch YOU looking at the Target on the training Ground.. it was at the back of it.. the Black smiths are behind the generals and commanders.. behind the Chief Commander.. and I am looking at YOU.. as YOU would PULL back the strings of the Bow with the back of the arrow and YOU would aim and hand releases.. I see the arrow goes fly and It hits right on the Red Dot.. the Guard by the Target stands and waves the White Flag.. shouting Out BULLS EYE.. and I would look at YOU.. even though YOU are my QUEEN.. you are also trained to be a fighter.. I would hear the Chief Commander shouting Out Loud and Clear.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to my QUEEN.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. all of the military soldiers would shout Out.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to the QUEEN.. MANSAE to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. YOU are wondering why do I love YOU so Much.. it has nothing to do with Me.. but it is because YOU are my True QUEEN.. because I know that YOU are the real HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and there is NO ONE who can take your place in my Heart but YOU.. I knew when I first saw YOU.. it came out of you being a real Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. and How you flourish to become the CROWN PRINCESS.. then when I saw the poor People.. people from the Garden who came.. from far distances.. long distances they have traveled to the Palace.. just to see you and always came before the King.. PEH HA.. asking Your Father for YOU to be the Next Ruler in Line.. they have come from such a far long place.. just to talk to the King.. that the People.. they wanted YOU to take HIS PLACE as the RULER.. when I saw That.. before even this would ever happened.. I knew when you came to the Garden and to rebuild the Garden into New Homes for the People.. I wanted to join and be a Part of.. serving and protecting the Nation YOU are going to build for the future.. I knew YOU were chosen to be the QUEEN.. MY HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. the real TRUE QUEEN..I am looking at the Sun rising.. and I am standing next to YOU.. MAH MAH.. why are you crying.. and I am looking at you holding the Bow and the Arrows as you are pulling out to Shoot and YOU stop.. dropping the arrows on the ground.. I have never seen you in tears.. what is Matter with YOU MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I am watching the New Recruits Men coming Out of the tents.. My Heart is breaking as I am watching you In full of tears.. and I hear.. the Queen.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Your Mother is walking.. the servants and the Maid servants.. the men Servants who are attending her are all coming.. and the Queen drops on the ground.. and has a Letter in the hand.. and as I am looking.. this must be very serious case.. I feel like there is a great change about to come its place.. I had the Dream last Night about.. and when I look at your Mother the Queen.. and I see you just crying.. and I see you telling me to get the Letter in your Mother's Hand.. so I go over.. and grab the Letter out of her Hand.. the Six Princes also are coming with the Prime Minister.. the 12 Noble men comes.. and in my hand is the Letter and I would Unfold.. I would be reading this Letter and I am Not sure why I have to read this.. I am Not even the Messenger for the KING.. PEH HA.. but YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS is telling me that I could.. I just can't believe it.. Your Father.. His Official stamp Seal.. is giving UP his Position to Rule.. the King.. PEH HA does Not want to rule any More and has passed the Seat and as I am reading it a loud where all the Great Powerful Men and Leaders.. the Official has gathered before Me.. and I am also watching the Poor People.. the Ones WHO all came from the Garden.. mostly Homeless people.. and they are all standing hearing the Letter as I am reading before you.. I would fall on my two Knees.. and it states that the King is passing his throne to YOU.. the CROWN PRINCESS shall NOT be PRINCESS any More but to be CROWNED to be the QUEEN KING.. the Highest seat ever to be taken as the RULER and I would be shouting Out.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would turn to YOU.. and my hands let goes the Letter.. and I am Looking UP.. my two eyes filled with Tears.. just like my Dreams I had last night.. I never knew that It would happen this Fast.. but WHY so fast.. and I would hear.. all of the People great and small.. they all fall on their two knees.. lowering the Bodies to touch to the ground and say.. To the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. YOU are the new RULER for this Nation.. and I am thinking.. what is going to happen to your Mother.. is she Not the QUEEN and I am LOOKING at your Mother.. she also lowers and her head touches to the ground.. But that is YOUR MOTHER.. and I look.. Your MOTHER pulls the crown Off her Head.. the Messenger Comes with the King's Crown and it unites together as ONE BIGGEST crown.. and GOSH.. my Heart just keeps on beating fast.. the Messenger holding the Biggest Crown and He is walking with tears in his Eyes and I am looking.. all the people.. faces to the ground.. and the Seven of my friends comes out of the tent and they are all looking.. the Biggest Crown goes On top of your Head as the QUEEN of the Nation.. and they all fall on two knees.. heads touching the Ground as YOU are Pronounce to be the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH MANSAE.. I would hear the Little Boys.. all raising UP their hands.. Little Girls too.. raising UP their arms and Hands.. MANSAE to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would hear all of the voices shout OUT.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. and all of the heads are touching the Ground.. I am LOOKING at the ground.. Just could not help the celebration.. that You have become the true new RULER.. I have never stopped Loved YOU.. but kept on loving YOU till I get to see this and hear this.. I never imagined even the Poor people WHO I grew UP with me.. they are together all in ONE watching this Happening.. witnessing something that just can't happen but did Happen going down in the History of what it means to become a TRUE RULER.. there is Another Messenger on the TOP of and he blows the trumpet
MAH MAH.. Going to be fair when He finds the Successor.. Not because He loved YOU more or Less but to rule is the Most difficult seat to be In.. Only the Strongest and the Wisest can take His place and can rule.. giving all of the six Sons too a chance to prove that they can be on the spot.. but.. YOU are the One chosen.. the Little One.. youngest from the men but as the daughter Only.. and I would just mourn because I remember YOU would be sharing about this One point.. I remember when YOU became the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU told me One night about How your Father wanted to give it all fair to His Blood Lines.. but Only ONE can be seated in the Highest seat.. and it is Not that He loved YOU so much.. He saw the People.. He heard about what YOU have done even for the smallest.. the poorest people.. and I know and believe YOUR father believed that the people who was at the garden all came to support YOU.. I remember.. the People from the garden came to me.. and asking me where the King Stayed.. His Chamber.. I would lead the People of the garden to the King's Chamber.. the Servant for the King shares the Message.. and the King.. PEH HA comes and He would be seated on the Outer courts.. I was there.. by the gates just standing to guard the Post.. the Parents of the Children falls on their Knees before the King.. and they shared about what YOU have done when YOU were Young.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. How much you cared and shared the Love for the People.. and they would cry before the King.. PEH HA.. to make YOU the RULER.. that they will serve YOU as servants of the QUEEN.. to Make you the Next to RULE and would be begging the KING.. PEH HA.. never letting the King go until your Father the KING made and keep the Promise to make YOU the RULER for this NATION.. as I would watch the People of the Poor crying Out in a Loud voice.. they have come and travelled long ways away from the Garden just to tell this TO your Father.. the King.. that the People of the Garden will give UP their CHILDREN for the King's services.. I saw Little Boys and girls.. and they would come forward and fall before the KING.. PEH HA.. to Let YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH to rule over them.. as I would watch by the gates of the door.. the Little girls and Boys would fall begging and they started to cry.. how the CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH saved their parents Lived when NO ONE else cared if they lived or NOT.. that because of the Parents able to stand and live through it.. NOW they are here.. the Little children has come to help the CROWN PRINCESS and I would stand there crying.. watching.. the Guards had to push the Little Boys trying to go cling to the King's leg.. I just could not believe what I be seeing.. just my Heart.. My Heart as I am beating with my hand.. and I would fall on two knees and I started to cry with the Little CHILDREN.. and I would think about my own situation.. the Chance that the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH gave me.. I am here Now.. I was at the garden too.. I am looking at the Little children.. they are crying.. heads on the ground to the King because of what YOU have done.. even I was there.. I was there too at the Garden as the Little Boy.. these Parents many that I know has grown UP.. but they too were once like Me little BOYS and Little Girls in the garden and It broke me Down because I was reminded.. It was hard living in the garden as being broke and Poor.. had NO chance.. NO ONE did care about Us.. I started to Hit my Chest as I would cry thinking about what happened to the Garden the day YOU came.. the parents would be in tears as they are watching their children crying before the King.. PEH HA.. I am in the Back.. my Heart.. this Heart thinking about what I saw that day with the Parents when they too was a child.. I saw the King Looking.. YOUR Father was looking at all these People coming from the Garden and together crying Out because of what YOU have done as the Princess.. as the ROYAL BLOOD LINE and I saw Your Father.. the KING.. PEH HA.. his Heart was moved.. was touched by all these people coming together asking for YOU to be the Next Leader.. the QUEEN who can only rule for this Nation.. ONE BOY stands UP before the King.. your Father and tells Your Father that He is going to fight in the war.. even though he was Only a child.. I would watch a Girl stands up saying She will to enter the war to fight for this Nation and I begin to watch all the hands.. with the parents wanting to join in the Battle to fight in the war.. and I just could not believe they are going to give up their own Lived for this Nation.. for this Country.. for YOU HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I am watching as the King.. PEH HA promises to the People who came from the garden that HE will keep his Promises because the People of the Poor in the garden came together and gave a WORD to Him to find His SUCCESSION.. and when YOUR FATHER.. the KING told the People who came from the Garden that HE is going to keep his WORD and his Promises.. I saw the Little Children with the Parents all getting up and shouting with a great uproar of joy that YOU WILL be the one to rule.. to succeed in HIS PLACE.. a Dancing and singing songs came afterward in the Night.. and I would be thinking about this which happen few days ago.. and I would be crying.. that YOUR FATHER.. who loves you the Most has kept his Word.. and as I would lift UP my Head.. I see you with the Letter in your hands.. reading what Your Father.. PEH HA.. the KING has wrote to YOU.. but I did Not read the Bottom because IT was only for YOU.. but I know what HE wrote.. how much HE is truly proud of YOU and knows YOU WILL do well to keep this Nation going strong and tells YOU.. HOW MUCH the Father Loves YOU.. that HOW MUCH he is thankful to have a such a strong heart daughter like YOU to take over his Place.. NOW your Father can rest in peace at last.. I am crying as YOU are crying reading the Letter at the end.. I am so touched.. and deeply moved because I know that HWANG WOO MAH MAH has A BIG HEART.. I see you folding the Letter and You turn your Head looking at Me and I would knob my head UP and Down.. I am letting you know.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. the QUEEN.. I am also proud of YOU TOO.. YOU made it difference.. YOU made it very big.. Because YOU have such a BIG HEART.. I want to ask YOU QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. How can I hold your Big Heart.. I wish I can find a way to Hold your Big Heart.. and just kiss your Big Heart just once.. to let YOU KNOW.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am truly proud of YOU doing what YOU do and yes.. I do really really Love YOU.. why do you think that I still love you still.. because YOU are so special.. there is something about YOU that makes you really really special.. and the most important.. it is because YOU are just being real YOU.. MY QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Now I am looking back as when YOU first became the Crown Princess.. WAANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the day when It was announced.. it feels like it was like yesterday.. when I heard YOU becoming the CROWN PRINCESS even though NOW you have become the New RULER.. the QUEEN for the Nation.. just wanted to say.. I love YOU..I walk into the tent in the training Ground.. all the Men are inside the Tents.. and I would lay down.. before I would close my eyes to sleep.. I have a recent Picture of YOU.. a friend of Mine has gave me the Art Sketch paper.. and some one drew this Picture and the friend of Mine who kept it and gave it to Me.. it was before I came into the Training Camp with the Official Seal Paper.. the Letter which the Older man.. the Teacher gave to Me so that I can pass it to YOU.. MAH MAH.. and I am looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. and I would say again.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. do YOU know that I been looking at this Picture.. this Art sketch Paper that some one drew of YOU.. I remember when the Friend of Mine came to me.. knowing that I been Loving YOU for a Long Time.. He saw me with the Art Sketch paper.. it was when YOU were much Younger.. the Boy who went over to draw picture of YOU and who was caught after giving it to Me.. MAH MAH.. the One that I gave to YOU.. because I told you that I did not need it any More.. because I was next to YOU now.. and when YOU took it.. I saw you holding.. I asked you to Burn it.. but I see that YOU would Not.. and to be honest with YOU MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I had a recent One.. the Art Sketch paper which some one drew of YOU.. I know that YOU have ways to capture the Hearts of Many Men.. it does Not matter who Loves YOU but I know for sure that I can Love you More.. that is why I am telling YOU even though YOU may Not hear me on this very Night.. as I am holding this Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. I just saw you before I went into the Tent.. but I feel like I still has to keep On seeing YOU.. I don't know what it is about YOU.. maybe because YOU are the Crown Princess of the Nation to be the Next Ruler for this Country.. for this Nation.. because YOU are the greatest.. the Biggest.. the best.. a true Ruler and that is why knowing this Truth.. the Strength and the Power and the control.. the Dominance you have in YOU.. the More I look at YOU.. the More my Heart be moving.. and I just can't let YOU Go MAH MAH.. WHY can't I let you go MAH MAH.. Please tell me WHY.. and I am laying down.. as I would LOOK at the Art Sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU and I would fold into Half and lay it behind Me
MAH MAH.. Horse.. in the Garden bringing the People from the Royal Palace.. to rebuild the Garden.. My Heart.. I just knew it from the start that you were.. Crown Princess be different.. when I saw you doing something.. when MAH MAH cared for the Unimportant.. the Little People.. a person like myself.. I knew that YOU are going to do something very Big.. because even the Poor and the Little People are also your People too.. the most smallest of all.. I came from that Garden.. I am the Most lowest person in that Garden and I saw you in that Garden.. all of the Knees went down when the People saw YOU in that Garden.. tears would roll from the eyes.. just could not believe.. the Crown Princess.. MAH MAH.. it was the HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. from all of the People out there in the royal family.. it was the CROWN PRINCESS who came with the Horse.. who has this Big Heart of even rebuilding what was under Looked.. NO ONE cares about the Poor people.. NO ONE loves the Ones who are hungry and dying in such poverty.. growing UP in the Garden.. there was NO Homes.. when it rained.. I would sit in a Hay House.. but I be wet from the rain.. I would look across at the neighbor Hay Home.. just like my home.. we are staring at each other watching the rain fall from the sky and both of us are getting wet.. it is very hard when it becomes Cold in the Winter.. many of the Children living in the Low poverty will die because it is just too cold for any one to survive in that condition.. many times and Many nights.. many winter nights.. I do wonder How did I even manage to come this very far.. I saw many families in the Hay Homes.. the Parents of the children are in their arms and left to die as they are crying for help.. my Heart breaks each time I think of being so Low.. being so Poor and having not much.. but How is it that I manage to get Out of that Garden.. and I saw many Mothers burying their Sons and daughters in the Garden.. Hay Homes would fall and crumble as strong winds comes to blow hard.. I would watch strong rains breaking the roof tops of the Hays down and it falls down on people.. I would watch Many People living without homes.. begging for Food and crying in the Night asking for Help.. rescue Me is what I would hear.. and WHO ever thought it be YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. out of the Blue you came along on that Horse.. what really got to My Heart is that Hays and straws were no longer use.. when YOU Came MAH MAH.. it became bricks and How you rebuild giving it a NAME and it became a Town.. now I hear that it has changed to a City like.. market place where people are Now Living.. and watching many People who came from the Garden.. to pay respect for YOU.. many children grew UP well after YOU came to rebuild that Garden into a Town to City.. a market Place where More People are going there to Work.. MAH MAH.. if YOU did Not show UP.. I am Not sure if I would of made it here today and that is why I wanted to tell YOU that I am so thankful that I get to Love YOU now.. and every day I can Love you more because YOU have given me a Place.. where I can be so close to YOU.. just wanted to say to WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. thank YOU for rebuilding that Garden.. Now that Place is flourishing and more people are going to come here after they make it Out of that Garden.. as I would close Both eyes and I am dreaming.. I am Not sure but I look at the door in front of Me.. behind me is the Seven Friends of Mine.. as the DOOR opens.. I walk in with the Seven Friends.. the MAIN HALL ROOM.. and it is the Meeting Board.. on the Right side.. the Six Princes are standing from the First to Sixth SON and the Prime Minister with the 12 Council of Noble Men.. on the Left side is the Older MAN.. the teacher.. the TOP COMMANDER.. the Commanders.. to Chief Generals.. to TOP General.. 2nd Rank General to 3rd rank General and to the generals.. as I walk and I stop.. a stairs above me.. and the King's Chair.. the Messenger calls Out to YOU.. and I would stop.. it just can't be.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and the Scroll rolls Down.. and I see YOU walking UP the stairs.. and I see you turn around.. MAH MAH.. the Messenger walks UP to YOU.. the Crowns are changing.. I am wondering what does this Mean.. and the Messenger reads the scroll pronouncing that YOU be the QUEEN.. My Heart.. are you trying to KILL my Heart.. I know that It is going to Happen.. but is it going to happen NOW.. are you the True QUEEN.. to be pronounce.. and the Messenger walks UP.. holding the KING's Crown and Puts on TOP over your Head.. HAIL to the QUEEN of NATION.. and I fall on two knees.. and I am crying.. I know it suppose to be the Best day to celebrate.. but How about Me.. I am now suppose to call you HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. that is the QUEEN.. and I hear the Voices in the MAIN HALL room.. in the Board of Meeting calling Out.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and voices grows louder and louder as they Shout to YOU.. knees all hits to two.. and shouts Louder HAIL to the QUEEN.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. and I am crying louder and Louder.. How can I love the QUEEN.. Please help me.. How can I love you when YOU are seated as the QUEEN of the Nation.. as HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I am looking at the ground.. I see you sitting on the King's chair and YOU stand UP.. pulling Out the king's sword.. hands all lifted UP.. and voices raises UP higher and people are all crying.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH MANSAE.. MANSAE to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would open two eyes from the sleep.. I know that this means some thing very big is going to happen.. it must be a sign that YOU are going to rule for this Nation.. and I would stand UP and get Out of the tent.. and I am standing alone still dark.. with my hand is the sword and I pull it Out.. LOOKING at the Blade.. the War is coming.. first we needs to win and beat in this WAR but I know and I would JUMP UP in the air left right left right swing the Sword.. I know Not much time but for the CROWN PRINCESS.. for WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I must fight to Protect so that YOU can sit on that THRONE. the King's Chair to become my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH. as I would LOOK UP at the MOON.. my both feet lands on the ground.. and I turn to LOOK.. I see you standing there.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I know that YOU NEED to rest and I would fall on both KNEES.. my arms straight forward and Head looks down.. and I see YOU holding the Bow in your hand.. grabbing the arrow.. and I see that YOU are practicing shooting and Hitting every shot on BULLS eye.. I see you turn and you Point your Sword at me and I would say.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I just woke UP from a Sleep and Just came out waking from this One Dream I had.. what is going to happen to Me when YOU become the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I know that I can't Love you anymore if YOU sit on that KING's Throne Chair.. I know for a fact that YOU are chosen to RULE for this Nation.. and I know that YOU be a QUEEN who will rule.. but for me.. I know that I can't stay any longer.. after the War.. after the Battle and YOU win for the Nation.. I know that the People are going to choose YOU to take your Father's Place.. who will be the One to rule and direct for this NATION.. but if I can't love you any more.. I know that I must Go and YOU can select the MEN.. I will let them stay with YOU and I will go alone.. it is just too hard for me because I have been loving YOU since when I was a young Boy.. ever since I saw YOU for the first Time.. my Heart would beat more than it skipped the Beat.. but I know.. the people also who came from the Garden.. they are seeking for YOU to rule over them too.. that is why they are going to fight and unite so that they want to PLACE YOU over them.. if I can't love YOU any more.. there is NO reason longer for me to stay any more.. I can't live without loving YOU more.. that is the Part where it hurts me the Most.. I just can't keep it to myself and be silent.. if the council of Noble men sees me keep on doing this.. they are going to find ways to put my chains and will try to persecute ME.. they are going to try to kill me for this.. that is why I know that I must go after the War.. will you let me Leave Your sight after the War.. either way I am a dead Man now.. the Prime Ministry with the 12 council of Noble men tried to find ways to execute me because I am hearing words.. so Please.. if I can't love YOU any more.. please let me GO and I can go as far.. I am thinking about returning back to the Garden where I came from.. and I would see you pointing the sword and YOU remove the sword away from me.. picking UP the arrow.. putting on the end of the Strings of the Bow.. pulling it back YOU would aim and release.. the ARROW hits right in the Middle of the target.. I am thinking.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH is so good even at Night.. YOU just never miss the shot hitting this target.. in this dark Night.. it is so hard for me to see the target.. and I am hearing the Soldier by the target.. the flag is moving around.. But.. YOU know that I still Love YOU.. I will always love you no matter where I go.. it is just that It is getting so much harder for me Now to Love the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. it is because I really Love YOU.. even from the Far.. when I was in a long distance I loved you then when I did Not see YOU.. Now I see you close that I love you more.. either way far or Near.. my Heart will never change of loving YOU more.. because I really
Tiffany thank you for your version of This is me. We as people need to remember that words bring life or death to people who are having a tough time in life. And I am one of those people.😇🙏👍
Just found an old favorites list from 12 years ago with you on it. I used to have the biggest crush on you lol. Glad to see you’re still posting. Hope all is well.
This rendition of this tune & this video are still bomb! I played the blazes out of it, back when and YT just plops it in recommended and I'm like.."What year is this?" Ahaha, excellent. Last I heard, Tiffany was engaged?! You go gal! Keep living yer best life and.. #keepitlit! 💛🎶
Hey Tiffany Alvord if you're reading this I want you to know that I'm depressed and anxious cuz my X girlfriend used me and took advantage of me for the last 2 years may God bless you and your family and keep up the good work
Oink Oink.. I am missing You.. I don't know why I can't find YOU anywhere.. as I am Looking at the waters.. the waves of the waters coming to the shore.. and On this Beach.. I been asking for YOU.. the Bottle I send to YOU.. I wrote a Note Inside and Put into the empty Bottle.. and it is called the Message in the Bottle.. I can't find the Bottle here on this Beach.. and wondering did it get to YOU.. YOU told me that when I write YOU a Note and put it into the empty Bottle and toss it into the Waters of this Ocean.. of course I would come to this Beach.. and I would be walking in the sand.. Looking for a Bottle.. and YOU told me before YOU left.. when I come to this Beach.. and with an empty Bottle.. Put a Note inside and write YOU something and if the Waters and the Wind allows to reach across and it gets to YOU.. reaches YOU on the Other side.. and if YOU read it.. you would write Back on a Note to let me know that It has gotten to YOU.. the Day YOU left me I remember we came here to the Beach.. and we spent the whole day at this Beach and telling me all kinds of Dreams YOU had.. and even we saw the Night Comes UP.. looking at the stars and the Moon up in the sky and YOU told me.. it would be so Nice that when YOU are gone.. and I started to Miss YOU.. to grab an Empty Bottle and write a Note for YOU telling YOU how much I missed YOU and How Much I loved YOU.. I saw you going into the air port.. as I watched YOU leave.. I wanted to ask YOU when will you be back.. but I did Not want to ASK YOU because what If you would say.. YOU don't know.. that even when YOU wanted to come time can always delay YOU.. so I left it with a Big Question Mark.. and Only Time will Tell.. what drives Me crazy is that this Beach I am standing is where YOU be smiling the Most.. that we would come to this Beach many times when we were together.. telling me that this is the most favorite Place to be because YOU can just be really YOU.. Now I am missing YOU.. missing YOU that it drives me crazy.. I did come here many times trying to look for the Bottle.. because I would write you Many Notes and send it on different times with different Empty Bottles.. and when YOU have this Big Dream of coming to this Beach with a hope that I am going to receive a Bottle with Your Note on it.. and YOU come here and YOU just can't find it.. I would even ask myself.. there are a lot of people who comes to this Beach.. and what if some one else saw the Message in the Bottle.. and YOU wrote a Note inside and thinking that I got it but it be a different person.. and it is the Bad timing for me Not able to get to the Bottle first.. because some one else who was here before me got to it first.. and that is why I started to Write YOU more notes.. and I would come to this Beach.. with the Empty Bottle and stick the Note Inside it.. Looking at the waters.. the waves coming in and leaving back.. I would toss the Message in the Bottle into the Ocean Water and the current of the waters and the Wind.. it seems like it is on my side because I can see the Bottle.. the Message in the Bottle going far from the shore.. and I am thinking after.. I wish that it can get to YOU.. because YOU told me.. when we both stand here on the Shore.. and YOU would tell me to do YOU a big favor.. that YOU had a wish.. and I would ask YOU.. what is that Big favor.. what is Your Wish.. Please tell me so that I can make you smile.. you know I would try my best to do what makes YOU happy and YOU told me.. when I miss YOU.. if I really loved YOU.. there will be a time that I be missing YOU so bad that YOU could not handle it.. then to write YOU a Note.. and tell YOU how much.. so that YOU know and put the Note inside the empty Bottle.. even though YOU may not see what I am doing.. YOU know because I love YOU.. and I know if I love YOU.. I would do anything to keep that part of the Promises of my Word.. and I started to Miss YOU more and More.. I can feel it in my heart How much I started to Miss YOU.. and I would be screaming from the top of my Lungs.. that I am missing YOU right Now.. I have been in the room.. collecting many empty Bottles.. and buying many Note Cards because I know that my Heart is coming.. so that I can tell YOU How much I love YOU.. How much I am missing YOU so much right Now.. it is driving me Crazy.. and standing here in the Beach.. I would Look at the Ocean waters and ask.. WHEN are you coming Back.. or Are you going to just leave like this.. making me Wonder more and more about YOU.. YOU did tell me that if I starts to Miss YOU so Bad.. that it drives me so crazy because there is Nothing I can do right Now.. I wish that I can do something but what can I do when YOU are gone.. that YOU are so Far away.. why don't you tell me that YOU are coming back.. after I collected many empty Bottles.. it became empty because I started to drink A lot.. missing YOU makes me angry and makes me mad but most times it hurts me.. like a HOLE in my Heart.. I want to see you again.. but why can't I see YOU again.. YOU told me that when the days like this come.. to write YOU Notes.. and I started to write on these Note Cards I bought and started to place inside the Empty Bottles.. even telling me to come to this Beach.. and Now What.. told me to toss the Message in the Bottle into the Waters of this Beach.. I been doing this and has been listening to Your Words.. asking me to do YOU a Big Favor and that it was Your Wish when I started to Miss YOU.. what if this Missing you of Pain never goes away.. because I never felt like this way Before.. does it means that I always loved YOU but never seen it before like this.. but it is affect of after you are gone.. I could not see it when we were together because I believed that YOU would always be here by my side and together I get to grow old with YOU.. I saw many tears in your eyes but also saw so many big smiles to light UP my Heart.. when I was going through so hard painful times.. YOU were there.. Not many words you would say because I wanted to heal alone.. but it was your Presence just being here for me made the healing a lot faster but Now.. watching YOU leaving.. and when coming to the air port.. I remember grabbing your Hand.. I would say.. do YOU really have to go.. why can't you stay here longer with Me.. why must YOU go.. why are you leaving me without answers.. are you trying to run away from me.. Please tell me.. how about my Heart.. what happens when My Heart becomes Broken.. I can't fix my broken Heart.. but YOU would tell me that YOU had to go.. and I asked.. when are you going to come back.. I would hear NO answers from YOU but all you told me.. YOU must Go.. and you turn to face me and tell me this.. WHEN I feel like I am missing YOU so Bad.. and that I can't handle the Pain of missing YOU.. the Beach.. the Note and the Bottle.. and I would see YOU walk away.. I can't believe that YOU are doing this to me.. why are you leaving me like this.. NO explanation but just telling me to go to the Beach.. WHY.. are you going to be at the Beach with Me.. what is this YOU are doing to Me.. as I am Now at the Beach.. My eyes are filled with tears.. It hurts me.. My Painful Heart.. I can feel this Pain inside of me because I am missing YOU.. and I do remember your Words.. as I feel my tears rolling down my both eyes.. I am sick of tired of crying for YOU.. because it is hurting from the Inside.. I am at this Beach.. YOU told me to come to this Beach.. when I am missing YOU that come to this Beach.. but coming to this Beach brings me a lot of memories.. of YOUR smiles.. and how much you enjoyed the wind blowing Your Face.. your sandals and going to the waves of the waters when it comes in.. getting your both feet to get wet and there will be times when YOU would splash the waters when I get close to YOU and I am standing here.. thinking about all of the great memories YOU gave me.. then WHY am I here if I am thinking of all these great things But you are Not here.. I don't care about the Great Memories if YOU are Not here with me today.. I want YOU here by my side so that I can tell YOU.. and I would start to think.. and I would cry so loud and my cries grew Louder because the Words.. and I would be wailing Out Loud into the Night.. as I am at this Beach.. I never told YOU HOW much I loved YOU.. when YOU were here with me.. we had a lot of laughers and would joke around a lot.. like Kids running around the Beach.. but Looking at the Notes.. the Cards that I would write to YOU and Putting into the Bottles.. into these empty bottles.. I would cry A lot and Loud because when YOU were here.. why did I not say of these words to you then.. I could of told YOU how much I missed YOU.. How much I wanted to be with YOU.. How much My Heart needed YOU and to thank YOU that You were here next to me.. why did I not say any of these Words because when I would write On the Note Cards.. I would tell YOU so much More.. the words that Needed to say to YOU.. needed for YOU to hear about my feelings and emotions when I express.. but as I am standing here.. in my hand I am holding onto the Bottle.. inside is the Message of the Note that I wrote Last night and I would say that I love YOU.. and that I miss YOU and that I wish that YOU be here with me and why do you have to be gone this Long.. and Now I am wondering is this the reason why YOU wanted me to come to the Beach.. to make me Cry and to regret for the Words I should of said then.. because Now I am regretting of the times that I could of told you then but Now.. even though I want to say it.. I know that I just can't because YOU are gone.. I remember you be telling me.. do I have any words to tell YOU.. and YOU would start with that when we come to this Beach.. and I am standing with YOU
Missing YOU.. asking you to do.. I am standing by the Window in my room.. Looking Outside from inside the room.. in my hand I am holding unto your Picture.. asking myself.. I do miss YOU.. why do I keep on missing YOU.. wondering about the Truck.. the Mail man who drives his truck has Not arrived yet.. I been waiting for this Truck.. and I am looking at the rain.. it is falling Hard as I am looking in the room.. looking through the Window.. waiting for the Truck.. I have wrote YOU a letter.. for few days I have Not written because I was sick.. I been dying in the bed.. could Not get UP out of the Bed.. and when YOU are so sick.. I think it is My Heart.. My Heart is dying because I am missing YOU.. and just can't handle this Pain of missing YOU so much.. for few days as I would be laying in the Bed.. only thing that I could do is grab hold unto your Picture.. and it made me so Mad.. made sick to my stomach because when YOU are so sick.. and having fever.. and trying to eat has been so hard.. coughing and throwing UP all over the Place.. and only thing I be thinking is YOU.. writing you the Letter.. and turning toward looking at the desk.. and every time I would get Out of the bed.. and my Head be killing me.. trying to pull the chair to sit by the desk.. and I would PULL out the Piece of Paper.. holding the Pen in my Hand.. wanting to write.. wanting to tell You something that I needs to say.. and I just can't write YOU On the paper.. and when YOU have to lay back down on the bed because YOU are so sick.. a doctor came to see me.. and told me for few days I needed to rest.. and I knew that is the only thing I could do.. but when I look toward the Desk.. only thing I can think of is the Mail Man who drives his truck.. coming to the Mail Box.. and I know that I am suppose to write YOU the Letter and fold it into half and put into the envelope and give it to HIM so that He can take it to YOU.. when YOU are unable to sit UP.. and the Moment YOU sit up.. trying to move.. my Head be banging Hard from the Inside.. with a fever that won't leave me alone.. it hurts me the Most because I am thinking of YOU.. and I am wondering.. what if YOU are standing out by the front door.. and YOU are waiting outside.. and YOU be looking at the Truck.. the mail Man who takes you the Letter to YOU.. I remember last time I went.. I was in the truck with the Mail Man.. and I wanted to be the One to tell YOU that It is me who has been writing you all these letters. that I wanted to show YOU for the first time.. that the One who sits be this side.. who sits in the room.. who sits on the chair by the desk.. that it is I who would pull out the Clean sheet of paper in front of Me.. and I would sit looking at your Picture.. I would stare at your Smile.. and I would ask myself.. is My Heart be moving because of YOU.. am I allowed to move my Heart.. am I allow to tell YOU that my Heart is moved when I see YOU.. that I do have a Name.. that I do have a Heart and yes.. most times I be missing YOU.. wanting to see YOU again and over and over I want to see YOU.. that I wanted YOU to know for sure that even though YOU may not see me Much.. but I just wanted to show UP one day to tell YOU.. I do have a Face.. that I do have a Name and that I want you to remember me.. Not to forget who is the ONE who loves you the Most.. and Not to forget me at all.. so I remember asking the Mail MAN.. if I can go with him to the Place where YOU live.. just to see YOU.. I just wanted to see YOU for the first time without Having Your Picture in my Hand for once.. How does My Heart feel when I see YOU face to face.. to meet YOU even from afar.. from the distance but enough to know that I am looking at the One who I love the Most.. I remember you took my breath away as I stood there.. I told the Mail MAN not to leave so fast.. that even with this much of space and distance I am alright as long as I am standing there looking at YOU.. I felt my Heart and it started to beat so fast.. did Not know that It was my Heart making the Noise.. beating from inside.. it felt like I was listening to a Drum beating somewhere but I believe.. I know that It was My Heart when I saw YOU standing by the front door.. I wanted to walk over.. and go to YOU and give you the Letter inside the envelope but.. I had to tell myself.. Not Now.. Not yet.. so I do remember opening the Mail Box and putting the envelope inside your mail box.. as the mail man asked me if He could go.. and I told HIM that He can go now.. as the Truck started to leave your mail box.. I just could not hold it in anymore.. I felt my tears.. and It ran down two lines as I would watch the Truck.. the mail man drives off.. because I am wondering now.. when can I see YOU again.. How long is it going to be from that time I was there.. will YOU let me visit you again or are you going to react the same way.. standing by your front door and Not moving at all.. YOU know that I am Not a stranger anymore.. but I feel like YOU are treating me as One.. you know that I been telling YOU what is in my Heart.. at least you can let me know that YOU been receiving the Letters and Knows that YOU been reading the Letters right?? Do you even take the time to read or do you just look at the envelope and PUT it on the side so that It can sit there to ROT like my Heart.. when the Mail MAN drove the Truck back to the My Mail Box.. I would thank him for taking me to the Place.. where YOUR MAIL BOX was.. and the mail man looks at me and noticed that I was crying and asked me why.. and I would turn to him and tell him.. what if YOU don't read any of the Letters that I write and give to YOU.. what if YOU do not open any of the envelope and the mail man tells me.. if I love YOU.. just to believe in the Love of giving.. if I really do Love you so much.. for me to always have the open Heart and just to wait.. to be patient with YOU will heal in time.. Just to Wait on YOU.. and it breaks my heart that this is the Only words I would hear.. I wanted to hear that YOU do take your time and you would open the envelope and YOU would sit and read the Letters.. and I started to cry louder.. of course He looks at me and decides He should go.. and I would watch the Truck.. the Mail Man drives Off.. I felt so broken hearted.. I do remember that it started to rain as I would stand there crying.. maybe this is the reason why I gotten so sick.. I stood there and it started to rain down on me hard.. as I would just turn and LOOKING at the MOON.. and did not care about how heavy the rain waters hit me.. getting me wet.. very wet all over the place.. but ALL I think was.. the distance that YOU made me feel.. and that I am Not a stranger any more.. I know that I can't be just a stranger to YOU right.. I been telling YOU.. writing you Letters.. and I have been telling YOU My Heart.. that from my Heart.. when I grab HOLD unto your Picture.. all I can think of is telling YOU how much I love YOU.. and I stood looking UP at the Moon.. and I do remember just going to sleep after getting wet.. for few days it has been so hard.. when you feel like YOU are dying from the inside.. with Hot fever.. and your burning UP because YOU are so sick.. can't get UP to eat.. and coughing and just feeling so down and Hurting all over.. the few days goes by.. and I am able to move Now.. and able to eat well.. and I been thinking of YOU more clearly.. but for some reason.. when I did Not touch the paper.. and did Not hold UP the Pen to write a Letter to YOU and Only thing I did was to Hold Unto your Picture and just stare at YOU and Your smile.. YOU start to miss something deep within.. I started to miss writing you a Letter.. and I knew I had to get the Letter Out.. so I went over to the Desk.. pulling out a clean sheet of White piece of paper.. and started to write YOU what is in my Heart.. and do YOU know what I been saying to you through the Letter.. I started to tell YOU about the few days that has been happening.. How I had to lay on the Bed and just could Not move much.. about the time I went over with the Mail man.. in his truck.. I would tell YOU through the writing that I felt like YOU giving me the distance and felt like a stranger instead but in my Heart.. I wanted YOU to feel close to Me.. for YOU to know that I been waiting for something that YOU can open UP with a smile.. just like the Picture YOU gave me with this Big Smile.. but My Heart broke when I saw the distance.. of course I know that it does take time for YOU to come close and Yes.. meeting YOU and seeing you the First time when YOU did Not expect was My Mistake.. maybe YOU did Not think that it was me in the Truck with the Mail Man.. or just surprised to see me without telling you in the Previous Letters I wrote to YOU.. and even though I wanted to surprise YOU.. I wanted in a way that Not like I am a stranger but that close person.. and I would share and write about the experience with the doctor who came into the home.. and How much I did Not like the fact that I had to lay there and do Nothing.. I just wanted you to know that I wanted to see YOU because I wanted to see if YOU loved Me.. if YOUR Heart would ever open to accept me as I am.. and to know that I been loving YOU for a Long time.. that I just can't stop but still be missing YOU and still be waiting for YOU because I know that I love YOU.. I wrote a Long Letter.. two Letters and folded into Halves and Put into the envelope.. Right after I finished the two Letters.. I had so much on my Mind and so much to say.. which is needed to come Out to tell YOU the Heart of Mine.. I would put the One Letter in One envelope and the second one in a different envelope.. and as I stand UP to leave.. I turn to Look at the window in the room.. and I just could Not believe what my eyes were seeing.. It started to rain down Hard.. this time I am not going to stand Out there to get very wet.. because of the rain
Open.. and I would stand by the front Door.. and I can see a figure.. but it is a figure of a woman.. in a white dress.. I know that it is Not the Mail Man.. and can it really be.. is this true.. and as I am looking.. the rain Stops.. the Hard pouring down of the rain suddenly stops on me.. and I can feel something.. My Heart is being moved.. My Heart is being touched.. can it be really YOU.. is It YOU who is standing on the Passenger side of the Truck.. and I just can't go On.. because YOU are taking my Breath away and if it is YOU who got the ride with the MAIL MAN.. in his truck and YOU came.. How can this Be true.. and I started to cry.. My tears just can't handle this feeling I am from the inside my Heart.. I would start to cry Loud because YOU just don't know how much I love YOU.. YOU do not know how much My Heart.. my MIND loves YOU.. my hand holding unto two envelopes.. and I would start to walk towards the Mail Box.. and I would stop by my mail Box.. and I see your eyes looking at my Hand holding unto two envelopes.. as I stop by the mail Box.. all I can do is cry looking at YOU.. I wanted answers.. because I had questions running through my Head.. wondering what is in your Heart.. but I know Now.. I never knew that YOU would come like this.. and Yes.. I was very sick.. for few days.. I wanted to die.. and wanted to never wake UP from this dying of my Heart.. Now I know the reason why I was dying from Inside.. it is because I love YOU just too much.. and it is YOU who I love the Most.. as I lift UP MY Arm.. and I see your two hands holding unto the two envelopes.. and I would say.. I have written two letters of what happened.. and YOU will know why I was delayed.. and YOU will know why I delayed because I never stopped loving YOU and even Now stronger than before I love YOU.. YOU are the most beautiful who takes my Breath away and even leaves speechless.. that is because I love YOU..I am looking Out the Window.. Looking for the Truck.. I know that the time.. looking at the watch.. the Clock in the room and I am looking through the window.. the empty Bottle on the top of the desk.. and I know that I been drinking.. trying to get YOU off my Mind.. ever since the New Picture came.. when I opened the envelope and I would pull out the Picture you have placed inside.. I would be looking at it.. ever since I saw this new Picture.. trying to erase YOU off my Mind because I been thinking of YOU and just looking.. telling your New Picture.. How Much I wanted to see YOU.. asking you through the New Picture.. when can I be close to YOU.. but only thing I been getting is No responses because it is Only a New Picture of YOU.. as I would write YOU another Letter.. telling you how angry I am getting because it seems Like I am the Only One who sees YOU.. am I the Only One who is going crazy.. is it only Me who be missing YOU.. is it only my Heart who misses you the Most.. is it only my Head which I am thinking about Love.. just wanting to say I love YOU.. do you not miss me at All.. do I ever cross your Mind.. how about your Heart.. if only I can ask your Heart.. what do you feel about Me.. am I truly special to YOU.. am I the Only Man who can Love YOU.. please tell me some words so that I can hear YOU.. that I am able to smile knowing even miles apart.. miles which leaves such a long distance.. but I needs to see YOU.. as I would sit by the desk.. pouring on the Shot Glass.. I would be taking shots after another shots.. as I would be looking at your new Picture.. the Photo that YOU gave to the Mail man.. who came last week and gave me the envelope.. Now I am going to ask him if I can go into the Truck and if the Mail Man can take me to the Place you Live.. I may Not walk towards YOU.. but close by I want to stand to see.. I just want to know How you are doing.. How would I feel if I see YOU in person.. even though there will be a distance between Us and I know that I can't come close right Now.. but enough room and space knowing that YOU are there.. I am Not asking you to come close to me Now.. but at least YOU can see that I am doing Good.. and that still I be loving YOU.. I may Not be able to say it to YOU yet.. but when YOU see me inside the Truck.. which the Mail man would drive to take me where you are.. I just want you to know that it is Me.. whose been longing for YOU.. whose been waiting on the Other side.. by my mail Box I would be waiting for the Truck.. for the mail man to stop by on my block as I would wait by the mail Box.. just to give you a Letter putting inside on the envelope so that He can take it to YOU.. but this Night.. I know that I must go.. I must go with the Mail man.. be inside his Truck and I want to deliver the Message in this Bottle.. I want to surprise you.. so that YOU will remember that it is I who is loving YOU.. not to scare YOU but to show YOU that all this Time.. YOU would only think of the Truck.. the mail man who was inside the truck.. and he was the One who gave you the envelope with the Letter that I wrote inside to YOU.. but please.. forgive me when I show Up on this very night.. I must go and see How you are doing.. I must be there to give YOU this Bottle.. inside the Bottle is a Letter that I have written for you.. when YOU see me inside the Truck.. don't think that I am a stranger to YOU because It is me.. it was me all along who gave you the Letters.. inside on this envelope.. after a while.. you are only seeing the Truck passing through and it stops at the Mail Box.. just to give you the envelope.. that is all you see back and forth.. but How about me.. how about the person who sits in this ROOM.. who is the One pulls Out the Clean sheet of paper.. who would be holding a pen or the pencil and who thinks of YOU.. YOU do not see me because I am always behind the scene.. you may think that Am I afraid of YOU.. am I scared to show UP.. you may be thinking maybe it is the truck.. or the mail man being friendly to YOU.. and He would smile inside the Truck as he gives you this envelope.. I know when YOU receive the envelope and once you open the envelope inside is the Letter.. but Do you see my Face.. do you even think of my Name there.. do you know who is the One who is telling you all these things.. expressing Heart to Heart.. when I sit in the ROOM.. by the desk.. I am thinking of YOU.. constantly thinking of YOU.. looking at the new Picture.. my Heart is crying inside for Love.. I am crying in my Heart for Love too.. but it seems like after awhile you begin to forget.. you forget because YOU are looking at some one else but How about Me.. do you know who is the One who be really loving YOU.. all this time.. who is the One putting every thing In and Out.. and telling you how I feel.. I do not want YOU to forget about me.. I am putting into so much work here.. you know that it is not easy to tell YOU all these things.. and it breaks my Heart when YOU forget the face.. forget the person who has a Name.. who is the One loves YOU the Most.. who be missing YOU and thinking of you constantly.. what will happen when a Day Comes.. the Truck stops on your Mail Box.. and you are starting to forget the Man who loves YOU the Most.. and you stand there looking.. the mail man looks at you and says.. there is No envelope today.. and the Truck keeps on coming to your mail Box.. and every time YOU stand there.. the mail man tells you the same thing.. there is NO Letter today.. there is NO envelope.. and I know if you start to forget the One who loves YOU the Most.. I also can be the one to delay the Letters.. because I feel like YOU are forgetting the Face.. the name and the man who loves YOU the Most.. as I would look at the Empty Bottle.. and I would roll up the Letter I have written for YOU.. I do not want YOU to forget me.. because YOU know how much I love YOU.. have been loving you just too Long.. but also I know that I must Man UP.. I must tell you that I am still here.. and that I am going Nowhere but waiting patiently till you are truly ready for Me.. I want to get close when YOU are ready so that I can Love you fully.. and able to speak to YOUR ears.. and tell your ears.. looking at your Heart.. that all this time.. I want your Heart.. I want your Heart to know that I love YOU.. and Now.. sitting by the Window.. I put the Letter inside the Bottle.. and looking out the window.. and just waiting for the Time.. the arrival for the Mail Man in his Truck to stop at the Mail Box.. I been taking few shots on this shot glass.. and it has emptied the Bottle.. I wrote this very night telling you that I missed YOU.. and I just don't want you to forget about Me.. because it is I who loves you the Most.. I would get UP from the chair.. holding in my hand is the Bottle inside is the Letter.. and I would walk Out of the ROOM.. and going to the front Door.. I open and I close behind me.. I am looking at the Mail Box.. and I know that the truck be arriving very soon.. so I would walk down to the Mail Box.. waiting for the truck to come.. and as I am waiting for the Truck.. I see the Lights and I turn to look.. I see the Truck Coming and the Truck stops by the Mail box.. the mail man looks at me and smiles.. and I ask HIM.. can YOU please take me to where YOU are.. and I show him the Bottle.. and inside is the Letter I wrote to YOU.. and the mail Man was kind and telling me to come inside the truck and to stand by the steps.. as I would stand there.. and the truck would be driving.. and the Mail man drives to a Mail Box and he stops the Truck.. and as I am standing there.. I see you on the Other side.. YOU are standing by the front Door and I am standing on the steps and I see your Mail Box.. as I am looking towards the front Door.. I see you looking at me.. I do not know what it is but my Heart.. can YOU hear my Heart beating.. It would not stop beating as I am looking at YOU
Else is doing so.. That is why I had to tell myself and to have courage to tell YOU this very Night.. I wanted to surprise YOU.. so that the Impact of Your Heart you feel inside.. it has meaning of what I am doing today.. that is to tell YOU that it is me who is the One loving YOU.. some times when a person do not show UP.. you think of it is some one else but the truth is to be told that is it ME.. who is the One loving you the Most.. I just wanted to come out this very night to make a clear statement.. that I do not forget the One who I love.. and I wanted to see YOU face to face.. to see you in person so that YOU would remember.. that there is someone like Me who has been loving YOU.. and I would look at your Mail Box and I would open and I would place the Bottle.. inside is the Letter and I put into your mail Box and closed the Door.. and I see you just looking at me.. and the mail man would start his Truck and it would leave your mail Box.. as he was driving the Truck.. I feel like my Heart has lightened.. I feel like a burden Off my shoulders because of telling YOU.. face to face and in person to person letting YOU know who is the One writing you these Letters.. so that I know when you receive these Letters.. YOU can think of me Too.. that YOU can think of a face.. and that face is a person who has a Name.. that my name can be placed in your Heart.. can I write my Name inside your Heart so that whenever you receive a Letter from YOU.. that YOU will never forget and know who I am telling you all these things to YOU.. I don't want you to be confused because I am only One person.. Only One man.. who has a Heart and can express this Heart of Mine to YOU because all I ever wanted to share is this.. that I love YOU.. that there is going to be NO OTHER man like myself.. who can give YOU something very simple but has a meaning behind every time I think of YOU to give you letters.. OH PLEASE help me so that YOU don't forget me.. I am giving YOU my Heart and my Love to YOU.. the Only thing that I can do and can be good at in the Long run.. as the Truck stops by the Mail Box.. I get off the steps and I turn to look at the mail man and I thank him for his service by taking me to your mail Box.. and he looks at me.. and smiles.. I see the truck leaves the mail Box and I would look UP at the MOON.. why can't I be there a little longer.. Now I feel it in my Heart that I am Now missing YOU more.. was it a wise choice for me showing UP.. and looking at you from the distance.. seeing YOU eye to eye.. and able to tell YOU how my Heart was heavy because I was feeling like you are forgetting all about me.. and YOU would wonder.. why do I think this way.. it is because there are times I would doubt what if YOU are Not seeing me the same Way.. you can see my Heart and how much I love YOU but.. what if YOU are not loving me in any way.. It is only going to Hurt me in pain because I do also want your Love.. I wish that I knew that I can be Loved by YOU.. so that I know we are in the same page together.. all I ever wanted is to give and tell YOU that I love you but also be loved by YOU too.. that is the Only One thing truly I need and want from YOU.. nothing more and nothing less.. just to be Loved by you because YOU already knows that I love you just too much.. but it is in my blood to just love you more and more.. that is the Only Good thing I can do.. just to share and tell you.. How much I love YOU..I am waiting for the Truck.. the Mail man in the truck.. I heard from the Mail Man that you told him that YOU are writing a Letter to Me.. I couldn't believe the respond that I am getting.. I thought that I would Never hear from YOU.. I been writing you a lot of Letters lately and has Been sending it Out.. Hoping that One Day.. that One day be some day SOON.. I been looking UP at the Moon.. asking if the MOON can hear me.. asking if YOU KNOW what is happening on the Other side where YOU at.. I would keep on asking that MOON.. do YOU see.. can YOU SEE.. but I never got any kind of response from the MOON.. until the MAIL MAN.. who came on the Truck and told me that HE has heard from YOU.. that YOU are writing something to Me.. I tried to sleep.. the Night I have received the Message from the Mail man.. who came on the truck stops by the Mail Box.. I was walking Out.. with the envelope in my Hand.. inside is the Letter I wrote to YOU again.. when I showed him.. the MAIL MAN the envelope and told him I wrote YOU a Letter.. I saw a smile on his face and tells me.. there is something that He needed to tell me which it was received from YOU.. and I asked him to tell me.. that YOU are writing a Letter.. a letter sharing to Me and I saw HIM taking the envelope I gave him inside is my Letter I wrote to YOU again.. It was a NIGHT I wanted to dance.. it was the Night I looked UP at the MOON.. I waved my hands looking at the MOON.. people who were walking passing by the Mail Box looks at me.. I am sure they are thinking I am a crazy person.. but I would say to them.. I don't care what they think of Me.. if you do NOT KNOW WHAT I am feeling and dealing this very Night.. I don't care.. and I would be walking back to the House.. trying to lay down on the Bed.. I am trying to sleep.. but My Heart.. my Mind.. I be thinking of YOU.. turning on my side and I am looking at the desk.. I am just picturing YOU sitting by the desk and with a Piece of paper.. with a Pen or Pencil.. I can envision YOU writing a Letter to Me.. so I would turn the Other way.. looking at the wall.. facing the Wall because I know.. if I look at the Desk.. I be thinking of YOU and I would not sleep at ALL.. but facing the wall.. and able to close my eyes.. I just could Not sleep.. I can feel my Heart beat pounding Hard.. this excitement all over my body keeps me UP and I would sit UP.. sitting on the bed.. I am looking at the wall.. I just can't sleep.. HOW am I suppose to sleep tonight but I needs to sleep to get a good rest for the Night.. but I would try to sleep.. laying on the bed.. turning side to side and sitting back UP again.. if I turn on the side towards the desk.. I be seeing you there so I rather Not see YOU through the vision.. I turn on the other side.. facing the Wall.. and I sit UP again.. maybe I needs to get something Off my Chest.. maybe I needs to speak to this wall.. things all always on my Mind about YOU.. I can't just let it sit there.. I needs to express and tell YOU.. More and more I express my Heart to tell YOU.. the More I needs to say something to let YOU KNOW.. let you know How much I love YOU.. so LOOKING at the wall.. I know that YOU are Unable to hear me on the Other side.. but I still needs to tell YOU why I just can't sleep tonight.. some nights I can sleep well.. but there are Nights I just can't when YOU are on my Mind.. when YOU sink into my Heart.. I just have to let it Out.. WHY.. I am Not sure why I needs to let it Out.. but it starts with I love YOU.. it starts with I love YOU and I miss YOU and I would say looking at this WALL.. I been waiting for YOU.. walking Out of this ROOM.. walking Out of this House.. I am looking at the Mail box.. before I go to the Mail box.. I would be looking at the Desk.. when I sit by the Desk I look at How many Papers I have left.. I needs to have plenty of papers because there are some I won't give it to YOU.. I have a trash can which it gets loaded with rolled UP balls of papers that goes into the waste because I can't put it into the envelop.. so I needs to look at the stacks of paper.. when It gets very low.. I go to the store to Buy More Papers so that I can write YOU MORE letters to send it out to you.. SINCE I am able to see the mail Man and he has became My friend who is helping me.. He tells me there is NO need to put stamp stickers.. HE is able to take the envelop.. the Letter direct to YOU.. so told me there is NO NEED to put any stamps.. I would smile.. and I would weep at the same time.. to able to write YOU a Letter.. something that I can endure.. something that I truly enjoy and Love.. a Passion that was given to me since the YOUTH.. I started to write when I was very Young.. so for a very Long time I loved to write and still do even more.. because now to share this True Joy and Passion and something that I really enjoy and love.. I can write you letters more than any other MEN can in this world.. ONE thing that I can tell YOU is that MONEY cannot By My Love.. cannot by what I am doing and what I am giving to YOU because it is because I really Love YOU.. YOU may not see it Now.. I am Not sure when YOU WILL see my Heart but I believe that ONE DAY.. SOME DAY YOU WILL SEE it.. the day YOU see my Heart of How much I love YOU is the day when YOU WILL see the MOON appear before YOU.. on the Night Your Heart will see it.. is the day YOU will realize because The MOON still be there LOOKING at YOU.. I may be gone.. I may be GONE far away.. when YOU DO see it is the day YOU will remember the Letters because I will Love you even after when I am GONE.. as I am looking at the wall in the ROOM.. I needs to see YOU.. I wish that YOU can see me.. see my Heart soon.. because the Day when YOU see me.. I be asking the Angels.. when I am gone.. can I be an Angel TOO.. an Angel who can still Love YOU after I am gone.. but I am always around.. that I am close to YOU this time to able to still Love YOU.. I may not be able to speak or write YOU Letters but I am able to appear before Your Eyes.. BY the time YOU do not receive the Letters.. and YOU know my real True Heart.. there is NO reason for you to receive Letters any more because by that TIME your Heart Knows who Loves YOU and I be able to come before you to tell YOU Not by Letters on Words but by being YOUR ANGEL.. An Angel who can always be there and An Angel who will always
Paper into the envelope Inside and I would run Out of the House.. the Mail Man in the truck tells me HE saw me in the room.. and saw me writing a Letter to YOU.. and knew I was running late.. so I came out.. running and catching a breathe and gave the envelop into his Hand.. He smiles and waves taking it to YOU.. I would watch as the Truck gets smaller.. tears in my eyes because the MAIL MAN was patient to wait for me when It was me who was late to give.. but He still waited knowing that I was coming OUT and giving YOU a Letter.. as I am Facing the Wall in the ROOM sitting on the top of the Bed.. and my tears fills UP my eyes.. I wish that YOU know my Heart.. sometimes am I being just too impatient with myself.. because YOU know that I love YOU.. I love you just too Much.. from here to the MOON I love YOU.. why can't you believe my Words.. why can't you believe me and see me the way I am.. why can't I just love you as I am.. Please tell me why I can't just love YOU as for Me.. and My hands rolls into two fist and pounds on the wall of this ROOM.. and shakes.. I really really needs YOUR eyes to open and Heart to open to see me that I love YOU.. My fear is this.. Only the day I come to YOU as an Angel.. DO I needs to Die for you to know My Heart.. the day I am gone and I been Out side.. at Night when the MOON Appears.. I been asking the MOON.. where is the Angels.. Please tell me are the Angels There with YOU.. Please let the Angels KNOW I have an request.. I want to Know if I can ask an Angel for something.. I been going Out at night when the Moon Appeared.. and kept on asking and begging and Bugging.. One Night an angel did Appear before Me.. and I would have the Picture of YOU in my Hand and I would have the Letter on the Other Hand and the Angel came to Me.. and I showed that Angel my Heart.. HE saw the Picture of YOU and saw the Letter and told the Angel.. my Wish.. My request.. and I asked the Angel.. I may Not be able to be with YOU when I am on this Body.. but I think it is when I am gone.. when I die and the Angel looks at me.. and I would tell the angel.. I been writing YOU a Letter.. and the Mail MAN came to take the Letters in the envelop and has been receiving the Letters.. if I can't be with YOU when I with this Body.. I think the Only way is when I am gone.. and the Angel looks at me and said.. But I said.. if I die.. can YOU Please give me two wings.. Can I be an Angel who can still Love YOU afterlife.. IF I can't be with YOU here on the earth with this Body.. and the Angel would say to me.. the Wish and the Request is granted.. and the Angel left away.. as I am in the ROOM.. Looking at this Wall.. I am able to smile still because I have been given this request that it does NOT matter about Now.. that I am thinking about Later.. and that I can still wait for YOU as long as I can live.. because as long as I live I am able to tell YOU through the Letters HOW much I love you and keep on writing on the Piece of Papers.. the Mail Man comes and smiles always being the friend who I never had knowing and understanding and can relate my Heart.. I give him Letters so that He can take it to YOU and I know that even though I may not see YOU now.. I can wait.. but what happens when I die.. my Heart is for YOU to Love Me.. I wish that YOU can love me too.. as much as I love YOU.. My whole request has been this simple.. to LOVE me back.. YOU do not have to love me as much as I love YOU but can think about loving me.. I am thinking thought.. How the Angel has agreed to this that HE will send me two wings the day I die.. I hope that YOU can see my Love when I die.. even though I want to see YOU see me Now.. but if YOU can't still see me Now loving YOU.. I must learn to wait.. I must learn to be patient with YOU but.. is it when I am gone you will know that I love YOU.. is it when YOU start to miss ME when I am gone.. the day I am gone and far off.. but it be the Most Glorious day when I receive the two Wings and can approach YOU closer.. When I come to you as Your Angel.. I am going to show YOU that I came to Fight on your behalf.. to Protect YOU and to defend YOU because I been loving YOU FOR such a Long time Now.. my wish is that I wish that YOU can see it Now.. and when it comes to be never.. it breaks my Heart because I been writing you Letters that I love you since the day One.. I have never stopped loving YOU.. but do I needs to be Your Angel for YOU to finally see my Heart of loving YOU.. I would look at this Wall and I would be crying.. It hurts.. It hurts because I needs to Die.. I needs to be gone.. but I still be loving YOU when I am gone.. but it be that I can't write you Letters when I become Your Angel.. when I do have two wings.. I know I can appear before your eyes.. and I will show YOU that I love you still.. but what If I can't speak to YOU.. if I can't tell you this Heart of Mine when I do become.. that is what I fear when it does Happen.. but as I am looking at the wall of the room.. wiping the tears of my eyes I turn to look at the desk and I get out of the bed going to the chair to sit by the desk.. and I sit.. the Piece of paper and pencil to write you another Letter of how much I love YOU.. I just wanted to say.. I love you and I miss YOU..I am waiting for the Moon to appear.. in my hands is a Letter I have written for YOU.. but I am waiting for an Angel.. Do you know that I believe in Angels and I would ask if the Angels could Come as I am asking for One to appear before my Eyes.. as I was sitting by the desk.. and I would write.. pulling the Piece of paper before me.. I would be looking at your Picture.. Only if YOU know my Heart.. trying to let YOU know How much I love YOU.. I been practicing writing on this Pieces of Papers.. I would even grab One Piece of paper.. walking to the Mirror in the rest Room.. I am Not a Person who can speak well in speech.. I may not be able to speak right with the Words when it comes face to face.. But I know that I needs to practice my Speech telling YOU and Letting YOU know How much I love YOU.. as I am in the rest Room.. I am Looking at myself the Mirror is in front of me.. I know that I can let YOU see the Letter.. but.. I am alone in this House.. so I would show UP.. looking at myself and trying to Picture YOU standing on the other side.. will I have the Boldness.. WILL I have the courage to Tell YOU what My Heart feels.. WILL you let me speak to YOU about How much I love YOU.. as I am looking at myself.. Looking at the Mirror.. Holding the Piece of paper.. and I would try to talk.. try to speak.. but my Words would Not come Out because I am Looking at Me instead.. but I know that I needs to practice.. practice more to speak to YOU.. to tell YOU.. to have the Guts and Courage.. but I am wondering will YOU even give me Your Ears to listen.. will YOU give me the attention that I need from YOU so that I am able to talk to YOU.. to get something Off my Chest.. letting YOU know what I am thinking.. to Let YOU know that I love YOU.. I would open my Mouth.. and I would start to read from the Letter.. and I would say to YOU.. even though YOU are not here.. But I am envisioning that YOU are here and able to listen to the Words I am telling YOU.. speaking to YOU.. I would say.. I can't get my Mind Off of YOU.. the More I try not to think of YOU.. it seems like it is getting More Harder.. I would take a Look.. and looking into the Picture.. that is the Only One thing I can do.. is to LOOK at you when I have your Picture in my hands.. it has been so hard lately.. because I been alone.. I been writing YOU Letters.. but How can this Letter ever reach YOU.. do YOU even know How much I love YOU.. will you let me tell YOU that I still do Love YOU.. WILL you open your Heart.. open your ears to let me talk.. to let me speak.. will I be nervous to tell YOU if I stand before YOU.. having the Courage to tell YOU.. then I would ask.. will you give me the time and the attention that I needs so that I can tell YOU from My Heart.. Lately.. I been walking to this Mirror.. and I know that One Day soon.. if I do Not practice Now speaking and sharing.. and talking while Looking at the Mirror.. I know that I will never get the chance to tell YOU or say to YOU because I know that WHEN I see YOU.. I want to be well prepared.. I want to be ready to Tell YOU that I have a Love story that Only YOU can hear.. that I can share to YOU.. would you give me Your Time and energy.. your attention is all I am asking for.. all I need so that I can tell YOU.. I been looking.. trying to speak.. because I am not well in speech.. but I do know how to write Many Letters now.. and the Best way.. fastest way for me to reach YOU is by giving YOU this Letter.. I can look at myself and holding UP the Piece of Paper in my hands.. and reading the Letters.. How long can I be doing this.. and I would ask.. How far can it go if only thing I do is read the Letters looking at myself at the Mirror in front of Me.. I would keep on trying.. after sitting down by the desk.. I would pull up the chair.. with the Pencil and write YOU a Letter.. letting YOU know there is so much going On my Mind.. burning inside of My Heart.. that I still Love YOU.. I would pick up the Picture.. taking a Look at YOU.. and always.. it brings me great Love and Joy and Inspires me to write and to tell YOU a Story that I love YOU.. the Only thing that I can do.. the Only thing I can bring out from My Heart.. and I go to face the Mirror.. and I look at myself.. I wish that It be YOU on the other side.. I want to tell YOU.. I want to read the Letter to YOU.. but I am only looking at myself and it breaks my Heart that I am only reading to myself.. But I want this Letter to reach YOU.. so that YOU know my Heart.. my longing has been growing.. missing YOU brings Hate in my Heart cause of the pain that comes with it.. I wish that YOU know
Looking at myself and just reading the letters.. it is NOT For me but for YOU.. so I have decided to change a New Way.. I would wait.. waiting until the SUN goes Down and asking for the MOON to come UP.. I would walk Out side.. and stand alone as I see the Night has approached.. I am holding the Letter In front of Me.. and I have heard that there are Angels WHO is able to listen to an OUT CRY of the Heart when YOU LOVE.. I would stand.. Open the Piece of Paper.. the Letter is in front of Me.. and I started to LOOK UP at the Moon.. but I am Not asking the MOON anything.. but an Angel.. if the Angel can hear me on this very night.. can the Angel be the One to do me a Favor.. I have One wish.. and It is very simple Wish.. to Hear the Heart of Mine crying for YOU.. I know if the Angel can hear the sobbing of my Heart.. my Tears of pains that comes from inside.. if the Angel can hear me and can feel sorry for Me because I am asking for the Angel to Give this Letter to YOU.. I can sit on the ground and weep.. sob in tears for many hours if I have too.. but if an Angel.. who is passing by through My direction and catches me in tears.. I know that the Angel can stop and Looks DOWN from the Sky wondering what is wrong with me.. and I can say to that Angel.. I am man who loves to write Love Story.. but it is a story of YOU.. story of how much I love YOU.. and that I am asking that Angel.. if He can do me a favor.. to give this Letter I have written to YOU.. to send the Message that I been here.. all along waiting for YOU.. if the angel asks.. I would tell that Angel.. I have even tried.. I even went to the rest room.. after I sat on the chair by the desk.. and I would show the angel the Picture of YOU.. and tell the Angel.. who YOU are and I would say to that Angel.. I would write with the pencil on the Piece of paper.. and I would get UP and go to the rest room.. and I would stand looking at the Mirror of myself and I would read the letter that I wrote to YOU.. I been doing that for a while.. but It seems like it has no Hope.. because I am only reading it to myself.. I want YOU to hear me.. hear my voice.. hear my words that I do speak.. I do talk and say.. share what is in my Heart.. but what good is ALL that when YOU can't even hear me.. if YOU just don't know or understand.. and I started to LOOK at myself on that Mirror.. in Pain.. what good is it if I am the Only One who knows it for myself.. so I have decided to walk Out.. and WHEN I saw the Moon.. if I love to stare at the MOON in the Night.. I am sure an Angel can also Love the Moon just like Me and can spend the Night looking at the MOON.. if I can be loud and Clear and if the Angel who is staring at the same MOON I am.. I know for sure.. the Angel can hear me Out.. hear my misery of NOT able to get the Letters to YOU.. Hear this Heart of Mine crying in the Night as I am staring at the MOON.. if the Angel sees Me.. with a Broken Heart and the Longing.. waiting for YOU.. waiting for your answer.. I am sure the Angel can look.. as I would walk Out side.. Not just Once.. but each Night.. two days.. four days.. ten days I am out.. holding the Letter.. and I am looking UP at the MOON.. open my mouth so that YOU can hear me Out Loud.. I am sure after many times of walking with the Letters.. the Angel can see that I am very serious.. I am Not asking Much but it is so simple.. to let YOU know my Heart.. to Let YOU know that I love YOU.. to Let YOU see the Heart of Mine.. that I am falling for YOU.. I need YOU and I need you to know that I love YOU.. that I be missing YOU.. DO you even know that.. can YOU SEE that.. and I know that One night.. with your Picture in my Hand.. and I be looking.. on the Other Hand is the Letter.. after I look at you through the Picture.. My Heart breaks into tears.. and I am missing YOU.. I will say why do I keep on missing YOU.. why must you be so far that it is so Hard for me to reach YOU.. why leave me like this stranded.. why let me die here just to Love YOU.. why do I must crumble and be hurt.. why be so miserable but at the same TIME the Joy to Love.. with this ache that leaves me this Pain.. it Hurts a lot sometimes because YOU are so Far away.. but I want YOU so Near.. so Close that my arms can wrap around YOU.. and to let YOU see the letters.. here is One that I written for YOU.. I know that I may not be good with speaking.. talking with good speech.. but I know that I can memorize the Letters that I have written for YOU.. to tell YOU a Story.. My Love story of How much I love YOU.. so that YOU can know forever that I love YOU.. as I am Looking UP.. Looking at the MOON.. I am holding the Letter.. and I open my Mouth and I read the Letter Loud.. I would say Out Loud.. do YOU hear Me.. can YOU Please hear me.. will YOU please listen to what I needs to say.. to tell YOU something that Keeps on coming from My Heart.. that I been coming Out here.. LOOKING at the Night.. I see the stars.. I see the Clouds and I see the Moon above me.. and I am waiting for an Angel.. I do truly believe that an Angel can hear me right Now.. and if an Angel who is passing by decides to stop and to listen.. I am sure that the Angel can come to my aide to Help me with this Letter.. so that this Letter can go to the right person which is YOU.. I want to say.. I been loving YOU.. I keep on telling YOU how much I love YOU.. but do you really believe in this Word that I am telling YOU.. I know that My Heart is Not mistaken.. but it is real because the Only thing I can do is tell YOU that I love YOU.. there is Nothing More I can say.. there is Nothing but the three Letter words I can tell YOU.. which is I LOVE YOU and I want YOU to know.. I want you to know this truth before I go.. because I know that One day SOON.. YOU will know for sure the truth.. that I do really Love YOU and meant it with my Words.. I been waiting for the Angel.. so that if the Angel appears before My eyes.. I can tell that Angel.. and show the Picture of YOU.. and the Angel is going to get it.. will understand it.. the problem is this.. what if this Angel comes and sees YOUR picture and also that Angel falls in love with YOU.. even with the distance and miles away.. I love YOU.. even with not spending time.. and knowing YOU in face to face.. I just love YOU as your are.. I don't need to be in your Presence or be with YOU as in face to face in person to Love YOU.. even with this Miles separated between US.. I just Love YOU just the way YOU are.. if YOU don't believe me.. I know that when the Angel shows UP with my Letters In the hands and gives to YOU.. and when the Angel holds the Picture of YOU and shows YOU.. I believe by that time YOU will know that I love YOU.. I don't needs to be there to Love YOU.. because it is all about Just Loving you First.. when I love YOU.. YOU will know what a Love means in a time when I can't love YOU anymore.. I am Not sure How long I will live.. but as long as I am alive.. I know that I still can love you.. breathing.. I know I can say to YOU that I really Love YOU..I am looking at the paper in front of me.. looking on the floor.. on the ground.. on the carpet floor.. few papers been rolled into balls.. I would try to write you a letter.. with the Pen.. and would make some mistakes and with the Pen.. there is NO eraser to erase.. so I would grab the Piece of paper.. when it has been made mistake while writing YOU a Letter.. I would roll into the Ball and it would Hit the carpet floor.. been struggling.. my Heart been struggling so Much.. I would look at the Cup.. pouring the Can of Beer.. and I would grab the Glass cup.. drinking the beer.. I can feel bubbly inside.. trying to erase YOU off my Mind.. but when I place a Piece of Paper in front of the desk.. I want to tell YOU something.. I want to write you something.. something that I needs to say that comes from My Heart.. that sinks in my Head.. and I can't just hold it in.. but Needs to tell YOU as I would write you this Letter.. when YOU been practicing for such a Long time writing.. and for a long time it becomes a part of YOU.. Like a lifestyle and changes into.. that is where I am at this Point when I would pull out a clean sheet of piece of Paper.. I know that the Truck is coming.. the Mail man.. with his truck.. He is coming to this Home.. to the Mail Box.. and I know that I am running out of time.. and I needs to put something.. Needs to tell YOU something on this Piece of Paper.. I received something from YOU.. an envelop.. a new Picture YOU put inside and I have Never seen this Picture before.. YOU are smiling.. Holding a Bear.. I am Not sure what kind of Bear is this.. do I call it the teddy Bear.. and My eyes.. I keep on looking at this new Picture.. YOU look so beautiful.. YOU look so Cute holding.. holding this small bear.. and it seems like YOU are trying to tell me something.. are YOU telling me that I am small like this Bear.. because I do not like that Small bear.. of course I am Not saying I am tall because I am Not.. but when I look at the new Picture of YOU.. holding that small bear.. it means that I wish that it be Me.. I want to hold the small bear.. and I want to hold YOU close in my arms too.. putting down that Small bear.. and to tell you that YOU are so Beautiful.. the Most Beautiful that I ever saw in my life.. that YOU are just too pretty.. just too beautiful.. even without holding that Small Bear.. just YOU in the Picture alone is enough to say.. YOU are so Beautiful.. there is NO reason to be holding that small bear.. and is this what I should Put.. should write.. to tell YOU on this Letter.. or should I say to YOU.. I been missing YOU so bad lately.. but this very Night.. I had to go into the kitchen and grab me a cold can of Beer.. and grabbed a glass cup.. Open the Cold Can of Beer and poured into the Glass cup and I would sit.. sit by the desk looking at the new Picture of YOU holding this Small Bear.. I would
