lost a friendship of six years, I feel horrible, especially because I knew it was ending, my best friend stopped talking to me often, started to play with other friends, i don't want to be depressed again and this shit actually hurts. I just want to make new friends
See the rain is nice but i dont really like getting wet. Wh- what in the world? No i- i went under the awning.. its still raining why is it still raining?.. i did what i was supposed to? Thats not fair...
To be honest idc if anyone even cares about melon playground anymore, it’s just Soo much drama that I don’t have time for, any thing that feels right to me is wrong to others
This song had different meaning for me when I was with my one and only. I’m 22 and met the love of my life back when I was 16. Started dating steadily for 4 years. Enlisted into the military last year. She would write to me, send me polos. I had a week left in tech school and we’d been planning of her to fly down for graduation and have 2 months free to just relax. During an eval, I kept getting constant texts and missed calls from her friends, her mom, my mom, her sister, my brother. Nothing good. Long story short it’s worse than I could’ve ever imagined. I had lost her. One of her super old exes went crazy, broke into her apartment just before she was gonna leave for her mom’s house. Mfr beat her, killed her new 4 month old puppy Juno. She had 3 broken ribs, broken right arm, a collapsed lung, and bled out in the ER from internal bleeding. I stayed up for 3 days straight. I just couldn’t fall asleep. I still call her mom and sister everyday, but it never gets easier. I still feel forced to put on a smile even though it’s almost been a year but I can’t imagine moving on. She was perfect in every way. I miss her smile, her laugh, her beautiful eyes. I miss the normality of just relaxing and actually feeling happy. I’ve been feeling hollow since then. Just numb. I took to alcohol as a vice and am now 3 months sober at least. I knew she wouldn’t like what I was doing to my body. I don’t know if she would like what she saw now. I miss her so much I just feel like no-one can compare to her. New girls just want me for s*x, money, alcohol, or to hit my vape. They don’t really love me or treat me right but they’ll always call when they’re drunk. I’ve blocked them all, I only talk with friends and family. I’m going to AA meetings, but I didn’t realize how truly depressed I’ve been until recently. I’m glad to stop drinking but still feel like I accomplish nothing day to day. I’m not suicidal, I just want to feel happy again and I miss falling asleep with her wrapped around me. Sorry if it’s a lot I just needed to vent. Rest easy Jade, my StarDust 🥀
الحقيقه الذي يجب ان تدركها لتنضج هي ان ليس من الازم ان تجد معنى كثيف للحياه وعندما تبدئ تنظر للمواقف المحرجه هي مجرد اشياء عاديه ولا يوجد بها ما يحرج وعندما تدرك ان فشلك هو فشلك انت ونجاحك نجاحك انت وعندما لا تبدئ تهتم في الامور البسيطه اللتي كنت مهوس بها في الماضي وستنضج عندما لا تخجل ولم يعد يهمك نضره الناس وستنظر الى كل شي بشكل عادي ولا توجه صعوبه او خجل عندما تتكلم مع غريب ستنضج عندما لا تهتم للأشياء فقط تعيش الحياه وتبتعد عن المناقشات المتعصبه والذي ترفع ضغطك وعندما ترا خسارتك في اللعبه امر جدا عادي ولم يعد يغضبك مثل في الماضي ستنضج عندما تدرك ان كل شيئ عادي وطبيعي شتنضج عندما تبتعد عن كل الضوضاء وتعيش ببساطه
As a 23 year old that no longer wants to exist this songs helps me , I feel really sad, I am always overwhelmed with a weight of anxiety over me, my mental fortitude is diminished and I feel that my brain is going to explode, as I write this I don’t even know what to think, I have been writing a lot lately but idk anymore , I don’t know what to say or what to do so I can deal with my achiest and situation in life. I feel sad just an extreme amount of sadness, I am anxious about my job I just feel really down and out currently, living on your own and barley being able to pay rent really does take a toll on you , I think living in San Francisco of all places really do too this place is filled with beautiful scenery but tainted with mental illness everywhere it’s crazy man, I wanna go home I miss my family I feel like retreating into the arms of my mom
Curioso, como es que una simple musica instrumental, puede generar una sensación de Pensamiento 💭 profundo es raro como si fueran mil pensamientos pero ni jna sola palabra.
