You ok bro? You're not weak, that is what they need you to believe. Three years, I haven't seen my angel, because I showed weakness, in asking for help, I asked the wrong people, those closest to me tore me to shreds, talk to someone impartial, sounds like you are being made to feel weak by those who seek to gain from your vulnerability, I guess family and friends, that was my experience. You are a strong person for accepting you have issues, the right people will help you.

@@thestartofsomethinggood I'm getting by in life, but I'm not thriving... my family has done what they can, friends listen and give advice but at the end of the day I just can't seem to put it down. I went three months to the day clean off of coke, and it seemed like the only one counting the days was me. Everyone has an opinion when you're doing it, but when you get better, you celebrate that by yourself. So I said fuck it, who cares... I still struggle with it tho, can't decide if I wanna clean up my life again or not Thank you for your comment tho... What's the story behind your angel, if you don't mind me asking?

Dude, ,you proved to yourself that you could do it, they had taken time to put you down, they don't have the time to pick you up, that would require empathy, constructive criticism is useful, criticism is based on ones own problems, projection, or jealousy, they are just not nice people, only see the bad in folk to hide their own insecurities. Either that or they have motivation to destroy others. I was happy, she caused a massive row, after being distant since Alice's birthday. Monday morning she left, nothing all week, Friday arrested, apparently I had sent a load of sick death threats to her, during that week, from my mother's phone , who I had not seen in months as her partner has Crohn's and was shielding. Apr 2021, I was nfa'd/no further action, aat the first bail report, ? ain't sure never been in trouble , ji looked at them with solicitor, for a sec I thought myself I had sent them, saw the dates. My mother insists to this day she sent them, not my identical twin brother who attacked me with a hammer , when I was thrown out of 350k house, to come to my mothers, lost everything, I told him couldn't live with drug farm, after arrest,respect for.mom, the cunt went around every pub and put in Facebook, all my mates, I tried to kill him, mates all abandoned me, my father, stepmother, sister her bloke and daughter, alices best friend 😢 for.18 maths. I have seen 'my' daughter once in three years, given no reason, I have refused to allow them to let Alice think what that snake has said is true. Mate, been in out hospital and police station since, given final warning, went Greece, mother got house there, last year, 3 months,ade.friemds, met beautiful girl, I was happy, like I always was, they were still awful, 3 months back around them, back on the shit, lost my girl, she was incredible, and feeling suicidal again, not missed a days work. Sleep an hour a night, if a all, p9 of the danger every night, 2 litres cider for brekkie, at work, drink, roofing? 4-6 litres and 3.5 of mother nature's finest for evening meal, if I eat once a week, it's not much, terrible chest pains, mate had enough tonight. Just been on phone to po po, for an hour, requested the texts my mother sent, apparently, refused at first, told story, then waited till the end to say I had a twin brother, was almost certain he was Alice's father, not only have I not spoken to ex or 'my' daughter, I have no idea where my brother is, neither do any of.my family. They hated each other apparently, he never saw Alice, 2 months after he tried to kill me and died to all, he was sitting on her bike massive grin, on the bike I grafted to buy her for Xmas. That bitch has fucked me over financially, I have live an absolute nightmare for three years, I have done nothing, for fear of.implicating a loved one, ex, I know I was being spiked, they have made.me look like scum and broadcast it everywhere in the small town where I live to everyone I knew but that rat didn't, who I worked with, humiliated me, and are doing their best to keep it up? That is just the tip of the iceberg, truly disturbing. War and peace 2, lol. Think just going Greece for summer, get a job at sea, friend has a boat, at sea because of Brexit ffs

4 am Tuesday morning, been seasoning on me today since 5pm yesterday, just had stinger, a fat stick, zoah, and opened a fresh two litre bottle of cider, work at 730, I got to get away man, I won't make it until Xmas,the plan, I don't think I fave another one alone, isolated, that bitch chose to use the Sainsbury's 100 yds away from me 10 mins before closing, Xmas eve , just gone, obviously I would be there before closing, blanked me with aice? I came close to just calling it quits. It's not my problem though, they are doing everything to make it look that way, Xmas? be lucky to make it morning, this may well be my swan song. Nil desperandum caburundum

It IS a masterpiece! it speaks to us in every aspect of life!!! SO I DO AGREE!!