I miss my dad’s best friend. Sometimes at night, I catch myself crying about him. I miss him so much. I really wish he was still here, so he could watch me grow up, to watch me progress. I was hoping he could watch me when i started high school but he isn’t here. I miss you, Shep. I love you so much. I hope you’re doing okay up in heaven, just know you mean so much to me. 💗
I have spent so much time over the last year remembering beautiful and wonderful moments from my past and wishing I could either create moments like that in my life now with the people I love, or go back in time and live those moments again. But since I realize that both those things are equally impossible, tonight I found myself wishing for something different and much darker: amnesia. I wish I didn't remember any of those moments at all, so that they would not haunt me and taunt me, the Universe laughing at how it gave me something miraculous for a little while, just to laugh at me yet again now.
My dad died last week on September 20, back when he was still alive I used to listen to this song and it reminded me of him. Now that he's actually gone, it reminds me of him for a whole different reason now. I feel guilty, I used to hate him when he was still here because of how treats my mother, I wasn't told that my mother doesn't mind him treating her different from how he treats his children. I didn't know that for them, the way they treat eachother is normal and okay, so I hated him for nothing and didn't even get to say sorry. I loved my father, I still do and I miss him so much. I regret how I acted so hostile and cold towards him, I regret how I couldn't see the things he sacrificed and worked hard for just to give his family a happy life. I promised him that I would give him the life he have always yearned for, he said that it's okay if I don't, he said that seeing us happy is enough for him. I couldn't thank him when he was still here, I don't know why the words won't come out of my lips. Never in my life have I told him that I love him, I don't know why I couldn't and I hate myself for that. I hope that my father passed knowing that I love him so much even though I didn't say it.
Lyrics Through your eyes I see A smile you bring to me To your joy, I tether Not a lot, just forever Intertwined, sewn together Like the rock bears the weather Not a lot, just forever My dog barks wildly To protect my infancy From my ex-believer And I try to calm the wolf To remind her I am both Still she tears at my sweater Not a lot, just forever Intertwined, sewn together As the wren sheds her feather Not a lot, just forever And your dearest fantasy Is to grow a baby in me I could be a good mother And I wanna be your wife So I hold you to my knife And I steal your letter Not a lot, just forever Intertwine some together As the rock bears the weather Not a lot, just forever So I bash around the house And the poison stains my mouth She comes, I let her And we share a paradise And I roll them once or twice Can't get much better Not a lot, just forever Intertwined, sewn together As the rock bears the weather Not a lot, just forever Not a lot, just forever Intertwined, sewn together As the wren bares her feathers Not a lot, just forever
all her songs bring me back to my childhood, but especially this one. It’s like i’m back in my childhood bedroom, in a run-down apartment, hiding from the fighting and arguments wishing I was anywhere else but there
ts makes me so sad. it makes me worry that my future s/o will feel this way (feeling like nothing, or just an object). i love your music adrianne lenker
Staring down the barrel of the hot sun Shining with the sheen of a shotgun (shotgun) Carol has a little if we need some Joa has a ride if we wanna come Hanging your jeans with a clothes pin Skin still wet, still on my skin Mango in your mouth, juice dripping Shoulder of your shirtsleeve slipping Christmas Eve with your mother and sis Don't wanna fight but your mother insists Dog's white teeth slice right into my fist Drive to the ER and they put me on risk Grocery store list, now you get this Unchecked calls and messages I don't wanna be the owner of your fantasy I just wanna be a part of your family And I don't wanna talk about anything I don't wanna talk about anything I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again Wanna witness your eyes looking I don't wanna talk about anyone I don't wanna talk about anyone I wanna sleep in your car while you're driving Lay on your lap when I'm crying Circle of pine and red oak Circle of moss and fire smoke Fan on the ceiling like a wheel spoke Push the clutch and I pull the choke Wanna listen to the sound of you blinking Wanna listen to your hands soothe Listen to your heart beating Listen to the way you move But I don't wanna talk about anything I don't wanna talk about anything I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again Wanna witness your eyes looking I don't wanna talk about anyone I don't wanna talk about anyone Wanna sleep in your car while you're driving Lay in your lap when I'm crying Weren't we the stars in Heaven? Weren't we the salt in the sea? Dragon in the new warm mountain Didn't you believe in me? Yeah, you held me the whole way through When I couldn't say the words like you I was scared, indigo, but I wanted to I was scared, indigo, but I wanted to And I don't wanna talk about anything I don't wanna talk about anything I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again Wanna witness your eyes looking I don't wanna talk about anyone I don't wanna talk about anyone I wanna sleep in your car while you're driving Lay in your lap when I'm crying (ooh)
Staring down the barrel of the hot sun Shining with the sheen of a shotgun (shotgun) Carol has a little if we need some Joa has a ride if we wanna come Hanging your jeans with a clothes pin Skin still wet, still on my skin Mango in your mouth, juice dripping Shoulder of your shirtsleeve slipping Christmas Eve with your mother and sis Don't wanna fight but your mother insists Dog's white teeth slice right into my fist Drive to the ER and they put me on risk Grocery store list, now you get this Unchecked calls and messages I don't wanna be the owner of your fantasy I just wanna be a part of your family And I don't wanna talk about anything I don't wanna talk about anything I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again Wanna witness your eyes looking I don't wanna talk about anyone I don't wanna talk about anyone I wanna sleep in your car while you're driving Lay on your lap when I'm crying Circle of pine and red oak Circle of moss and fire smoke Fan on the ceiling like a wheel spoke Push the clutch and I pull the choke Wanna listen to the sound of you blinking Wanna listen to your hands soothe Listen to your heart beating Listen to the way you move But I don't wanna talk about anything I don't wanna talk about anything I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again Wanna witness your eyes looking I don't wanna talk about anyone I don't wanna talk about anyone Wanna sleep in your car while you're driving Lay in your lap when I'm crying Weren't we the stars in Heaven? Weren't we the salt in the sea? Dragon in the new warm mountain Didn't you believe in me? Yeah, you held me the whole way through When I couldn't say the words like you I was scared, indigo, but I wanted to I was scared, indigo, but I wanted to And I don't wanna talk about anything I don't wanna talk about anything I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again Wanna witness your eyes looking I don't wanna talk about anyone I don't wanna talk about anyone I wanna sleep in your car while you're driving Lay in your lap when I'm crying (ooh)
The line "everything eats, and is esten" oddly enough makes me think of a line from a completely different song. "Hungry makes us human", it doesn't make much sense, but it makes me think of it and it has a meaning I can't quite grasp yet. Also, if you've ever watched the Silent Voice, this song reminds me of Shoko's sister. The way she would take pictures of carcasses or dead insects to drive her sister away from death, it reminds me of this. Again that's only through vague association, but still. This song is beautiful :)
this song makes me feel really sad. it mentions the fact “your dearest fantasy is to grow a baby in me”. its sad that i feel like thats what a mans emotions and desire is, to love someone only in a sexual way, and that women arent appreciated for their capability of love. it makes me scared for my future s/o, i would never want them to feel this way
If they feel that way, they’re likely not your soulmate anyway. I have faith that you’ll meet someone who will appreciate you in all the right forms 🤍 its what you deserve, and its what you’ll get.
I decided to give this a watch, because I’ve been hearing the song on TikTok and wanted to listen to the whole thing. I didn’t think I’d start crying, but when I heard my own name come out of your mouth, I started to tear up so bad. It really made me feel like you were popping out of the screen. Thank you.
guitar lines leading through 1:25 finishing and resolving around 1:35 is absolutely gorgeous. Our generations joni mitchell. Absolute diamond shes the jewel of the modern singer songwriter. Her ad michael Kiwanuka were best discoveries of 2015/17. Hadnt felt so enamored with anyone since Justin /Bon Iver
I’ve been learning this on guitar and trying to nail those little embellishments at the point you mention is so fucking hard! Hoping to get it down in the next week or so though
@@GuyWithGaming you have exquisite taste just in my opinion. I'm impressed that's your influence. I m obsessed with Julian Lage, metheny, Lenny breau so sounds like you have wonderful ear☺️🙌. Hate to talk more about myself lol but first concert of my life parents took me 7 ears old amnesty international I saw Tracy Chapman. 8:years old doing hair debut release with fast car, revolution etc that hit me like 20 lb rock got 7 year old 😁. Shes another singer songwriter tour de force !!! That first album . Give a. listen when comfortable. Nick cave in early 70s,is almost another knocked me out those arehelprs me get spiritual ☺️🤦 ...it's frwar though i cycle a lot and better have good nusic to put you in spiritual state. Cycling puts me on edge of budget ! Just kidding. 🥂 🎶 Lender uses dynamics like a composer at piano if must be so difficult. Time well spent my friend 😀 that at beach party will get people euphoric. If you ever feel comfortable I'd love to hear. I have two friends one in Wilco /Jeff tweedy esque style and he has tried symbol few others. Not finished article but it's still beautiful. Other is bill frisel inspired I got lucky with friends 🤗. Frisel is Lage, metheny level master imo.frisel does some Beatles albums just sol on guitar and miles stuff he's one on one type talent too. Beatles cover will make head spin lol so good and tasteful. Sorry to ramble. I'd love to and look forward to hearing it. Dave von rank another you might love folksy blues guitarist just one of one as well. Lenny breau of course too tragic story but chet Atkins wonder child . That's saying something 😂. Thyfor comment the names and pencils involved triggered me lol my apologies keep making soul food on that equipment 🤙🙌🎶🎵 appreciate your response ☺️🙌🤙
shadow shadow what a show every other step there’s a crossed-eyed crow,half return half return Minneapolis soft white snow 35 bridge hometown Half return,half return,standing in the yard dressed like a kid,house is white and the lawn is dead,the lawn is dead,IIIinois toll road,Indian plain,Roll the windows,shoot out the change,Half return,half return,honey in ur mouth when you gave me my name,tears in ur eyes when you pull it like a chain,half return,half return standing in the yard dressed like a kid,the house white and the lawn is dead,the lawn is dead,rusty swing set,plastic slide Push me up and down,take me for a ride,half return half return,standing in the yard dressed like a kid,the house is white and the lawn is dead,the lawn is dead.
I'm pretty sure that the lyrics don't mean it but "I could be a good mother. and i want to be your wife." literally described how I felt while dating a bi guy who wanted to have his own biological family. I always wondered if I wasn't showing to him that I AM a good person, that I know how to be sweet, how to be gentle, how to love.. but now I see that I couldn't never be enough, and the fact that he was 19 and I was 13 gives me a horrendous feeling of disgusting
