Every once in a while the restless, reptilian region if my brain wants to skip ahead to tense, but the fiber of my being says otherwise. Thank you bronson for the absolutely stupid level of love and enthusiasm and meticulously crafted, top of the class, state of the art, goats on the grass, and that's all fine and great, but im driven to wonder, if there is a collective consciousness, i would assume that like would compartmentalize with like. There is a particular energy i cant explain well, but i feel like i can touch it. Or them. Its not every edm act. An effective few seem to have a craft... or... resonance... part of the music but more than the sum of its parts, and either alone are transformative. Or maybe im crazy... its like energetic masonry. Afterwards i feel plum, straight and level. And loose and loving and nothing else, well a couple things do this but this is it. The music, but not the music if you catch my wandering drift.... peace and love when feasable.
I've been patient But I won't follow 'Cause I don't wanna be your friend Why does it matter in the end? I want a little bit of lightning No, I don't wanna be your friend 'Cause these feelings are violent This love's a heart attack This love's a heart attack This love's a heart attack See, I've been patient But I won't follow 'Cause I don't wanna be your friend Why does it matter if it ends? I want a little bit of lightning No, I don't wanna be your friend I want a little bit of lightning No, I don't wanna be your friend I want a little bit of lightning Why does it matter if it ends? But I don't wanna live in silence Why does it matter in the end? I want a little bit of lightning No, I don't wanna be your friend Because these feelings are violent Why does it matter in the end? This love's a heart attack This love's a heart attack This love's a heart attack This love's a heart attack This love's a heart attack And no, I won't go back (Yeah) This love's a heart attack (Oh) This love's a heart attack (Oh, you) Why does it matter anyway Why does it matter in the end? Why does it matter anyway Why does it matter in the end?
If your fortunately unfortunate enough to be in a relationship thats worth sticking with but still dont change the fact that even though you might belive you've got to the point of a brakethrough and things are moving on, then comes - looking at you like they've known you for the first time.
It all comes down for now, for now It all comes down for now, for now 'Cause I’ll call out for now, for now It all comes down for now, for now 'Cause I’ll call out for now, for now 'Cause I’ll call out for now, for now 'Cause I’ll call out for now, for now It all comes down for now, for now 'Cause I’ll call out for now, for now It all comes down for now, for now 'Cause I’ll call out It’s all your fault, I know it is Did all I could, to hold this It’s all your fault, I know it is Did all I could, to hold this It’s all your fault, I know it is Did all I could, to hold this It’s all your fault, I know it is Did all I could, to hold this 'Cause I’ll call out It’s all your fault, I know it is Did all I could, to hold this It all comes down It’s all your fault, I know it is Did all I could, to hold this 'Cause I’ll call out
He was my only friend and lover from 07/2022-03/2024. The only man i allowed to see me healing, and trusting with my violated body. Its tragic, but it needed to happen. How is there something wrong with me? When i am treated with dignity and respect i am like any other adult. When i am bullied, harassed, scared, attacked, stalked, i can survive but shouldn't have to live that way. And then to have a complete breakdown after being fired from repeated harassment and putting my foot down? When youre being raped yell fire because no one wants to help someone who is being raped. Yeah, constant flashbacks to being raped fucked up my ability to sleep properly. Flashbacks so severe they result in night sweats, chills, the inability to sleep a full night through, yelping when woken up, apparently sleep walking, and general exhaustion on top of dealing with whatever the fuck that shit was. It was the worst 2 years of my life because learning to live with trauma and being an adult was incredibly difficult. Casino nights allowed me to give myself grace and be in the moment. Katherine Marie Smith is the legal name for Katie Smith Weather Girl. Katie Smith Weather Girl was present next to you. Scarabs.
[Verse 1] Karma never used to move so fast, move so fast Now every second that you can't go back, your pulse reacts Dozen times you tried to bridge that gap, embrace your past Discouraged, you just keep running in place Hoping you can change all that, change all that [Chorus] 'Cause I know you've been losing sleep at night, at night Even though you say you're satisfied, you lied, you lied You say you're fine, but in your mind It's like you know me for the first time Seeing the signs, you realize It's like you know me for the first time [Verse 2] Scratch the surface but you're in too deep In too deep Paranoid you might admit defeat So you don't speak, no no Took a minute for yourself to see You're not lonely or damaged Girl, you're looking for release You know you can reach for me if you need [Chorus] 'Cause I know you've been losing sleep at night, at night Even though you say you're satisfied, you lied, lied You say you're fine, but in your mind It's like you know me for the first time Seeing the signs, you realize It's like you know me for the first time [Post-Chorus] It's like you know me for the first time It's like you know me for the first time [Outro] Oh-whoa
I come back to this video time efter time. Each time it's an other aspect that seems to be more important than all the others. Todays favorit is: what does it matter in the end... when I'm in an uppsving good mood it means: do it right from the start to the end, after a year or so its no longer important how your struggling engagement felt, its the result that counts. Something is still in the world and that something tells a story about you who participated in creating it.
