"What about me? Youll be okay, you'll be fine, but what about me?!" Hit me so hard. I dated an abusive fuckboy for over a year. It was on and off of him leaving me and getting with other girls, then running back to me claiming he loved and wanted me. I gave this boy everything, my heart, my time, my body, my happiness, my dignity, all for him to throw it all away. I felt so trapped, so lost. All I wanted back from him was to love me back the same and stay with me. I just wanted HIM. But when things finally eneded, all I could think about was how all this wasn't gonna affect him. He was just gonna move on within a week and never shed a single tear. To this day Im still healing while he has completey moved on and forgotten about me. I just wanted him to care. While I'm happier now and engaged, this shit still hurts every now and then
My first love, he was amazing. And I fucked everything up with him and had to learn to let him go, and then I found a guy and he seemed wonderful until I had my best friend dm me that they had been talking and that he was infact cheating on me because of a stupid reason. Then, I found another guy and he was amazing at first and I was like let me give love one last try and then we were fine and amazing one second and the next it all fell apart, we wouldn’t talk, chat, call, he’d ignore me for weeks and weeks and always found an excuse to get himself out of it and then I finally snapped and I just wouldn’t keep putting in effort that I wouldn’t receive back, so I made the better choice, I left, he was cheating and he wouldn’t leave because he made a “promise” and I stuck around for 2 months of hell and back and he didn’t even think of me one bit, he slowly lost that love for me and that’s okay, it happens. I really wish he would have just spoke up and told me his feelings, and not kept them inside and would have just reached out. I wanted it to work so bad, it destroyed me it made me think of love in a whole different perspective and maybe that’s for the better, or maybe it was my fault. But either way it happened, what I’m saying is, if your ever in a relationship where your going through anything I just described please don’t stay, don’t fight, don’t let them destroy you until your so beat down you cannot carry on anymore, don’t let them take advantage of you beautiful kind heart, learn your worth and learn how much you deserve, it’s never easy to leave I know but sometimes it just has to happen and that’s just better for you, so please I am asking, do not let yourself go through what I went through. It was really really hard and I don’t wish it on anybody, if you ever need anything though. Reply.
Damien Serrano, I’m staying right here, in your arms!! Best love does awaken the soul❤. Thank you for sending me this, n pick me, choose me and never stop loving Me!!!
Well now really when we go back into falling in love. And say, it's crazy. Falling. You see? We don't say "rising into love". There is in it, the idea of the fall. And it goes back, as a matter of fact, to extremely fundamental things. That there is always a curious tie at some point between the fall and the creation. Taking this ghastly risk is the condition of there being life. You see, for all life is an act of faith and an act of gamble. The moment you take a step, you do so on an act of faith because you don't really know that the floor's not going to give under your feet. The moment you take a journey, what an act of faith. The moment that you enter into any kind of human undertaking in relationship, what an act of faith. See, you've given yourself up. But this is the most powerful thing that can be done: surrender. See. And love is an act of surrender to another person. Total abandonment. I give myself to you. Take me. Do anything you like with me. See. So, that's quite mad because you see, it's letting things get out of control. All sensible people keep things in control. Watch it, watch it, watch it. Security? Vigilance Watch it. Police? Watch it. Guards? Watch it. Who's going to watch the guards? So, actually, therefore, the course of wisdom, what is really sensible, is to let go, is to commit oneself, to give oneself up and that's quite mad. So we come to the strange conclusion that in madness lies sanity. -alan watts
I hope you can see and read these words , ti her şev di her kesek nû di her nameyekê de heye , ban li min dike û xwe bi bîra min tîne , min xwest û hewil da ,bi salan te ji bîr bikim lê girane weke ku hezkirina te giran bû jibîrkirina te jî girana û talan, bi hêviya di xewnek winda û şevek bi ronî ez te bibînim lê vê carê bi hemî awayê hezkirinê ezê ji te hezbikim.. ♥️🫂
so im here again, grieving for someone for the second time. This time he's really totally out of my league. I first saw him in a livestream when he competed in a world chess championship in Yekaterinburg russia, at the time i was still grieving for the another love i lost so i wasn't fully paying attention to him. 2 years after that in 2023 i saw him again in the same livestream competing in the same world chess championship. At that moment i knew it was fate. It was like i was meant to be there at that right moment at the right time. So that year i decided i would start learning chess. I studied and trained hard i was happy. We had little interaction but ai was happy. I don't why the thought of him and his face during the game 5 of that championship was ingrained in my mind. May of this year we started to have engagements on social media, i even created a fan page for him. I opened up about my mental health issues and that i might not be able to support him for his incoming candidates tournament, he was kind, genuine and supportive of me getting help. So i did got some medications and told my therapist that i can hold on until his competition starts and ends. I cheered and supported him. We had little interactions on social media i was always the first one to congratulate and cheer him, boost his morale and keep his ego up, Even during the superchess weeks in Bucharest and in Zagreb, however i thought the fairytale would never end - i was wrong during his birthday after i gave him my birthday poem (mostly praises no sexual thingys or malicious/nasty things) he said in these exact words "Thank you very much" then blocked me it's been 3 weeks now since that and I'm ready to die alone. I really thought i'll he there when he become world chess champion.
I know he will never see this; we never were together it was never going to happen it wasn't his intention never was. His intentions were to use me, and I usually know when guys are, but he had me fooled the way he looked at me, the way he called me beautiful, the way he made me feel like me actually wanted to get to know me. It was all an act and he had me fooled. I believed him every word he said i thought he meant but i am such a fool because i was taught actions are louder than words and after time he showed me, he slowly started pushing away but i was so blinded i thought he was actually "busy". Goodbye M I'm letting go of you, you never cared about me, and it hurts but i can't settle for less than what i give anymore i deserve better.
Mark Sloan: ''if you love somone ,you tell theme,. Even if you're scared that it's not the right thing. Even if you're scared thet it'll cause you problems. You sai it, and you say it out loud. And then you go from there...."😭
I am so hopelessly and irretrievably in love with you my handsome man James C. All i want is only you. I love everything about you soooooo much. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ I will always love you till the end 🔚, till i take my last breath, my love James C. Amore ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I wish i never opened up to her.. 754 days of knowing her 267 days of opening up to her 90 days of being blocked by her.. You're my best friend till the end and beyond.🌌😞🫂
Does it always feel like u won't find anyone else like that ever again? Cause that feeling sucks and I can't get myself to let her go, even tho she's long gone
My hearts not hurting because of the one i love, my heart’s hurting because the one i love loved me enough to let me go.. Ive never felt this type of pain.. from talking everyday to not talking at all.. I’m truly heart broken and lost inside.. dont even know what to pray for..
So much has been written about love, the truth is that you are lifted by emotions and crushed by the truth. And nothing is the same after the disaster.
I loved her and i didn't tell her. I didn't think she loved me back. So i distanced myself from her because i didn't think i was good enough to be with her.. shes perfect in everyway.. and im a monster.. she asked me why i wasn't talking as much and i was honest with her.. she called me stupid. Because she was falling for me too.. now she's mad at me and won't talk to me... I was stupid..
