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I'm writing a letter to my ex while this came on. I know this is way to old for her to have actually made this but it just sounds so much like her and something she would say. Im writing a letter of apology because I was the bad guy in this situation and yet, here I am, crying. I know it's not her but I do wanna say something as if it was. Some things I'll leave out the letter. I'm so sorry I was gone for so long. I truly don't know why I did what I did and I hate how I ended things with you. You're worth fighting for and I gave up on us because of me and how idiotic I was. I went with her for a reason I can't even say because I don't even know. You're enough and what you did for me I'll never forgot. She had nothing you didn't have and i was just the biggest idiot ever and I'm so sorry. It took me so long to realize this and I'm sorry for that as well. I'm not asking to get back together or even to be friends, I'm just saying sorry for so much and thank you for everything you did for me. Especially the little things.
Why did she leave?? I need to know why did I do something? Did I say something? You made me so happy but now, now Your the reason I’m crying Even if we only talked for a few seconds it made my day What did I do TELL ME please
Really thought I was over crying about him. But the ending broke me. Why can’t we just stop the pain, or at least look like them- happy? Why does it hurt so damn bad..? I already knew it would happen but… i just miss him so much… I worked for that relationship for five years and he moved on after one. He looks so happy with others, as soon as he sees me he walks away. Tried as hard as he can to avoid me. He’s the only person on my mind and it hurts so bad… I just want to hold his hands one more time. Hold him in my arms, even if he doesn’t return the hug. Play with his hair..look into his beautiful, (what used to be) kind eyes. Kiss his lips one last time, before he just pretends like I never existed, through everything we went through together. All of the memories, the laughs, the little therapy sessions we’d give each other when we were upset. I just want to do it all one more time.. if I’d known it would have been the last time, I’d have held on to him tighter, kissed him longer, but I can’t… and.. it hurts… Sorry for anyone that read that- I’m a mess man 💀 Tryin my best though ig Just know everything WILL get better, even if it doesn’t seem like it. I promise.
I can relate to this as well I went through a bad break up we were happy we were expecting a child it was one of the hardest things I have had to do I lost my boyfriend and the family I was going to have I felt broken into pieces and he don’t talk to me at all like I am nothing 😭😭😭
he was my first love, ever in my entire life, and I was just 11 and he was 12. we met, we became friends, although we never spoke face to face, just via chats. At last, he knew mt feelings and we became official. He was to precious for me that I remembered all of those moments with him, every single one including the date. But, who knows what could happen in the future, so do I, was expecting our relag to be longer, but I was wrong. He was so good to me, that I couldn't find any faults he made, not even once. Because he was so kind hearted, we never faught and he always listen to my advice. But still, it's the END . I thought he would still hold onto hopes for our relay in the future, but again, i was wrong. It took you only 2 months to be with her, the one who replaced me from your heart. WHY? WHY? Why 2 moths? Is it our relay was nothing for you, it was meaningless until you could replace me in only 2 months when I have been liking you and waited for you for over 5 years ? The day I knew you were with her, my heart broke, in every single pieces you could've imagine. I was sad, I was down, and I was broken but I never regret meeting you, in fact I am thankfull for our relationship. I thankyou for allowing me to enter your heart for a brief, and I thankyou for being my first love. Dear you, if you could hear this, I just want you to know I never got mad at you, I was just broken but that was before. I hope today and future, you'll be blessed with happiness in your life. And I want you to know, I still assume you as my friend, and you will still and always have a special place deep inside my heart. Thankyou
You called me something that I can't even write here. I will remember it for the rest of my life. I have promised myself that I will never put myself in that situation again. I don't hate you. I don't value you. I should have known you before. So I accept this.
Shes the best person that i ever met, shes 1 in a million and I never wanted to fucking lose her. I never meant to fucking fuck her over, I never meant to fucking hurt her, piss her off, upset her or annoy her. Yes, I meant to get her back, but I never meant to hurt her by doing that. And I fucking hate myself because I completely fucked her over and I feel fucking horrible for the way I treated her. So now if I attempt to end myself and don't succeed I'll be In the goddamn fuckin hospital because I tried to fucking end myself because I felt bad fucking her over. I know I can't fucking force her to be with me, I know that. But now that I don't have her, I feel like I lost everything and I know it's my fault. My biggest regret in my life is fucking her over, I fucking hate that I did that. It kills me that I fucked her over. Things got incredibly dark for me. I couldn't stop myself from thinking about everything. I got so frustrated, as everyone I've talked to knows I've been struggling a lot. I know I've been acting out like a brainless child. I've just been severely depressed. My stomach has been a mess everyday, I'm exhausted and drained, my anxiety goes through the roof a lot, my emotions have been all over the place, I get massive headaches cause I keep thinking about everything, even bad shit that happened in my life that has nothing to do with her, a whole bunch of shit from my past. my nerves got fucked, I keep getting the feeling of wanting to hurt myself, I cry every goddamn day, get angry at myself everyday. She's in my head and I can't get her out, and I just can't take it anymore, so I'm absolutely done. I'm trapped on an emotional rollercoaster. Sometimes I feel like I'm finally over everything, then BOOM everything comes flooding back, hitting me like a truck going 500MPH I've been trying all kinds of ways to move on and different things to get better, no matter how hard or how long I try those things, they just didn't work. I know self care is a vital important piece to getting better...I've tried that too. I obviously need intensive inpatient therapy with the right therapist, but inpatient appointments apparently don't exist. I've tried reaching out to people on social media, I've tried talking to suicide hotlines, and therapists, no body is helping. I just couldn't handle the way things ended. I can't handle her being gone, I know I have to but I can't. I know, I really do know that I have to move on now, I've been trying my absolute hardest to. But I can't if I can't stop thinking of everything. I've tried distracting my thoughts, I've tried distancing myself from her, I've tried many forms of therapy, I've tried listening to music, I've tried playing video games. I've tried so many things but they just wouldn't work, and I know I have to keep trying until I find something that does work, but At this point I don't think anything will work. To my ex, I know there's no point in apologizing and there's no hope to get on her good side. She broke up with me because I couldn't talk to her in real life, and that broke my heart. she also said I made her feel like she was on a leash. I also broke my own heart because of all the shit I put her through. Pretty sure I broke hers. I'm still sorry for everything. I wanna get rid of myself. I became the monster I feared, I became the kind of person I hate, I became the absolute worst version of myself. i wasn't romantic with her, I said a bunch of horrible shit to her, i tried to expose her, I fucked her over, i became obsessed, i harrassed her, i had a victim mentality, i couldn't change, i made her struggle alot, i made things bad for her, i fucked her over even more, i fucked up her mental and physical health, i gaslighted her, i stalked her chat looking for her and made it dead, i made her scared of me, i tried to make everything better without realizing that was only causing more damage, i had people try and change her mind, i tried to keep being with her because i couldn't take no for an answer, i apologized many times without change, i relied on her for all my happiness, i made her life a living hell, i broke her trust, I kept pushing for something she didn't want, I disrespected her. And so much more, I failed as a human being and I'm sorry. I don't expect to be forgiven, nor do I think she should. If she wants to forgive me, that's fine. If she doesn't want to forgive me, that's fine too. I know I have to leave her alone, but honestly…I don't want to for one reason. Everyday, I wake up and I fear that she's gonna end herself. And I have no one and I mean absolutely NOBODY to let me know that she's okay. If I somehow found out she ended herself, that's gonna be on me cause I'm gonna end up blaming myself like I already do. I know I'm probably sounding hypocritical, but she probably wouldn't even care If i tried to end myself or wouldnt even care at all if I actually did. she is in a relationship, I know it's best i let her be happy. try and get her back as a friend, maybe. But I mean she's happy but she's annoyed with me trying to get her back when she has a partner. Maybe I need to show her I've changed, maybe I need to prove that I'm working to improve myself. If i work on myself and become happier and more confident as a person that'll probably improve not only her mood on this whole situation but also her over all view on me. I know if im better i'll seem strong for making such a big change in my life and improving myself. I know i gotta genuinely make myself happy, no matter what i say it can't change the past the best thing to do is change what i actually can. Yea, i know the future is never set in stone and no matter how shitty i might feel now it may not be the same case in a few months. But I've been dealing with this for over a year now. I know everyone deserves to be happy, I know and understand that I should let her be happy. I just wanna also be a special someone that makes her happy. I honestly wish I never fucked up in the first place, that way I could've still had her as my girl. I know me trying to get back with her upsets her, I don't mean to upset her. I NEVER wanted to fuck her over. I just wanna take care of her, help her and make her feel better and be happy. I know I gotta do that shit for myself too. I just want things to be fixed. I know I have to take her feelings into account too, and I do. I just feel like working through this and getting to a better place for both of us would be the right thing. Have a conversation, ask the right questions. And come to a conclusion where we're both happy with the outcome. And I know she probably doesn't wanna do that. And that makes me sad. Yea, I very well know I can't force her into this. I don't wanna force her, I just wanna know what it would really take for her to willingly come back on her own. I feel like a lost cause that can't be helped... I still love her and really miss her so badly...everyday... I wish I could make things better without making things worse. All I wanted to do was take care of her, help her, and make her happy. But I messed up too many times and in the worst possible way, and I hate myself. I can never forgive myself for that. Please...come back…
Thiis is so relatable I wish I could send this to my real dad but my mom took every way to contact him.... I miss him so much . He became my friend for the one month and a half we talked...😪
