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I have been living with depression for about 13 years, diagnosed with MDD for about 7 years, and will be talking to my psychiatrist on Tuesday about PDD. Since I met the criteria about 5 years ago I think I will see a change to my diagnosis, unfortunately there is not much else to try treatment wise. I haven’t gone a day in the last 5 years or so without suicidal thoughts. I keep looking for a solution or at least a reasonable treatment but no luck so far.
Thank you so much for this video!!!!! I have a loved one in my life that is going through depression due to life circumstances, coworkers, people in their life just constantly beating them down day after day and I could not figure out how to describe what they were going through until I found you and you checked off every single box!
Do you know how depressed I would be by removing one of the few things that bring me joy in my day? LOL. Alcohol also makes me beligerant/angry a lot more - I dont like how it makes me feel, that's also why I'm off it. Tried a glass of wine last month and hated the feeling - will stick to edibles for that sorta thing :P
@@MarcusRideout i get it, i really do, i used to love coffee but it used me into an anxiety spiral, i still drink the odd time but always have this thing in the back of my mind saying is it worth it. we do need something to look forward to though, you mentioned edibles, any advice?
@@retrosun1845 not much advice, just dont go for a big/high dose if just trying it out or it can be a bit extreme. It's legal where I live (Canada), so it's not that big of a deal like it can be in some places. If it's legal where you are, talk to people in the shop and I'm sure they can point you in a safe direction :D
Hi Marcus, how much do you take now? 100mg eradicates my anxiety but also negatively impacts my cognition and memory. Now moving down to 75mg. Have you had issues with cognition on Zoloft? Thanks.
I took Zoloft for almost a month and experienced the same sexual side effect that you did so I stopped taking it. I might resume taking it, but it’s now been almost a week and I still have the same problem. So I wanna see how long is it going to take?
I hear a lot of guys have success combining Zoloft+wellbutrin. Not a doctor - just sharing what I've read and tinkered with as well. It's helped make it so things werent as numb.
What I call "IDGAF" Mode. When it kicks in full mode, I just don't care. At 56, I went undiagnosed for 30 years. I just thought life was shitty for everyone. When zI was diagnosed, it was still Dysthymia. The Psychologist who was diagnosed me was the state of Florida's Psychologist who evaluated serisl killer Ted Bundy.
I resonated with all the symptoms you talked about, especially the feeling of hopelessness, it's not easy to live life having those feelings around, and it's hard to achieve anything because of it because you cannot find a reason for everything, having suicidal thoughts and you can't explain why when you're just a kid. By the way, I just got diagnosed with Dysthymia today, and I still feel stuck. I was shocked when I learned about it and I was having this since I was just a little kid. I still haven't got an email response for the medication treatment from my psych.
My wife recently asked me how I was feeling mentally and about my self esteem. I replied "I actually feel pretty good about myself.... but it's like 'so what. I don't care." I've since been diagnosed with dysthymia.
Ive got this. Its hell. Life is completely pountless and meanibgless. I spend most of my life in bed with the curtains drawn. It soothes me..I have no desire to do ANYTHING. People just dont understand. Pills make it worse. I drew the short straw.
Zoloft/sertraline changed my life period, I would never comment on things like this as I never told anyone the way I was….. to the point of any bad side effects I was willing to push through to try to keep on going …. Few bad side effects for 2weeks or so (racing thoughts / stomach pain) then after 3-4weeks don’t have that ‘weighted dread’ of day to day life , able to cope …. But I have suffered with emotional suppression which is not a bad thing I don’t think
@@MarcusRideout I wasn’t just ‘down’ before taking them , to the point any side effects I would happily take to just stop feeling life was worthless. I use to feel I was in the middle Of the ocean with weights on my feet fighting everyday to keep my head above water ….. since taking this it has released some of those weights so I no longer have to mentally fight to stay above water - will always suffer but your able to actually deal with life better and instead of seeing life in a dark colourless way , I can now see the true colours …. Best way I can describe it. I would never just take these for just feeling a bit down , for people in such a dark place from a career within the medical field this has changed my life from years and years of declining help.
@@MarcusRideout the feeling of treading water in the ocean where everyday you cannot keep your head above water … some weights have been released , that’s the only way I can describe what it’s done and changed my life, Able to wake up everyday and actually be able to process / smile and enjoy being here …. Any side effect i would be prepared to go through just to be able to keep on going in life. I wouldn’t ever just take meds due to feeling a bit down , noticing a massive difference from having no meaning to life and now I’m able to start to enjoy it. It’s been many years after being in the medical field that I’ve decided to reach for help , this has changed my life I would never comment on anything . But it’s made such an impact on My life that i felt the need to reply incase anyone else out there hasn’t reached out for help due to those who truly need the help keeping so quiet …. I’ve been quiet for 8+ years to getting near the end
I take maximum dose sertraline every day for past 15 years. I find this essential to counter my depression.I use several other 'natural' techniques every day which reverse my depression greatly, however these techniques only worked after I took antidepressants. In taking sertraline and with each increase in dosage I found after 8 days I would feel much worse like all my depression rose up to the surface and I was fully suffering it. After a few hours to a few weeks of suffering these awful depressive symptoms quickly faded out after which I felt much less depressed and consistently persistently good. For me, medication is the answer.
I think persistent depression very easily evolves to a treatment resistent depression. It is genuinely so annoying that I know nothing really works because there is not 1 concrete cause. I had some hope for rTMS, but it did nothing for me 😢. With my autism I feel like I will have to live with this depression, which is just depressing in itself.
@@youtubesingh3127 how long you been on it? I started at 50, got up to 100 when it was really bad, tapered down. Been on 50 for a while now and it seems to be a good spot.
Hey Marcus, thanks for making your videos they helped me when I started Sertraline. I have stayed on 25mg mostly but am looking to get off it because I have had weight gain, concentration issues and slight apathy. I also have hypothyroidism this was diagnosed before I started Sertraline though. How are you getting on? My main issue is anxiety.
@@danielbegg6968 doing well, honestly 😃 Still navigate life with depression, however I feel like I handle it better. Low thyroid (hypo? I always mix the two up).
Sorry to hear that. It does affect people differently, and is def something to be aware of. Hopefully you can see some light at the end of the tunnel if it’s not an option! Best of luck!
I think when the Doctors charge to higher doses the body reacts in a weird way. Thanks for sharing your experience with us. I was about to stop taking it without consulting my Doctor.
Thank you bro I’m new to this and have finally found that this is what was happening recently Same exact position and you helped me out make me know there’s others literally who feel exactly what I feel I appreciate that g
You’re welcome! I’m sorry to hear you’ve been living with it - it’s no fun. On the plus side, at least you know what it is you’re navigating and can live life in the know. It doesn’t make it easier, but it’s def something that allows us to give ourselves some more grace, knowing it’s “beyond our control”.
My first introduction to antidepressants was Zoloft and due to the nature of my anxiety disorders and OCD I required a higher dose, I was titrated up to 200 mg’s within a 8 week period and extremely treatment resistant. Around the 3 month my Dr augmented with high dose of BuSpar and within a month I reached full remission BUT bipolar type 2 was undetected at that time as I went in for treatment while in the throes of a very deep depression and I didn’t know I was also experiencing hypomanic thoughts. It actually took about 13 years before I was diagnosed with Bipolar type 2. I suffer from C-PTSD, Bipolar 2, OCD, GAD, ADHD, and Major Depression, also on the autism spectrum. One psychiatrist had me increase my Zoloft to 400 and it didn’t do shit for me. Over 13 med trials later, 70 rounds of TMS, 32 bilateral shocks, 1 month of Ketamine infusions and NOTHING. diagnosed as TRD/Refractory which spelled out zero hope left and soon to exit. Landed inpatient and out came the MAOI (Phenelzine/Nardil) after about one month Dr augmented with low dose Ritalin and by the 6th week in 90% remission with some breakthrough hypomania/anxiety. But very stable and able to resume life and live again. Global shortage hit for one year in 2020 and relapse was inevitable and dangerous as there was no known date for its return. I somehow managed to persevere but not without strong Active SI present 17 hours out of each day, I landed inpatient again but washout was derailed by my assigned psychiatrist that urged me to do a trial of a tricyclic which did lift me up and out within a 2 week period and was maintained for one week and everybody was calling me smiley and measures where being taken to discharge me until it suddenly stopped working and all the active SI returned as if it was just some cruel joke. Washout had to begin from scratch and I elected to leave even though I was no where near being safe from myself if not I was actually worse . I hung on to dear life while making daily visits to my exit location and once my washout was completed I resumed Phenelzine and within three weeks the agonizing torment of the severe anxiety and fear started to lift and by the 4th week I was nearly in full remission again. Hope was restored and SI vanished but remained as a traumatic memory which is the case to this day. I could benefit from a mood stabilizer but Trileptal and Lamictal give me a severe rash and I’ve shied away from lithium and depakote because of the side effects. I might reconsider doing another attempt with lithium just to see if it prevents me from having slips and some breakthrough anxiety and depression.
Thank you for doing these presentations on your journey through depression. Very helpful. I like how straight forward you are. And I like you that you talk about men and depression and how hard that is for so many of us to deal with depression. Men are notorious for not wanting to talk about their feelings or thinking they are weak if they do. I hope you plan to do more videos on this topic. You've mentioned you are an avid reader. Maybe do a video on books on depression that you've found helpful, those that were not.
Thanks for this video! I just read and enjoyed video selling formula and will try to implement some of the techniques next week in sales meetings. I also started antidepressants three years ago. I remember feeling like all the colors of the world were suddenly more vivid and saturated. It's crazy how depression will make your eyes see the world in muted colors. Happy to hear that it's working for you!
Heya Mathias! Glad to hear you enjoyed the book 😀 Hope it helps you close some deals. I def resonate with what you shared above. It’s wild how it can help stabilize things a bit more. Not perfect, but helps.
@@oussamamadrid963 it doesn’t make one happy, per se. Happiness is not dependant on a drug, if that makes sense. It levels things out in my brain, and makes the tough times more manageable. Happiness is something I work on outside of medication.
Really yes your family should support you, unfortunately ive been trying to reach out to my sister in law . She doesn't answer my text or phone calls at all not even to say hi. Its so disheartening. Im so messed up. I actually never needed medication. Unfortunately i took one that messed me up then another then Benzo, i so messed up. Im thinking of trying Zoloft . I guess i have nothing to lose.
Just started this medication, only on day 2 and having trouble sleeping and staying asleep. I am now changing the time of day to take it from evening to mid day to see if that helps. Thanks for the video, I really hope this one works for me too.
Hey thanks for sharing - though holy hell, sounds like a lot to navigate. What sort of things do you do with your psychologist weekly to keep on top of things?
This is very truly valuable information, thank you. But I’d like to ask, how long have you suffered from dhysthymia? Now I have been Suffering it since 2015 until now. At first I experienced Insomnia for a year, after that my mood started to decline. I have never been feeling happiness anymore since that time. I lost of interest of things that I ever enjoyed before like hearing music, playing games and etc. I felt just like gloomy everyday, my life was not happy but not sad either, it just flat. In 2023 I started to get to Psychiatrist, he prescribed medication a Setraline but not Zoloft Brand. He said if nothing change in a month after taking the setraline, he will change to another medicine. After a month has passed, there is no change of my mood, no progress of my Medication on my treatment, then I returned and take another kind of medicine. My question is should I take setraline for two months for the real result as you said, you felt better on day 57? Should I tell him to prescribe medication to me again a straline for 2 months? Or Zoloft is the best brand?
I don't believe there's a "best brand" - from what I've read everyone responds differently to medications. I'm not a psychiatrist, so I can't talk to his prescription logic. I just know it took me about 2 months to 'not notice' my brain was as messy. In order to get a diagnosis for Dysthymia you have to show symptoms for a minimum of two years. As for how long I've had it, man I don't know when it started, but when I received the diagnosis I felt like all of my 20s made so much more sense. I'm 38 now. Hope that helps.
Continue having a regular conversation with your health-care provider. I'm not sure how it works where you are, but in Canada where I am, I have to regularly see my doctor to get refills. It's not a one-size fits all, and I've heard it takes some folks trying a few different types to find something that works, Hope that helps! ~M
I have dysthymia and bipolar. Yes, maybe it's hard to believe? Tell me, is it possible? It is possible, but it requires a lot of talent, you must have talent and the conditions will complete the story. Sometimes I am ecstatic and the rest of the time I am uniformly depressed And this is a permanent and unending situation. Despite trying to live a normal life, I'm practically stuck, I can't stay in one job and be compatible. What's normal like? I have no idea what it's like. People who don't have physical or mental problems are the happiest people, even if they're not successful, you're happy because you always feel You are not miserable. And I haven't had this simple and ordinary happiness for years I miss sleeping one night and not having a dream I miss reading a book with concentration Missing to play an instrument and be able to concentrate I am surprised that someone asks me how I am, and when I say I am fine, I don't have a conflicting feeling inside Longing for one day less obsession I would like to say that a month passed and my pillow was not wet with tears I long for my mental to work better one day, and believe me, I tried my best for it and I am doing it But I don't see any particular result. This is an unequal war, an unending war. My shoulders are tired of bearing this situation and I am just continuing in vain because of mom and dad. Other people have no understanding of it and how alone I am. How alone I am in the midst of all this crowd. The feeling of being different from others bothers me a lot. By others, I mean the circle of normal people around me. Are you saying that there are many like you? I have not seen them around me. How unachieved I am And how much without experiencing normal things. Tired of enduring so many years of illness and tired of not being able to talk about my feelings. If you have a peaceful sleep You are fine during the day You can have fun even if you don't have the job you want You are lucky and you should be thankful every day. This is a gift that many people don't have and they have to work twice as hard to get it.
Yeh you are the 1st one I've watched on this thanks...I definitely always said I had the big 3 because of abuse...ptsd, anxiety, depression but suddenly today I realized that long term depression was the main one...so when I googled long term depression this came up...and after hearing your video -Bingo! You were describing my life also. Because actually now after almost recovering from divorce, and things are good- still feel down...so your video really helped pinpoint the problem and will talk to my Doctor. Thank you for helping me and others.
Wow nice to see a video about this condition it definitely resonated with me especially your description. I had this all my life till my 30s then had a depressive episode a psychiatrist diagnosed me with it i just felt relieved and after the meds kicked in i began to feel oh this is what normal ppl feel like like a dark cloud that was covering me whereever i go had lifted.
This actually made me cry with relief. I’ve been struggling to be happy and keep up a good mood for 6-7 years. I tried everything but I never felt like any of the labels like just “regular” depression. I have for months just these heavy suicidal thoughts and they just keep coming back but I never got any help for it. I just thought that I was moody or something since I was able to just keep on going. But I have had this constant feeling underlying even when I’m happy that life just is meaningless. Kinda like passive suicidal thoughts, I don’t really care if I live or die has been my motto for the past years even though I’m able to do things like school and socialize I always feel like I just struggle to do the basic things. Things like showering, it takes so much effort but I just have to keep doing it. That’s kinda like what my life has felt like for years. Like life is just too much effort for what it’s worth. But this video just made me feel very seen and I just felt like the final puzzle piece clicked. Thank you truly for this🙏🏻
Hi my partner was just diagnosed with this. Does anyone have advise on how I can help them they are in therapy and starting meds now. But I would really like advise on what I can do to help them through this
