This helps a little with my depression, im going back to my old school, that no one wanted to be my friend, my dad abandoned me, i get yeld at everyday, not even my girlfriend likes me ๐ฅฒ
My advice to you, push through, do your best to get through school. Because once you graduate everything is lifted off your shoulders.. for a month or two.. and than you realize that life feels meaningless. My actual advice to you is, while you are going through school focus on your mental health and passing. Thatโs it, trust me relationships in high school donโt work out ever, it always ends in heartbreak, most girls recover within a week and moved on, while a guy can end up missing it or grudging it for years. My point is focus on yourself and your family. Toxic or not. If you do not try the pain of regret will be far worse than what would happen if you fail. Goodluck out there brother, stay strong and keep your head up ๐
Lyrics: Sleazin' and teasin', I'm sittin' on him All of my diamonds are drippin' on him I met him at the bar, it was 12 or somethin' I ordered two more wines, 'cause tonight, I want him A little context if you care to listen I find myself in a shit position The man that I love sat me down last night And he told me that it's over, dumb decision And I don't wanna feel how my heart is rippin' In fact, I don't wanna feel, so I stick to sippin' And I'm out on the town with a simple mission In my little black dress, and this shit is sittin' Just a heart broke bitch, high heels, six inch In the back of the nightclub, sippin' champagne I don't trust any of these bitches I'm with In the back of the taxi, sniffin' cocaine Drunk calls, drunk texts, drunk tears, drunk sex I was lookin' for a man who was on the same page Now it's back to the intro, back to the bar To the Bentley, to the hotel, to my old ways 'Cause I don't wanna feel how I did last night I don't wanna feel how I did last night Doctor, doctor, anything, please Doctor, doctor, have mercy on me, take this pain away You're asking me my symptoms, doctor, I don't wanna feel Toke this joint how I'm blowin' this steam Back to my ways like 2019 Not 24 hours since my ex did dead it I got a new man on me, it's about to get sweaty Last night really was the cherry on the cake Been some dark days lately and I'm finding it cripplin' Excuse my state, I'm as high as your hopes That you'll make it to my bed, get me hot and sizzlin' If I take a step back to see the glass half full At least it's the Prada two-piece that I'm trippin' in And I'm already actin' like a dick, know what I mean? So you might as well stick it in Just a heart broke bitch, high heels, six inch In the back of the nightclub, sippin' champagne I don't trust any of these bitches I'm with In the back of the taxi, sniffin' cocaine Drunk calls, drunk texts, drunk tears, drunk sex I was lookin' for a man who was on the same page Now it's back to the intro, back to the bar To the Bentley, to the hotel, to my old ways 'Cause I don't wanna feel how I did last night I don't wanna feel how I did last night Doctor, doctor, anything, please Doctor, doctor, have mercy on me, take this pain away You're asking me my symptoms, doctor, I don't wanna feel, mm (what?) 'Cause I don't wanna feel like I felt last night I don't wanna feel like I felt last night Be at peace with the things you can't change (last night) I'll be naked when I leave and I was naked when I came, yeah Out of reach, out of touch, too numb, I don't feel no way Toast up, so what? Street small, but it go both ways So, you'll run, yeah, but you'll never escape Sunset in the maze (you're asking me my symptoms, doctor, I don't wanna feel) I don't wanna feel how I did last night I don't wanna feel how I did last night, oh Doctor, doctor, anything, please Doctor, doctor, have mercy on me You're asking me my symptoms, doctor, I don't wanna feel I don't wanna feel how I did last night I don't wanna feel how I did last night How I did, how I did, how I did last night Mm, lipstick smudged like modern art I don't know where the fuck I am or who's drivin' the fuckin' car Speedin' down the highway, sippin' Mixin' pills with the liquor 'cah fuck these feelings I left everyone I love on read (uh-huh) Spilling secrets to the stranger in my bed (uh-huh) I remember nothing, so there's nothing to regret (uh-huh) Other than this 4-4 kick drum poundin' in my head (mm)
I donโt know what you are talking I didnโt anything or do anything to you I m speechless I will donโt text anything more here I will do only comment about the songs without any ironic Cause I love music and I founded and listen good ones here I will be here for listening music and for taking you know where I saw some signs with London I will be there soon, it will be a pleasure for me , if someone wants take a coffee, a drink, dinner with me I write about this months I donโt want talk about that more , who wants read So I will be in good mood and not talking about that So it will be nice In cool way
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah (wooh) Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah - yeah, yeah Yeah, bebiendo y fumando, me siento increรญble. Me sentirรฉ aรบn mejor cuando estรฉs conmigo. Te mando un mensaje "ven", sin conversaciรณn. Te vas sin dudarlo. No, no, esto no es amor. No, esto no es amor, pero es mรกs que encaprichamiento. Sรฉ que hay muchos peces en el mar pero eso sรณlo significa que el ocรฉano estรก saturado, y. Estoy a tu voluntad. ยฟNo ves lo que me haces? Yeah, si esto pudiera matar, puedes leerme mi panegรญrico. *instrumental* Ahรญ voy otra vez, jugando con tu cabeza, jodiendo con todos tus sentidos. Tocรกndote y acariciando ese punto que desata tu humedad. Besรกndote en el cuello hasta que me suplicas que te coja ya, asรญ que te inmovilizo contra la cรณmoda y (joder). Hasta que tus piernas flaqueen y se entumezcan. Hasta que estรฉs tan mojada que corras por tu pierna mientras te corres. Lo lamo con mi lengua. Soy un monstruo cuando estoy borracho. Sรฉ que te follo como si te quisiera, nena, eso es sรณlo cuando estoy borracho. *instrumental*
me listening to this but from the perspective of a heartbroken daughter because my mum called me a burden and worthless last night - โi donโt wanna feel how i did last nightโ hits different knowing i went out last night and got sloshed so i can forget. i donโt wanna feel.. how i do inside.
im honestly feeling like this song at the moment :') been trying to find this man on the same page since EVER and im pretty sure it will never come. I really can't see a future where i get happy sentimentally. Ever since i've become an adult, Im sometimes afraid of getting stuck into a 'only work' loop, scared of loneliness and not being able to make it. This is just a personal vent on how things are going on at the moment and i hope, so badly for a different ending before i get to the ending point.
