My husband and I keep to ourselves and have little friends outside of ourselves. We work hard and own our property, we invest in it. Other people seem to judge us for what we have, but we put so much energy into it. Husband mentioned selling and retiring somewhere else because of how we are further removed from the community...but at the same time, the nature spirits and the energy of our house is so beautiful and we worked so hard to be where we are. It seems silly to me to throw that away due to not people "popular" or well received because of whatever reasons. Feel like it's a bit of a phase. I don't want to be that attached to a place per se...but I also don't want to give this up because of something I feel is trivial. I do wish we had some more authentic friends and people to socialize with.
Community is so important, and I totally understand being attached to a foundation that was built. I pray you find your tribe and peace in your decisions!❤️
❤ I can tell you are in your zone tonight! I remember this familiarity with a general you did earlier this year, when you were not feeling your best. The background music is hinting a turning point for your tarot channel.
This reading is 100% accurate and I’m dying inside and nobody is hearing, seeing or saying anything about it. As a child I was sexually abused by my 8 year older stepbrother then later on because of his daughter I was forced into being disowned by my biological parents. My dad sexually assaulted my stepbrothers daughter and I was the one who had to confront my parents about who was bringing the court ordered sexual assault charges against my dad. Long story from there but my 27 year marriage ended badly and I tried multiple times doing the suicide thing but I’m still here. There’s a ton more to this story that never ends. Thanks for making this post I really appreciate all your work to try and help people like me see what’s going on inside my head. I’ve done the therapy thing and that didn’t work at all. Long story but my ex wife was tied in with all of my doctors by her family and their family doctors they used. My ex fiancé also put me in a bad situation and I’ve been in hermit mode for almost 3 years now and I’m currently being asked to leave where I’m currently staying at.
💔🫂 I'm praying for you to find a safe space. Please believe in your ability to heal and do it for a living. Not many people (men especially) do this kind of work, but it saves lives and souls. ❤️
This hits 💥 How about realizing that over the past while I have been demonstrating the behavior I was raised around because I've been getting lazy and maybe closed off and seeing firsthand as an aware adult how fast it can destroy the life I'm trying to build. Great read, thank you. What deck are you using if you don't mind my asking?
OMG! It's like you are telling/ reading my life on youtube... Who are you??😂😂 Are you my guardian angel on this earth plane speaking/ telling my life story?😲 Its just WOW...there is NOTHING you've said that DOESN'T resonate... 13 years going solo just want to understand... you ARE spelling the T for me. THANK YOU THANK YOUUUU!🙏❤ It's craaaazy and yepp! SPOOKY as F***!🫢 Once more...th@nk you!❤🙏
People do conflate sex with love, now more than ever. It’s so streamlined. While I have a healthy sexual appetite, there has to be connection for ME to find it meaningful…the whole thing just creeps me out. Thanks for saying it’s not the whole world 🙏🏽
My dad, libra, mentally, emotionally, physically disconnected, stern figure, dismissive, unavailable emotionally. "The obedience mentor/punisher" My mother, Gemini, submissive, the, "he does this cause he loves you", more focused on finances, stability, the professional house wife and mother. Loving. Unconditional love. Dad's, dad, WW11 vet, airforce. Abuser to become a Jesus follower that changed to what I know a loving grandfather but when he passed away. I learned he was very different. Grand Master high priest 33rd degree Mason. Served the lodge until he passed. Dad's, mom, stay at home wife. Eastern star. After she then passed 6ms later from gpa, I learned she just watched my dad and 2 sisters get beat. One aunt is still very angry over this painful upbringing. My moms dad, Korean War vet. Drinker, cowboy, ramblin west coast charmer, handsome. Wrote bad checks to get his Cadillac then skip town. Was literally in folsom prison. Rode bareback bronc in prison rodeos. My moms, mother, the Cali sweetheart. Hopeless romantic. Strong but caved into loving my grandpa that was addicted to the fast lane. Drinkin bad wine. Hard shit back then she got Cirrhosis of the liver because when my grandpa drank, she drank just as hard. She had 4 boys, my mom. They lived out of cars, my mom dropped out of 8th grade to take care of her mother. In Cali met my dad at a friend's. My dad was air force. Now D.O.D. My dad got her, her GED, drivers license, a job on base in Cali as a Cashier. Now, she's a head accountant for the army and air force exchange service. My sis was treated more with verbal, emotional, and physical "lessons" I was the youngest. Observant. Clairvoyant. Hyper vigilant. I saw my mom as only wanting to be fully happy but stuck in karmic lessons. Which I am experiencing. My leo, first guy I really opened up to after a time of purging, shadow work, spiritually enlightened by devine movement in this connection to bring about seeing people now through a lens of authenticity. Their genuine soul self. I'm cancer sun, Scorpio moon, Pisces rising. I've grown into my boldness towards standing up for oneself. When a manly figure used to yell or show aggression. I'd lock up, get emotional, and buckle. Now, it's not personal. I've learned hurt people hurt. My projection of reality is to give love and see it's not the true individual wanting to act this way but conditioned into the facade/ mask. Also learning, I can unveil a mask. I can show someone their moon side. Cause I've sat in it. But all I can do is plant a seed. I yield upon spirit to lead them further. Right ear ringing, literally, just now. The leo, a reflection of my grandfather on my moms side. Drinker, impulsive, abandonment issues, wants a family atmosphere but noncommittal, split two faced literally can see in His current mugshot... Loving, caring, other side of face, resentful, pissed and its quite interesting. He got with me. I've been sober 7yrs now. Recommited towards relationship with God. Purged alot of bad influences out of my life. '15 I lost my boyfriend and best friend from a wreck that I was miraculously able to survive. '22 I gave this leo a chance after 3 yrs of him trying to get my number. To walk into a man divorced from a 15yr marriage. Both cheated. He went towards the swinger lifestyle. Coke. Alcohol. Had a 1st offense dui. Almost OD on coke. Through it all, I poured Jesus out to him. Warned him, he's going to end up dead, jail, or hurting someone else. Sept 20th last yr. After I ended it after multiple times telling him I'm not watching him kill himself. After I just went through losing my best friend and boyfriend in '15 wreckage. I get a call from Leo's boss, he was in a motorcycle wreck. Broke left femur, both ankles, right wrist shattered covering his skull. No helmet. He's lucky. His nurses name was Jesus. Same hospital he went to that I went to after my "15 wreck, my docs name was Dr miracle... No lie haha I stood with him through healing. Stayed with him. To find out during he wants only me, to quit coke, swinger lifestyle, drinking. Wants to attend my church. But, I found out he was still entertaining these "friends", I walked, he dropped it. He got rebaptized. Went to AA, small groups in church. Then, when he was able to get out n about. Went right back into temptation. Got his money from some inheritance, Got his 2nd offense dui after recently I kicked him back out of my house, driving on restricted license, drunk, operating his inheritance impala '68 model from his grandpa that passed away without a intoxalock device in it... Violating 1st offense dui probation rulings. Thing is right before his motorcycle wreck, when I left him that time, he came to my place drunk. Torn out a ceiling fan in my studio. Throw money he owed in my face, was getting violent so I called for help, law. So idk if this guy was gasing me up in some way to drop domestic assault down to vandalism which is what happened because he really didn't get physical..to be able to get out of felony charges. But one thing I'll say is devine is laying the karmic lessons down & unveil to him right now. He had a choice to get clean, but he walked right back to what devine was trying to walk him away from.. Now he is faces possibly 11, 29 months or 45 days in jail, revoked license of 2years. Fines out the ass, This actually was his last month from the 1st dui. He would of had his intoxalock taken out. Just started a new job. Got inheritance money that could of helped him get on his feet. His uncle, lost his life recently drinking and drugs at a casino. I thought that would of turned on a light bulb. But, here he is. And here I am, seeing my generational intervals. Saying, I've did my part, now it's up to God and the individual. Guess I can say I'm the generational curse or tradition breaker. Flexin these boss pass stages! Mario ain't got shit on meh! Haha
Yes my step dad was a monster ,he is passed on now but he totally messed my whole life's dream up.i thought once he passed that I'd feel better but no difference.when my mom passed ,my half brother and sister has nothing to do with me bc they don't believe me and all my life people have painted bad pictures of a monster that they claim is me ..that hurt but I had to see myself burying all that crap and walking away. So ..I do spend a lot of time alone and shut up in my home to keep from being hurt and used .go figure ..
I heard that 50% of all men are avoidant. And that is just those aware enough or willing enough to do the testing or answer the questions so it is probably higher. Then you have to think that another chunk is anxious and too clingy. -__- Is it us attracting this or is the stock in the pool in need of therapy and a better upbringing? ;) Thanks for the reading!
Most people could use therapy, but not everyone needs it. Not everyone is brought up badly. Secure Attachment is also a style. I think the trick is just understanding who we are and what we need enough to be honest with others to get it, and the ability to understand others the same way....but I'm also a crazy person. ❤️🫶
